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Black Sun ft. Diverse [prod. nothingtodo]

prod @metlast
Lyrics:
Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Can you tell me what to think?
'Cause I can feel my heart shrink
I thought that I had nothing
Inside my chest
I just want to feel alive
For the last time

Nothing really seems to change
And I can't even stop to blame myself
Don't want to wake up today
I don't want to feel that pain again
Nothing really seems to change
But nothing really seems the same
I'm dying numb and cold
'Cause inside me there is no more flame

Nothing Changes [prod. metlast]

Hello, I wanna let you know
That I miss you
I wanna let you know
It is not cool
Having you not by my side
Sometimes feels like I die
I'd love to look in your eyes
I'd love to hold you tonight
I'd love to see you again
At least one more time
I think you could have warned me
I was going to be lonely
I was thinking maybe
We could grow old together
I was thinking that
I really hope
You will like this song
That goes like

Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
(I was thinking maybe) Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na (We could grow old together)
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na

Hello, remember all my feelings?
They are vanished
Remember all my love?
It is gone
Sometimes I pray you could just come back
I miss your lips kissing on my neck
Can't find the door to myself
Can't love anybody else
I want to close my eyes
Just to see you tonight
Just to see you tonight
I was thinking maybe
We could grow old together
I was thinking that
I really hope
You will like this song
That goes like

Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
(I was thinking maybe) Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na (We could grow old together)
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na

Grow Old

[Chorus]
I'm slowly dying
But no one is trying to save me
My body lying on the dirt
Will you come and take me home?
I'm slowly dying
But no one is trying to save me
My body lying on the dirt
Will you come and take me home?

[Verse]
Will you take me home?
Or will you let my body rot
Feeling so alone
You can tell by all the songs I wrote
She told me she cared then she left me
I know girl that you're gonna mess me up
I know girl that you don't believe me
When I open up and I show u my feelings

[Bridge]
I'm slowly dying
But no one is trying to save me
My body lying on the dirt
Will you come and take me home?

[Chorus]
I'm slowly dying
But no one is trying to save me
My body lying on the dirt
Will you come and take me home?
I'm slowly dying
But no one is trying to save me
My body lying on the dirt
Will you come and take me home?

Save Me

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Save Me [prod. Nothingtodo]

Lyrics:
You see it seems like no one
Has done what you've done
I mean you still mean so much    
To me but I think It's time to stop
Do not fall again for you
I know that it will not 
It won't be good for me

I tried yet to forget you
God damn why were you so special
You lied to me, I know that you 
Never loved me that was natural
Your number is no more 
In the contact list on my phone
You were something more than I thought

I hope that you will follow me
I know I'm not what you want me to be
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work
You broke my heart girl honestly
I'm not something that you can play with
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work

Although I can't leave my bed
Thoughts cannot leave my head
I'm not trynna get you back
But I'm trying to move on instead
Sad how you would play with me
Dead that's how you made me feel
Since you've been with someone else

I tried yet to forget you
God damn why were you so special
You lied to me, I know that you 
Never loved me that was natural
Your number is no more 
In the contact list on my phone
You were something more than I thought
 
I hope that you will follow me
I know I'm not what you want me to be
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work
You broke my heart girl honestly
I'm not something that you can play with
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work 
I hope that you will follow me
I know I'm not what you want me to be
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work
You broke my heart girl honestly
I'm not something that you can play with
But I'm trying so bad
To make it work

Make It Work (prod. grayskies)

Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air
Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air

But my lungs are blocked
I can't breathe now
I can feel no love
Heart doesn't beat now
Nothing really cares
while the days pass
Getting pills for the stress
Feeling so blessed
I feel the void
I can't feel a thing no more
Six feet into the soil
Sorry I'm so sore  
I know I'm not what you would want 
me to be
I'm on some drugs that numb
the pain in me 

Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air
Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air 

I remember when you tore my heart apart
Your words are the things that made me thought
That maybe together we could have last
Now I guess it's all in the past
Now I guess that you loved me less
Ask me why I'm not feeling the best
Everything is a mess

Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air
Hello, how you feel
I've been feeling kinda bad
I've been struggling to sleep
When you're not upon my bed
I've been struggling to live
But I know that you don't care
You're everything I need
You're the love that's in the air

