no one can see me, again.

lyrics- 
baby you 
break my back in two
been feeling like i’m blue
just wishing that you’d love me too.
i’m wishing that i’d fall apart,
breaking now my stupid heart
and all my dreams been cracked
anyone believe that? 
i love u and u love me
“we’re so prefect as can be” 
but are our dreams cracked?
i don't believe that...

i’m okay
yeah yeah well i’m okay
yeah well i’m okay with leaving
no one can see me

i’m okay
yeah yeah well i’m okay
yeah well i’m okay with leaving
no one can see me.

i’m wishing that i’d fall apart
breaking now my stupid heart
and all my dreams been cracked
anyone believe that? 
i love u and u love me
“we’re so prefect as can be” 
but are our dreams cracked?
 i don't believe that...

i’m okay
yeah yeah well i’m okay
yeah well i’m okay with leaving,
no one can see me.

i’m okay
yeah yeah well i’m okay
yeah well i’m okay with leaving,
no one can see me again.

-goob

i'm okay (acoustic)

no longer protected in skin.

(prod by me)

lyrics-
i’m just dust in the wind
that’s cutting back on my skin
too see the skeleton
hiding right behind me
you won’t hold me tight 
if i’m dead or alive
so let’s wait in the
silence of my mind

i’ll make a deal with the devil
or anybody else who wants to take me down
tear my skin to the ground
crucify me now
i’m just "a kid that’s not special"

just silence, silence, no sound
only my skeleton covers me now
can you see right through me, somehow?
with my skin laying on the ground

i’m protected in sin
it’s hard to know where i’ve been
all this adrenaline 
flowing right through me
you go and say i’m wrong
i don’t know how long
this fucking person is
still learning to be free

i’ll make a deal with the devil
or anybody else who wants to take me down 
tear my skin to the ground
you're all liars now
i’m just "a kid that’s not special."

just silence, silence, no sound
only my skeleton covers me now
can you see right through me, somehow?
with my skin laying on the ground.

:(

skin

(prod by me)
guitars by totalfuckingbliss & me

lyrics-
feeling new being me
being you or being happy?

so what did you say? or am i too late?
why pretend you didn’t love me when i ran away?
still hoping you're okay, i’m better of this way.
you don’t need me to feel okay.

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy

so if you get sad or maybe mad
just pretend that the world isn’t such a fucked up place
still can’t look at your face while i still miss your embrace
love is a lie that we all misplace.

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy.

what if love is a lie? love is a lie.
what if love is a lie?

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy.
- goob

happy

lyrics-
feeling new being me
being you or being happy?

so what did you say? or am i too late?
why pretend you didn’t love me when i ran away?
still hoping you're okay, i’m better of this way.
you don’t need me to feel okay.

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy

so if you get sad or maybe mad
just pretend that the world isn’t such a fucked up place
still can’t look at your face while i still miss your embrace
love is a lie that we all misplace.

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy.

what if love is a lie? love is a lie.
what if love is a lie?

where’d you go that girl i loved 
where’d you go my friend i lost
i’m hoping to start focusing on being me
you gotta choose to be happy.
- goob

happy (acoustic)

(prod by me)

lyrics-
i see you standing there
two strands of bright blue hair 
with those green eyes
i see you waiting for me
i let you stop and stare cause
i couldn’t give a care that in your mind
you’re still falling in love with me

i don’t want to walk away cause 
i missed you everyday that 
you can’t live without me in your world
then don’t forget about me girl.

don’t stand there all alone
watch the world get so fucking cold
lost my only home so i guess i’ll pick up the phone 
every time i runaway it hurts less if i stay
so i pick up the phone and call you cause i’m so alone

did you stay there all alone?
wishing i would fly back home?
hoping you could let me know,
you don’t want me to let go.
do you still wish that i’m dead, 
when i’m still lost in ur head? 
i don’t know where to go 
freezing out in the snow

don’t stand there all alone
watch the world get so fucking cold
i lost my only home so i guess i’ll pick up the phone
every time i runaway it hurts less if i stay
so i’ll pick up the phone and call you cause i’m so alone

i’ll call you cause i’m so alone
i’ll call you cause i’m so alone
<3

blue hair

(prod by me)

lyrics-
i wish i knew what we were thinking about
this time last year when we figured it out
we made it clear but you always shouted,
so I doubted our love.

throwing hands and spinning around
i’m trying hard not to fall to the ground
hoping our words aren’t too loud
but everyone heard you.
 
so hate me if I say,
I’ll never go so far away from all my choices
you can take your poison with you.

so love me if I stay,
a better person than yesterday
from all my choices...
I’ll help destroy us for you.

