ugly sobbing, punching my pillow and screaming to this

I love this. honestly your voice is so beautiful 

This is so beautiful ❤️ thank you. Needed this today

Lyrics:
I kinda hope the billionaires
Will stay in space
And I hope that I will finish
My degree
I look so much like my father
It’s like he hit copy and paste
And I stole my mother’s
Personality

I’ve been reading romance of late
Hoping I can scrounge some faith
But all that I’ve found is I’m alone
I should’ve known
That I’m prone to feeling strange
Up and down and out of place
I just want one thing
To call my own
Call my own

My little brother is three inches 
Taller than me
And he just knocks
Whenever I sing too loud
I think high school might’ve been
A fever dream
I’m so much better
That it’s over now

I can feel my morals sink in
Dig their claws under my skin
Whenever I fall prey
To jealous doubts
I know all about
Being prone to feeling strange
Up and down and out of place
I just want one thing
To call my own
Call my own

I never claimed to be an old sold
My wisdom comes in turn
And I think I’ve overthought
Every lesson I’ve ever learned
I keep my chin up
And my head down
I hope karma comes around
And I hope that I’ve done good enough
To be happy with how things turn out

I’ve been reading romance of late
Hoping I can scrounge some faith
But all that I’ve found is I’m alone
I should’ve known
That I’m prone to feeling strange
Up and down and out of place
I just want one thing
To call my own
Call my own

call my own (demo)

Lyrics:

If the trees are alive 
Then I guess I am too 
Feel the need to survive 
Looking for things to do 
Just to prove that I’m here and I was when I’m gone 
If the trees are alive then I wanna be one

If my soul is a fire 
My body’s a forest
The music is water
The void is a chorus
I hear when it calls me from under the blue
If my soul is a fire I wanna be cool 
All the trees are alive and I wish I were too

All my idols are just 
Two dimensional things
In my head on the wall 
in the light of my screen
And it’s lonely I know but I’m seeing it through
Oh my idol you’re dead and I want to be you

Oh I’m gonna get there someday
I can feel it the horizon drawing near
I wanna live to be
Taller than a sycamore
Burning brighter than a meteor
Dying like a distant star

Oh my love is a ghost and I guess I am too
Dreaming up visions of light breaking through
How it builds and it swells and the climax is you
I will live I will die I will make something new
I will live I will die I will put it to use

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The Trees Are Alive

Verse 1:
I could always do well in a classroom if you asked me to 
I'm good at doing what I'm told 
Tell me what you wanna hear and I'll repeat it back to you 
I've learned I'm easily controlled 
I'm moldable and malleable  
And that's what makes me valuable 
I give the people what they want  

Chorus:
So find me in your local toy store  
Promise you'll get what you pay for 
‘Cause I'm not really worth that much at all 
I'm just a rag doll 
I'm just a rag doll 
I'm just a rag doll  

Verse 2: 
I'll make you want me, make you happy if you need me to 
Whatever it takes to be loved 
And if it comes down to it hell I’ll even bleed for you
'Til i run right out of blood 
I'm the perfect toy to play with  
‘Cause i just wanna be your favorite 
So you know that I’ll give you whatever you want   

Chorus:
So find me in your local toy store  
Promise you'll get what you pay for 
‘Cause I'm not really worth that much at all 
I'm just a rag doll 
I'm just a rag doll 
Oh, I'm just a rag doll
Oh, I'm a rag doll    
I'm a rag doll    
I'm just a rag doll

rag doll

Verse 1:
I wanna scream ‘til I can't talk
I wanna draw on my old driveway with some chalk
I wanna head down to the playground and kick rocks
I wanna do everything my way kill the clocks

Chorus:
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
Time isn’t real and neither am I
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
You all can count until you die

Verse 2:
I wanna be someone I'm not
I want every inch of the old me just to rot
I wanna let somebody in break all the locks
I wanna do everything my way kill the clocks

Chorus:
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
Time isn’t real and neither am I
I never wear a watch
I wanna kill the clocks
You all can count until you die

Outro:
‘Til you die, ‘til you die, ‘til you die
You all can count until you die
You all tell nothing but the time
So you all can count until you die

kill the clocks

Verse 1:
He said “life’s a movie, baby, I'm just rolling with the punches,
And everybody acts like they’re the jury and the judges 
But they’re just extras and this film is on a budget 
Pay 'em no mind, you only live to a hundred if you’re lucky, if you’re lucky”
And I said “I’m not even trying to make it sixty
And if I’m being honest I barely made it past sixteen 
But I’ve been looking for someone to come along and fix me”

Pre-Chorus:
I just want a good time 
I just want a good high
I just want somebody for me to romanticize
I just want a good high
I just want a good high 
I just want a quick fix
Not for me to stick with
‘Cause none of the best things in life are permanent 
None of the best things in life are permanent 

Chorus:
All my favorite movies have an ending 
All my favorite movies have an ending 
So I think it’s a little condescending 
To tell me that everything will be okay
When it never stays that way
All my favorite movies have an ending 
All my favorite movies have an ending 
So I think it’s a little condescending 
To tell me that everything will be okay
When it never stays that way

all my favorite movies have an ending

Verse 1:
Tensions are high so I’m getting higher 
And watching all the forests turn to fire 
Just staring into the abyss
While clinging to a crucifix 
And praying about politics 
Welcome to the apocalypse 
Yeah it’s bleak
But hey at least it’s the end of the week

