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damaged w/ gin$eng

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

(remixed track: Message To Bears - At a Glance)

Didn't expect this track to blow up like this..

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don't worry about me

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

i hate me too

sleep gang (prod. nadiak)

a rough draft off a project farther down the line.

Thank you guys for 1 million plays here, more soon.

Art by: John Bolly

for her,

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that kindled look in her eyes

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

prod. @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO0VHljOPSg

they try to copy i don't really see the point tho
if you were me you'd stab your self right in the torso
the reason i ain't done it yet is cus im fucking used to this
sober feels sedated like i popped a fuckin rufilin
fuck now my head hurt i ain't feeling better
im feelin deader im tied down like im tethered
and if i had a glock i would aim it at my ceiling 
and if i could feel shit i would be in my feelings
i guess my times not up cus my hearts still beating
my lungs still work im surprised im still breathing
reaper swingin scythes in my face tryna tease me
bitch im deceased yea but the top still please me
i think she like me hold up i wouldn't like me
we are the same bitch hatreds very likely
have a lot of bands that's why my wrist is icy
do you feel my pain pour some henny in the iced tea
she said she wanna die with me
but baby i promise you don't wanna die like me
die with me im so selfish baby
fuck i think im losing myself again, again no
fuck that sad shit put that ass right in my face
oh shit you got a man well he gone catch the fade
well if this shit get out of hand then you know i got my blade
but regardless of that just put that pussy on my face
put that shit right on my face 
put that shit right on my face 
*me laughing
fuck now my head hurt i ain't feeling better
im feelin deader im tied down like im tethered
and if i had a glock i would aim it at my ceiling 
and if i could feel shit i would be in my feelings
i guess my times not up cus my hearts still beating
my lungs still work im surprised im still breathing
reaper swingin scythes in my face tryna tease me
bitch im deceased yea but the top still please me

i ain't feeling better

still numb

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

prod. @notmorgn

im anxious leave me alone
the evidence typos every word on my phone
and when i speak in trembles
my short nails they resemble 
the fucking speed of my heart rate
chest like a speaker 
double text me she said “o”
like an ether
chemistry what i feel when
i see her
chemicals reactions in my brain when
i feel her
repeating what i say
i do the same shit everyday 
wake up hate the fucking world
go to back to sleep love to decay

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

man on a mission
dismissing bitches
that ain’t submissive 
im cuttin my ties to
count up like a math test
that bitch look good in a black dress
sippin on liquor she on my bed like a mattress
i lie two faced like an actress
digi faces in my bank no cash yeah
im not a rapper im stacking cash like a rapper tho
i leave a bitch dead like they layin in the catacombs

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

i can never stop now 
hit the mall and ball out
cashin out on designer boxers just to fit my fuckin balls now
them bitches see the clout and so they call now 
i never pick up always pull out hol up pause now
i never play i hate the spring im in dismay
im never coming back but when im back please gimme face
but go slow shawty this is not a race
unless we talkin bout tay k then beat the case

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

im gonna fade away

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

prod. by @notmorgn

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide
please show me
you don’t have to

december in this town
coast breeze so i law low
she can have all of me
whenever she say so
make out more like heart attack
i’m a victim to my cardiac
the bass shake the speaker
like its under pressure
i don’t care if i peak
i just hate compressors
im a loverboy
i can never disguise
i can’t really go
i don’t know how to die

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

im a loverboy
im a loverboy

dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by your halo
panic alone im fearful of failure

rooftop just
lookin at the stars
hold my hand
we can drive in my car
2AM
and im playin guitar
on the real
don’t wanna see us apart
i love my friends
but some wanna die
im just tryna help
them stay alive

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

loverboy

prod. @notmorgn

i hate the pressure i reside on my own
can’t find the feeling that i found when i was home
quiet wolf in the pack now
i don’t feel good bout fading to the background
i shoulda planned it from the start
now everything is fucked
and we all just tore apart

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

i love the pain when you
break my heart
i love to spend my days
in the dark
dusting
i’m like nothing now
all because they think
i’m “something” now
still the same
i can never change
and you know that
i’ve gone insane
i have dreams of a toe tag

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

run from me

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

filling up the space

prod. @notmorgn

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

sometimes i care
i know it doesn’t seem like
i give a fuck about the
next thing but
i could show you
we can grow too
i should’ve told you
it’s better when i hold you
you’re cold but I’m much colder
life sucks when we grow older
not as simple as it used to be
i’m not as happy as i used to seem like
maybe I’m just kind of messy in the head
kinda crooked like the sheets on my bed
i need a rest
can’t focus right
you should hold me tight
cause the next time we
meet ill be a poltergeist

can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight
can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

these days

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

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