call my bluff

turned 22 today, here's a song

produced by stonesowavy

mastered by @sastrp

LYRICS:

let me in let me out

tell me what you know
bout your life the shit u hide and tell me what u owe
forget about the time i got it start right from the go
lemme know your fears the trauma buried deep below
tell me bout the time u didn’t have a place a home
tell me bout the desperation of being alone
moving day to day where every day was seeming slow
every time the outcome of events was still unknown 
it’s unknown where we at
no time to react
speculation mixed with fact and the fad of attention in remission
cause it’s not about you and it never was
and it’s not about me that’s what troubles us
expecting compensation for a life that seems mistaken
and receiving nothing but impatience conflict illness degradation
seems unfair all this monotony performed with calculation 
comparing hatred
constantly racing
wonder what’s the purpose of the pain
dream of peace a stable life consistent pay
don’t ask for too much only take the things u need
tell me how you heal and how you bleed

can i tell you what i know
bout my life the shit i hide and what i owe
hope you got the time cause imma start right from the go 
i got a lot of fear and trauma buried deep below
i got a couple diagnoses probably a couple more they haven’t found yet
but the symptoms are apparent and the treatment done is negligent 
i’m stubborn almost arrogant in my ability to counter obstacles it’s evident
that i would benefit from therapy if i just fucking went
but i can’t even dial numbers start the journey of salvation
once my halo dusty now it’s broken down to yo sediment
i said i wanna change the world
she said that i can’t make that promise
i told her that i need approval
she said i might be a narcissist
cause i’m so focused on myself in such a troubling way
i can recognize the rot but i still let it decay
doing the bare minimum so i can get through the day
but i’m still desperate for some clapping hands to say it’s okay 
cause just the thought of doing what is right is not enough if i don’t actually do it
i want diplomas houses i blew it 
why does life feel claustrophobic when i just got on my feet
can i tell you how i heal and how i bleed

let me in let me out

i simply can’t believe in over sharing
given proper context humans tend to love comparing
situations lived and coping methods revel baring
honest nature of existence and precisely planning
what to filter rummage memories depression or your BPD
and anything that’s troubling the most open that you’ll ever be
but only let out what’s acceptable the limit of your history
is undefined when you first meet somebody you can vaguely see
being in your life extended time bond through little things
like breakups high school bullies neurons firing
to find the sweet spot not too overbearing sort of comforting
to know you’re not alone in this eventually the dam will break
testing the relationship by showing what is underneath
standing at a checkpoint in the bond you built so carefully
started off with how your parents were divorcing
to how you know the makeup that can help to cover bruising 
buzzwords key components of a conversation hold em in their mouth and let them out
when necessity to shows up 
know i’m here for you i care but question if they do believe that
in their head are they judgmental bout a controversial past

and maybe i’m just nosy bout your life
not always my business do or die
imma tell you something bout me
this is how i heal and how i bleed

let me in [prod. stonesowavy]

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

Written and Performed by ill Nicky 
Recorded at Studio 403, Los Angeles, CA
Produced by Wyatt Woodley, Billion Coast and Obvi 
Guitar by Gray Trainer
Additional vocals by Sanni 
Additional writing by Wyatt Woodley
Mixed by Billion Coast 
Mastered by Steven Felix 

Distributed by The ill Movement through United Masters

Shadows

music video: https://youtu.be/t0heVRzq7Jc

@seandadon1k - living large*+ [yeah!] (feat. kenny orlando) ++MUSIC VIDEO

bury me!

produced by sleepwater melonmusik & leftquiet

lyrics:
i dont wanna listen to this
i would rather you didnt exist
ill pray after you
ill die before you
its my time to live
but ill end up WASTING IT
its my life you ditched
ill disappear into THIN AIR 
oh where she gone have you seen her 
is she on the way home, swear ive been there 
id kill myself just to HOLD YOU ONE LAST TIME

im scared no where to go
seven times ive checked my phone
if you cared i wouldent be alone
addicted to the cracks on my phone

