Cant tell if im numb or im js growin up..

Its like a full time job at bein in my head....

Ｉ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＲＥＡＬ

//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
goo.gl/asxd7w

music video

demons in my orbit

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

vocals by: @guccihighwaters
produced by: me

My first step into the light.

Lyrics:

I been pretty scared to start shows
But that’s the first step if I wanna tour the globe
Inhale the fresh air right into my nose
You make me so happy I was sick of being alone

I got big dreams I got big ambitions
Baby won’t you come with me
I can see the light through the cracks and the seams 
I can get you anything I can make you pleased

I can make the PayPal flip like it’s an acrobat
I don’t wanna flex I just thought that you’d be proud of that
Yea pops imma make it on my own
I'm slippin up in school momma blowin up my phone

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I know it will work 'cus that’s my only mission
Fuck all my opps I don't care if you ain’t listening

We weren’t close
Never held a conversation 
Done with giving out to people
That are faking

All my hard work
Is mine for the taking
I can’t even bake 
But I'm bringing all this cake in

Moved away from home long ago
But I get the same feelings when you’re close to me 
smile on my face how I'm ‘posed to be
i heard they bumpin’ gucci overseas

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I know it will work 'cus that’s my only mission
Fuck all my opps I don't care if you ain’t listening

Still got a long way to go
Still got a long way to go
But I'll make it
I know ill fuckin' make it

I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing
I can see the sunrise in the distance
I feel alive every time that we’re kissing

Listen on Spotify

guccihighwaters - sunrise in the distance (prod. tootiredtocare)

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

shoutout to soundcloud.com/itsyungvan & https://soundcloud.com/daddydandy <3

lyrics:
shattered:
shawty you know that you lie
you wouldn't care if i die
you wouldn't care if i cry
shawty why do you lie

i wish i didn't date you
i wish i didn't know you
i'll sell shows to break you 
i flex on my ex
cuz that's all that i got
she run away cuz she know she a thot

i hope it was worth it 
bite like a serpent
act like a bitch cuz it tears me apart 
truth is i'm hurting
truth is i'm learning
truth is that i hope that i end up burning
your legs are like doors
you open and pour
you'll love anyone who won't call you a whore
but
that's what you are to me
i'm just a casualty

manipulating
when we were dating
you told me don't fret
he's just an old friend
he's just an old ex
i only love you 
back of my car 
we can have so much fun boo
do i still love you
baby i can't tell 
you talk to others
while i hide in covers	
sheets on my head
make me feel like i'm dead
texting your phone but you leave me on read

yung van:
fuck you, you don’t about care me
fucked up, naw the blames not on me
don’t talk shit behind my back, cause i don’t roll like that
i know you wanted on me
what’s he got that i don’t
he’s got you, that’s a joke
you’ll switch up, like a roach
just make sure you don’t choak
with all that shit your mouth
you better shut the fuck up
cause when this news gets out
all your friends gon’ switch up
i have no remose for you
don’t come back crawling to me
when he finds out what you do
he’ll throw you off like his shoe

shattered:
baby
you're faker
than santa claus
than santa claus
the guy 
that you are with
will leave
so please just don't come back to me
shawty 
you're colder than ice with some salt
my friends were right
about the night
when we had met
you got me set
like juliet
with bayonets 
ready to fire on me at your will
choking on smoke while we kiss and we chill
leaving my ass for a kid with some skill
you just a park all you give is a thrill

flowars:
bad girl in a mad world
ass fat where you at girl
let me hit it from the back girl
i ain't got a jack shit black pearl
i don't wanna look at you
everything you put me through
but you won't go away
so i guess ill fuck your face
ask that nigga how i taste
does he know your love is fake
tell the boy that i relate
ooh i relate
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat
bitch is latex
she just want sex
and your paycheck
like it's no sweat

romeo & juliet! w/ yung van & flowars (prod. nick mira & lucky bennu)

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

Links:

Spotify

https://open.spotify.com/artist/7j8XINhxkD7WS4efrPxbhm

Soundcloud

 https://soundcloud.com/lilxtraatl

Merch

https://lilxtraofficialmerch.bigcartel.com/

Insta

https://www.instagram.com/lilxtraatl/

Twitter

https://twitter.com/LilXtraATL

Youtube

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYqEuND_ZtclJ6RQzzsPtcA/videos

Facebook

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

needle & thread

new single "deathwish" out now on epitaph records.

https://guccihighwaters.ffm.to/deathwish

needle & thread

guccihighwaters

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