garbage throwaway

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

i cant take another fucking day looking at this imageboard of a girl on r9k
i swear its a new girl everyday but i'll orbit her the same baby wont you look my way

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

when its time to go home
i'll see you there on my phone
i'll see you again

/r9k/ (unreleased demo)

hey brown eyes youre always walking away
ive got something i wanted to say
i love your face and i love you

hey pretty girl you always make my day
you dont know that on this day
i never could say
i fell for you

i'll wait by the phone
so please tell me when you go
but i'll waste time at home
that way youre never ever alone

do you remember when you picked up my pencil in 11th grade in geometry class?

what would u know abt being retarded
i throw my brain straight into the garbage
because im sofucking bad at social interactions
because i have such a strong passion for star wars
and also ww2 and ancestry and history 
and all these other things that normal people dont obsess over
i guess its just over
i guess its just over

im a fucking retarded loser i have no friends
i spend everyday inside on my computer i wanna die
the only girl that gave me valentines every year was my mom
i got bullied viciously i live in misery

oh my god i hate my fucking life dude

im anxious as fuck and im depressed as fuck and im suicidal
and i have been for a while
but its hard to wake up every morning and pretend its alright
but at least i have my favorite video game fortnite

why is my life harder because im autistic

youre so nice i dont know why you would ever talk to me
im nothing special im a loser and im fucking ugly
shes so pretty shes the girl that i- girl of my dreams
but no matter how hard i try she'll never notice me

im writing songs in my room
im writing songs about you
cus i dont know what to do
i want this one to come true

so lets make this one a two
i never wanna be through
i could never tell the truth
i think im in love with you

youre so pretty and ive seen all of star trek the original series

living in a lie you make me feel alive
and i can not take this my hearts in a hemorrhage
im serving a lifetime of prison in my mind
and i can not take this my hearts in a hemorrhage

shes up when im low
and she has what i dont
youre so fun yeah i know
you self harm i self loathe

self loathe (neet cover)

hand crushed by a mallet

plug me in

i wanna be your boyfriend

yeah im a loser 
yeah i know that
and im fine with how its going

cus i like movies 
i like the 3d
i liek comic books and tv
now i'll never touch a girl
but its okay cus in my world
they all love me they all see me
and they're always in 2d

my rooms covered in all these other awesome things
like star wars star trek zelda presidents and war memorabilia
flags and maps and cool charts
my own star wars fanart
picture the nerdiest stuff now picture walls covered from top to bottom

i'll never have a girl in my room

so what im a loser i dont even care star wars makes me happier than stupid girls (im so lonely)

i feel like shit does every song have to be a hit
cause lately ive not been feeling it
i never know when youre gonna quit
i think im gonna quit i think im gonna quit

writing songs to make you smile
all the fucking while
your heart it drives me wild
my heart stopped check my vitals

is that what she said about me

i cant do this anymore please kill me

and over
its over
its over
its hard to get over

i see you all the time
on twitter dot com or well i mean x
if i say that i like you know that i mean it

what the fuck is going on
cant use my words so i'll write a song
and i know it might be wrong
but i know that youre the bomb

scotland forever
scotland forever
forever and ever and ever

mean angel

its not fair the way you part your hair
the way you look at me the way that i stare
i see you everywhere and its hard to get over
i see you all the time does it get easy when we're older
and she'd say

doot da doot da doot
does that make sense to you to you to you
i never had a clue a clue a clue
i love her only you oh you oh you 
i love her only you

so please come over over over over
please come over over over over
we'll get older older older older
we'll get older older older older
i'll get older

i love you

fuck it up like the way u wanna be everybodys so happy
whats the deal with this guy is he new in your life 
does he wanna be with you like i dont know 
dont wanna talk about it
i will show up to your work

everyday is a pain to go on
and my life is so hard
dont say that youve heard this one before
step back and shut the door
who cares if i use the same chords
my heart will stay torn 
its not fair
i dont care
i wont say that i love your hair
two years that you werent there
i hope that you still care