Hello

MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW

Hello [prod. sorrowbringer]

Morning

Morning [prod. p3nguin]

Flies By

Flies By [prod. p3nguin]

Spoiler

Spoiler [prod. p3nguin]

Intoxicated

Intoxicated [prod. Calley]

Lyrics:
And I thought that
I had someone close
But then I found out
I had no one
Cause all the love shows
But when you need it
You find the sign "closed"
Inside their heart
And I thought that the world was different
But seems that no one wants to listen
To my problems, to my issues and my thoughts

You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me
You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me

And I know that's an illusion
But I'm lost in the confusion
You're the only thing
That helps me sort my mind
And I love the way you sing me
All the songs that you enjoy
When you text me that you miss me
'Cause you broke up with another boy
And I thought that the world was different
But seems that no one wants to listen
To my problems, to my issues and my thoughts

You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me
You may hate me, love me
Make me feel so lonely
But I love the way you hurt me
Yes I love the way you hurt me

The Way You Hurt Me (prod. grayskies)

Anxiety [prod. Calley]

Lyrics:
Thought we're gonna try it out together
Thought we're gonna try to stay forever
When I'll see you again? I guess never
How long does it take to feel better?
x2

How long does it take to feel something?
I want it all because I got nothing
I want to hold you, kiss you softly
I understand you don't need to be sorry
I don't really need someone that is not you
Left me alone when I thought that I got you
Who am I supposed to love if not you? 
Who am I supposed to call if not you?
I'm afraid you won't be in my life anymore
I try my best to get you back but you're gone  

Thought we're gonna try it out together
Thought we're gonna try to stay forever
When I'll see you again? I guess never
How long does it take to feel better?
x2

I belong to you 
Thats what I always said
So I don't wanna leave right now
Do not let me down again
They tell me do not think about the past
But then the past comes back
And I'm not nostalgic
Of all the times that they left me
Why cant I just rest in peace
Why cant I just rest in peace
I do not want to live
Like this 

Thought we're gonna try it out together
Thought we're gonna try to stay forever
When I'll see you again? I guess never
How long does it take to feel better?
x2

Better [prod. Calley]

I got too many pictures of you in my phone
Now I'm blue, I've been feeling so blue and alone
In my room I've been filling the room with the smoke
Just 'cause you played me like a fool, I did fall

Too many pictures of you on my iphone
Gotta buy a new one, maybe Samsung
Losing all my hopes 'cause I'm not
Good and not enough for anyone
Memories fade
I wish pain could do the same
Why would you play
With my feelings like a game
Memories fade
I wish pain could do the same
Why would you play
With my feelings like a game

I got too many pictures of you in my phone
Now I'm blue, I've been feeling so blue and alone
In my room I've been filling the room with the smoke
Just 'cause you played me like a fool, I did fall

Too Many Pictures of You [prod. Jkei]

To anybody who noticed the change of the prod. I replaced the beat with one made by me with the same guitar sample because the first one was sold. I hope you will like it.
Thanks to @nicoteenninyo for the collab, he's a really talented guy.

[gothurted]
Do you know how it feels like
Staying alone 
Do you know how it feels like
Nowhere's home
Do you know how it feels like
Crying again
Do you know how it feels like
To hide this pain

[nicoteen ninyo]
I sleep alone in my tears
thinking bout everything
wondering what my life would be like
if you were here with me

Then I wake up from my dream
Without you next to me
With this space in my chest

As a tear rolls down my cheek
I drown in my nicotine
To heal this black plague you left

But I'm still empty
And I'm only twenty
I wish you could hear me
I wish you could know
what it feels like

[gothurted & nicoteen ninyo]
Do you know how it feels like
Staying alone 
Do you know how it feels like
Nowhere's home
Do you know how it feels like
Crying again
Do you know how it feels like
To hide this pain

feels like ft. nicoteen ninyo [prod. gothurted]

thanks to @deadfishpoland for have saved this Tuesday's song

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you'on really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

[verse(deadfish)]
I don't need you
you never said back anything like "love u"
stop hitting up my phone, nothing's there to stop u
from fucking killing me

