Copy of my best wasn’t good enough

did u mean it
i’m still leaving 
ur my weakness
i’m still bleeding

say ur sorry 
say it’s over
i would stay 
but i need closure
sick n tired
dirty liar
i wanna scream i was on fire

tellin u to wait up
i can’t wake up
puttin on makeup
my mines been made up
you betrayed us
i woulda played dumb
never thought you were the type to change up

so long goodbye
move on 
i’ll be alright
unless you wanna talk
cause u know i can’t sleep right
i’ll take a walk
holdin my head high
i’m off it i’m nauseous 
feel awful
feel rotten
my subconscious 
been talkin
idk i think i lost it

walk away
walk away i’m falling
either way 
either way i’m calling
save me b4 i’m forgotten
i’m stuck in a cycle
takin off my blindfold
suicidal
blood leakin out my vial
throwin up bile
throwin up bile

bile (prod. By Kodokuna)

i need a sign
wish u were mine
fall in line
life’s a lie
i’m not cutting ties
fine but i’m not alright

stay at home
i’m all alone
no one to call
it’s not my fault
i’m not moving on
ur all i focus on
where did i go wrong?
where did i go wrong?
i should call her i really miss her
everything seems backwards
and if i’m honest don’t even get her
there’s too many factors

sing with the blackbirds
need ur exact words
i tote a black purse
filled with biohazards
in my black shirt
headphones on im playing gabber 
headphones on im playing gabber
carry my scabbard
but i stutter i stammer
yeah i drink and i shatter
it’s like i take all the damage 
need to put on a bandage 

i need a sign
wish u were mine
fall in line
life’s a lie
i’m not cutting ties
fine but i’m not alright
wish u were mine

wish u were mine (icebehumble X yondrr)

skin walker
peaceful as can be
skin walker
shadows on my feet 
dark water 
what lies underneath 
creatures talkin i can hear it through the trees
something’s wrong i can tell by the leaves 
something’s off don’t say a thing
soft sounds soft hand at my sleeve

destroy heal repeat
x4
yeh destroy heal repeat
shut my mouth i been talkin through my teeth
walk-in by broke down to my knees
i been bound and they drag me by my feet
annoyed i can’t breathe
suffocate i can’t scream
will u change when i leave?
i just shiver through my sheets
i admit my defeat

lemme go lemme be
x4
go on n call out anything
plz don’t be scared of me
all alone i need a drink
im all out of pills n weed
lemme go lemme be

skin walker
peaceful as can be
skin walker
shadows on my feet 
dark water 
what lies underneath 
creatures talkin i can hear it through the trees
something’s wrong i can tell by the leaves

skin (dgtl)

bad luck
i’m losing balance
day drunk can’t stop this sadness
i’m stuck in a dim lit tavern
i’m lost in an endless cavern
beating myself up
breakin my self down

discomfort 
losing structure 
i buffer
stop n stutter

unguarded 
feel so small
i’m hurting
there’s no one to call
light goes black
i’m 2 sad
guess i’ll pack
my things and run
no need to go back
emptiness has me
need 2 wake up
i’m stuck in a bad dream
bleed out my chest
break down my walls
i’ve had enough
i left blood in the stall
i’ll take more drugs
there’s red on the walls
i give it all up
delete uninstall 

i tried not 2 hurt u
i breathe u in
break my bones just 2 fix u
i’ll let u win
i hate how my bones feel
under my skin
my blade takes tissue
i’m lost in sin

i got bad luck
i’m losing balance
day drunk can’t stop this sadness
i’m stuck in a dim lit tavern
i’m lost in an endless cavern
beating myself up
breakin my self down
x2

discomfort (kyno jee)

addict (rouz haunted)

tell me it’s a lie
tell me that i’m fine
tell me that i’m right
baby tell me that i’m right
yeah i look up 2 the sky
i got stitches in my side
i’m surrounded by the flies
i got needles in my eyes
watch the sword swinging by
yeh sit down at the shrine
yeh come n say goodbye
i cannot save ur life
i crave ur touch
i crave ur touch
n nothing else
n nothing else
we can walk through the rain
we can learn to love

