OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO IS HERE:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgT6aimnQHN0fnLX1wkT4_Q

About: The internal and emotional struggle with yourself when you let go of someone you really care and love. Coping with self forgiveness, love and your inner demons.

Welcome to Gravity of Explosion YAAAY! :D

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WRITTEN AND COMPOSED: Emre Tekinalp
SHOT AND DIRECTED: Emre Tekinalp
VISUAL EFFECTS: Emre Tekinalp

VOCALS RECORDED AT: Soundhouse studios
https://www.soundhousestudios.com/

DRUMS: David Lanas
https://www.fiverr.com/davidlanas
https://www.youtube.com/c/DavidLanas

MIXED AND MASTERED: Felipe Grüber
https://www.fiverr.com/felipegruber
https://felipegruber.com/
https://www.youtube.com/user/fepodistrust

BAND LOGO DESIGN: Chuck
https://www.fiverr.com/aychuck

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
∞ Nicolas Miebach aka Nico
∞ Homayoun Haghgoo aka Molloy 
∞ David Lanas aka DrumGod
∞ Felipe Grüber aka SoundMaster
∞ Chuck aka Aychuck
∞ Soundhouse Studios
∞ My friends and family for supporting me through all times

This music video was heavily inspired by Kentaro Miura, the creator of berserk, who sadly passed away beginning of May 2021. I went full out on this production in honor of him. 
Thank you Kentaro Miura and rest in peace.

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∞ LYRICS ∞

Darkness cover me

Sure

Come Darkness cover me
Quench your thirst and
Raging through my veins

Yeah Yeah

And when you shout and scream
I can see your fear
Facing me

What will you do?
Can’t hurt me anymore
Changing the roles now and you
Feel the flames arise!

A mind so malign
I will defy
I will defy

Yeah
Sure

Enough of all the lies
Telling yourself 
And fucking it up
In style 

Yeah Yeah

The spark that will ignite
Will perish the night and
Drowning the thoughts
Alive

Taking back control
The king reclaims his throne
Open your eyes and you will
See the change inside

And I don’t mind
To redefine
To redefine

Change your mind
When you change inside
Align in divinity

You have to
Forgive yourself
Serenade your past
Treasure all the memories

Set your sails and
Don’t look back
Face the task ahead
To a distant enclave

Now or never
In this life
I will make you mine
For all eternity

All eternity

Break through the shiny gate
The curtain will reveal
A false fantasy

Yeah yeah

Instead just turn within
To find the truth
The peace you still seek

Visions so unknown 
One day will be reborn
Only if you really 
Let it go in time

And truth you'll find
Once you are aligned
You are aligned

Help me to survive
A flood of pain arise
Rising tides like waves are breaking
Crush against my skull   

Hollow is my heart
The urge to fill it up
Why we always have the need to fill a gap inside?

Can’t we be complete?
With what we are and see

Why we never feel enough
And searching love 
From the outside

Is it hard to be?
To seek love within
To love deep within

The fuck
More madness I will bring
Feed me with your insecurities

Yeah Yeah

The missing piece is me
I will give you fuel to be complete

Where would be the light?
I am your dark knight
Without me
You would not even change inside

Irrational mind
You’ve crucified
You’re crucified

Change your mind
When you change inside
Align in divinity

You have to
Forgive yourself
Serenade your past
Treasure all the memories

Set your sails and
Don’t look back
Face the task ahead
To a distant enclave

Now or never
In this life
I will make you mine
For all eternity

All eternity

All eternity
Darkness cover me
Yeah 
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah

~~~~~~~~~~

Y finalmente... hoy era el día... una memoria susurrante que llevaré a mi tumba... una carga en mi pecho... ​las palabras que no pude encontrar en aquel entonces. Gracias por los recuerdos buenos. Lo que teníamos era especial. Los guardaré en buenos recuerdos. Te deseo lo mejor.

Change

Hello wonderful people of the Soundcloud heavens,

this is part one of two songs I have written in the last 8 months. 
It was in summer 2019. For months and weeks it was hot, sunny with blue skies. But there was one day in August where it all of a sudden started to rain. This song captures this moment between two people and the internal turmoil and self-talk following after that event.

~~~~~~~ LYRICS ~~~~~~~

-- Intro --

Hahahaha 
Welcome 
To your nightmare
You knew this inevitable day had to come aah
How does it feel breaking her heart now? 
I know it eats you up from the inside

You feel the guilt and
Really wanna reach out 
But cannot break your own vow
Sadness gonna break out

Cannot blame anyone than yourself now
Destroyed our once little world now
Tell me can you ever live with yourself now?
Causing all this pain now
Will you ever
STOP?