Chorus:
And maybe it’s cause I need a drink or a friend
But I kinda want the world to end
Or maybe it’s cause I’ve got no money to spend 
But I kinda want the world to end

Post-Chorus:
Yeah I kinda want the world to end and I’m not proud of it
But if it did I just wouldn’t be too mad about it
Oh, too mad about it 

Verse 2:
And they put us against each other so we don’t go for them
And they’ve been doing the same old thing since I can’t remember when
So there’s no point in trying to pretend
That I don’t want the world to end 

Chorus:
And maybe it’s cause I need a drink or a friend
But I kinda want the world to end
Or maybe it’s cause I’ve got no money to spend 
But I kinda want the world to end

Post-Chorus:
Yeah I kinda want the world to end and I’m not proud of it
But if it did I just wouldn’t be too mad about it
Oh, too mad about it

i kinda want the world to end (demo)

Chorus:
I can't seem to scare you away
I can't seem to scare you away

Verse:
I can't seem to scare you away
It’s almost as if you wanna stay
For all the wrong reasons
For all the wrong reasons
Got too many enemies
Addicted to anything 
I’m a hundred degrees and 
The number’s increasing 

Pre-Chorus:
When people come and go they all start to blend a bit 
But you showed up and that was the end of it
When people come and go they all start to blend a bit 
But you showed up and that was the end of it

Chorus:
I can't seem to scare you away
I can't seem to scare you away

Post-Chorus:
Oh, it’s too soon to say 
So I’ll keep you in my brain 
But I can’t even complain 
‘Cause I like you here
Yeah,  it’s too soon to say 
So I’ll keep you in my brain 
But I can’t even complain 
‘Cause I like you here

Bridge:
What do you love, what fucked you up, who are you now? 
Save me the sentences that you won’t say out loud
I would give anything just to figure you out
Figure you out
What do you hide, what makes you cry, what makes you mad? 
I'll keep the secrets that you wish you didn't have 
Hope it’s not bullshit when you look at me like that 
At me like that

Chorus:
‘Cause I can't seem to scare you away
No, I can't seem to scare you away

scare U away

Verse 1:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
Tell us all what’s happening 
‘Cause you try to play it cool 
But I can tell your broken up about
Shit that you can’t open up about 
You don’t know who’s safe to make sacred 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Verse 2:
What is it exactly 
Eating away at you?
The love made you happy 
Just not who you gave it to 
But I don’t think anyone’s good enough for you if I'm truthful 
So take it from me

Chorus:
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone
We all wanna worship someone who wants it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

Bridge:
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
Why do we do that?
We always fall for it 
We always fall for it 
But they’re all false prophets 
Yeah they’re all false prophets

false prophets

Verse 1:
I wanna solve you like a puzzle but I'm scared to put the pieces into place
I shouldn't treat you like a game
but I know you do me the same
I wanna crawl through every tunnel, every part of you that you don't wanna claim
Yeah all the shit you'd like to change
Want you to feel me in your veins

Chorus:
Is this what yearning feels like?
I think I'm learning you might
I think you might want me too, I think you might want me too

Verse 2:
It's delicate
Situation 
But if I'm telling it
Like it is, I wanna rush into it
It's delicate
Situation 
But if I'm telling it
like it is, I'm no saint
I wanna feel you in my veins
I know it sounds insane

Chorus:
Is this what yearning feels like?
I think I'm learning you might
I think you might want me too, I think you might want me too

u might want me 2

Verse 1:
You’re not what I wanted
You’re not what I need
I’m not your accomplice
I think you’re my enemy 
I didn’t feel it ‘til it was all that I felt
I didn’t know you ‘til I knew you way too well

Chorus:
You’ve got me picking at my scabs
You’ve got me scratching just to scratch
Now I’ve got all these cuts to cleanse 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

Verse 2:
Oh, it stings like a rash
And it burns like my ash
It’s like when the meds won’t kick in
And you feel your heart race quicken
Oh, it stings like a rash

Chorus:
You’ve got me picking at my scabs
You’ve got me scratching just to scratch
Now I’ve got all these cuts to cleanse 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

You’re not what I wanted
You’re not what I need
I’m not your accomplice
I think you’re my enemy 

Bridge:
You’re not the good guy 
If you think everyone should die 
In the end
You’re not the good guy 
If you tell the truth but would lie 
If you could do it again
If I could do it again
We would’ve just stayed friends 
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends
We should’ve just stayed friends

we should've just stayed friends

Immerse yourself in the raw and soul-stirring sounds of delta blues with our latest single, "Hymn of the Forsaken." This track captures the deep-rooted emotions and storytelling tradition of the delta blues, featuring haunting vocals and resonant banjo that echo the soul's deepest cries. Inspired by the timeless struggles and silent battles we all face, this song is a powerful reflection on disappointment and resilience in the face of life's harsh realities. Listen as "Hymn of the Forsaken" takes you on a journey through the heart of the Mississippi Delta, where each note is steeped in the rich history of blues music.

Hymn of the Forsaken (Single)

Hymn of the Forsaken

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