oliver (first date ditty)

from before the solar eclipse and after the solar eclipse

Dumb In Love

week 1

Keeping up, keeping out of your way. 
I'm not drinking anymore, I've gotta stay a little sane. 

Gutted now, thinking I've lost my charm. 
Gutted now, leaving shit out of my stories. 

She's well done, toasted, sunny-side and warm. 
Telling me to spend some time doing what I want. 

Kerosene dripping out of her eyes, 
midtown, cooling down on French 75's. 
I don't know how I got home. 

There's no money in mama's plan for me. 
When did I get so practical?

Packing up, gonna spend life in school. 
I'm getting good at it but maybe I'd be good at something new. 
I miss being so funny you'd cry. 
Sure I'm stable, but watered down. 
I miss being so funny you'd cry.

the funny one

week 2

White angora, borrowed opal, 
someone you could raise a child with. 
Frozen iris, green as tree moss, 
someone I could slowly learn to forget. 

I could light a fire under toe -- 
force me forward, forcing me awake. 
Driving in the snow, dozing off 
Tickling the roof of my mouth like a pilot 

Like I told you, like I told you, 
wiped out in Chicago, 
"Who am I when I have lost my mind?"

"Am I better than what I've done to them,"
falling in Nashville, in my sleep.

I could light a fire under toe -- 
force me forward, forcing me awake. 
Driving in the snow and dozing off. 
Tickling the roof of my mouth like a pilot. 
I could light a fire under toe. 

Am I better than 
what I've done to them
Falling in Nashville, in my sleep.

murmur

Pour One Out

pick me up 
from the park 
my ride doesn't wanna leave 
rub my arms 
on the swings 
fogging up, falling asleep 

"vicky's here," 
says your boy 
no one here has learned my name 

by the beach, 
smells like "sure," 
you got sick for a couple weeks 
spoken for
when you've healed 
let it go, i'm gonna leave 

summer comes
you're checking out 
everybody's winding down 
bumming hard, filling up 
wishing there was less of me 

"Don't you wanna see your best" 
America's finest pancakes 
tiny cups and chocolate chips
"Let's start going to the gym" 
"You're so buff"
"You're so mom"
"Let's raise kids on D&D"
Don't you wanna be your best
Not just good enough for me 

Summer comes 
you're checking out 
everybody's winding down 
bumming hard, filling up 
wishing there was less of me

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