(guitar solo)

i wish i did what i was thinking about
this time I’m sure that I’ll be making it out
with my last words i’ll call us immature 
you’ll say “love is all i endured”.

i see that knife up to my chest.
makes every single night like I can’t rest
but you just stand there?
It’s funny, In my nightmares you don’t.

I never saw that face
until I had my back turned away
with all my life left,
you can stick that knife right in you.

(destroying memories)

destroy us

lyric video: https://youtu.be/JNmM4eoS8W8

(prod by me)

</3

lyrics-
you save me, we broke up
when i wasn’t there
you told me they laughed at my face
and you didn’t care

take the pain, i’ll break away
hold onto me, like we used to be, yeah
take the pain, i’ll break away
hold onto me, like we used to be, yeah

broken and messed up
i’ll find out where i’ve gone
you tell me that its been
long enough, “oh hold on!”
look at where i go
i’m stoned under the stars
i’ll just stay here alone
with me and your car

take the pain, i’ll break away
hold onto me, like we used to be, yeah
take the pain, i’ll break away
hold onto me, like we used to be, yeahhhh

hold onto me

music video: https://youtu.be/cYeWBlFf6Hc

(prod by me)

</3

lyrics-
can’t feel my face, when i'm fucked up
leave me when you want, let's break up
when you just try to see me
you don’t believe that, this is me

losing my mind baby 
i don’t know where to go to
if you take me back, lets take it slow
one track only for you
imma hold my breath till i go blue      

hold my breath till i go blue
no one can say that i hurt you
smoking cigs and playing guitar
losing my mind baby, i'm not far

i try to save me, but no one can
leave me please, i’m not your man
found death, he said “hello"
i said “goobbye", i had to go

can’t feel my face, when i'm fucked up
leave me when you want, let's break up
when you just try to see me
you don’t believe that, this is me

losing my mind baby 
i don’t know where to go to
if you take me back, lets take it slow
one track only for you
imma hold my breath till i go blueee

i don't know where to go

tried a lil different style.

lyric video: https://youtu.be/XqCVC5nM8ZA

(prod by me)

feat: 
@santerisiven

lyrics-
hold me before i fall apart
hold me before I’m torn apart
i never leave any love

hold me before i fall apart,
hold me before i'm torn apart
i never leave any love
i never leave, love

you won’t leave my mind
please don’t leave me behind
it's hard to help me when, 
i'm feeling so dead inside
hold me, when i'm close
you're the one I chose 
i think I need to go somewhere 
where no body knows

hold my hand, and we’ll be together 
i just wanna get high forever
when its raining i could be your shelter 
thats the last time that i held her

hold me before i fall apart
hold me before I’m torn apart
i never leave any love

hold me before i fall apart,
hold me before i'm torn apart
i never leave any love
i never leave, love

leave, love (ft.ghostin)

трудно быть человеком

music video: https://youtu.be/81OPlPkPAJY

vocals, produced, mixed and mastered by goobwashere

inspiration from nate ty bro @the_kracken <3

lyrics-
call my phone 
when i'm alone
I packed by bags 
before you noticed
thats the moment that I said

let's runaway baby
I don’t want to go back to the house
I don’t want to go back that place that gave me scars
runaway like james dean
lets runaway baby
I don’t want to go back to your house
I don’t want to go back that place that gave me scars
runaway like james dean
lets runaway when i'm nineteen

my heart is all open
and I can't seem to sow it back
I told you 
I can't seem to heal my all of my past
then you try to tell me
why why
do you try to hurt me?
before I left thats when I say

let's runaway baby 
I don’t want to go back to the house
I don’t want to go back that place that gave me scars
runaway like james dean
lets runaway baby
I don’t want to go back to your house
I don’t want to go back that place that gave me scars
runaway like james dean
lets runaway when i'm nineteen

lets runaway when i'm nineteen

<3

james dean

трудно быть человеком

music video: https://youtu.be/IfRuBk8KXZw

vocals, produced, mixed and mastered by goobwashere

lyrics-
send me a rose 
when you're okay
when you're okay
i see crows
when you’ve gone away
when you’ve gone away

black ink on my arms
yeah its a start
when we fall apart
like we always do
baby i told you
from the start
sit down, ill save you
my lucky charm

talk about how you feel
it's my heart that you steal
everything that i told you
oh why couldn’t i save you

send me a rose 
when you're okay
when you're okay
i see crows
when you’ve gone away
when you’ve gone away

