Better Days (Ft. ISTILLHURT)

KILL TO BE

text back prod majinaru

text back (prod. majinaru)

prod. @irby314

lyrics:
nowadays everything just seems to hurt me
feeling like life as a whole has done me dirty
not getting love from anybody
yelling all my thoughts and feelings straight into the void
I want a connection that's everlasting
people only care about me in passing
now I'm sitting all alone wondering if I did something to cause things to be this way
broke friends keep dreaming about what they could be
while rich friends don't seem as happy as they should be
I can't find any inspiration
my apathy strangles me
it's getting too hard to breathe 
I'm constantly getting upset about shit
something will bother me, I'll forget about it
then still feel upset
even though I don't remember what it was that made me feel that way
surrounded by all this stupid immaturity 
going online, seeing dudes pushing 30
still posting on facebook about metalcore bands they listened to back in 2008
seems like all of my friends who make music are glowing
I'm lagging behind
they never send me opens
I feel like a failed artist 
but I guess making music's just a dumb childish hobby anyway
I've taken too many blows that weren't softened
and been used as a punching bag way too often
by people who notice things in me that they hate about themselves
dumping their shame onto me
I do it too, just not to people's faces 
but behind their backs because that way's the safest
most of my hatred stays hidden
just lurking in the shadows where no one can fully see
my life is the worst that its been and I hate it
but every single time I try to escape it
I just end up reverting back to my old ways
it seems like people rarely actually change
I'll only cheer up to ultimately feel sad
a drug binge right after getting out of rehab
all of those addicts are so far gone
I don't have hope for anybody much less myself
I regret not having a life that's fulfilling
like going to work in a government building 
saving money to buy a house
with a backyard to unwind in at the end of the day
spend my weekends hanging out at a cottage
reminiscing with old friends about college
instead I'm here by myself feeling embarrassed 
with nowhere to be and nothing to say

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