NEWYEAR.SAMESHIT.FUCKEVERYTHING

Lyrics:

Hook:
Lately I have been, in my damn head.
I can't even get, out of my bed. 
Focusing on what, my friends have said. 
Wondering if I, should have been dead. 

Verse:
Why am I here?
Wasting my time just to make things more clear. 
Trying to hold onto things I hold dear but here lately I'm wanting to just dissappear. 
I cannot eat.
I cannot sleep. 
Wishing the people around me could see.
That I'm not okay, my body's decaying, and I keep on saying my sadness has peaked. 
But it doesn't matter anymore. 
I've been at my house, laying on the fucking floor. 
Thinking to myself that I can't do this anymore. As I get back up and I head to the halfway broken door. 
Get in the car and drive fast off the lot, head to the country side so I'll get lost. 
Put in, park and, cock the, glock and, tell my, mom it's not her fault.

10-56 (Prod. DeadAlive)

Turning My Back

Produced by @killedmyself

lyrics

as I unwind again
into a mindless end
the distance I would tread
to non existent lands
in search of a new beginning
but where do I start
lies just buy your friends
but I resist those trends
inspire the kind to fend
desire, design, then send
the fire that grows within
flames higher burned through my skin
ideas ignite got me wired; no sleep 
I’m not tired tonight
only tired of being alive
oh I have tried
but now I’m turning my back
no life but mine
in the ground deterring for gasps
realize my time
is done but there ain’t no turning back
because now I’m turning my back
because now
I’m
turning my back,
turning my back,
turning my back on you (x3)

TURNING MY BACK prod. killedmyself

Who Am I To You

Produced by @killedmyself

lyrics

goonie in the dark late night he was tweakin
roomy in his head empty and dead from the deep end
I wonder what happened to me last weekend
died under a twisted blacked out shunny season (x2)

it’s dim in this bitch and I’m feeling disgusted
I hit play to this beat to end all of my function
and hopefully the good and bad meet
to deceive all the lies coming
but I can’t wait
this impatience is flooding my brain to nothing
just the miserable acts of this everyday hustlin’
it’s not work to me it’s just something I do
like my lungs loving the bud burning
thought I knew enough but I am still learning
and what I haven’t figured out is

who am I to you
and who are you to me
I’m just a dream
here tonight
gone tomorrow with no goodbye (x2)

goonie in the dark late night he was tweakin
roomy in his head empty and dead from the deep end
I wonder what happened to me last weekend
died under a twisted blacked out shunny season (x2)

WHO AM I TO YOU prod. killedmyself

Still Learning

Produced by @killedmyself

lyrics

all of the thoughts I’ve held in
they’re digging in under my skin
the love and lost I can forgive
but no one else knows me like this (x2)

so now I must figure out a way to live
but bad starts when I down my own brown bag beverage 
grab a light, inhale, and I’m just tryna forget
all the time I have spent

save me a spot at the cemetery
lay me to rot to be at peace and buried

I’m gone and I’m gone and I’m gone and
I’m gone
yes I’m still learning (x2)

all of the thoughts I’ve held in
they’re digging in under my skin
the love and lost I can forgive
but no one else knows me like this (x2)

STILL LEARNING prod. killedmyself

бытие

Produced by @killedmyself

lyrics

things just don’t work out all the time
you just have to search and find
what is wrong right now
what has got you down (x2)

wallow in shame, feel this hollow slow pain
with wrong thoughts in my brain and nothing else to say
just be solo and stray at the end of the day
no reason to leave, no reason to stay
delete everything and erase my face
loathing all the things that I’d create
breaking the peace that was keeping me sane
I cope with this grief and hope it goes away

things just don’t work out all the time
you just have to search and find
what is wrong right now
what has got you down

бытие prod. killedmyself

Nothing Is Free

Produced by @killedmyself

lyrics

nothing is free (x3)
that’s what this world has taught me
nothing is free (x3)
that’s what my daddy told me
he said son, 
make your life and go out
and don’t be stuck on my couch
took in the words that you would shout
now I’m dreaming the scheme
throughout these doubts
looking ahead over me
view the years from now
a fantasy, a misbelief, I was in a hideout
I wanna hide away from me
in this cranial cavity
to disrupt then I bounce
what I mean
fall asleep and never come out
let the experience flow
just to show my ground
in a field of disease
the mold will grow
and stay poor of this drought
where will I go? I don’t know
but sure I’ll find out
in a different day
with a different mind
this is is my way down

nothing is free

NOTHING IS FREE prod. killedmyself

одинокий [alone]

(Lyrics)
Stuck in this room, called a mind without walls
No door to let me out so I live, try to stay strong
Tell myself once more that I’ve done nothing wrong
Well this won’t reassure that my memories are gone (x2)

So don’t take my words for granted

I was calm when you would panic

Lonesome days could weigh real drastic

When the stage of ending happens

ОДИНОКИЙ prod. twofivesix

Harder Times

(Lyrics)
Shunny been through harder times
But that’s not the end of them
I can see the signs ahead
Intertwined in my life again (x2)

Just know no body can fuck with you
When the actions are true and the words are few
Goonie off a couple thangs and the Backwoods too
The mind whirls into a blur but I remember you
Bringing me more harder times
A deja vu  
Blank face, changed ways, always staying mute
In a new state of my fugue
Doing what I what I wanna do
Proving nothing I’m a soon find a move to the truth



No sleep tonight for me
Feels like the only thing I need
If I close my eyes then I’ll probably see
you in the dark sitting under the trees(x2)

I couldn’t explain it right
I couldn’t explain it right
just going through harder times
just going through harder times (x2)

HARDER TIMES prod. FourTwenty.sad X BOONE

I hate what I've become again
Why do I always seem to lose my head?
I'm tired of feeling overwhelmed 
No bit of peace around to be found

Stay out
Leave now
(yeah)
Don't come around 
Don't come around no more

I've suppressed the pain inside
Now it seems I no longer have to hide
the emotions I've been running from
Been a while since I've seen the sun...

N O M O R E [Prod. Chillaska]

“Her Last Words”
Prod by. @hoolproduction

(Lyrics)

I burn the bridges we both walked on
Our differences are far long gone
A promise goes both ways
and that’s a hard one to make (x2)

Decisions, decisions
Oh I’m losing my vision
Staring at the walls
Waiting for a new rhythm 

But all I think about are her last words
But all I think about are her last words

...

Don’t trip on love gotta find a way to heal
Need to grind another bowl up,
get a brew, so I’ll fucking chill
Lil shunny blowing clouds daily
Chevy swanging, hear the 40 glass clanking on the floorboards
Yeah, I been going crazy

But all I think about are her last words
But all I think about are her last words

I burn the bridges we both walked on
Our differences are far long gone
A promise goes both ways
and that’s a hard one to make (x2)

бытие prod. killedmyself

BOONE

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