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hamilton(hammy)🖤

fall

November

Sad boy shit

iwannaputanewholeinmyskull:)

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

Ariel Pink sets a serene but complicated scene for the next chapter in his curious career with “Another Weekend,” the first solo material heard since the prog-pop opus pom pom. Contrary to the lyrics of “Another Weekend” (and fortunately for both fanatics and the newly initiated), Pink is neither too shy or humble to have brought his singular style of pop music beyond the bedroom for the befuddled masses over the past two decades, but returned to the formative, familiar setting to craft what will surely live as another shimmering moment in an unrivaled canon.  Encapsulating the lingering euphoria of a regrettable weekend over the edge, “Another Weekend” speaks in morose volumes while whispering sweetly, the dichotomy of Pink’s pathos once again on display. Backed with “Ode To The Goat (Thank You)”, “Another Weekend” will be shared as a 7” single and through conventional music serving mechanisms on Wednesday, June 7.

Mexican Summer: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendxOutp
Bandcamp: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendxBC
iTunes: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendiTunes
Amazon: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendAmazon
Apple Music: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendAppleM
Spotify: smarturl.it/AnotherWeekendxSptfy

Ariel Pink - Another Weekend

sheck wes - mo bamba (prod. 16yrold & take a daytrip)

ГОША РУБЧИНСКИЙ

Prod. By: @neverday

fuck this place I hate this town
swear one day I'll burn it down
I prefer when no one round
cause I just wanna die with sound 

smoke so much 
I cannot feel my toes
I've been getting high 
to try to fill these holes
inside my mind 
I hate me all the time
feel depressed 
but I tell em that I'm fine
cause they don't really 
know or understand
it's not their fault 
I really wasn't in the plan
but really I don't give a damn 
I stack my money up
I got them blue strips in my hands 
In the club and I'm throwin bands
I'm only 17 
but you know I'm still the man 
any drug you want 
you know I got it 
she looked me right 
in the eyes and she popped it 

I'm so high not coming down
fuck this place I hate this town 
my creative vibe is running out
I'm gonna die 
the light is out
she crushed my heart and took my soul 
she took my youth and made me old
I hate this bitch with my whole heart
left me shattered from the start 

left me in the dark

yeah she left me in the dark 
I think I'm gonna die
demons coming for me 
angels falling out the sky 
now my heart is fucked up
baby I was love drunk 
fell into a nightmare 
now I'll never wake up 

I will never wake up
I don't wanna say much 
I just wanna crash fast 
knew it when our lips touched 
I fell for you too hard 
I can't get back up 
now I'm fucking stuck here
I always have the worst luck

spotify

fell into a nightmare (prod. neverday)

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Guitar sample is from Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate) - How to Make Love Stay (https://empireempire.bandcamp.com/album/what-it-takes-to-move-forward)

Bridge

маленькие вещи

Prod. By: https://www.youtube.com/user/Xtravulous

forever in my mind
always search
but cannot find
was looking for your love
but you just left me behind

I feel very numb
cause my soul already died
I feel very dumb
cause now I know she lied
look up at the sky
and I ask the gods why
walking all alone
need nobody by my side
put me in my grave
i been thinking every night
would it be that bad
if I left it all behind
tired of my life
always cry
and get in fights
i know i'm no good
cut my skin up with the knife
kissed me on my lips
and turned my heart just like the ice
I am not okay
I am not alright

forever in my mind
always search
but cannot find
was looking for your love
but you just left me behind x2

different cities every night
fall in love you lose your life
on the acid
see the lights
on the stage
I'm super high
blacking in and fucking out
all these people used to doubt
act like they don't fucking dream
so much fake up in this scene

it's fuckin toxic
i'm barely breathing
but i'm flexin and i'm flossin
and they fucking think their stunting
it's fucking nothing
their music sounds disgusting

in a race but i'm cheating
yeah i'm taking drugs
to run away from demons

don't know who you are
talking all that nonsense
pull up leave you bleeding
your head looking like a faucet

cause it's dripping
give me any beat you know I ain't missing
tell that girl I'm on a mission
I don't want love
I hate the attention

forever in my mind (prod. xtravulous)

your mine (prod. tyto)

@yungchans - your mine (prod. tyto)

prod. www.youtube.com/user/Xtravulous

every single night
I'm up thinking bout my life
what causes all the pain I feel inside?
can't ever escape
constant battles in my mind
don't feel human
half the time
walking all alone
get along with no one else
I don't even like my fucking self
look up at the sky
asking where the fuck am I?
whats the point to even try?

am I really from here?
in this galaxy
every time I look for love
it's a catastrophe
I know I could never be
what they asked of me
I still wanna help myself
discover inner peace

depression brings me underneath
I go invisible
I don't talk to anyone
I know it's pitiful
some days I feel so miserable
I wish I wasn't here
anxiety is killing me
it's time to disappear

running out of time
lately feel I'm running out of time
running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
speeding
like I'm driving in a race
one day hope I'm driving
in a wraith

running out of time
lately feel I'm running out of time
running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
speeding
like I'm driving in a race
one day hope I'm driving
in a wraith
don't care what they say
lately feel like everyone is fake
lately they been lying to my face
that is not okay
you don't understand the pain you cause
used to see the light
now I am lost
I am lost
I am lost

inner peace (prod. xtravulous)

