ratfest4 set!

second track, collab song w/ CoCo <3
https://soundcloud.com/user-831109495/vroom-vroom

lil huddy x gecs mashup
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74aB_H9UzaQ

guiceb0x @ st. ratrick’s <3

lyrics //


think it’s getting bad again
i’ve been lying to my friends
feel the weight here in this bed
truth is i’m tired

sit and wait for walls to speak
searching for some kind of clarity
i’m afraid of what they’ll think of me
if they heard

see i’m smiling 
it’s okay if i’m crying
just as long as i’m trying
to wake up and breathe

take cold showers
eat alone at odd hours
replay all the encounters 
that i’ll unpack in therapy

last time i saw you i was just a little bit brighter 
and now you’re waiting on my light to return
someone lied when they told you that i was a fighter
‘cos now i’m praying for you to come save me, please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving

see i’m smiling 
it’s okay if i’m crying
just as long as i’m trying
to wake up and breathe

take cold showers
eat alone at odd hours
replay all the encounters 
that i’ll unpack in therapy

therapy w/ HEARTAVI & blackwinterwells

merry christmas :)))) thanx by landee <33

glittery w/ by landee

lyrics //


starlight, moon on your face makes your eyes bright
i watch as you lay to the right, keep you on my good side

everything’s how it should be, you in the dirt and the leaves
stalling to keep you here with me; at least until the sunrise

it’s hard to believe 
that someone like you’d love a creature like me
with scrapes on my knees and bug juice on my teeth

yet you stay, and tell me that i’m fine
just as long as you’re mine; hold my hand through the woods
trust me, i know the way

bug juice

ricochet w/ blackwinterwells (kintsugi + taylor morgan + 4evr)

lyrics //

more weight more weight on my body
each time you say you’re sorry
feels like stones crushing me
it’s getting harder to breathe 

every despicable thing you could think of telling me
i’ve already thought it 13 times
that’s the beauty of a one-track mind

you’re not fucking special neither am i
we’re all destined to suffer and die here
watching the new world struggle
crimson tide pulls me under
float through moments of sorrow
won’t get better tomorrow 

try as i may
won’t stop, need space
fruitless, lost faith
in my heart, always

~~~

‘cos if it hurt less, it wouldn’t feel as real to me
know i’m a waste of time, stop trying to deal with me
dead or alive, there’s no difference 
i know the end, so why 

try as i may
won’t stop, need space
fruitless, lost faith
in my heart, always

i know the end, i know the end
why try, why try at all
i know the end, i know the end
why try

isolation chamber (taylor morgan + 4evr)

merry christmas everybody <3 

originally by wham! :)

last christmas w/ dni

originally by caroline polachek, thank u vindit for ur amazing prod :3

door (vindit)

lyrics//

dont stand so close to me
this is how it’s supposed to be
you know we’ll both feel better after we just go to sleep

know i’m making not sense
do you think we’ll still be friends
can’t take the pressure of having to watch you walk out of the door

back against the mirror i can’t seem to look right at myself
makes me wanna die the thought of you leaving to find somebody else

cut open my chest show you my heart see how it beats for you 
crush it in your hand im not surprised i wouldn’t want me too 
choking on my tears can barely breathe i think im turning blue

do you think we’ll still be friends? can we please still be friends?

close to me (guiceb0x + plantprinter)

lyrics//

cut my hair just to feel something i
don’t want to make big deal out of nothings 
pick up smoking to try and relax but my hands shake too much and my lungs are collapsing 

unspoken things to work on i don’t really wanna face it
just like me to make a perfect promise then i break it 
always think something rotten will happen can’t explain it

falling to pieces
becoming undone
in your hands hold the fragments of my heart

when the air thins and leaves drop you’re different
sensing some malice in your words, swear it’s deliberate
subtle glances and words said in passing, you’ll leave me for her and i’ll watch as it happens 

we don’t work anymore guess i’m glad we’re in agreement 
just like you to only wanna stay when it’s convenient 
smile not as bright; my fault, i really should’ve seen it coming

(fall, fall, it’s my fault)
it’s all my fault it’s all my
(fall, fall, it’s my fault)
it’s all my fault it’s all my

falling to pieces
becoming undone
in your hands hold the fragments of my heart

falling, falling, it’s all my fault it’s all my fault
don’t know what to do, don’t know what to do without you, it’s all my fault 

(fall, fall, it’s my fault)
it’s all my fault it’s all my
(fall, fall, it’s my fault)
it’s all my fault it’s all my

undone (to pieces) [taylor morgan]

lyrics//

never said i wasn’t difficult, now that much is true
bad attitude for the hell of it, i put you through the wringer
you take the words out my mouth, throw them all away
cos you know i don’t mean half the things i say
wish you’d make it easier for me to leave
tell me that none of this matters, that you’re not breathing me in like you do 
chew you up , spit you out, yet you stay; why’d you stay ? (why’d you stay ?)

how could i run from your love when it’s all around me ?
all consuming, when all i see is you ?
how could i run from your touch when it’s rushing through me, so subduing, i swear i’d be a fool 
don’t wanna run anymore

i don’t wanna run from my feelings again
i don’t wanna feel like i did back then (yeah)
i don’t need you to remind me how i acted back then, it hurts to remember 
just make it disappear, let’s go somewhere i haven’t seen yet
you can take me there, going places i’ve never been and i don’t want you to share 
keep your phone right in your pocket, yeah, let’s just leave it there
so take me anywhere 

how could i run from your love when it’s all around me ?
all consuming, when all i see is you ?
how could i run from your touch when it’s rushing through me, so subduing, i swear i’d be a fool 
don’t wanna run anymore

runrunrun w/ vindit (taylor morgan)

lyrics //

You only call when you’re overseas
Can’t even lie that really gets to me
Easy to want you, harder to read
I could be your somebody, can you be my favorite 
And yeah I wrote this song about you
Seems like everything’s about you nowadays
You got me pacing my apartment 
Hey do you think you’ll listen to the playlist I made

Was it something that I said 
Quick change of pace, catch my breath 
See how you make my lips quake
How much of this can I take
I don’t know it’s just running through my mind stream 

And there’s a part of me that’s so over it
But on the other half I kinda want to fall back in
I’m just your dog, wait by the phone until you call again
Yeah

I’m wearing nothing but a t-shirt 
I bet you’re thinking about it now, of course you are
And if I begged would you be happy
I try to play the chill girl but it’s getting desperate 
I’m losing sleep it’s like a bad dream
But I can’t help it that I want you all the time
We chased the high because it hurt good
Guess I was too ashamed to tell you I was here crying 

Was it something that I said 
Quick change of pace, catch my breath 
See how you make my lips quake
How much of this can I take
I don’t know it’s just running through my mind stream 

I talk but you don’t listen 
Come over when you miss it
I get it now, it’s just a game of give/take 
Give/take




i’m losing sleep it’s like a bad dream

if i begged would you be happy
the crave for more the burn of sweet release 
you’ll never change stuck in your ways repeat the cycle again

guiceb0x

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