this cover art is why I have unnatural hair to this day

sad junt.

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

lyrics
--------
so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

lyrics
--------
fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
--------
you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

1010 (prod. Chrxme)

from album
inspir by nedarb+horse head (numb)
mix/sung/prod:me

[prod. convolk]

Free Download

brooks was here

[prod. branwen]

(electrostep network premiere)
prod @branwenmusic and me
mixed and mastered by me
shouts out to oliver lmao im trash

i see you watching

shawdy wanna love me till my heart stops
blow up on the track like i'm a pop rock
i just made a number off a feature
ima keep on rockin crystal clear

let me rot, decaying or not
ill still make the bops make you scream till you drop
smoke till you cough, drink till your soft
you cry in your bed cause your ex did you wrong

smokin allot i been puffin that potent all day till  i drop
i don't care about you or the the things that you cop
i been locked in my room everyday makin bops

one thing is clear i've always been the same
never changin rearranging all the people out of frame
wanna talk about the money always focused on the fame
kinda funny how they treat me differently its fuckin lame

bright pink tee tans jeans same me
bright blue eyes you'll never see x2

shawdy wanna love me till my heart stops
blow up on the track like i'm a pop rock
i just made a number off a feature
ima keep on rockin crystal clear

let me rot, decaying or not
ill still make the bops make you scream till you drop
smoke till you cough, drink till your soft
you cry in your bed cause your ex did you wrong x2

bright pink tee tan jeans same me, bright blue eyes you'll never see again

crystal clear! w/ guardin (prod. ugly zucc x pinknokia)

[prod. zeeky beats]

lofi and yes i know the guitar off key

They say that they wish they could write like i do
Im writing shit to get high to
You come up they act like they like you
They really despise you despite you wishing that you could die too

Swimming through the ash of things i dont think that i can let go
Let go
said id call you back a thousand times but i just stare at the phone
At the phone

Gone like the wind i go
Im gone like that chance that you had before i said no
Im gone like my mind when i stay awake after taking shit where i cant even read the name

So give me you x8

Give me a reason not to cry
give myself reasons not to try
You know i die inside then say im fine and everytime its the same type of lie

swimming

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

youtube

solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tW_QQpGjTUE

produced by jakkyboi
vocal, engineering : me

i fucked up

LONEWOLF

i fucked up

dog in a cage

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

Follow me <3

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

ＨＯＷ　ＤＩＤ　ＷＥ　
ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
--------
whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

follow jay vee

all alone (prod. jay vee)

lyrics
--------
she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

lyrics:

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

i just gotta let you know
im not here to take u home
woke up two calls on my phone
wish that they would leave me alone
but they never do
they never do that
i wish i
i could do that
i just cant let you go
hop out the sewer and take u home

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

pines break through the memories
late nights were her remedy
cold words thru her sharpened teeth
create deep wounds you imbed in me  
throwing heads in the wishing well
when shes this mad she could boil hell
i thought we would go together
but i guess i could go fuck myself
theres a time and a place
but she has no problem doing it here
he has his hands on top her waist
in the photos she cant share
and its truly a shame
i thought we could make it through the year at least
but this game you been playing is killing me
and im too low on energy

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

one time for old times ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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all alone (prod. jay vee)

guardin

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