i think i’m talking to myself
i think i’m talking to the walls
i could walk u through pain
but my wounds crave salt
can u tell that i’m deranged 
that i try 2 play it safe
but i fuck it up again
i’m with imaginary friends
i can summon who u want
i can tell that ur pissed off
go head n tell me who u saw
she was dressed in a shawl
i watched her crawl up all the walls
she was standing in the vault
she was smokin something strong
i can tell that shit was off
i give it up
up up up

tell me what was wrong
tell me what was wrong

tell me it’s a lie
tell me that i’m fine
tell me that i’m right
baby tell me that i’m right
yeah i look up 2 the sky
i got stitches in my side
i’m surrounded by the flies
i got needles in my eyes
watch the sword swinging by
yeh sit down at the shrine
yeh come n say goodbye
i cannot save ur life
i crave ur touch
i crave ur touch
n nothing else
n nothing else
we can walk through the rain
we can learn to love

my wounds crave salt (trial)

i let her talk about me
like whatchu want
know i got a dagger on me
it’s just 4 fun

bby if u fall 4 me 
like i’m gone
but please don’t follow me 
cause i’m lost

isolated 
i’m still complaining
feel degraded 
so frustrated 
don’t feel the greatest 
who’s my my replacement
fuck it hate it
fuck my feelings
i ain’t worth shit
before i fall in
lemme worship 
she’s not calling
am i worth it?
try not to get involved 
cause i know im not perfect 
isolated im waiting
but im not staying
it’s been stated
y u wanna start shit
all up in my business 
y u get involved 
when ur calling me worthless 

yeh catch me in the dead of night
can’t see me under better light 
i don’t wanna talk u can see me in the next life 
poppin pills in my red sprite
smokin got my lungs right 
loving shit i never liked
talk 2 u id never lie
couple bags lemme blow it down
yeah follow where i go like i’m walking on the clouds
gotta go plz don’t hold me down
and with my bad lungs its time to mellow out 

isolated 
i’m still complaining
feel degraded 
so frustrated 
don’t feel the greatest 
who’s my my replacement
fuck it hate it
fuck my feelings
i ain’t worth shit
before i fall in
lemme worship 
she’s not calling
am i worth it?
try not to get involved 
cause i know im not perfect 
isolated im waiting
but im not staying
it’s been stated
y u wanna start shit
all up in my business 
y u get involved 
when ur calling me worthless

isolated (nightiger x anfa.sw)

mix n master @1dgtl

broken
by my own design
conflicted
nothing feels right
does it get better over time?
i’m drifting outta sight
bruises
cover my body
scars ache
my past still haunts me
useless
it kills me softly 
4 gods sake
do u hear me calling?

ruined 
my head feels foggy
sharp pains 
i know i’m faulty
knew it 
go on without me
god take 
my heart embalm me

i told u once 
i told u twice
x2
run 4 forever it feels like
i held u once like oh so tight
we severed we cut ties

i’m wicked can’t break my addiction 
sickness can’t find fruition
admit it i’m no good can’t listen
my dreams been too vivid 
evil still visits human like cryptid 
vile n timid praying on sickness
taste blood lemme lick it
glassful sippin
 red stained teeth get my feet start kickin

nothing feels right
x4

broken
by my own design
conflicted
nothing feels right
does it get better over time?
i’m drifting outta sight
bruises
cover my body
scars ache
my past still haunts me
useless
it kills me softly 
4 gods sake
do u hear me calling?

ruined 
my head feels foggy
sharp pains 
i know i’m faulty
knew it 
go on without me
god take 
my heart embalm me

broken (1dgtl)

not that easy
not that easy
i fell asleep
i fell asleep 
plz don’t leave me
plz don’t leave me
my body bleeds
my body bleeds
my soul it weeps
my soul it weeps
plz don’t eat me
don’t eat me
u can bury me 
bury me 
would u take care of me 
take care of me

yeah i think u got the better of me
better of me better of me
burnt burnt holes like the sweater on me
baby i’m so sick of runnin
smoke a cigarette or something 
smoke another blunt im puffin
kinda wanna ask u something 
x2

farella:
spread my soul into the sea 
you’re the only light to me
when i sleep it’s not easy 
smoking till i dream of you 
take a risk and i’ll take two
i just keep it true with you 
drop it in my mountain dew 
there’s nothing that we can’t do
brand new chain and since i flew 
winning team, we never lose 
crush it up and split in two 
promise you im bleeding too
brand new wraith its black and blue
brand new porsche, shaped like a bruise 
balling out like I can’t choose
everything I do for you 