-- Verse 1 --

Waking up out of my nightmare
Realizing once again you are not here
Guilt, pain, tears replaced it for me

Most of my thoughts are revolving 
Around the fact that you won’t suffer again 
I just want you to be happy

-- Chorus --

I’m standing in the rain
Holding you
Last time I feel your lips on my skin

I’m sorry for the pain
We’ve been through
In hope that the fire ignites

-- Verse 2 --

Even though we are not talking
I am thinking of you every day
Imprisoned in a room of memories

Deep inside something just tells me
In the end everything will be ok
Please stand up and keep on walking

-- Chorus --

I’m standing in the rain
Holding you
Last time I feel your lips on my skin

I’m standing once again
To find hope 
That somehow we can re-unite

-- Bridge --

Re-unite
Is this the end forever?

And all the memories we shared 
Were the truth
And there
Was still tremendous pain
To hold you in my arms
And let you go
To let you go
I let you go

-- Breakdown --

AAArgh
Fuck
Feelings I force to awake
Blargh

I feel so 
numb
Fuck
Are we not meant to be?
Fuck

-- Post Breakdown --

Hello did you miss me? It's your friendly little nightmare
You will not really get rid of me completely
Because I'm your reminder
Who brings you down to earth yeah

The choice you had to make was not easy
Maybe you or her or both were not ready
Things you could have done better
Don't beat yourself up
And just do not stop
Working on yourself
To prepare for the fights in your life
Next time you know what to do

-- Chorus --

I’m standing in the rain
Without you
And still feel your last kiss on my skin

I’m sorry for the pain
We’ve been through
In hope that the fire ignites

I’m standing in the rain
Believing
That somehow feelings find me here

I’m standing till the day
Until we
Find something that could be alive

Alive
Could be something alive?      
Alive
Could be something alive?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This song was created with the awesome tools of Solemn Tones, Guitar Pro7, Garageband and EZMix. 

I really suck playing instruments but still love to compose music. I still have to improve my mixing and vocal skills A LOT, but I cannot postpone this anymore and have to get this out of my system. Thanks for your understanding. :D
 
PS:
I would greatly appreciate any kind of feedback, since I love to improve the next upcoming songs. Thank you so much :) 

+++ Software used +++

https://www.guitar-pro.com/
https://solemntones.com/
https://www.toontrack.com/product/ezmix-2/
https://www.apple.com/ca/mac/garageband/

Rain

Hello wonderful people of the SoundCloud Islands :D

This is part two of two songs I have written in the last 8 months. 
I spent tons of time self reflecting and focusing on my self, still not 100% there yet, still being in my hermit phase but everything will be alright (as always).

Everything in life happens for a reason and actually there is never an end. It is more a preparation for a new beginning.

Anyway, this song is about (self) forgiveness, (self) acceptance, (self) awareness, (self) growth, (self) love despite of hurting someone important to you.

