gaurdin

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

coming outta my cage & i've been doing just fine

mr. brightside (cover) (prod. johnnyfriend)

prod. @taylor x @sshinju

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passed out with your scent on my clothes
i'm in euphoria from my head to my toes
with a love like woah i guess that's how it goes sometimes
lights out baby just take me home
i've been getting fucked up when i'm all on my own
i'm a habit too close from the planet i roam tonight
feel stuck in my brain when i zone
so i swallow all the pain inside this glass of patron
you don't gotta tell me i got fuckin problems i know

pink lemonade
i'll drink you all day
you quite captivating dear dare do i say
i'm still suffocating it's always this way
my brain doesn't work it's not used to this weight 
i'd try medication but god i'm afraid
if this doesn't work i don't know what to say
i've tried every method of fixing this pain
god for bid i'm a goner a devilish saint

a devilish saint
i smile & laugh but inside it's all fake
i grind on my teeth, bite my tongue till it breaks
i wait for the sun to go down just so i can awaken
copy & paste
today feels like yesterday time is a waste
i'll open the bottle & down with no chase
my dignity's gone in an instant i must've misplaced it

passed out with your scent on my clothes
i'm in euphoria from my head to my toes
with a love like woah i guess that's how it goes sometimes
lights out baby just take me home
i've been getting fucked up when i'm all on my own
i'm a habit too close from the planet i roam tonight
feel stuck in my brain when i zone
so i swallow all the pain inside this glass of patron
you don't gotta tell me i got fuckin problems i know

pink lemonade (prod. taylor morgan x shinju)

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

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don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

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geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

prod. @tothegood

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why does it always feel like everything is coming to a close
how could i know
i'll let these stories speak for me
inform me when i can let go
why is the sky always falling
i'm calling you in case you don't
i heard the end is approaching
and i've just been hoping
that these memories overthrow

and the weight of the words you've been saying will slowly seep in deconstructing my faith
defying gravity almost comes naturally when both your feet feel like they'll ricochet
off of the pavement we both could've made it but your mind is set to a sloping decay
thank god you're leaving cause i'm done believing a majority of the shit that you say

gone forever written on the wall
and i can hear you screaming things from down the hall
if i creep in quietly i'll save us all
in the midst of travesty i feel so small

kiss the lips of death in my endeavor
hollow out the eyes of my contender
trust your fight or flight in taking shelter
lie awake at night beside whoever
the air is cold but i don't really mind it
lost my mind in time i'm sure i'll find it
i don't like myself but it's whatever
cause i'm still tryna piece myself together

kiss the lips of death in my endeavor
hollow out the eyes of my contender
trust your fight or flight in taking shelter
lie awake at night beside whoever
the air is cold but i don't really mind it
lost my mind in time i'm sure i'll find it
i don't like myself but it's whatever
cause i'm still tryna piece myself together

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on the wall (prod. tothegood)

prod. @noahmadethiss

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homebound
you are not alone now
i was on the telephone calling you
wishing i didn't fold now
soulbound
you & i are soulbound
i just wanna be the light beside you & lead the path to your home now
homebound
you are not alone now
i'll be right beside you till the end
and i promise i'll never fold now
sold out
they said that i sold out
all cause i've been writing bout my problems
and made it outta my hometown

trust me i'm trying my hardest
regardless i hope that you're fine
wish i saw the signs
like i could've saved you
if only i knew of the trouble you'd find
oh why was your fate in the hands of me
i think bout it all of the time
and with that in mind i wish i could fall backwards in time
wrote this callback while you were alive

so
reckless
cemetery deathwish
sittin' at your grave with a blunt & a bottle up to my chest
this chexmix doesn't taste the best
it's stale like the ale in my pail and i'm paler than my ex bitch
senseless
write it off my checklist
checkered board shorts & i'm sure that the shore is to the left
it's right there
nothings ever right there
mirrors give me light scares
i'm my own worst nightmare
i'm my own worst nightmare

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homebound (prod. noahmadethiss)

prod. @jolst

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what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible 

you took advantage and left me alone in the dark
i spent every second exchanging that pain into art
you waited for silence and sought to tear me apart 
i hate what you've done to me running free in my heart
my sense of direction is severed in seventy parts
this compass is broken and you knew that shit from the start
your lack of compassion was passively stored in compartments
i wreak havoc while you hide in your apartment

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

once upon a time this shit was right
but right now i'll not feelin all too nice
my heart is heavy frozen under ice
the warmth of whiskey cloaks my fucking spine
you stare at me with fingers intertwined
while we just sit in silence acting fine
i hate how everything just took a dive
we're hanging on just trying to survive

what am i supposed to do
when everything makes me uncomfortable
and my goals are always optimal
but everything just feels impossible

you took my light
you took my shine

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impossible (prod. jolst)

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yeah we cruise through life
with our grip held tight
if only time could tell
cause our fears just might
collide with dreams we had
all these paths offline
if i could make more sense of things i like
regardless
i create what i feel inside
this thera-peutic place where my tears all dried
it's blissful seasons change & the time flies by
i always feel so strained and i don't know why
be honest
how many mother fuckers do what you do?
you got everything you want but ain't nobody got you
they're so amazed by the constant drops, the plays & the views
but i'm deranged, fucking insane, spittin my pain in the booth
it's a mad fucking world we chasin pennies & truth
can you believe i fucking made it dodged a box & a suit
i'm just a boy from outer space who ain't got nothing to lose
so imma chase away the pain with 40 ounces of booze

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

i burn a blunt & bridge the gap to what is left
i'm upset cause half my childhood was theft
it's apparent that my scars all tell a story east to west
but i can't tell it cause i'm occupied by beds i overslept
in a second i'll feel fine, but in a minute i'm depressed
all these voices in my head been telling me what to do next
is there any fucking answers underneath the skin i'm dressed
in i always think about it till i say nah & forget
there's evil locked inside me but i don't know where it went
so i practice tying knots in case the thoughts inside my head
leave me manic watch me panic bout the past until i'm dead
all because some fucking loser touched my dick when i was ten
yeah they say men can't be raped but i'm a victim in the end
let it shake up my whole world until the day that i ascend
it's a blessing and a curse but what's worse is most men
do not open up about it till they start to comprehend
fuck

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

yeah we thrown in the ocean
deep end swimmin with a pocket full of potions
vices to commend the fallen ones that lost their focus
i'm a toy solider moving weight in slow motion
oh shit
i'm losing focus
how the fuck you fix it with a bottle and some roaches
you ain't been yourself & it's been noted by the hopeless
they look up to you & you've been stuck in a hypnosis
no sis
i ain't drunk that's bullshit
i've been chasing dreams and getting money on the road shit
i cut off my friends by being anxious on some ghost shit
i don't like myself and i don't even think i'll post this
fuck another track about myself you probably know this
i can hardly breathe but you're too dense to even notice
is it a.d.d. or apathy of all i know
this year has been the worst for me but i don't like to boast
chyeaaahhh so

[hook]
cracks in every wall
but they ain't ever seen me fall
they ain't ever seen me fall
shootin like a star
yeah your planet ain't that far
you'll be home by monday

monday (prod. astoriablvd)

Jester's Cry Too

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

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solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

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if you knew me
you wouldn't like me at all
if you took the time to think then maybe this could dissolve
this is pointless
wasting fucking time till i fall
back asleep and in my dreams 
i do not wake up at all

voices scream inside my head another migraine to come
i'm deranged goin insane until my body is numb
disassociate create another problem your call
straight to voicemail cause i do not wanna pick up at all

if you knew me (prod. ryini)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle


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