(gasp)

IF I LIE TO U ITS CAUSE I HATE MYSELF
ILL SAY GOODBYE SOON GUESS IM HEADING OUT
I WOULD KILL MYSELF JUST TO HOLD YOU ONE LAST TIME
WAS I RIGHT FOR YOU CAUSE I COULDENT TELL
MY ROOM A ZOO TYCOON IT NEEDS SOME CLEANING OUT
I WOULD FIX MYSELF FOR YOU TO BE MINE

stay between mortar
it all
flashes in my eyes
im now ready this time

#colne #sleepwater

colne

Bleed For You - Single

Bleed For You

she send me a text like
maybe in the next life
u can live ur best right
now it wasn’t meant
right now it wasn’t meant
to be, wait patiently
thank u for saving me
but i cannot return the favor
told her i love her she said “yeah me too”
it feels like suffering is all that i was meant to do
i start recovering and it feels too good to be true
i got up by myself so why would i put faith in you?

my mom keep asking about some kids
and i’m just worried bout the bridge
the rainbow colored one u cross
when earth revokes ur right to live
i don’t wanna step outside 
i guess i will if u insist
i hope the smile and the laughters 
still the vision that u miss 

i can’t tell the truth to ur face
so i just lay it down over songs
this albums feeling like a bible
every verse is like a psalm
but i still got the world in palms
working on righting all of these wrongs 
but she start peeling off her new thong
i strike like lightning watch how i fall

watch how i fall down
she blocking my number who do i call now?
searching for options but i’m all out 
and she blocking my number but first 

she send me a text like
maybe in the next life
u can live ur best right
now it wasn’t meant
right now it wasn’t meant
to be, wait patiently
thank u for saving me
but i cannot return the favor
told her i love her she said “yeah me too”
it feels like suffering is all that i was meant to do
i start recovering and it feels too good to be true
i got up by myself so why would i put faith in ..
who

last door on the left (scottysplash)

i don’t ever feel better
than when im grabbing on her waist
we would be so good together
but we live at a different pace
roll this sticky clear my mind
until i start to elevate
far up in the atmosphere
the only time that i feel safe

give me a break just cut me some slack
u said thats ur girl but she told me that ur so fucking wack
sorry babe i drank too much and im forgetting how to act
if they awarded bad manners i’d probably have a platinum plaque

i can see ur face thru the window pane
she can take ur place but it won’t feel the same
got a couple aces tucked inside of my sleeve
if i can’t fill the space this life is wasted on me

i need a smoke i need a pick me up
treat me like a joke body bag me baby zip me up
favored memories of early mornings 
when our lips would touch
but i was never good enough im sick i had to give it up

live it up for my homies who won’t get the chance to do the same
she just wanna fuck she grabbed my pants before she knew my name
sorry baby i’m just here to get fucked up and try to mute my brain
cause lately i’ve been crowned the king of ruining everything

i don’t ever feel better
than when im grabbing on her waist
we would be so good together
but we live at a different pace
roll this sticky clear my mind
until i start to elevate
far up in the atmosphere
the only time that i feel safe

give me a break just cut me some slack
u said thats ur girl but she told me that ur so fucking wack
sorry babe i drank too much and im forgetting how to act
if they awarded bad manners i’d probably have a platinum plaque


its too bad we have nothing left to do 
my time is worth more when im spending it with u
this feeling was never meant to be ever lasting
crumbling on the verge of collapsing

i can hear the angels calling
i can see the raindrops falling
i can hear the angels speaking
asking what i’m doing this evening

u cleared the tar out of my lungs and help me breathe again
ur such a star, let ur light shine it’s creeping in
my favorite spot is right behind u when we’re sleeping in
my favorite spot is right behind u where i can breathe again

i don’t ever feel better
than when im grabbing on her waist
we would be so good together
but we live at a different pace
roll this sticky clear my mind
until i start to elevate
far up in the atmosphere
the only time that i feel safe