Aside of that I always wanted to play an epic emotional guitar solo on my beloved Epiphony Les Paul inspired by the song HEARTFELT by the NOVELISTS (AMAZING BAND) :D

~~~~~~~ LYRICS ~~~~~~~

-- Intro --

You and I 
We had 
such a wonderful time 
last year

But I left you 
Then
Could not 
Give you 
What you deserved 
To hear

I still think of you every day
Every time I’m awake

You don’t hear me and 
It seems that I don’t really care

But I do care
Our wounds are so deep that they don’t bleed

I know… I still care
Even though when you start to hate me

I know… I still care
Even though I did not feel the same way

I still care
That’s why I have to go away

I really feel like a monster 
Feeding on more suffer and pain

I know I am


-- Verse 01 --

Buried myself
Once again
It is up to me
I can only be
My lifesaver 

Should understand
No one else
Will hear me
Who can really be
My lifesaver 


-- Chorus --

Fall to the ground
To a place so well known

Only then 
We learn 
To rise again

Get the next wound
Enter the battleground

Only then 
We really
Feel alive


-- Verse 02 --

Caused so much pain
In the end
Unwanted strain
Pull the trigger to become
A heart breaker

Pierce through within
Unforeseen
Making up for it
Leaving in the name of
A time saver 


-- Pre-Verse --

I am so torn apart since I did not want this to end
But the emotional debt was too high for me to pay back
Yeah

Pull to eject


-- Verse 03 --

Burned through my skin 
Like Anakin
When Obi Wan Kenobi
Split his body with
A lightsaber

Will return back
As the man
Cruel till the end
Bring balance back
Like Darth Vader


-- Chorus --

Fall to the ground
So dark and so well known

Only then 
We learn 
To rise again

Get the next wound
Enter the battleground

Only then 
We Feel 
The Growth
Within

Crushed through the ground
To a hell so well known

Only then 
We face 
Ourselves again

Accept the wound
To cross the underground 

Only then 
We learn 
To fail again


-- Solo --

And Again
And Again
And Again
And Again
And Again

-- Verse 04 --

Buried myself
Once again
It is up to me
I can only be
My lifesaver 

Will in the end
Accept my fate
As a man who becomes a 
Fading memory
In this chapter


-- Chorus --

Fall to the ground
To a place so well known

Only then 
We learn 
To rise again

Get the next wound
Enter my battleground

Only then 
We Feel 
The Growth
Within

Crushed through the ground
To a hell so well known

Only then 
We face 
Ourselves again

Accept the wound
To cross the underground 

Only then 
We really
Feel alive


-- Outro --

So Alive
So alive
So alive 
So alive 
So alive 


-- Outro Background --

Buried myself
Once again
It is up to me
I can only be
My lifesaver 

Should understand
No one else
Will hear me
Who can really be
My lifesaver

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This song was created with the awesome tools of Solemn Tones, Guitar Pro7, Garageband and EZMix. 

I really suck playing instruments but still love to compose music. I still have to improve my mixing and vocal skills A LOT, but I cannot postpone this anymore and have to get this out of my system. Thanks for your understanding. :D
 
PS:
I would greatly appreciate any kind of feedback, since I love to improve the next upcoming songs. Thank you so much :) 

+++ Software used +++

https://www.guitar-pro.com/
https://solemntones.com/
https://www.toontrack.com/product/ezmix-2/
https://www.apple.com/ca/mac/garageband/

Lifesaver

Hello wonderful people of the clouded sounds,

This song was my hymn which heralded the end of my darkest and yet most transformative phase in my life many many years ago.

I found this song so powerful that I wanted to record actual drums and let it mix by a professional.
Maybe one day I will release the first, initial version which I like too, but this one kicks ass times 1000. haha 

Anyway, on the drums you hear the incredibly talented and amazing James I found on fiverr.com.
He is such a beast, I don’t know how he did that in such a short period of time. Please support him and spread the love:

https://www.fiverr.com/jamesplaysdrums

For the mixing I found the super professional and super supportive Jeremiah who killed it with the mix (who also recommended James) and I’m really grateful for his help. If you ever want to have something mixed I highly recommend him:

https://www.fiverr.com/undergunned

Lastly I want to thank all of the people who are listening to my songs, hahahah.
It means the world to me and I don’t take it for granted.
Thank youuuuuu


~~~ Lyrics ~~~


--- Verse 01 ---

Goddamn
I’m loosing my mind,
When it comes to this fight starting again in my 
Head
I’m closing my eyes
Silence reveals the truth 

Forget,
What I’ve used to be known
My thoughts don’t reflect the reality check so
Instead
I know that I don’t know
Blinding my thirst to see

--- Pre Chorus ---

Again
This feeling I have missed to feel so free
And one more step
I have to take to finally complete

--- Chorus ---

To Rise
Step inside
Into your mind
Become the master of your life
You and I
One more time

Rise
Only once
You will die
Your hell turns into paradise
Every day
You’re alive
Rise

--- Verse 02 ---

Descend
To the depths of your hell
Only then you will find the subliminal sign to your 
Self
Run away from the truth
You will never be able to move 

Reset,
What was built to reborn
Then my thoughts don’t reflect the reality check so
Instead
I know that I don’t know
How to open my eyes to breathe

--- Pre Chorus ---

Again
This feeling I have missed to feel so free
And one more step
I have to take to finally believe

--- Bridge ---

Leaving behind all the doubts and the fear
When you stepping behind
The curtain will reveal

The demon in me
I always believed

Leaving behind all the doubts and the fear
When you stepping behind
The curtain will reveal

When he speaks to me
One more time I will feed

--- Breakdown —

Giving in now
Giving in now
Knowing that the time is out
For you
That’s for sure

Rise

--- Verse 03 ---

Forget,
What I’ve used to be known
My thoughts don’t reflect the reality check so
Instead 
I know that I don’t know
Embracing my life to be

--- Pre Chorus ---

Again
This feeling I have missed to feel so free
And one more step
I have to take to finally complete

--- Chorus ---

To Rise
Step inside
Into your mind
Become the master of your life
You and I
One more time

Rise
Only once
You will die
Your hell turns into paradise
Every day
You’re alive
Rise