<3

send me roses

трудно быть человеком

vocals, produced, mixed and mastered by goobwashere

inspiration from nate ty bro @the_kracken <3

lyrics-
rest easy knowing that im there
I don’t wanna die while you stare
but sometimes I still do
and you make me fall in love with you

before we fight
you hurt me tonight
before I cry, 
don’t leave my side
dancing slowly
while I'm so lonely
baby would you help me stay alive

before we fight
you hurt me tonight
before I cry, 
don’t leave my side
dancing slowly
while I'm so lonely
baby would you help me feel alright

<3

before we fight

feat. @santerisiven

lyric video: https://youtu.be/5hOgXdaN0pQ

(prod by me)

lyrics-
everytime I breath
it's harder than It seems
it's getting hard to dream
when i can't sleep
i try to leave
i find a piece of me
when you wait, yeah 

please just say
let's waste away
nobody cared about me anyway
it's hard to wake up today
you know i'll say
you know i'll say, yeah
please just stay
let's waste away
nobody cared about me anyway
it's hard to wake up today
you know i'll say
you know i'll stay this way

she never cared about the things i said
she never cared about the love i shared
one minute you came and layed by my side
now i cant find a reason to go outside
it’s been too long, i need to go
left me alone, delete you on my own
replace my love, it aint so hard
forget about me, like i never was

please just say
let's waste away
nobody cared about me anyway
it's hard to wake up today
you know i'll say
you know i'll say, yeah
please just stay
let's waste away
nobody cared about me anyway
it's hard to wake up today
you know i'll say
you know i'll stay this way

replace my love, it aint so hard
forget about me, like i never was

nobody cared (ft.ghostin)

lyric video: https://youtu.be/usxoTeXd0Aw

(prod by me)

lyrics-
i'll try to be
how you want me to be
just set me free
you’re torturing me
i want to leave
when you just scream
when you just scream at me

i'll try to wait
i’ll find a place
i’ll hide away
and cut my face
i miss being numb from before
I don’t know if I can do this anymore
i’ll tat my face
i’ll leave this place
every time I wake
drown in a lake
i miss being numb from before
i don’t wanna feel like shit anymore

you still want me? 
you still haunt me?
this last weeks
been hell for me
it’s hard to sleep
It’s hard to see
that you're fucking with me
why you fucking with me?
had a panic attack 
yeah twice a day
but you don’t react
to what i say
i miss the numbness
can’t find release
please just let me

r  i  p

i'll try to wait
i’ll find a place
i’ll hide away
and cut my face
i miss being numb from before
I don’t know if I can do this anymore
i’ll tat my face
i’ll leave this place
every time I wake
drown in a lake
i miss being numb from before
i don’t wanna feel like shit anymore

ohhh don't want to feel like this no more
I feel you, anxiety 
 </3

i miss being numb

a lil something different for 2020

lyric video: https://youtu.be/eqFwK0iqbxU

(prod by me)

lyrics-
i miss your voice
you stop the noises
it's getting hard
getting harder to understand
all the mud
that's on my hands
all the blood
that's on my hands

watch me tear my heart
watch me bleed
like from the start, the start
i hear you need my love
i'm so fucked up
i'm not living without you

watch me tear my heart
watch me bleed
like from the start, the start
i don't need your love
i'm so fucked up
i'm not thinking of you

until we fall apart
you're a work of art
if i live or i die
whatever stops you crying
headphones up real loud
hit the ground, no sound 
grown up from the mud
like a rose bud

i'll pretend it isn’t about you, babe
this is the last time we separate 
i'll find you cutting me
right where my heart used to be

i miss your voice
you stop the noises
it's getting hard
getting harder to understand
all the mud
that's on my hands
all the blood
that's on my hands

watch me tear my heart
watch me bleed
like from the start, the start
i hear you need my love
i'm so fucked up
i'm not living without you

watch me tear my heart
watch me bleed
like from the start, the start
i don't need your love
i'm so fucked up
i'm not thinking of you

