Damn you’ve evolved so much(this is still hard as fuck tho)!

Woahh this is actually really really good 😍🔥

like the death that blew a eternal void,yours sincerely john alton mccormack the next generation poet, thanks for your bomb ass song,😉

that's dope 🔥🔥 i actually like this please make more music like that

Thoughts

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

new place, same scenery (prod. sorrow bringer)

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

[+] there's a mirror in my living room...
* featuring @pinkcig + @emofruits * produced by @jolst*

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: www.discord.gg/DRfW7Q4Bmu

reflections

reflections (feat. pink cig + emo fruits) [prod. jolst]

Where… am I?
This hum in my skull …
The void calls back,
No one answers at all.

Out from the black I begin to uncoil,
Skin made of dust, veins filled with soil.
A sound in the deep, low drone of remorse,
Is it the cosmos, or my own warped thoughts?

Faith is a flicker in a dead satellite,
Dragging me upward toward a dying light.
Planets like corpses in chaotic decay,
Their embers whisper what the stars won’t say.

Can you see the light?
Can you see the light?
The burning sky, the end in sight,
Can you see the light?

Round and round the grave of the sun,
A wheel of fire, forever undone.
Witness the planet that breathes in pain,
Her pulse beneath the acid rain.

Touch, taste, smell - all fade to ash,
Every sense devoured by the flash.
It’s good as gone, nothing to bless,
Just the echo of Gaia’s consciousness.

Gaia’s consciousness - can you see the light?
Gaia’s consciousness - fading through the night.
Can you see the light?
Can you see the light?
Gaia’s consciousness - her final breath in flight.

Can you see the light …
Or is it just the end of sight?
Gaia’s consciousness …

The Light

produced by @notmorgn

im cold as a mf now
glock in my dickies 
dick all in her mouth
your bitch in my section
load a smith and wesson
put it to her skull 
its the best suppression
she wanna fucking die
she pop anti depressants
but i aint gonna pull the trigger
bitch i learned my lesson
i fucking learned my lesson last night 
in the rain switchblade on my face 
i got blood in my veins

BLOOD IN MY VEINS IM INSANE....

she told me that she wanna die

diamonds

diamonds (feat. emrys)

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

ＴＨＩＳ　ＰＲＯＪＥＣＴ　ＣＯＮＴＡＩＮＳ　ＳＴＲＯＮＧ
ＳＵＢＪＥＣＴ　ＭＡＴＴＥＲ

ＣＬＯＳＥ　ＹＯＵＲ　ＥＹＥＳ　＆　ＴＡＫＥ　ＩＴ　
ＡＬＬ　ＩＮ

ＭＡＹ　ＴＨＩＳ　ＢＲＩＮＧ　ＹＯＵ　ＰＥＡＣＥ

//ごめんなさい//

lacuna

just breathe (feat. st. silver)

@lilmoonlet <3

hello?

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them, i hope you don't think i'll resolve them

sometimes its just not that easy
(not that easy)
sometimes its just not that easy
(i wish that it could be)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i wish you could see what you're doing to me)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i need you to be, all that you can be, i'm sorry)

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

i am only human, how do you expect me to react when you're abusive
i get that you're hurting but i'm not deserving of being your way out 
if i'm such a burden then why don't you leave
hoping you'll stay but its hard to foresee, if you will ever be happy with me
i can't keep doing this every week, i'm growing too weak, 
i think this relationship has reached its peak, i'm growing to weak
so sad its bleak

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

problems w/ moonlet (prod.hkfiftyone)

i will never be a memory 2/14/18


i dont got nothin but time
i feel it burning inside
the ghosts of my past they berate me
the feeling just cannot escape me
hate me but you are forgiven
this is the point that youre missin
blind faith in apparitions
no way to lose inhabitions

shadows in the dark
ripping out my beating heart
wiping blood off of my face
there isnt much you could take from me
crying on the phone
feeling numb down to the bone
watch the world turn into ashes
as i suffer alone again

wasting the day
and im wasting your space
you told me to get the fuck out your face
sometimes i wish i could just fade away
the same way the ink on my skin turns to grey

scars on my body remind me of pain
reminding me that nothing will be the same
reminding me that nothing gold ever stays
and itll always be this way

violence in the purest form
we both know when it rains it pours

shadows in the dark
ripping out my beating heart
wiping blood off of my face
there isnt much you could take from me
crying on the phone
feeling numb down to the bone
watch the world turn into ashes
as i suffer alone again
(x2)

violence in the purest form (prod. charlie shuffler)

guitar by @noahwalker
lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-hell-if-youre-with-me-lyrics

hell if you're with me

mixed by @polearm
featuring @sewerperson
produced by @splashgvng and @irby314

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

i think ill be late to the grave at my own damn funeral
say what you say i know i act quite unusual
fake homies fake like they dont know that im on to them
its okay whatever bro cuz 
i was never fond of them
i just copped and popped out to LA
shot the shit and kicked it with my bae
told my brothers theres another way
now we been grinding time to fill the days
we been on the sun in outerspace
stress was melted
felt it drip away
i been on a hella different wave
i been on a hella different wave

sewerperson:
moonlight thru opening in the sun roof
it feel like one of these times where i just have to tell u i
love u
and i dont wait till the morning
and i dont wanna wait anymore like
tell me
how many of these nights u been alone u really happy
everything im feeling come back round to overlap me
i guess i just wanted u to know ion know what id do without ya
i guess i just wanted u to know i still been
selfish
sorry
i cant help it
promise
blacked out
i cant feel if im honest
can u tell me bout ur face cause i forgot it
since i pushed most those memories into my closet

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

selfish! ft. sewerperson (prod. irby)

Prod by. me :)
mastered by soundcloud.com/cay2o
lyrics:

they whisper to me, wither away
don’t want them to see so I cover my face
i’m insecure and my feelings dont matter
stuck in a loop am I like this forever
fuck it I might be
feelin low like highkey
how you act so fuckin bland like a white tee
I dont think you understand why you like me
why you like me you ain nothin like me

ima do it for my friends and the people who don’t mean shit
cause I’m the only one who gon give what they need
shit if I ain gonna make it
then I hope whoever does knows how to treat a fuckin bag and keep they friends close too
dont know you do I have to,
crack a smile to a stranger, bet they lied too
gonna get a tattoo, 18 real soon
ima hussle till I make up back to you

I don’t want no problems
cause I ain gonna solve it
I know everyone around really hates me and it’s okay
i’m sleepin till its too late
for any of my plans to work
fuck it ima wake up when all this shit easier

spotify

nothin like me

New album 'DEATH BY DESIRE' out now on Epitaph Records https://guccihighwaters.ffm.to/deathbydesire

she told me that she wanna die

guccihighwaters

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