southern California's waiting to see you baby boy. fuck the rest

im going 160 on the freeway,i wanna swerve off into the median,my mom on the phone crying,because her son finally let the demons win

“this not a game bitch,you cant fuckin play me” 

prod. johngoyard

lost and decayed
my mind is a maze
can't find the light 
so it's dark everyday
running away
I fucked all up
I'm sorry that I can't be happy enough

I'm trying my best
I swear that I am
my brain wants me dead
and you don't understand 
you don't understand 
you don't understand 
how could you get me
I don't know who I am

first you love me 
then you hate me
this not a game bitch
you can't fucking play me 
you broke my heart 
but you still fucking blame me
I'm hanging on the edge 
and you would never save me 

smoking blunts 
till my lungs are dust 
yeah I fucked it up
I don't give a fuck
I have dreams of death 
every damn night
man I hate my life
and this not right
I'm goin 160 on the freeway 
I wanna swerve off into the median
my mom crying on my phone 
cause her son finally let the demons win

I tried my best
put it on my headstone
lemme rest
my life was full of stress
I'm depressed 
she looked me in the eyes
told me that she loved me 
but the love was just a lie 

love is just a lie 
love is just a lie 
love is just a lie 
will I make it out alive 
will I make it through the night 
don't think I'll survive
demons in my mind
running out of time
I'm running out of time

I don't wanna breathe
put my head underwater
R.I.P my dreams cause their 
dead and forgotten 
I don't have a soul 
cause my ex girl was rotten 
walking down these halls 
all these memories they haunting

fell into a nightmare 
I'll never wake up
I don't really say much 
these people fake tough
cause when I show up 
they all go quiet 
they can sense my pain
they don't want me get violent
 
like a star
I am fucking shining
but I'm also burning
which really means I'm dying 
yeah I loved her 
but she just loved lying 
took my happiness
for simply mother fucking trying  
all the pain she put me through
I thought it would be worth it
now I'm just a mess
and shes still fucking perfect
just forgot me
left me in the past
ending it tonight 
just to find the peace at last

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