When you have said that we are fine
we were looking at the stars
when you've walked past me that first time
I thought that u could shine
and show me where's the light
in my dark and shady life
man that was a mistake
to keep believing that all was fine
keep on trying
now I'm crying

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you don't really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

i don't need you ft. deadfish [prod. myhzy]

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

prod @metlast

[lyrics]
I don't want to open my eyes
Cause your face fades
I don't want to see you cry
Cause your fake friends
I don't want to wake up, no 
I just want to make it, now
I don't want to cry for you
I don't want to fall for you 

I don't want to open my eyes
'Cause your face fades
I don't want to see you cry
'Cause your fake friends
I don't want to wake up, no 
I just want to make it, now
I don't want to cry for you
I don't want to fall for you 

Life does not satisfy me
Want a couple bitches in my Audi
Bitch, you know that I'm gonna make it
I can see you cried from your make up
Life does not satisfy me
Shit ain't going well Imma dive in
Get what I deserve for this suffering
Hurt another bitch while I'm drowning
Bitch, I'm drowning

I'm falling in the dark
You're my only light 
I feel like I'm stuck
Inside the darkest night
Inside the darkest night

I don't want to open my eyes
Cause your face fades
I don't want to see you cry
Cause your fake friends
I don't want to wake up, no 
I just want to make it, now
I don't want to cry for you
I don't want to fall for you 

I don't want to open my eyes
'Cause your face fades
I don't want to see you cry
'Cause your fake friends
I don't want to wake up, no 
I just want to make it, now
I don't want to cry for you
I don't want to fall for you


Life does not satisfy me
Want a couple bitches in my Audi
Bitch, u know that I'm gonna make it
I can see you cried from your make up
Life does not satisfy me
Shit ain't going well Imma dive in
Get what I deserve for this suffering
Hurt another bitch while I'm drowning

I Don't Want To Wake Up [prod.metlast]

Prod. @prodmisan
Lyrics:

[Hook]
What's going on
Another night where I'm alone
Feeling fucked up I can't see you anymore
I just want to feel your touch on me
Not to see you drowning in your tears
What's going on
Another night where I'm alone
Feeling fucked up I can't see you anymore
I just want to feel your touch on me
Not to see you drowning in your tears

[Verse]
Not to see myself drowning in your bullshit
Or in your love words can you tell me the difference
can you tell me the difference
Trying to make you fade into this smoke
As you left fade all the words I spoke
Trying to convince myself that I don't need you
So why the fuck am I crying for you? why the fuck am I missing you?
Why the fuck am I alive? 

[Hook]
What's going on
Another night where I'm alone
Feeling fucked up I can't see you anymore
I just want to feel your touch on me
Not to see you drowning in your tears
What's going on
Another night where I'm alone
Feeling fucked up I can't see you anymore
I just want to feel your touch on me
Not to see you drowning in your tears

Fall [prod. misan]

prod: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGDePQVGIZccm9g0UwoNOgg
@metlast
lyrics:

[Chorus]
If you want you know
That together we shine
Is when I fall in love
That I feel like I'm blind
I feel like the time
Is going way too fast
I'm looking back
Regretting my whole past    
x2

[Verse]
And now that I'm crying
That I'm falling apart
U text me I miss u
But I know u're lying
Hurt me back
Scars on my neck
Scars on my wrists
Make me bleed again
Make me face the life
Show me what a bitch it is
Let me break your heart 
Then show me how it feels
Shout me how it feels
Kill me in my sleep
So that I wont need to see
Whats going on
Whats going wrong
In my life

[Chorus]
If you want you know
That together we shine
Is when I fall in love
That I feel like I'm blind
I feel like the time
Is going way too fast
I'm looking back
Regretting my whole past
x2

Shine [prod. metlast]

@yungdoza

lyrics:

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: gothurted]
Picking up the call
Drunk like every single time
I don't want to hear u saying you love me 
cuz the alcohol in your blood
cuz the one u feel for me is not love
is not love
I know its a trap
I know u will switch side
when I'll be counting racks
crying on my phone
but what am I supposed to do?
what am I supposed to say?
The only thing I want is u
And u know that
I would give everything to be there with u
Cuz I'm crying, dying
Trying to get u lying inside my arms again     