Become the master of your life
Rise
Your hell turns into paradise
Rise

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mix: Jeremiah from undergunned
Drums: James from JamesPlaysDrums
Guitar: Emre Tekinalp
Bass: Emre Tekinalp using Loki bass from solemn tones
https://solemntones.com/products/the-loki-bass
Vocals: Emre Tekinalp
Lyrics: Emre Tekinalp
Artwork: Emre Tekinalp

Rise

Hello wonderful people with the SoundClouded Minds,

I've composed this song around 2017-2018. As you might already realized it my songs mostly deal with my internal landscape. hahaha

Everybody has their own pace in becoming their stronger and mature version. If you struggle in life and want better circumstances, no matter if it is your health, love life, passion, career, social life or general happiness I realized on my path that no one actually no one can help you than yourself. You have to go out and make it happen.

In this song basically my mature future self is talking to my inner child to grow up hahaha. 

When I recorded the vocals in the library I had no idea what to put into the bridge part. hahah So after some research I found this wonderful poem from "Robert Frost" called "The Road Not Taken". So what you hear in the bridge is only made with one take and totally improvised because my time at the library was running up. haha

Enjoy the song and let me know what you think and how I can improve. :D 


~~~ Lyrics ~~~


--- Verse 01 ---

Breakdown
And I loose my mind
All I want is happiness in my life

No one
Will help this time
Against me! Against me!

Meltdown
Smile in disguise
Fake it till you make it, that’s the brand new style

Sometimes
Tell yourself some lies 
To keep sane! To keep sane!


--- Pre Chorus ---

Man up!
Grow up!
Live up!
Stand up!
Work hard!
Don’t stop!
No more excuses
Man up!
Grow up!
I don’t really wanna
Live up!
Stand up!
I don’t really wanna
Work hard!
Don’t stop!
I don’t really wanna
Feeling trapped inside


--- Chorus ---

Tremendous mountains
Blackout whole skies

Falling down
Get up now
Taste the ground
Stand up now
Part of you 
Just dies

Embrace all the pain

You have to earn it
You have to earn it


--- Verse02 ---

Run
For your life
Feel the fear to disappear wasting more time

Lockdown
All the doubts inside
Against me! Against me! 

Awake
The inner child
Unleash the heavy chains from that innocent mind   

Reclaim
What was sublime 
To be free! To be free!


--- Pre Chorus ---

Man up!
Grow up!
Live up!
Stand up!
Work hard!
Don’t stop!
No more excuses
Man up!
Grow up!
I don’t really wanna
Live up!
Stand up!
I don’t really wanna
Work hard!
Don’t stop!
I don’t really wanna
Feeling dead inside


--- Chorus ---

Tremendous mountains
Blackout whole skies

Falling down
Get up now
Taste the ground
Back up now
Part of you 
just dies

Embrace all the pain

You have to earn it
Fucking earn it


--- Bridge ---

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

The undergrowth

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

About the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet not knowing way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

--- Pre Chorus --- 

Listen up!
Life is harsh, unfair and though
For a sensitive kind.
You know what? 

No one
GIVES
AAAAAAA
FUUUUUUUUCK

Are you with me?
Are you with me?


--- Chorus ---

Tremendous mountains
Blackout whole skies

Falling down
Get up now
Taste the ground
Stand up now
Part of you 
just dies

Embrace all the pain

You have to earn it
Fucking earn it

Tremendous mountains
Blackout your mind

Falling down
Get up now
Taste the ground
Stand up now
Part of you 
just dies

You only have this life

You have to earn it
Fucking earn it

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


This song was created with the awesome tools of Garageband and EZMix. 
Guitar and Bass are done via my beloved Epiphone Les Paul, drums are from a library I bought for Garageband. :D 

+++ Software used +++

https://www.toontrack.com/product/ezmix-2/
https://www.apple.com/ca/mac/garageband/

Earn It

Earn it

Hello beautiful people of the industrial, electro metal side of Soundcloud,

This song is a soundtrack, actually it is one part of multiple tracks for an animation short film me and Molloy is working on. He did the artwork in Blender completely. 

There are not so many lyrics to that song, but imagine a dystopian future, a very far, far, far future. We love robots (who doesn't? hahah) and we love sci-fi, so here we go. 

I love creating music for visuals, if short movies or demo reels or music videos haha.

The track was completely done in Garageband using its libraries. On top I've used my lovely acoustic guitar to play ALL the guitar parts (yes ALL of them on acoustic LOL xD)

Let me know what you think in the comments and I would love to hear some feedback how to improve. :D

Thank youuuuuu and enjoy. :D 

~~~~~~~ Lyrics ~~~~~~~~

--- Verse ---
Welcome my prodigy to the machine
Where have you been hidden living living
Part of the world welcome to the machine
You are free but you cannot leave it leave it

--- Chorus --- 
You have to go
The world is yours
You cannot go
Your world is ours

So just go
Please don't go
The world is yours
You cannot go
We won't let you go
Your world is ours

--- Outro ---
There is no escape (approx. 1000 times)

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

The Machine

Hello amazing people of the echoing halls of Soundcloud,

I wrote this song many years ago because I had so many limiting beliefs within myself, especially in regards of what people are thinking of me when I'm taking certain paths not many people are taking or doing things that are very unconventional but in the end good for me and my belief systems.

