To preface this, I'd just like to say a few words. Trigger Warning.
 Thank you for spending time on my profile. I enjoy seeing how everything connects. And I'm loving sharing these tracks with you that I've wanted to share for absolutely years. I hope you're having nice weather, because I'm fucking not babes. Stay the course, keep out of trouble and hold your tongue until absolutely necessary, guys.
 I have been through severe trauma my family do not wish to understand or lack the skill to do so effectively. This is how I am processing my time spent with certain people who have done nothing but create an obstacle between me and myself. Feeding on pure confusion. I hate it. This is my time. I've had enough of being neglected by everyone. I want to live my life through myself, not through the careful self-management of myself through threat of force and standard. From someone else in authority! It's not the 70s dad, people can actually speak freely about themselves. Why can't I?

You know what you did to me Dad. And you Steve. I'm not having any discussion with either of you. This is it. Constantly winking at me, implying to me you Wanted me. And best believe it babe. I'm not happy in the slightest with at least 3 different people right now, including you. I'm now thinking I have to start taking people to court over what they've done to me. Criminal. This enters me into an environment I know nothing about, I have no-one but my mum to calm me down. And I keep Her calm. You'd think your uncle would know how to be a good little boy and listen to those around you. Instead of hearing yourself at that age, struggling with the notion I'm currently dealing with, then further distancing yourself from the point that which I am making. I have to be direct and say you don't know a thing about me. Still. And you probably never will.
 I have 50p and a lighter, and you think I'm here to make you feel Bad about yourself. Save yourself. And fucking Grow Up after you stop touching yourself. The way you looked at me, made feel like Fresh Meat. And you got scared by how I stared right through your beady fucking eyes. I was told you were shaking.
 I invited you to come sit down with us. Get down with the kids...

And you said days later, in the same discussion. Do you have any idea how much I wanted to punch you in the face after you said that? And I said No. You then went on to say that your loving wife had only just mentioned us exactly how I described us. You laughed. Not upset? Well... if you were my parent then.
My Uncle told me how my grandmother would have been distraught after the lunch we had with her. I was hungry. Hours later, we're sat down having a reasonable chat as you do. When out of nowhere, my uncle starts the whole Farquaad, scorning me for how I was "Behaving".

I'm sorry you don't like the way I hold my knife and fork, or like the way I eat the food I'd been waiting for and looking forward to. But I'd like to finish my meal.
I said that to you and you came over all well well well, grabbed my hips as if to say "Well Done for dissing me, stfu". I felt that. There was nothing normal about my interaction with you. I wanted to add to that by giving you my last fat wet kiss on your cheek. Why? You made it apparent to your own wife that you were looking at me as an object. So what ever I did after that, would only confirm to her that you are a lying deceitful abusive and coercive Arsewipe with no mind, no matter and certainly no heart. I had been assaulted to the point of blood on a man's finger and you act like that because you can't secure a fucking wife or future for yourself? Dump him.
Save the tears Steve. Save your Coke for tomorrow night when you actually need it. And Leave Her Alone. She saw what I saw. A man struggling against his own. You were high the entire time. You ever going to let that smile falter? This is it now. You fucking broke my heart. The one guy I wanted to have fun with. Wank yourself silly mate. Adios <3

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urbanstghetto strikes back with last part of 'WorldWideJuke'. 100%GHETTOBASS!
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>>> https://urbanstghetto.bandcamp.com/album/worldwidejuke-vol-3 <<<

Mastering by @33ghostcat
Artwork by @hyper-john

WorldWideJuke vol.3

ALL COMPILATION

Raw Takes - Hydra

42 - jakatta - american dream (joey negro club mix)

New Life is now available as an official download (also on Spotify).

https://www.beatport.com/release/little-i-ep/2332508

https://www.junodownload.com/products/fresh-low-little-i-ep/3811648-02/

New Life

Gusto - Disco's Revenge

Gerwin - Soul Truth (Bungle Remix)

Jones & Stephenson - The First Rebirth

this is my rendition of The Godfather Love Theme featuring the Friedlander violin by Embertone. Please note, this is NOT an official demo and I do not own any rights on the actual movie score!

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