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: Yung doza]
why u crying girl 
lying and the fighting girl 
with the trying girl
u make me want sigh like girl
I take a blunt to the face
I do not care what she says 
she wanna fuck for the cake
she 20 she catching a case
catching cases all these girls yea they faking
and I’m counting the rackies
all these risks that I’m taking for the bag
always wanted her but then she threw me in the trash
now I'm stuck alone all in my room and smoking thrax
and she knows these gemstones on my coat shit
on my dope shit
smoking till I float shit
I don’t care no
I don’t play fair
threw me in her lair
she so see through she so clear

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

Crying feat. yung doza [prod. gothurted]

prod. @metlast

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

[Verse]
Thought that it was love
How could I be so blind?
In love with a ghost
who never looked into my eyes
never looked into my eyes
All my efforts to let you love me for once
All the times that I've seen you with someone
Else hanging around or falling in love
Bringing me down but I can't let you go
I know you probably hate me
or you may already forgot me 
whatever people say
Shawty, they'll never stop me
Wrote a lot of songs to you 
But you don't even care 

[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

apathy [prod. metlast]

Prod. @nativeb3atz

Lyrics:
[chorus]
Feeling fucked up again
Cause the smoke 
Cause I'm growing up
I just want to go
Pack my bag
Never coming back
People never give a shit
About me about who I am
Fucking tired of this
Feeling fucked up again
Cause the smoke 
Cause I'm growing up
I just want to go
Pack my bag
Never coming back
People never give a shit
About me about who I am
fucking tired of this world
I should go to bed

[Verse]
Giving colors to this gray world smoking
I can't breathe anymore, I'm choking
This life is getting so boring
Without your smile your voice I'm falling
A lot of people around me but they don't know
A lot of stuff that I'm hiding and I never show
I'm slowly dying but I'll let the time go
Anyway I am

[chorus]
Feeling fucked up again
Cause the smoke 
Cause I'm growing up
I just want to go
Pack my bag
Never coming back
People never give a shit
About me about who I am
Fucking tired of this
Feeling fucked up again
Cause the smoke 
Cause I'm growing up
I just want to go
Pack my bag
Never coming back
People never give a shit
About me about who I am
fucking tired of this world
I should go to bed

Tired of This World [prod. Native]

[verse]
What if I still miss you
Would you come back?
I will give you my everything
Will you give it back to me (to me)
All the night long
Spending it together
Go along with my life
Would you make it even better? (even better)

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind 
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now 
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

[Verse]
Lonely nights 
Talking to myself
Every time
Lying on my bed
I think about you
I think about us
Held to each other
We don't give a fuck about
What people think
What's going on

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

Hopeless [prod. micco]

prod. diamoon, odece, remghost, nate2timez, deadfish

thanks to @yungaxstn for the featuring <3 

Lyrics:

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

[verse: gothurted]
You're falling down
I'm falling for you
I've been lying on the ground
Thinking bout what I can do
To hide the tears that I drop
To show the smile that I've lost 
Seems like I loved u the most
Now I can't love anymore
insecurities, please don't look in my eyes
I don't want you to see all the pain that I hide
Wrote u thousand letters
Tell me have u ever read one
Words that fly like feathers
People that now are done

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

[verse: yung axstn]
The feeling stronger as it rushes up to me 
I feel like leaving here as there’s not much left in me 
I know I say this is a lot but I feel so fuckin hopeless
Believe it or not this is the way I’ve been feeling

[chorus: yung axstn]
This is where it gets in vain 
She barely noticed my face 
I feel my walls closing in 
Now I feel stuck in the way
I fear there’s no turning back 
From all the shit that they say 
Feels like I’m wasting my time 
There’s not much left I can take

Nothing Left ft. yung axstn

@pposture <3

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm getting bad to tell to someone I love you
'Cause every time I do so they leave
I'm getting insecure about what I will do
'Cause every time I try the world seems
To stop me to hate me to make it worse
To fool me, suffocate me, make me fall
I remember the good times me and you
I remember we calling in the afternoon 

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone 
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