You are your worst enemy. I know how it feels when you are frustrated and feel lost in life, could make a song out of i.... wait.... I made a song out of it LOL

Everything in life comes in cycles and bad times will reappear from time to time, but the way how you respond to all these circumstances is the key. As Mark Manson said: Learn the subtle art of not giving a fuck.

In dark times changing perspective helps a lot and I ask myself: Why is this the best thing that could happen to me? 
Everything that happens, happens for a reason and has a lesson. Our job is to learn the lesson and make it better next time.

~~~~~~~ Lyrics ~~~~~~~~

--- Verse 1 ---
For years you search for all the syllables in life
You cannot see
The forest for the trees in front of your own eyes
They disbelieve
When you conduct your symphony orchestra
Of your life to higher heights 
They won't recognize
So let it die

It's so annoying when you constantly deprive
Step aside! Step aside!
You are the rightful owner, master of your time
Only once you will die!
Unravel the impenetrable onyx curtain
You still hide behind
It's up to you to shine
When you step aside
And claim your right!  	

--- Chorus ---
It's enough with this feeling
Step out of the underground
Shout it loud, they can hear it 
Run motherfucker get out of my way

When you speak to your demons
Hang in there have no fear
Be proud and just show them
That you really do not care

You don't care

--- Verse 2 ---
Break through the system that you have once defined
You have to leave
The soothing shelters wrapped around your clouded mind
Pierce through the veil
Once you reveal the shocking truth
That you could have done something all the time
Now do you realize?
What a waste of time!

Procrastination has decided to reside
Another time! Another time!
Reality has been replaced and redefined
One more like! One more like!
Unravel the impenetrable onyx curtain
That still numbs your mind
It's up to you to rise
Just desensitize
And live your life!

--- Chorus ---
It's enough with this feeling
Step out of the underground
Shout it loud, they can hear it 
Run motherfucker get out of my way

When you speak to your demons
Hang in there have no fear
Be bold and just show them
That you really do not care

You don't care
You don't care
You don't care

--- Pre-Bridge ---
You don't really care
Now doubt your thoughts inside
Why should you even try?

--- Bridge ---
Maybe when you’re lying
You’ll be free
Weaken the trust
You leak

Maybe when you’re crying
You’ll be seen
Fake it enough
You bleed  

Maybe when you’re fighting
You’ll be feared
Strengthen the trust
You breed

Maybe when you’re loving
You’ll be saved
Show it enough
To be free

From the demon deep within
Face the doubts in your mind
To fight them all and die
Open your eyes, don’t look back 
Then you will survive

--- Chorus ---
It's enough with this feeling
Step out of the underground
Shout it loud, they can hear it 
Run motherfucker Run motherfucker Run

When you speak to your demons
Hang in there have no fear
Be proud and just show them
That you really do not care

It's enough with this feeling
Step out of the underground
Shout it loud, they can hear it 
Run motherfucker get out of my way

When you speak to your demons
Hang in there have no fear
Be proud and just show them
That you really do not care

You don't care
You don't care
You don't care

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

+++ Software used +++

https://www.guitar-pro.com/
https://solemntones.com/
https://www.toontrack.com/product/ezmix-2/
https://www.apple.com/ca/mac/garageband/

Enough

Hello wonderful people of the Soundcloud islands,

I love composing music especially metal. I am open to a lot of different genres. I use the music to express my emotions and thoughts when I go through various stages in my life. It is like therapy. 

True to my Piscean nature there are often two opposite voices and opinions in my songs to hear. The voice of gravity and the voice of explosion.

You cannot fully embrace the experience and gain wisdom without seeing both sides of the medal. I hope the songs are also helping others who have been in similar situations in life even though the aim was mainly for my personal health and growth in first place. 

Without further ado thank you for listening and feel free to reach out to me any time if you have any questions or ideas how I can improve.

etekinalp@gravityofexplosion.com

Thank you very much for listening,
Emre

Gravity Of Explosion