i'm not thinking of you
you’re not thinking of me



</3

tear my heart

happy birthday me </3

lyric video: https://youtu.be/U_fnw_e_kSA

(prod by me)

lyrics-
don’t abandon me
just talk to me
we haven’t spoke in weeks
we’re only nineteen
all the things you said
like wishing i was dead
heartbreak in the end
can't get you out of my head

it’s hard times to break
it’s hard to stay awake
when i try to say 
want i wanted to say
what’s the reason to leave
when i have to scream
from the top of me
just hold onto me

hold me close
and let me know
if you want me
like i want you
it’s all i see
when you're fucking with me
heartthrob james dean
we're only nineteen

don’t abandon me
just talk to me
we haven’t spoke in weeks
we’re only nineteen
all the things you said
like wishing i was dead
heartbreak in the end
can't get you out of my head

can't get you out of my head
can't get you out of my bed

heartthrob james dean
we're only nineteen

don’t abandon me
just talk to me
we haven’t spoke in weeks
we’re only nineteen
all the things you said
like wishing i was dead
heartbreak in the end
can't get you out of my head

</3

nineteen

if you're reading this, Я скучаю по тебе

lyric video: https://youtu.be/f98OFvxCbb8

(prod by me)

lyrics-
so i'll wait for you to come and stay
i'm wide awake, waiting for you when i'm not okay

the world is cold and dark at times
you make me feel warm inside
i'll sit and write my damn rhymes
so let's make out, before you fucking cry

the world is cold and dark at times
you make me feel warm inside
you broke my heart a million times
just text me back, before we fucking die

yeah, let’s just wait
bulletproof heart
that you still break
yeah, please heal my pain
i need some reasons
if i’m gonna stay

it’s all on top of me
don’t lie to me
i just miss your bed 
just give me a reason to believe in
you’ll love me when I'm dead

so i'll wait for you to come and stay
i'm wide awake, waiting for you when i'm not okay

the world is cold and dark at times
you make me feel warm inside
i'll sit and write my damn rhymes
so let's make out, before you fucking cry

the world is cold and dark at times
you make me feel warm inside
you broke my heart a million times
just text me back, before we fucking die

so i'll wait for you to come and stay
i'm wide awake, waiting for you to heal my pain

</3

the world is cold

i can't cry anyway

lyric video: https://youtu.be/ZRNuK9mHQaU

(prod by me)

lyrics-
there's something inside me
it's causing me pain
i can't control myself today
cause boys don’t cry anyway

so cut me open
and watch the pain come from me
hear the words that i say
cause i can’t cry anyway

so cut me open
and feel the hurt inside me
sing the words that i say
cause boys don’t cry anyway

drop dead
write a sad song in my bed
lying there, stop and stare 
at the hole in my head
pull me closer to death
roll me under the bed
watch my dead body
roll over without breath
it's getting harder to bleed
why do I feel so weak
everything time that I speak
i guess that i've been dead for weeks

so cut me open
and watch the pain come from me
hear the words that i say
cause i can’t cry anyway

so cut me open
and feel the hurt inside me
sing the words that i say
cause boys don't cry anyway

cause we can’t cry anyway
can’t let them see you this way

so cut me open
and watch the pain come from me
hear the words that i say
cause i can’t cry anyway

so cut me open
and feel the hurt inside me 
sing the words that i say
cause boys don't cry anyway

</3

boys don't cry

lyric video: https://youtu.be/etfuU9T5DHA

(vocals, produced, mixed and mastered by goobwashere)

lyrics-
took drugs with you
every weekend
I say i'm fine
but can’t stop the feeling
you go and i
can’t stop the thinking
how you don’t care
if i’m tired of breathing

heartless
every time i wake 
up in your bed
i still wish i was dead
sometimes
i just miss the pain
cause i wish you were dead
i still wish you were dead

you don’t care
if you leave me on open all day
don’t know what’s the problem
can't take me away
please go
i’m on my own again
and i don’t know
how to feel again

so took drugs with you
till we faded
i'm hurt, i’m sad
but it stoped the feeling
you go and i
can’t stop the thinking
how you don’t care
if i’m tired of breathing

heartless
every time i wake 
up in your bed
i still wish i was dead
sometimes
i just miss the pain
cause i wish you were dead
i still wish you were dead

i still wish you were dead
i still wish i was dead
i still wish you were dead
i still wish i was dead