Drunk in love (prod. by Drago)

PRODUCED BY ME,  lyrics : 
stay alive baby trynna stay alive
I don't wanna tho im calling it a night
how you really  bout to leave over a fight

how you gonna feel when I just die 
ive ben hiding how im feeling now im not
fucking evil I just call this all to stop now
I just miss all of our dinners but that stops now
im gone stare down the barrel of my glock now
fuck ay im stuck ay just want to run ay I cant tho,
im fucked, im so fucked, im so done, all my fans,
claim they love me, do they really fucking love me? give me money, they give me something, is that really fucking something? I want her,
only her, almost bought this bitch a purse, I don spent up every check to make her happy not reverse
she don't care that im alone, I don't got nowhere to turn
I swear I do it to myself and I aint never fucking learn
I got glocks, I got beans, guess that's all the fuck I need,
I cry please I cry please, broke my life with fucking ease
im gon do it to myself I swear to god (repeated )
running from my problems for a bag now
stay alive trynna stay a fucking live now,
I don't wanna tho im calling it a night now
how you really bout to leave over a fight now
how you gonna feel when I just die now, yea ugh,how the fuck you feel when I just die now
ive ben hiding how im feeling now im not
fucking evil I just called it you can stop now
I just miss all of our dinners but that stops now

yea all that stops now, all that stops (repeated )
all that stops, now , now, all that stops, now, now

sad song i made when i was super depressed, its rough but the bass goes crazy i guess

Track 14 from "Digital Flowerings Vol. 5"
https://soundcloud.com/internet-hippy...

Hammy (Artist)
https://twitter.com/wakeuphammyy
https://soundcloud.com/hammy

Spacedtime (Producer)
https://twitter.com/spacedtimebeats
https://soundcloud.com/spacedtime

Internet Hippy (Channel)
https://twitter.com/InternetHippy
https://soundcloud.com/internet-hippy

Hammy - Dreams [Prod. By Spacedtime]

ошибка

Hit the silence on my phone
Leave a message at the tone
I'll let emotions out cuz they bout to overflow
I'll deal with this on my own
Poppin meds until I'm zoned
In my bed I'm comatose
I just wanna overdose
Stuck in negative head space
The demons never go away
They just move another place
I'm too disgraced to show my face
I felt the same yesterday
The vicious game of drinking pain away
Feelings hit my chest like a bullet ricocheted
These the moments when time is ticking at its slowest
These the moments when I know that I've hit my lowest
I'm daily going through the motions
These thoughts have their own motives
Facing down reality hitting like a locomotive
Where am I between feeling hopeless and being focused?
Where am I between real life trauma and hocus pocus?
Wheres the fine line between fixed and forever broken?
I'd really love to know cuz I've never been shown it
I know I'm lost cause
never get things right 
walking all alone 
I could die tonight
nobody would know
and nobody would care
exhale my pain
now there's smoke in the air 
I know that it's clear
that I don't fit in
feel so uncomfortable 
in my skin 
laying in bed
and I feel so stuck
I hate the whole world
yeah I know it's fucked 
something is wrong with me
and it can't be fixed
your fucking dishonesty 
just making me sick 
making me cringe
making me wish 
that I didn't exsist 
like everyday 
tortured in my own brain 
yeah I know it's a shame 
I got nothing to say 
I got nowhere to go 
feel like nobody want's me
I tend to push away 
those who love me
the pill's they gave me
just aren't working 
the happy gears inside my head
still aren't turning
drink to numb the pain
now my stomach burning 
if you call him your man
why his pockets hurting
you already know  
mine are swole as fuck
mix margelia
with the trues
I ain't slowin up 
If you ain't talking money
I ain't showin up 
If they ain't showin love
then I don't give a fuck
Ever since I've tried to write a track about sobriety
Like I'm dealin with a post operative lobotomy
Im feeling I cant master an intelligent dichotomy
In my drunken state I thought way more philosophically
I tend to have a better vision with my fucked up chemistry
It's almost like I'm bottling anger that I'm harboring
I use to fire off these tracks semi automatically
I feel that I've been running out of ammunition recently
I've given up the part of me 
that made my last masterpiece
I've given up that part of me
I've killed him off so tragically
I put him on display like a catastrophic centerpiece
Left in the open for the world to watch him slowly bleed
It's been a few months since that part of me became deceased
I had to erase him, make the old me obsolete
The never ending vicious cycle replays memories
flashing through my mind so frequently
Reminisce so vividly
the pill's they gave me
just aren't working 
the happy gears inside my head
still aren't turning
drink to numb the pain
now my stomach burning 
if you call him your man
why his pockets hurting
you already know  
mine are swole as fuck
mix margelia
with the trues
I ain't slowin up 
If you ain't talking money
I ain't showin up 
If they ain't showin love
then I don't give a fuck

Part Of Me(feat. Hammy)

