I am a huge virgin originating from  Sunderland, England. To be honest my life is rather dull, in terms of excitement, my only pleasure is clipping my finger/toenails. I am bubbly person at times and enjoy hanging out with friends, especially playing tiddlywinks with them, I'm rather good. my only downfall would most probably be my sexual desire. I am a man, yet my sexuality is shrouded in mystery. I cry at night questioning my role in this god damn world as a man. Who am I? Am I destined for heterosexuality? or am have I bought a 1st class ticket for the homosexual-express. This is why I am lost. I'm in a relationship with a women I do not love. Is she right for me? or do I love the other sex? those with the same reproductive organs as myself? This is where perhaps, it must end. My life is no longer pleasurable. Tiddlywinks in the park on a summers day no longer strikes happiness in my soul. I'm lost in the fields of curiosity, heading for the banks of the river of denial to be swept away in the ferocious current, leading to the wide open sea of meaninglessness, to be swallowed by the tide. Like I mean nothing. My part on this heartless sphere which we call 'home' is over. I don't see a position for me. I have prayed many a time, God is a pigment of our imagination. I guess he's hope, someone to turn to in time of need for 'some sort of hope and reassurance'. Bet there is no one. No one to turn to. The only thing left is death I guess. People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. So I guess this is it. No more happiness. No more sadness. It will all end. All the faces I have seen become forgotten memories. But I like that, at least it will all stop. So I bid you farewell, Adios, Au Revoir, Ciao, Goodbye. Goodbye cruel world I must love you and leave you xx


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