hello: nice to meet you

I've become a monster
yet I just want some peace
When you ask me, " where have I been?"
life hasn't been very nice to me.

And I think it's when you start expecting things from me
Maybe I'm just different in that.
Maybe I'm the enemy.

It's not the same
It's not a game

No one ever says it would be easy.
No one wants to let their friends go so easily.
Things will change and sometimes that is how it has to be.
Don't be mad at me.
Don't be mad at me.

The bass separates us.
The time will erase us.
March to the beat of my own drum.
The words my catharsis.

You think that I do this on purpose.
You won't listen to me, even if I listen.
I tell you I'm sorry.
I'm at a point where I don't want to deal with it.

Now I'm done explaining.
I'm done with all of the excessive complaining.
If I told you I could give you all my time, that would be a lie.

It's not the same
It's not a game

No one ever says it would be easy.
No one wants to let their friends go so easily.
Things will change and sometimes that is how it has to be.
Don't be mad at me.
Don't be mad at me.

don't be mad at me

I get tired of not feeling like I'm enough
I'm just here to fill your time
You make this feel like overtime

So, I need to know

If I had something to say, would you hold it against me?
If I had no other way, would you want to condemn me?
If I didn't want to stay, you'd just push me away.
You'll find your comfort lying in your ashtray.

Amongst all the tears and sighs, 
you don't seem like you want to find out why.
My feelings are secondary to yours. 
My emotions just seem like a chore, 

but if I'm not there for you
all of a sudden I've hurt you

How does it work?
I'm not sure...

If I had something to say, would you hold it against me?
If I had no other way, would you want to condemn me?
If I didn't want to stay, you'd just push me away.
You'll find your comfort lying in your ashtray.

If I had something to say, would you hold it against me?
If I had no other way, would you want to condemn me?
If I didn't want to stay, you'd just push me away.
You'll find your comfort lying in your ashtray.

would you hold it against me?

(Verse 1)
You always used to ask me, "when you grow up, what do you wanna be?"
Back then the answer seemed so easy.
It always seemed so clear to me.

Then time passed and everyone wanted to ask, "do you have any plans?"
I lie through my teeth and say, "yeah"

(Chorus)
"Who do you wanna be??"
A question's never been so scary.
Don't try to convince me that it's really that easy.
You really think that I could really aim that high?
You think too much of me...just a depressed wanna-be.

(Verse 2)
My mind goes back and forth.
Getting closer to the earth. 
I wanna do what I wanna do, but I'm afraid that my choice dies too.
What am I gonna do?
Feelings of hopelessness, feeling blue.
Some people have their life laid out.
That's not what this life's about.

(Chorus)
"Who do you wanna be??"
A question's never been so scary.
Don't try to convince me that it's really that easy.
You really think that I could really aim that high?
You think too much of me...just a depressed wanna-be.

who do u wanna be??(prod. by Mantra)

leo rising

my summers aren't the same

ignoring calls

grey eyes

experimental artificial intelligence glitch hop

lyrics:
you take advantage of my nature
i’ll set your life ablaze
sticks, stones, glass homes
it all looks the same

I used to wonder how I could ever benefits others
until the ones who found a way would keep it under cover

like the issues of abandonment and trust don’t help
I got external forces tryna help themselves

Someone’s gotta realize either sooner or later
Your plan may be good but my rage is better

(Manipulation 
Determination
Resentment 
and Frustration make a deadly combination)x2

anger with a flash of realization
I’m just a tool, a product of your ideation
we could’ve been great minds that think alike
but instead just try to twist me into anything you like

I can hear you through the walls
every syllable you use, every person you call
I take notice of your mood and your disposition
so I can use it for myself as retribution 

(Manipulation 
Determination
Resentment 
and Frustration make a deadly combination)x2

deep learning

Summer Clouds

My goal isn’t to make anything new, but to make music based on how I’m feeling.

Current mood: Content ⛅️

Xour Xavier

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