give me a break just cut me some slack
u said thats ur girl but she told me that ur so fucking wack
sorry babe i drank too much and im forgetting how to act
if they awarded bad manners i’d probably have a platinum plaque

star_gazing (scottysplash)

baltimore autobahn

thought i’d be
yeah i thought i’d be the one
thought i’d be
oooooooo

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

blowing bags of grass i’m like a landscaper
i love how soft her skin is mine just feels like sandpaper
tell me how u really feel i cannot stand fakers
i put my life inside her hands but she’s a man breaker

i cannot stand straight
thought he was tough 
my dummy flipped him like a pancake
she look in my eyes
i get nervous till my hands shake
she cast a spell on me 
while i roll up this mandrake
sippin this elixir
till i’m in trance state

but it’s not good enough
i’ll go all in if u call me baby
what we putting up?
turn me to soot and dust
spare me all the charades
let me blow away in the wind
until i find a better place

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

neon lights behind her eyes that read out notice me
all that effort upfront how u end up ghosting me
spread her legs i feel like moses in the open sea
red eyes in the whip we lit up like a uav

she a damsel in distress
i’m a stumbling drunk mess
couldnt save u if i wanted
tip the king like it was chess
right place wrong time
always feels like a crime
i want to feel the world pass by
while ur tongue is tied up with mine

my bones decaying underneath the sod
no one knows a thing except for u and god
put me in my place it was all part of the plot
i don’t need a funeral i need a space where i can rot

thought i’d be the one
wearing burberry at ur baby shower
i never got the chance to tell u
i know i’m a coward
i know she need release
and she know i devour
she love me when i’m sweet
and suck me dry when i get sour

haven’t slept yet that’s the only way im up at dawn
bottled up emotions i get lit im like a molotov
i heard u had a due date my stomach did a somersault
pushing 140 i95 like the autobahn

baltimore autobahn (scottysplash)

i’m in the coupe riding solo
run up on me and turn into a logo
my glocky spit fire komodo
dragging my whip thru the street burning toyos
maybe i’m dead i cannot tell
stuck in my head it feels like it’s a cell
make me bleed prove that i’m real
beg to be freed im living in hell

love me when it’s inconvenient
show me i matter i really need it
take my blood girl u can keep it
leave me empty leave me weeping
baby for u
i would give my life away
baby for u
i would fuck around and die today

love me when it’s inconvenient
show me i matter i really need it
take my blood girl u can keep it
leave me empty leave me weeping
baby for u
i would give my life away
baby for u
i would fuck around and die today

baby for u imma find a way
i know what i want i never contemplate
i keep her wet like a pool, like a lake
hold on my hand promise i’ll keep u safe
slide thru the night in all black like a wraith
been getting bread my pockets overweight
this not a regular jeep it’s a str8

she said that she almost pass out every time she see me
my bitch looking bad she look like she belong on tv
i don’t make new friends i’m walking up in this bitch 3 deep
we all holding twins just do the math get laid down 6 feet

love me when it’s inconvenient
show me i matter i really need it
take my blood girl u can keep it
leave me empty leave me weeping
baby for u
i would give my life away
baby for u
i would fuck around and die today

love me when it’s inconvenient
show me i matter i really need it
take my blood girl u can keep it
leave me empty leave me weeping
baby for u
i would give my life away
baby for u
i would fuck around and die today

die today (jolst x thislandis)

Pressure Point Ft. Rxfxx Prod. Yunny Goldz

Private Room

Not Sorry

Hi there! 
I´m Chema, a DJ/Producer from San José, Costa Rica.
I hope my edits and work finds you lit.
Blessings!

*Original music and instrumentals are not from my authorship**

Honest-Justin Bieber Ft Don Toliver (Chema edit)

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

sick music video: youtu.be/3OxrVw40v6o?si=AgGXtWnKYoSpHnK6

@hollowbodyco

mgmt: @luckeyknows

https://www.instagram.com/goneafteraugust

it's gonna be okay

last door on the left (scottysplash)

goneafteraugust

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