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/25vjh8aBWtwlHaGCemNDZC

apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/better-off-single/1462118178

better off (prod. Young Taylor)

agony

my bra1n hurtz

1eave th3 nest

fucked up knees got cracks in my phone screen :'(

prod. @prodjody

another night spent alone
sometimes I wish you could know
how much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking
drinking coffee
scars on me 
like a zombie
for you baby I'm crazy
dive headfirst 
now I'm too deep

I can't breathe
sinking deeper 
things are different 
we're older
the world is on our shoulders
I feel it growing colder

crush my dreams 
watch them shatter
none of this even matters
wanna die when I think about her
wish I could know what's after

I'm a ghost 
yeah I feel like casper
when your near me 
my heart beats faster 
and when I see you my mind starts racing
I've been working 
now life's changing

no sleep 
my body's aching
I'm no good at conversation 
need you like medication
cause every night I'm contemplating

another night spent alone
sometimes I wish you could know
how much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking
drinking coffee
scars on me 
like a zombie
for you baby I'm crazy
dive headfirst 
now I'm too deep

zombie (prod. jody)

Writing/Performance/Production: Matt Van

🌧🌧🌧

Stream on Spotify/Apple Music: smarturl.it/MattVan_reasons
Buy on iTunes: apple.co/2znIzl1
Buy Matt Van Merch: bit.ly/mattvan_merch

LYRICS:

This is just another day to 
Feel misplaced
Maybe I’d be better off as 
An unfamiliar face
In the crowd
Don’t draw attention to myself
Not that anyone can tell
When I’m not here

I’ve made a list of reasons
I should stay
It falls a little short but
That’s okay
‘Cause none of this is real
Here anyway
At least that’s what it feels like
These days

This is just another dream to
Slip away
Because of my tendency to
Make mistakes
But I’ll fake another smile
Just to blend
As I secretly pretend that
I’m not here

I’ve made a list of reasons
I should stay
It falls a little short but
That’s okay
‘Cause none of this is real
Here anyway
At least that’s what it feels like
These days

Am I awake or dreaming
I don’t know
But I’m still alive and breathing

I’m searching for a reason
I should stay
Life is pretty short 
I’ll be okay
‘Cause everything is real
Inside my brain
At least that’s what it feels like
These days

© 2019 Sedan Records
www.mattvanmusic.com

. : . : .

reasons.

buy / stream

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLwSyzwRCsA
Prod by me & @yongerbeats
mixed by me

So Icy Records!

thought we were forever but u know ur clever
so u would do shit like just lie in my face
never say never but my heart is severed
i dont think i ever wanna see you again
i gave you trust and you gave me lust
i guess i deserve it for fuckin a friend
i can look in your eyes and see when your lying
so how you gone look at me tryna pretend

i been running from demons so gotta get high
i smoke me a blunt to reset my mind
i smoke to the face
cause imma get paid regardless of what the fuck i do tonight
she been on my mind
she know im shy
she know i fuck better when im off the drugs
i aint seen my momma yeah it's beena  minute maybe im missing all the love

i had to move out my hometown
now i got money and hoes now
ur bitch aint a whale but she goes down
and people surprised cause im profound

pull up with me, we vip, im in the back of the club w the ice
diamonds on me,im really shining, tell me why yo hoe is tryna be my wife
she know imma star so shorty a stan
i pop xanny bar and fly to japan
designer my pants to stunt on ur mans
i feel like imt ecca im flying to france

oh yeah
it's tommy szn (lol)

Tommy Ice - Forever (Video in description)

"So much bullshit" is the second single from the upcoming sad chill mixtape "The Anomaly". The tape will include various artists from the sad chill family and it is coming out on Oct 11 on all platforms (Youtube, Spotify, SoundCloud, iTunes). Every single will come with its own "Chapter", a story that gives further meaning to the concept of the project!! Hope you enjoy. More singles coming soon!

hammy - so much bullshit (prod. woodpecker)

I Hate That I Still Think About You ft. dying in designer

Stick Up

prod. jD & Xander

hope I get to see you again 
before this life comes to an end
cause you make my head fucking spin

on the edge 
I don't wanna fall 
mastercard 
when I hit the mall
girl for you 
I'd buy it all
dress you up 
just like a doll

pins and needles
when she's on me
in my lap in the backseat
she's my heart
she's all I need
late at night 
and I'm smoking trees 

up all night 
I still can't sleep
head's a mess 
yeah I'm a creep
on my own I walk the street 
her shadow's haunting me

her shadow's haunting me

only thing I wanna see

I wish you were next to me 
forever till we rest in peace 
together till we both can't breathe
connected through our memories
I love how she's so unique 
I'm so high they cannot reach 
margielas up on both my feet
they jealous now 
wanna be like me

margielas up on both my feet

they jealous now wanna be like me

on the edge 
I don't wanna fall 
mastercard 
when I hit the mall
girl for you 
I'd buy it all
dress you up 
just like a doll

pins and needles
when she's on me
in my lap in the backseat
she's my heart
she's all I need
late at night 
and I'm smoking trees

up all night 
I still can't sleep

head's a mess 
yeah I'm a creep

creep (prod. jD & Xander)

hamilton (@hqmilt0n)