prod xona

-lyrics-
and I can’t wake up today
where I can’t speak, you’re in my way
I got bad thoughts all again
and I wish these things would end 
I’ll get everything you wish and ever wanted
I’ll tell you that I love you and I’m being honest
and I have thought of you since of august
so don’t look at me and leave me with no comment

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, I fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess 
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

I don’t want to hear your name 
I roll my eyes and I tend to look away 
I should’ve told you what’s the matter from that day
and I don’t feel okay with your name
I can feel it through my bones and it aches
I try and I try to pour the blame
and I wish you could’ve came my way
I find it funny that you see this as a game

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, i fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

pessimist

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produced by grayskies

@xona
@grasior

-lyrics-
the world turned black and white
hold control be ready to fight
paranoia taking over your brain
are you scared to die this way
life wont be the same
lost all hope to die in vain
wrong or right i cant go back
its life or death in this no mans land

but im scared
of who ive become
im scared
that I might be like you

who decides where we go down in this road
pile up, the rest of what we’ve honed
nobody could save me
it’s awfully, all on me 
but the gas on your hands
a creation of a man 
to atomize the land
build it from the sand
on your hands
on my hands…

but I’m scared
of what I’ve become
I’m scared
that I’m like you

you got me on the low 
and I can’t find a way
to leave a broken plane
you caused in disarray 

they’ll all fall
for the ones near
me, to bring calm...

dollar flu w/ grasior ✩ (grayskies)

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(lyrics)
I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice 


wake up and leave it
cuz you know how I get

no point in speaking
cuz I know how you get

bobbin and weavin
cuz I know how things get

lock it and throw it 
there's keys I'm not keepin

crashing and rollin
I'm killing the contest

descending I plummet
I'm crushing on pavement

bloody and battered 
all on the horizon

keepin it scattered 
dismembered and timid


I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice (x2)

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sorry for being so inactive :') [discern & self-loathe]

winter

purpose

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

Produced by: grasior

Lyrics:
lost all hope
thinking id be ok
falling apart for you
just make it new

you're so cold,
and after everything your something to behold
I left you out
so I see my goals
you're breaking ground
damn your so profound
we should've never gone out

with it over
I feel closure
can't let you rot away my brain

i see the silhouettes drawn on my walls
it got me going of the withdrawals

you make me nervous
please don’t resurface
everything but us had a purpose

oh i wonder how you got this way
you watched me slowly burn away in decay

you're so cold,
and after everything your something to behold
I left you out
so I see my goals
you're breaking ground
damn your so profound
we should've never gone out
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flower petals ✾

a cover of better of dead by @8graves

lyrics:

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

Break and mend
Hear the call
A crack in the sky
Be a friend
Build a wall
And I’ll be the fly
I’ve been staring out the window
At the world burning down
You can nail it to my head, no
I’m not wearing the crown

It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

I was made
In the dark
Original sin
Be the blade
Leave your mark
And I’ll be the skin
I’ve been living with no feelings
I get so sick and tired
Of just staring at the ceiling
While the room is on fire

It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head, oh no

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

I need keys
That can’t be made
The sun and the shade
A needle and thread
What I feel
Is best unsaid
It’s not safe inside my head, oh no

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead
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flower petals ✾

grasior - better off dead (8 graves)

prod by me >\< 
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lyrics:
picking pieces of my own flesh
leaving bruises all around my neck
so why the hell do i still remenice
about the past, about the girl who went and stabbed me in the back

stezzy u should go and calm down
don’t let your emotions take u now
and i tend to let them fucking in
i tend to hide to my feelings that’s inside and that i hold within

can’t u tell that i’m a little pissed?
but yet no one even gives a shit
and no one bothers to go ask at all
they rather go and ask “oh that’s cool but when is ur next damn song?”

maybe i just need a little break
from the people that are always fake
i just wanna go and live my life 
without going a day with hearing all of these stupid fucking lies

feeling cold might have a fever 
and she really think i need her
feeling cold might have a fever
take a second, need a breather

blood on ur face
get the hell out of my way
you don’t care about me
so i show u the same
leave it to u
to fuck up everything
that we ever had
man u must be glad (x2

feeling cold might have a fever 
and she really think i need her
feeling cold might have a fever
take a second, need a breather

i’ve lost 
everyone now
at this point it’s not a joke now
and i hate it
god i hate it
        ♡

fever

Produced by: grasior

lyrics:
same old world but a different you
hide face from every view
your skeleton in the dark still shows
oh god wouldn't you know

an escape you knew
situate new you
yet it hurts when you go back
everything you loved slowly turned black

yeah the shit you built is only complicated
every line just to get more faded
spending life drowned intoxicated
ruined your perception and be the hated

hide your face from
hide your face, face (x2)

I lost the better side of you
to the past that drew
but the angel that I knew
struck its halo to help you

but your greed
and your need
let it die in no piece

grit your teeth
your enemy
could only be yourself
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flower petals ✾

hide your face

produced by me (dawsin)
guitars by (michael warren)

I hope to take you on a trip with my pain ;l

lyrics ♡:
oh my god- 
im not enough
please-
leave me alone
save me
"dawsin"-
JUST A BLUFF
i cant do this anymore man-
god it hurts
"dawsin"-
ROUGH
ITS KILLING ME- 
"dawsin"- 
FROM THE INSIDE
YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK
"dawsin"-

oh no i know shes a narcissist
I know now that she cannot resist
me and my peakest form
its the calm 'fore the biggest storm

i would write a love letter but its not enough
cause I would know cause everytime she talks its just a bluff 
so dont compare our lives like you always had it rough
but when i tell you that you just say you dont give a fuck

I woke up and im ready tea-r-r shit down
your the only one that i want around
and no i am never seen
what do you want that's best for me?

I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BRO BUT YOU NEVER EVEN SHOWED UP
NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD BE A PRICK THATS ALSO STUCK UP
I THINK YOUR RIGHT WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE A FUCK UP
ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT I GOT THE SHIT SIDE OF LUCK

*laugh*
I
AM
ATOMIC

IM RUNNING OUTTA TIME NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS FEAR
I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT IS NOTHING I WILL SHOW YOU THE DESPAIR
AND WHILE YOU SIT THERE AND CRY ILL MAKE A KNOT IN MY HAIR
SO YOU FEEL PITY WHEN IM GASPING FOR THE AIR

despair

prod acey 

lyrics:
what happened what’s wrong?
wiping the blood from your wrists and your arm
how did you know?
oh you’re in harm..
it’s late don’t go 
its not safe at home
if you didn’t know 
where would you go?
would it have been too late?
don’t be sorry 
i’m just glad you’re okay 
brown hair 
mascara down your face 
i’m sorry i pushed you away 
it wasn’t my fault
they wouldn’t let you stay 
i shoulda done more 
i regret it every-

what happened what’s wrong?
wiping the blood from your wrists and your arm 
how did you know?
you’re in harm..
you can stay with
please don’t say sorry
it’s be alright 
i’ll make sure you’re just fine
blood dripping 
it still haunts 
wish i could say sorry 

look what i have done 
what have i done

brunette

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics;
she think that im crazy, she thinks im insane
she wants me to go, but whishes that id stay
so she grounds herself, and then pulls by the chain
she dosent know why, but still fucks with my brain
she think that im crazy, she thinks im insane
she wants me to go but still thinks of my name
so she goes away and still holds me with blame
she says that she cares but still puts me in flames

so stop
everything that i felt was not allowed
she either got sad, mad, or had a frown
she either ghosts me or hang out with her friends
my words were nothing, can u have respect

i did it all for u, just for fucking what
for u to go and block me, just for some fun
i fucking warned u, now look what u just did
i fucking told u, now look and what u just did
you remember all the names we would name our kid?
and how we had our future planned, but now im pissed
and you wonder why im mad all of the time
and you wonder why im never fucking fine

oh please can u wait a minute?
oh god can we call a second?
my love we can talk about it
so please talk so maybe we can fix it
maybe we can fix it

grasior - better off dead (8 graves)

grasior ✾

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