This is for all mah girls.

All you wanted from me
Was my broken body
My blood and my bones
Not my heart and not my soul

The sticks and stones
Your tongue let loose
 Bruised and battered
Me but now I refuse

To let you in 
Let you take me
Let you gloat
Over your tarnished trophy
I’ve had enough of this
Endless tragedy
Let me go
Set me free

And I let myself be consumed
I let myself assume
That you would transform
Into someone I adored

But the sticks and stones
Your tongue let loose
 Bruised and battered
Me but now I refuse

To let you in 
Let you take me
Let you gloat
Over your tarnished trophy
I’ve had enough of this
Endless tragedy
Let me go
Set me free

Keep your hands to yourself
If you can’t to be gentle
When you touch me
I shake like a leaf
And it’s not the desire
Anymore it’s the anger
That drives me to
Keep on breathing but now I refuse

To let you in 
Let you take me
Let you gloat
Over your tarnished trophy
I’ve had enough of this
Endless tragedy
Let me go
Set me free


Set Me Free

Just a little song I wrote a few hours ago. Fucked up the last line but too lazy to do a second take :/

The sun shines on
And the wind won't quit bothering my ears 
But I know right here I'm safe with you dear 
For an hour or a day or a year. 

And I know I will lose you someday 
The distance is growing like vines 
But for now just now I'll find some ingenious way 
To slow down time. 

As the hours drag by 
I remember your eyes 
And how they'd say 
I love how you look in the firelight 

And I know I will lose you someday 
The distance is growing like vines 
But for now just now I'll find some ingenious way 
To slow down time. 

Because when you lay your hands on mine
I feel the melting ice 
And I know this won't last forever 
But a lifetime would be nice.


Ah Fucker Slow Down Time

written in a bitter grouchy and menstrual mood. recorded with as much laziness and apathy as i could muster, hence the atrocious strumming and indiscernible lyrics 

Thought I had a chance
Turns out the door had already closed on that

Thought I had a shot
Turns out I probably won’t ever find love

And I’m learning to live
With being alone
Maybe it will be just fine
Staying at home
Every day
Every night
Never losing sight of
The depressing dust
And the filtered sunlight 
Passing spitefully through each little crack
In the walls i’ve built with blankets and sticky tack
Oh single for the rest of my life

I guess I’ll just stay
An admirable martyr of a spinster

I guess I’ll just wait
Forever for some non-appearing mister right

And I’m learning to live
With being alone
Maybe it will be just fine
Staying at home
Every day
Every night
Never losing sight of
The depressing dust
And the filtered sunlight 
Passing spitefully through each little crack
In the walls i’ve built with blankets and sticky tack
Oh single for the rest of my life

Because you were my last shot
At not dying totally lonely
But I guess I’ve accepted my fate
I’ll be celibate and holy
And I won’t go out and try to find
Some okay tolerable decent marriageable guy

And I’m learning to live
With being alone
Maybe it will be just fine
Staying at home
Every day
Every night
Never losing sight of
The depressing dust
And the filtered sunlight 
Passing spitefully through each little crack
In the walls i’ve built with blankets and sticky tack
Oh single for the rest of my life


Single For The Rest Of My Life

the rare one street over jam series brought to you by gayle fernande-lai and dan sta romana. woohoo

Octave Zone Sneeze

Psychedelic Painting

The first time I performed this song (or any song) in public yaay

You’ll Never Know

This is a simple song I wrote for you
You’ll never know it and that’s fine
Perhaps one day you’ll listen to it 
Unaware it’s for your heart from mine

Those hours
We spent
Have helped me to mend
You’ll never know
You’ll never know

There was a sweetness in our silence
The words didn’t need to fill the air
I hated at first to meet your eyes
Because when you look at me I feel bare

Those hours
We spent
Have helped me to mend
You’ll never know
Your hands 
I’ve held
Were why I felt
What I never have before
You’ll never know

You’ll never understand just what I felt
You’ll never know and that’s fine
Maybe someday your heart too will melt
But it won’t be for mine

Those hours
We spent
Have helped me to mend
You’ll never know
Your hands 
I’ve held
Were why I felt
What I never have before
Your eyes
Your lips
The way you’d hold me when we kissed
Oh
You’ll never know


You'll Never Know Live @ Art And Soul VIII

A rushed performance by me and my friend Lore Arellano.

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