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A Karkat Vantas Fansong, long awaited. It's basically about Karkat's perspective on Gamzee, Terezi and recent happenings in homestuck canon. Slightly spoiler.

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LYRICS
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There will be no soft sounds this time
no arms, not mine at least
should've expect this, I guess, no “shh” can sooth your beast
and it was my problem once, that violence inside your eyes
bright red and high with death and pie, and rage that never dies

and I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, but never you
cause you were just a messed up kid, 
who'd step in it, get scared and sit,
and pray for goats and gods who would know what to forbid 

and when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make it worse
And maybe I deserve that hurt, 
destruction of my universe, 
so if you've gotta beat somebody up don't make it her.

I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore.
I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader. 
Not a leader.
Not a leader, friend.

No more attempts to make you see, I tried, he succeeded, oh well
but what I can say to a girl who'd play with a noose of excuses until
her big wicked grin disappears in the smoke, and crack goes the rope pulled true
I know enough about doubt, and hating myself, to tell that you now know it too

and I used to blame myself, then I blamed everybody else, including you
but you were perfect as you were
all angled out, a blinding blur
so bright and beautiful, and clever, yeah for sure

But when you would reach out, well I'd run my big mean mouth and make a mess
And now it's my turn to confess
I wasn't there, I didn't guess
that you were slipping, 'till you tripped right off the edge

I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader anymore
I'm sorry, I messed up, I'm not a leader,not a leader, not a leader...

Said a thousands words but they never helped
I hid my scars from you out of shame
Took up the cause, Yeah I took the helm
But I'm not the only one who's changed
I knew you first, I knew you best
I wish I'd stopped it way back then
when things were bad, but they still made sense
when we were kids, when we were friends.

Friendleaders...

Friend, Leader.

A KarGamRezi fansong on charango.

Heavily inspired by the fanfic "The Serenditpity Gospels" by duedlyfirearms and urbanAnchorite. Track art by duedlyfirearms

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LYRICS
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There's a boy here lying quiet in my shadow like a prayer
he drips from every angle into colours that I wear
he wanders like an saint on predatory pilgrimage
with a grimace and a limp he puts his wrist against my cartilage

and I could separate these bones, I could pack them into prose, 
or I could hold a cancer in my soul until it overflows, 
but there is only boy and breath, gentle handprints on my chest. 
mouthing little darling, deepest, loveliest of sacrilege.

This boy of filth, he's born of Gods, 
he clutches at my flaws, he drags me from my holocaust
he takes my limbs, he wraps them around him, 
he takes my shake and takes my sick and feeds me bread and then...

these violent wall eyed dreams that mite their way into my fear of me and mine
these wines and sugars in my blood they mutter “Take your claws and climb
the inch of every pale moon love, you once swore you'd pay nevermind.”
When I am on the side of you, I'd say my gods were always lying
Lying...

There's a girl pacing around me, proselytizing parasite.
Her sick, acidic logic ridicules the ancient rite.
and when her teeth break up on me like tiny cliffs of chalk,
I crash into her canyon, lick the injuries she likes to mock.

And I could cut her down to size, It's half as hard as compromise, 
or I could watch a blind sleepwalker creep all sweet and none-the-wise,
but there is only girl and grin, curling up under my skin, 
picture you and I forgetting why we let the other in.

This judge of what, she's born of mud, 
she answers to no blood, she will not let me chew the cud.
She spits and swells, she wears her wretched well, 
she holds my soul with taxes, tolls, and takes it straight to hell. 

these violent wall eyed dreams that mite their way into my fear of me and mine
these wines and sugars in my blood they mutter “Take your claws and climb
the inch of every rotten hate, I once swore I'd pay nevermind!”
When I am on the side of you, you'd say your law was always lying.
Your law, it must be lying.
My Gods, they must be lying.
Lying...

The Gods Must Be Lying

Been a while since I posted on here...

Here's a fansong for the Character Josh Washington from the videogame Until Dawn. A dark, spooky, ukulele song in honor of the season. <3 Alternate Download at Tindeck.

Music/Lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters

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LYRICS
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Who are you, and to what end?
Are you the doting brother, or the devoted friend?
Are you the wing-man, the helping hand, the one left over?
The watchful eye, the butterfly, the rarely sober?

So, what are you? Who's playing your role?
Are you acting, or directing? