everything to me ft. days to waste

it's over, u can go home now. w/ casperrr (pekarot)

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

kinda meh
produced by chalyre

(pull up chalyre)

(whoa whoa)
(whoa whoa)
(yeah yeah)

youre sowing doubts
run your mouth
little bitch what are you talking about
hoe reroute
don’t come around
the dogs will sniff you out
hear that sound
best get down
6 feet underground
why you frowning?
you too scared to duke it out?

your bloodline ends with you under a pyre
shame how you went and turned me into a liar
quit holding on youre fighting for survival
just let it go youre stuck in your denial

im seeing ghosts
took another hit to feel some more
pussy what you waiting for?

grip the steel
how’s it feel
9mm your meal
quit begging your fate is sealed

ill disappear
6 months from me you won’t hear
this clone looked into a mirror
ill turn into what you fear

cleanse

prod by me

- lyrics -
so let me go
theres nothing down below
your eyes spoke to my heart
made me feel apart

but somehow when you go running off
i can feel the dark 
sneak into my head
let me sit in bed thinking of you

letting go is a place of a place
my body still man i hate who i am
messages that i cant explain
fuck i rot when im in my brain

motios gone numb
split a tab outside inthe sun
friends been knocked off
cause i'm lsot in thoughts that they hate me too

but i dont wanna be alone
disconnect from those who hold me close
the saving long gone
my head is empthy im jsut scared to sit alone
too long x4
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flower petals ✾

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song i made just for that day to come by 
guitar by me

lyrics:

i don't want you to leave
but I know you're not mine
oh
you give what you get
and it's never quite right

and it gets hard to tell
when you put on your face
is there anyone there?
are you all just a shape?

so just go if you want
it won't hurt me at all
i've been gone from the start
and I've been far from your heart

so when I saw your face
i should have walked away
but I held you so close
when I knew you were cold

so you can do what you like
i don't care what you do
cuz you don't care for me
and I'm not one for you

so just go if you want
it won't hurt me at all
i've been gone from the start
and I've been far from your heart

08-07-25

drive u crazy (w/ altwys.)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

GG Promises Volumes 1 - 15 Released 9-1-2025 Director & Conductor & Principal Benjamin Hill Producer, Benjamin Hill, coproducer IBen Morton Mastering Benjamin Hill, Mixing, Benjamin Hill, Recording Engineer Benjamin Hill, assistant engineer IBen Morton All songs written by Benjamin Hill and IBen Morton Composers IBen Morton and Benjamin Hill Benjamin and Benjamin, Programming, Percussion, Keyboards, Synthesizers, Bells, various Vocals, IBen Morton and Benjamin Hill Label, IBen Morton Music, IBen Morton and Company, IBen Morton Company Music, IMCM

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