A song about addiction.

Oh sweetness 
Ya stuck in my mind
Your perfect curves of darkness
Help me get by 

I’m a mess 
Without your lie
Seduce me with the promise 
That I’ll be alright 


Call me 
Tonight 
Rip through 
My life 
Leave dirt
Spread hurt 
Keep me 
Alive  

I would like to know 
If I see 
All the trouble you’re 
Causing me 
Lead me to your room 
Pour me into you
Cause you’re all I need 
My Addy


I would try not to fall 
But your hurt 
Mends it all 
Bleed me dry 
Like you do 
Cause no one cares
Much like you 

So call me tonight 
Crush me 
With your thighs 
Leave dirt 
Spread hurt 
Destroy 
My life

Addy

A song written for and about a girlfriend of mine while we were together. A song about relying on external love. A song about specific, modern love.

I don’t know what to do my baby
Cause I’m alone again
the echo of my room is screaming
to have you in my bed
it’s crazy what id do to have you
Right here next to me 
Like drink one of your favorite gose’s
Or unsweetened ice teas

I’m looking in the mirror 
wondering what you see
cause I could use the 
Love you got for me 

A beauty in the desert
a beer in a coozie
A tall black pair of dr martens
And a smile just for me 
sometimes baby, I stop and think 
“Is this a fantasy?”
how the fuck did I find my lady
swiping on a screen?


I’m looking at your pictures
Missing everything 
Im missing all your curls
Those pretty eyes
Those perfect teeth

Lately in the mirror
I’m hating what I see
so I could use the love
You got for me 

Im telling you my lady
I’ve been listening
To all the lovely things you tell me
Time and time again 

You should be my RC Cola
And ditch all your nasty gose’s
Add some sugar to your tea
Or try some of my basic boba

But I doubt anything 
Will ever be as sweet 
As You and 
The love you got for me

The Love You Got For Me

A song about desperation.

Maybe I’m not
Thinking about
How much I’ll hurt you
In the end
Over and over
And over again
Back to the bottom
I keep falling
I’m losing it

Maybe another sunrise 
Or a couple more tries
Of the same old thing
waiting on a dream
But all I want
Is relief 

I don’t have the right 
To give up the fight
So I’ll stay hurting
Spare you the pain
I found freedom in
feeling insane
kill my reflection
kill the parts
Rotting my brain 

Maybe another sunrise
a million hours won’dring why
the only thing 
i see in my dream
is total destruction of me

In the wind
A dream of mine
Comes and goes
A thousand times
On the hill
standing still
isolation
Heals my mind

will a bullet
heal the pain 
is peace in death
The only way
screaming silence
mental strain
shattered iris
lost again

I’m lost again

Lost Again

Axel E.C. making some sort of rock music under the name "Gun Game".