Pain6

frumpy fat girl youre everything i wanna love
ur so cute i rlly wanna say wassup
tell that goob she can shut the fuck up
i want you ur the only girl im thinking of
shes frumpy
i really wanna be
with youuuuu ohhhhhh
rorrey really loves you

frumpty dumpty on the wall whos the cutest of them all

bad guy

Icantbelieveithowcouldyou

happy birthday to you
i want to tell you that i like you...r new haircut
cause i think it really suits you
and i follow cause youre so misato coded
and i tried but your puffy eyes are still golden
and youre holding me hostage with
all the special things you did
so i'll pretend that youre asian
haters they be hating
cause they know finnyemmygarcy runs the whole nation
im just saying summer 23 is changing
well im waiting for the time but im impatient 
im still waiting

birthday song

i missed my chance to be
a japanese exchange student
in tokyo where all the girls know
watashi wa totemo kuradesu

like look that guy
he looks pretty fly
and i wouldnt have to try
cus im a white guy

where all the girls say im cute
and the dudes wanna feud
i just wanna wear those uniforms dude

im a loser back home
im a fucking asshole
jumping down the flagpole like miyamoto
cause the girls back home
aint from kyoto ohhh

loser back home (demo)

no hope // no harm

(i dont wanna) break up

i'll say when its over

winter suicide blehhh

summer of 2022 thats when i met you
getting vaccines for school ooo
u were so sweet and kind so pretty and devine
i wanted to end my life but you
showed me that skys werent grey
that there was always happy days
turned my heart into clay
i really miss you babe

to think abt all those months we spent last year
through fall and autumn and winter and summer
we talked and we talked and we had fun alot
and u were always gone but it was fine i didnt care

we were so happy u'd call me on instagram
and we would talk abt our days and id play guitar for you
and u said not to cut my hair cus u liked it long
and then i cut it when u were gone and i wrote this song

"juli says not to cut my hair she says let it grow"
well i will let you know

its hard to look at all the funny moments and the laughter
and the memories right after everything has gone to shit
i think abt the months we spent and then the months before that
and all i can think abt is how i wanna go to florida

i dont hate u i was hurting i said shit i never meant
i handled the aftermath poorly and thats why you came and went
i know that if i was more mature or if i just used my words instead of screaming and yelling
then you wouldve still have been following my instagram and liking all my stories
we could just be friends and then something

i cant laugh look at the photographs
that shit it makes me sick
i hate it i hate it
i wanna die

now everything reminds me of you
like the nhk poster in my room
but its not too late we can still reconvene

ooo

bugcatcherjuli (acoustic)

nothing ever goes my way w/ loser64

chillin on twitch 
watching you bend down to switch
for bowser throws you dont want to use that controller

chillin on stream
hoping you respond to me :(
for bowser throws you dont want to lose your composure

bowser throws

i wanna change this lead erm... bad songs 3 in like a week or something

stupid stupid
youre really losing it
just think youre cool and
wan be with u

i know im shy and
awkward and i cant
make eye contact
im weird and silent

im really trying
i think im dying
so sick of crying
in love well i am

shy
Im sorry im so shy
im sorry im so shy
im sorry  

im
Im sorry im so shy
im sorry im so shy
im sorry im

im so shy (demo)

if home is where the heart is then
moving is the hardest when
i just wanna make amends
i just want us to be friends x2

i got drunk made another mistake
i didnt mean to text you today
but i did and maybe i dont regret it
i dont regret it i dont

another damn day you mixed up your messages
i dont care just say youre done with him
i dont know why i am still a bit
in love with you girl im so sick of this

if home is where the heart is then
moving is the hardest when
i just wanna make amends
i just want us to be friends x2

home is where the heart is

play it cool

dont leave her waiting sniiiipeeettttttt

sometimes i wasted 
my life i hate it
whats the point of love
if you'll never find it

it'll be okay

i had strep throat while recording this so my voice is kinda fried

since you left me ive been dalepilled
now im in a car and im crashing for real
since you left me ive been down hill
now im in a car and im crashing for thrills

said you hate me when you saw me last
now im in a car and im going fast
i hate those things you do
i hate those things you put me through x2

dalepilled

headgear anna

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

h2rtbrkr

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