Lyrics:

What do I know
What do you care
Here I go again
Obsessing I should say a prayer
Trying to articulate my first world fears
My selfish shame, full time career
I’m drowning in the lake i made wallowing in my tears
Of all of the mistakes I made the worst was thinking I was in the clear

It makes me so depressed every night when I look in the mirror 
Time after time repressing so much truth bc the lies are clearer 
Here comes the part I blame my broken heart on the one who’s still here
Tread lightly when you’re with me 
Cuz Once you are in the deep
The slope is slippery my dear
My dear

It’s only so long 
a matter of time 
Summers ending soon
I’m guessing he’ll tell me goodbye 
Maybe it will hurt maybe I’ll cry
Maybe i flirted with fate too many times
Here I am, once again
Functioning on low gear
But now I know to only say the things they
wanna hear

It makes me so depressed every night when I look in the mirror 
Time after time repressing so much truth bc the lies are clearer 
Here comes the part I blame my broken heart on the one who’s still here
Tread lightly when you’re with me 
Cuz Once you are in the deep
The slope is slippery my dear
My dear

I don’t need more I don’t need less
I just need different
Maybe we’re all suffering from
The same obstacles and hinderances
Why did you stay why am I still replying
How are our flowers not dying
If I put in one million percent
Will I start feeling resilience 

It makes me so depressed every night when I look in the mirror 
Time after time repressing so much truth bc the lies are clearer 
Here comes the part I blame my broken heart on the one who’s still here
Tread lightly when you’re with me 
Cuz Once you are in the deep
The slope is slippery my dear
My dear

My Dear

Lyrics:

February 2nd i thought you’d be better than this
You were supposed to make everything better like flipping on a switch 
I walk up the stairs with my books in tow 
I know my hair hasn’t been brushed since a week ago 
Maybe just maybe Manhattan will be different

So pick me up tell me I’m 
gonna be quite alright 
Lie to me for the thousandth time 
Winter’s been an ugly climb 
Sub par wishin for sublime 
Lie to me i’ll keep it inside  

February 2nd I still idealize you in my mind
illusions I had like fine wine
Thought they were obliged to get better in time
But turns out they were delusions
And now I’m spiraling down with the intrusion of regret 
are my dreams just bottom shelf flammable spirits I can’t transcend?

So pick me up tell me I’m 
gonna be quite alright 
Lie to me for the thousandth time 
Winter’s been an ugly climb 
Sub par wishin for sublime 
Lie to me i’ll keep it inside  

February 2nd you made me bitter
I’m sick of your excuses and this never ending winter
so rigid and ruthless like the starry eyed quitter  
Scheming of getting sick quicker

So pick me up tell me I’m 
gonna be quite alright 
Piece me back together for the thousandth time

Pick me up tell me I’m 
gonna be quite alright 
Lie to me for the thousandth time
Winter’s been an ugly climb 
Sub par wishin for sublime 
Lie to me i’ll keep it inside  

February 2nd I thought you would make things better 
February 2nd i thought you would make it better
February 2nd I thought you would make me better

Groundhog Day

Recorded on iPhone voice memo😁

Lyrics:

Where were you when you won the chase?
Would you have remembered my face?
My naive eyes, your cyan replies, I misplaced 
my shoelace 
and that wasn’t the only thing

The past is always frozen til those snapshot moments when the ice melts slowly 
Is this the only way?
I’m closer to the peace when I separate the need to make sense of it all from being ok

You were in my dream last night
and I hated you with all my might but 
when I woke up something in me changed 
and I forgave you today 

You walked away at the exact moment I needed you to stay, I became a basket-case
wanted to cry but my wan naive eyes stayed dry
Nothing In me worked the right way 

The past is always frozen til those snapshot moments when the ice melts slowly 
Is this the only way?
I’m closer to the peace when I separate the need to make sense of it all from being ok

You were in my dream last night
and I hated you with all my might but 
when I woke up something in me changed 
and I forgave you today

forgave you

Lyrics:

I really thought we would be something
I had it all planned out in my head
I guess I just forgot that luck can be one thing
But life was never about getting what I wanted 
So all that this turned out to be was just another disappointment 
Whatever it was I may have thought I'd seen was just from getting caught up in the moment
Now I'm on the road back to reality, but I'm not sure that I belong
And just like that, it's a part of the past, and all that's left of us is this song 

So this one’s for everything that has built up 
The way it stings when I wake up
Realizing it was nothing but 
bad timing I was
so wrong just idealizing too much 
and now I'm lying in this rut 
the memories all dying cuz 
we're nothing but dust  

I'm struggling now oh just to find myself
Their words are hitting me it hurts like hell
I'm feeling smaller now, as they begin to yell
I'm trapped but you've moved on with someone else 
So all that I turned out to be was just an opportune distraction
Was every word you ever said to me just a means to satisfaction 
And why am I still here fantasizing there's not a sliver of a chance you'll call
It's just like me romanticizing you're the only way out of the pain but maybe you caused it all

So this one’s for everything that has built up 
The way it stings when I wake up
Realizing it was nothing but 
bad timing I was
so wrong just idealizing too much 
and now I'm lying in this rut 
the memories all dying cuz 
we're nothing but dust

Dust

Siren

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