a bloodcurdling scream and the subsequent lifeforce rushing from her open wound [p.tyeslimee]

This Is Why

tears like rhinestones diamonds
time n time 
i float down into crisis
kingdoms fall but we still stay the highest
misfit thrills
but we still fucking anxious
misfit thrills 
but we stay fr like

woah she wanna lick my cuts
i wana turn up
i walking through the snow 
i put my hood up
im bleeding out my nose
i scream like wtf
fuck 

go dumb

needles falling on the pavement
honestly i think you need some patience
on my knees i feel so gracious 

on my knees i feel so gracious
x4

Go Dum:b

Cuntsniffer - Hopscotch prod cunt sniffer

hazelnutcreamer

Forbidden Love

I always think it's u talking....

Linger by the Cranberries
lyrics and guitar riff is theirs, performed & produced by me

such a fool (linger cover)

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dj cvtevomit - thrasher #topthis

Got totally side-tracked trying to finish my own song — ended up hyper-focusing in Ableton and spiralling into this weird little gem instead. Procrastination at its finest.

This one’s an experimental house track that’s definitely not for everyone. It features vocal samples from vlogger Sacha Slone, taken from her brilliant and hilarious breakdowns comparing Borderliners and Narcissists — clips that are both empowering and painfully accurate.

The speech hit me hard. It goes beyond conventional mental healthcare, where narcissistic abuse awareness is still barely on the radar. As someone living with BPD, it gave me this rebellious, confident spark — the same energy that inspired the lyric from my own track: “Crushin’ shady bitch narcs.” It’s cheeky, maybe a little stigmatizing, but also cathartic as hell. If you get it, you get it.

Borderliners are among the most misunderstood and stigmatized, while narcs/sociopaths/psychopaths often thrive in power — even in creative industries. I’ve seen it firsthand in the electronic scene in Amsterdam. These videos — Slone is a form of radical self-care, while stuck on the GGZ /therapy waiting list (forever, lol).

Still a work in progress — just learning to play, sample, and let the drama and energy take over. Also… I needed a break from hearing my own voice for once.

Maybe this is the direction I’m heading — a little chaotic, a little funny, and very real.
(Also check: “Lovebomber” & my Gabber remix if you’re curious where this madness leads.)

“Badass BPD Bodyguard” – Experimental Tech House (feat. Sacha Slone Speech)

needles for records & sewing & estrogen 
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goodbyes hellos (needles)

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