[Verse]
I tried to move on but that's not easy at all
I tried to go ahead but nothing seems to work
I think I've tried everything that I could
But seems like I'll never come back to you
You told me that you loved me
What's the point?
Did you just try to fuck me up?
Life has never been easy and you made it even worse

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

Pick Up The Phone [prod. gothurted x pposture]

Happy birthday @metlast ! Love you forever <3 

Lyrics:
[chorus]
Every time you're in my mind like every day
Every time that I cry like every day
Every time that I feel like I'm shit 
Every time that you said you didn't want me 
Every time we're not more than friends 
Every second, all the time that  we have spent 
Every time you used to kill me with those texts
Every song that will bring me to the success

[Verse]
Every day waking up knowing nobody loves you
Nothing that I can everything that I try to 
Do I really wanna die?
Am I just tired to fight?
With these memories I have inside my mind
With the feelings in myself that I'm trying to hide
Everybody seems to be there but then disappear
I'm dying alone that's my biggest fear
Let me down kill me slowly
'Cause I'm still down to stay with you 

[Chorus]
Every time you're in my mind like every day
Every time that I cry like every day
Every time that I feel like I'm shit 
Every time that you said you didn't want me 
Every time we're not more than friends 
Every second, all the time that  we have spent 
Every time you used to kill me with those texts
Every song that will bring me to the success

Every Time [prod. metlast]

ty @alainite for the featuring <3 

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

[verse: alainite]
Yeah every time I do I cry
'Cause I’ve been staying up so late at night and I’m just burning
'Cause I can’t find another way to kill the pain
And I’ve been crawling down this lonely road yeah I been wasted
Just tryna find a place where I can hide my pain

'Cause you’re everything I want and more, oh
Yeah you got me so bored of everybody else I'm sure, oh
That you got me ignored like everybody else I’m sure

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

Faking a Smile ft. Alainite [prod. yunny goldz]

thanks to @web_boy for featuring in this track
and to @prodnothingtodo for the awesome beat

Lyrics:
[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: gothurted]
Dreams of a man who lost all his feelings
Dying with nobody who's caring for me
Dreams of a girl that will never believe in
The love that I feel and I'll never regret
I'm trying to get closer 
But you keep taking the distance
Pulling the trigger
I think that I can't resist that
I'll tell you my last words
I just want you to know
That I'll love you forever
With all my soul  

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: Web Boy]
Bury me in the memories
Let my remains lie in the Ostankino
(Lie in the Ostankino x3)
Just forgive me
I didn’t want to end everything this way
But there was no choice
//
Похорони меня
В воспоминаниях
Мои останки пусть
Лежат в Останкино
(Лежат в Останкино х3)
Просто прости меня
Я не хотел чтоб так
Пришлось заканчивать
Но нету выбора

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

Inside My Dreams ft. Web Boy [prod. nothingtodo]

Lyrics.

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

[verse]
I can't even sleep
'Cause I'm busy crying
I can't even think
Thoughts are intensifying
You were the one who I loved
Since when I've met you and now
You're gone, so far away 
My phone misses your name
I can't fall in love no more
I guess nobody else has what I'm looking for

[hook]
I can tell by how she hugs me
She doesn't care about me 
Tell me that you love me 
But you know that I won't fall for it
Tell by how she look at me
She doesn't feel a thing
Leave my fucking dreams
'Cause I cannot even sleep
x2

She Doesn't Care About Me [prod. dead spyro]

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Suicide, don't let me die
My eyes are blind, but I still try
Do you still cry
'Cause I still cry
And I can't find
Some peace of mind
So Imma just do everything to get fucked up again
'Cause I don't really need your voice inside my head
No more pain
No more blood
It's all the same
It's never enough

[hook: gothurted]
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find
You can see it in my eyes
There is nothing inside me
So sick of this life
And I'm thinking about it
Suicide is on my mind 
Inner peace what I'm trying to find

Inner Peace [prod. metlast] w/frvr&alwys

tysm to @frvrndalwys for collaborating with me on this awesome project <3

Lyrics

[hook: gothurted]
Why do everybody act like I'm nothing?
Like I'm nothing, Like I'm nothing
Why do everybody act like they know me?
You know nothing about me
Why do everybody act like I'm nothing?
Like I'm nothing, Like I'm nothing
Why do everybody act like they know my feelings?
You know nothing about how I feel