</3

wish you were dead

(vocals, produced, mixed and mastered by goobwashere)

lyrics-
i waste my life up
i tell myself to stop
i don’t need your love
there’s no god above
i'm always fucked up
and i’m tired of love
waiting for you to go
i’m always alone 

i’m always alone 
alone

smoke until 
my lung collapse
i can’t relax 
without you
so many panic attacks
don’t ask why i’m sad
cause i don’t know

why does it hurt?
why don’t I learn?
put the blame on me
put the pain on me
but if i fucked up
my whole life up
waiting for you to go
i’m always alone 

i’m always alone 
alone

</3

alone

fuck the pain

lyric video: https://youtu.be/qjY3Ak-COnI

(prod by me)

featuring: @mitchkmn

lyrics-
(goob)
hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
imma drown the pain
so let’s runaway

hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
so let’s fuck the pain
then forget my name
 
666 tatted on her wrist 
she my bad bitch 
don’t run, stay around
hold my hand before i go down
six feet under the fucking ground
don’t go so far 
and i miss you more apart
come back, i’m on my own
when you’re gone, i’m so alone

hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
imma drown the pain
so let’s runaway

hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
so let’s fuck the pain
then forget my name

(mitch)
forget the pain 
and i'll go away
forget the pain 
and i'll go away

forget the pain 
and i'll go away
stuck in the rain
and i'm still awake
straight down the drain
it's all a waste
bitches give me brain
you was such a mistake

(goob)
hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
imma drown the pain
so let’s runaway

hurt bad, can’t face her
gimme coke lines
i’m just sad
so let’s waste away
scumbags won’t chase her
so let’s fuck the pain
then forget my name

so let’s fuck the pain
and forget my name
</3

FTP (ft.mitchkmn)

(prod by me)

lyrics-
don’t mess with me
when i’m drugged out
nobody cares if i’m still down
you always stay awake
holding back my pain
holding back again

dropped you on your head
when i’m just running from it
and i’m tired of living on without you
baby come back to bed

ayy i’m sad, drop bars
when i’m backstabbed
baby come back
bad bitch on me when i’m sad
she come over when i’m still mad
baby come back, hold back my pain
and forget my name cause i’m tired of it
and nobody cares if their just gonna stare
so i’m running from my past and i 

dropped you on your head
when i’m just running from it
and i’m tired of living on without you
baby come back to bed

</3

a beautiful mess of a song (demo)

(one take cover of grandson - blood // water)

instrumental: https://youtu.be/Wek7BKmNqYg
original song: https://youtu.be/Sk-U8ruIQyA

enjoy.

-goob

bloody water (cover)

sorry it took so long...

lyric vid: https://youtu.be/9tf20OavL48

(prod by me)

lyrics-
cause when i’m weak 
i will fall again 
cause when i seek
all the dreams 
come back to me
cause i’m tired of u
i’m tired of me
i’m tired of this
there’s no more smiles u
hide behind so carefully 

i’m breaking down my old scars
just to see
that i’m right here
i’m right here
don’t look for me.

cause when i’m weak 
i will fall again 
cause when i seek
all the dreams 
come back to me
cause i’m tired of u
i’m tired of me
i’m tired of this
and ur not there
ur not there looking for me

i’m wasting time
smoking dimes in the street
they laughing with that crooked smile
i don’t sleep
no ones around to call my home
i’m staying sad, don’t call my phone.
will i get better?
i don’t know

cause when i’m weak 
i will fall again 
cause when i seek
all the dreams 
come back to me
cause i’m tired of u
i’m tired of me
i’m tired of this
and ur not there
ur not there looking for me

tired

music vid: https://youtu.be/o2L9awg6yHE

don't stop to love me.

(prod by me)

lyrics-
what’s the point when i’m dying now
to think back how i push u down
all this stress it kicks u down
don't forget to kill me slowly now

i’m wasting my life
don’t come around to see me there
crying now.
i’m dead inside, will u kiss me now?
if i’m not dead kill me slowly now.

don’t stop to beg me..
don’t stop to love me
cause broken i will be
would u be happy?

i’m wasting my life
don’t come around to see me there
crying now. 
i’m dead inside, will u kill me now?
if i’m not dead kiss me slowly now.

don’t stop to love me

goobwashere

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