she’ll turn me up 
don’t let me go
don’t let me up 
don’t let me go

not that easy w/farella (nightiger x rainn god)

don’t wanna waste my time
how do i get by
get by 
why don’t i take my life
y don’t u take my side
i just wanna get high
wanna feel alive
living under dark skies
i need another line

i speak in facts
i’m running laps
smoking gas
i got horses at my pad
??????
shinin in my hat
runnin from the past
don’t know how to laugh
y m i so sad?
we could never last
??????
all these hoes wack
breaking my back
picking up trash
don’t wanna grasp
don’t wanna crash 

fade out to black
take off my mask
i played my part
left in the dark
i played my act
u stole my heart 

i don’t care about life
jump from the power lines
i’m tryna break spines
u leave my paralyzed 
don’t wanna flatline
already dead inside
i miss the daylight 
i’m on a decline 

im not in the right mind 
really miss ur eyes
im a bad guy 
smokin n im really high 
don’t know how to act right
act right
don’t know how to get back
get back
i need to better my mind
go play in the field with some butterflies 
i need to open my eyes
im tryna see what’s on the otherside
i need another sign
i need another high
i can’t wait til i die
my ships capsized 

i speak in facts
i’m running laps
smoking gas
i got horses at my pad
??????
shinin in my hat
runnin from the past
don’t know how to laugh
y m i so sad?
we could never last
??????
all these hoes wack
breaking my back
picking up trash
don’t wanna grasp
don’t wanna crash 

fade out to black
take off my mask
i played my part
left in the dark
i played my act
u stole my heart
x2

waste my time (axry!)

ed hardy crop top
x5
smokin marley nonstop
u leave the party pissed off
i took molly im rocked
already rolling can’t talk
options got em often
we not stopping rockin
now that i’m on topic
my new shawty bad af 
she got it goin on
don’t pour it in my cup 
unless it’s something strong
cuttin in my whip to stay ahead of u
yeah i’m walk-in through this shit 
with designer shoes 
only 5 in my clip i got a shotty boo
staring at the clouds see my shinin through 

i’m like do i wear my docs
dcs or new rocks
i got trip n truey too 
but my robins play it cool
i’m only walkin round the block
see me you gon stop
ed hardy crop top
ed hardy crop top
cuttin in my whip to stay ahead of u
yeah i’m walkin through this shit 
with designer shoes 

ed hardy crop top 
x4
smokin marley nonstop
u leave the party pissed off
i took molly im rocked
already rolling can’t talk
do i wear my docs
dcs or new rocks
i got trip n truey too 
but my robins play it cool

ed hardy crop top
x8

1dgtl:

these aint lanvin, these osiris
yves saint laurent? ion like it
walk in2 the mall like ill buy it
walk in2 the like i bought it all
who cares what u say?
im so out of there, another plane
new pairs, another day
duno what2wear, cant b the same
belt ed hardy
tats on my body
wave getn gnarly
u can splash it on me
i aint 2 party
i jus scored some roxy
nvr say im sorry
cuz i kno u cant stop me
i aint sweet ima drop 
dont believe in ur law
i aint cheap ima cop it
ima peace out watch this

ed hardy crop top w/1dgtl (rubbish)

mixed by @1dgtl


i’m looking 4 u 
i don’t have a way out
putting myself down
i don’t wanna speak up
i have scars that i recut
filled with poison
there’s some pain that i reek of
cause of my choices
why do i break myself down
why can’t i call out for help?
i wallow in self doubt
water my grave now
walking on old ground
i do not know how

to get out of here
let’s get out of here
i’ll take myself out
i’ll take myself out

know you don’t want me 
my best is not good enough
shadows still haunt me 
and that’s y i’m giving up
that’s y i’m giving up
my best wasn’t good enough
my best wasn’t good enough
my best wasn’t good enough
for you
for you

how do i break this cycle
how do i take off my blindfold 
covered in spiders
i cannot survive here
pickup my rifle
i’m all alone here my thoughts suicidal 
bleed out my chest
there’s nothing left of me

know you don’t want me 
my best is not good enough
shadows still haunt me 
and that’s y i’m giving up
that’s y i’m giving up
my best wasn’t good enough
my best wasn’t good enough
good enough
my best wasn’t good enough 
4 u

Copy of my best wasn’t good enough

gypsum