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Need something I just need something
Cause I've lost everything
And now I know I'm nothing
Just feels like no one loves me
My head don't feel clear
I've been getting high just thinking about her
And if I die next year
With nobody here
I won't forget about what we were
Oh I know
That it's so cold
Oh
This road
Don't lead home
All alone
Nowhere to go

[hook: gothurted]
Why do everybody act like I'm nothing?
Like I'm nothing, Like I'm nothing
Why do everybody act like they know me?
You know nothing about me
Why do everybody act like I'm nothing?
Like I'm nothing, Like I'm nothing
Why do everybody act like they know my feelings?
You know nothing about how I feel

Nothing [prod. nothingtodo] w/frvr&alwys

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

[verse]
Try to spend a life without me
Even if I know that for you that's easy
Hitting on a blunt now I'm feeling dizzy
Without your arms around me
I swear that I'm freezing
You make me feel like
I'm not enough for you
No matter what I do
No matter my efforts
I got no more force
I'm trying to let you understand
You were my only friend
You were the only one I love
And I will love forever
I can't still accept that we'll never be together
'Cause you took me out from the darkness
But then you let me down
And the sky looks starless

[hook]
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing
And I'm hitting up your phone
And I see you never hit me back
Feeling so alone
'Cause you told me that you need a break
Can you understand how the fuck I'm feeling?
Try to spend a life without breathing

Without Breathing [prod. Ahnboi]

prod. Morin x Miracle

Lyrics:
[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

[verse]
Till the day you die
You will be alone
With the hug of the drugs
Making you feel loved
Making you feel something
But you know that's nothing
Cause those feelings have no meaning
Bottle up the screams in a heartache
Nobody helps they only care about their own sake
You're a prey in a world of vultures
Feeling hopeless and seeing no future

[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

MUSIC VIDEO

Last Day [prod. Morin x Miracle]

prod. Noria

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm done with the love that you talk about but never show
I'm sick of feeling like I'm just another one
I'm done with the endless calls looking at my phone 
Thinking about all the feelings that I don't feel anymore
Just right now that I thought it was over
You cry and beg me to stay like a lover
I was there when nobody else was
But now I'm feeling better because

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

[verse]
(Every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck)
Remember the past years spent together?
You were the one saying that nothing lasts forever
You were the one saying that I should move on
Now that I'm trying, you don't want, what's going on
Do you love me or you don't want me to be free?
I don't like that you disappear and then you don't want me to leave
You can't blame me for the decisions I'm taking
I know I said this before but

[hook]
I'm trying to live in a world without you
A world where gray's everywhere that I look
A world where you're not anymore the sun waking me up
And every step I take doesn't feel like I'm stuck
x2

A World Without You [prod. noria]

lyrics:

I want you back
You want me dead
I was just trying to tell you I'm sad
Give me your hand
I need your help
Even if I know you're playing pretend
Said that I'm fine 
Multiple times
I swear that I've never told you other lies
Never hidden anything but the cries
Feels like its been couple days but the time flies
And the time rise up all the memories making me die
When your head lied up on my chest I was feeling alive
I was feeling somebody
Ended up being no one
Now I'm just a dead body
Walking looking for someone
Looking for some fun
But I be going through hell
Cause you used a shotgun
To break my shell
I'm not feeling well
Locked up in a cell
my only way out
is to kill myself

I Want You Back, You Want Me Dead [prod. capsctrl]

Lyrics:

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries 
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

[verse]
I've been so stupid trusting you
I knew nobody is ever honest
I think I'll keep on avoiding you
I'm just a lone wolf inside this forest
Living my life like I've always done and
Living my life all alone 
I swear that I'm so sorry mother
But your son now is gone

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

Dark Place [prod. Young Kxge]

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

[verse]
Move on from all the sore
You caused me
Living a life
Built upon all your lies
Built upon all the cries
For you
I got no more love for you
You tried to play me for a fool
We used to call right after school
Until the rising of the moon
Hope we're cool boo
Wrote another song for you
Didn't sleep all night cause you
I was counting just on you
(I was counting just on you, all night)

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

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