ANESTHESIA

YOU COULDN'T LOVE IF YOU WANTED TO

prod. me + @rjpasin
mixed and mastered by me and @mxjia4123

lyrics:

At the time it felt right
Keep a dull knife, cut the tension one slice
(But you lie)
You’re not for the long time
Rip my heart out and keep it on ice, yeah

Lying to myself thinking maybe you’ll make it alright
Phone on dnd, ignore the FaceTime
This shit don’t feel right
I’m losing my mind
(What am I doing?)
Living or killing my time?

I can’t take it anymore
Libras calling at my door
I’m so sick of faking love
Why can’t it all be like before

Why’d I ever come here I knew this shit wouldn’t feel right
Always been an optimist, been harder looking for the light

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

Sick of wasting my time
Wishing I could rewind
I would never ever ever see you again

I’ve come way too far to throw it all away
Nails on a chalkboard when I hear your name

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

(yeah) it's been a long ride
had to keep my distance, making up for lost time
(so goodbye)
told my hubris step aside
i cant keep these feelings bottled up, caught in a landslide

onyx stone around my neck
while youre coming for my head
told the devil cut the check
i hate to leave with disrespect, cuz youre

tripping off a white lie
make it out with my life
that’s why I’m so sick of love
i know I’ll never feel the same

I can’t take it anymore
Libras calling at my door
I’m so sick of faking love
Why can’t it all be like before

Why’d I ever come here I knew this shit wouldn’t feel right
Always been an optimist, been harder looking for the light

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

Sick of wasting my time
Wishing I could rewind
I would never ever ever see you again

I’ve come way too far to throw it all away
Nails on a chalkboard when I hear your name

Heard it through the grapevine
Your a walking landmine
And I’m never stepping on it again

libra

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maybe i'm focusing on all the wrong things

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lyrics:

[intro]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 1]
Optimism, ain’t that shit funny?
When the world we live in’s all 'bout the money
Money ultra rich own half of, won’t budge it at all
We turn to politicians, hope they’ll do something
Feigning altruism, but they do nothing
Crushing lives as they take rights from the people I love
So they’ll say “what do we do?”
As if there’s something to choose
We’re living lives of abuse
All at the hands of a few
I’m asking “what do I do?”
I guess I thought I could choose
Between the art and the views
A stable life to pursue
Obtuse, reduced my character

[chorus 1]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 2]
Jokes on us
They don’t give a fuck about nothing
At all if it don't benefit them all ways
I’ll say what's on my mind but it’ll get lost
Get lost if you ain’t picking it up
The thing 'bout me is I already lost
I dream 'bout peace and a renaissance
I can’t show more than I'm letting on
Just know I tried for you
Opened my eyes to this industry I was mortified
They tryna trip you and fuck you up on the borderlines
Think imma burn all my bridges and my important ties
I hold my tongue
They hold all the money money
Go round me used to wish they loved me loved me
Oh I know better than that now
Oh I know better than that now

[chorus 2]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go
Look
'Cause I don’t wanna talk I'd rather
Die before I let you see the
Before I let you see the
Person I’ve become
In my pursuit to be someone
I shoulda fuckin known
You gotta let me go

[outro]
I tried to let you go
But empathy means nothing when you're
Scared to be alone
Pick up the fucking phone

break! (feat. Jay Kim)

coming home

i don't know what u want

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lyrics:

[intro]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 1]
wake up
feel nauseous
can’t worry bout the state of
my conscience
i’ll put it off
makeup
look flawless
it’s starting to get harder to breathe
they’re looking at me
and breaking me down
there’s no one around
i pushed them away ‘cause it was easier then
but it’s not easier now
got friends in the ground
so what the fucks one cog to machines?
they’re so hard to please
i’m shutting me down

[chorus 1]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 2]
wait
i was giving you all i thought you’d need
then the money showed up to cloud my feed
knew exactly who i was meant to be
but when they thought i was dreaming
they left me to bleed my heart out
greed ain’t start out
the way it does on TV
they fucking left me to
bleed my heart out
feed my fall out
with everyone tied to me
i’m supposed to grow and adjust
(i wanna die)
but i’ve been dreaming up machines
(no not literally, fuck)
that i could use as a front
(just wanna cry)
and i can hardly fucking breathe with all this weed
('cause i hate the way i look)
in my lungs
(i'll realign my spine and hide inside the baseline)
what i thought you needed was perceived
as being something i'm not
(anything i can do to feel unalive)
so go on tell all your friends that i don’t know what you want

[chorus 2]
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

zombie

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fractured

to reminisce reveals the signs

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lyrics:

[intro]
doesn't make a difference
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
no lie

[verse 1]
were you just a figment of imagination?
i can’t tell if this is legit
ruminate on whether there was indication
tell myself I’ll never forget
i was going left, you were cutting right
play pretend
and shut down feigning peace of mind
and now we’re tryna fill the silence
i never guessed, but i coulda, right?
what’s to worry 'bout now?
got shit redefined
when they took your life away
no i don’t wanna waste more time
at twenty-two losing you made my state of mind
something i’d hide inside
embody strength for the ones who’ve cried
so i don’t think i ever wanna waste more time
‘cause now i’m through tryna prove i’m not fake sometimes
guess i outgrew needing to feel your eyes
under my guise of truth conveyed

[chorus 1]
now i know
to reminisce reveals the signs
(i couldn't see 'em
go, go on reveal 'em, come on)
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(eyes on the ceiling
conflict with no meaning at all)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[verse 2]
got mites in my skin
can’t fight from within
despise who i’ve been
can’t lie just to win
your life was akin to
light, lacking sin
took flight from the wind
held tight, lost my grip
cut ties from the script
lost sight, start to slip
guard eyes with a sip
keep tryna forget
can’t cry, hold it in
get high and eclipse
goodbyes for a bit
defy, don’t admit
ask why, throw a fit
(I fall to my knees)
deny, take a hit
(my hear rate's jumping)
reply to assist
(300 degrees)
july came and went
(the blood starts pumping)
no time to exist
(wait what do you mean?)
i’m fine, I insist
(this can't be where it ends)
combine what i missed
write rhymes in the midst
(no I just can't comprehend)
design don’t resist
(they're looking at me)
(get up, sit up)
i whine; pessimist
(my mouth hangs open)
(can't live slowly)
no spine, just a cyst
(keep trying to speak)
(give up; you don't even know me)
my mind starts to twist
(my voice stays broken)
(put trust in us)
inclined to assist
(I'm falling between)
(can't control me)
inside, fucking pissed
(regret for words unsaid)
(shut up)
i tighten my fist
(and disbelief inside my head)
(enough allegories)
got eyes full of mist

[chorus 2]
to reminisce reveals the signs
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(don't go)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[outro]
doesn't make a difference
(to reminisce reveals the signs)
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
(oh god it hurts to feel sometimes)
no lie
this no lie

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