its always me vs everyone

produced by oddyssi obv + thank you swag for helping me understand serum
so obviously insp by zeke + kmoe  sorry



lyrics:
you always said to me
you never ever wanted me around
i dont think i have the guts to tell
you when im freaking out
when i leave and turn eighteen i wont be coming back at all
when i die before nineteen
i hope you hold regrets forever

its not the same
its not the same
i put my mind to paper
feel just like a fake
am i a fake?
am i a fake?
ive got no fuckin idea
wish i could explain it -

.
you always said to me
dont-
you always said to me-
why do you keep talking?
i dont even want to talk to me
why do you lie?
why do you-
why wont u tell me?

(say you wont) come back
to hold me down
you always said to me dont-
a a a
im upside down on the ceiling
i dont think i can feel it
why do u keep insisting
ill come back around

...
...
...

leave a trail of blood thts buried in the snow
falling in oblivion like every week
hurt myself in ways that you could never know
& i hurt myself more times than youve hurt me

...so what do you want?
i dont think i exist im just a part of your thought
and why cant anybody see me
...why cant anybody see me?

.
you always said to me
dont-
you always said to me-
why do you keep talking?
i dont even want to talk to me
why do you lie?
why do you-
why wont u tell me?

(say you wont) come back
to hold me down
you always said to me dont-
a a a
im upside down on the ceiling
i dont think i can feel it
why do u keep insisting
ill come back around

why did you

produced and mixed by me
mastered by AViT @avit69

Lyrics:

You have all I need
Yet I'd rather you save it for someone else (Don't blame me)
Because you know how it goes when you're with someone else and
You wouldn't tell me why the flowers turn away from us (I'm so ugly)
No friends to tell yet they wouldn't even know anyways
I still wake up in a pile of my blood
I still punch myself till I cannot feel (It's way too fake here)
I wanna go where nobody would ever stay near
Cause I'm dangerous (I'm dangеrous)

Nothing to cover your shoulders (Pleasе save me)
And liquid moving down our spine (I can't take it here)
Love the way you show it and the things I've heard but none of them came from mine (It's too cold here)

Mind on all the things you meant
And not a single heartbeat to beat what's left and
I'll let that someone live my life instead
Hope she doesn't care about finding me dead

Fuck being nice to myself I hate him more than anything and
I really hate looking like you do, I don't think I ever wanna see your bones move
I don't think I'd call me back
I wish I went through with all of those plans
There's just something bout having the chance that feels a lot better than this and that

The vines start to look my way and
They're sharper than they'll say
Still wouldn't tell me why the flowers turn away from us (I'm so ugly)
And I just wanted to run, found out all the fields were covered in blood

It's too late, promises were made
(Mind on all the things you meant
And not a single heartbeat to beat what's left
I'll let that someone live my life instead)

Just don't get close to the night I left

Cropped Spine

left all the writings at home
of all the words that you know
theyll make their way back here
dont ask me how i know
leaves feathered out
complimenting your reflection
distorted all
ebbing eyes unrecognizable
its almost there

feather

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[+production, vocals, mix + master by Maxine Faith Noelle]

+notes 
faith takes a trip back to her hometown, but leaves feeling alienated and alone due to conflicting opinions

I've been out here for what feels like years
I've been exchanging energy and matter
sorry I missed your call again
don't mean to ghost you, but I feel so alienated
I've been in this field for far too long
I feel like fucking giving up

I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(ill never see her face again)

and I know I have to give a little bit
I'm breaking fast so done I'm over it
don't leave me down that's the old me
just for what I can see
I'm not returning to the city

(I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again)


change your clothes and change your name
they still know you all the same
never knowing who to blame
its all your fault its in the game
I cut the shackles now I broke free
now I know you could've told me

BROKE FREE
now I know you could've told me
(how the fuck I'm feeling?)
cut the shackles now I broke free
now I know you could've told me

"where are you"
they all left me last year
I knew it wasn't what they wanted
I knew I had to get up
don't leave me down again
I knew it was what he wanted but
for me to be dead?
Is that what you wanted?
I'm so sick of doing everything for you and nothing for me
I'm fucking sick of it
I'm fucking tired
wake the fuck up
when are you gonna get a fucking grip
WAKE THE FUCK UP

I feel like a scarecrow!
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(ill never see her face again)
scarecrow
Cause I'm out in the field again
I feel like I should lay low!
never seeing her face again
(I feel like a-)

and I know I have to give a little bit
I'm breaking fast so done I'm over it
don't leave me down that's the old me
just for what I can see
I'm not returning to the city

feather

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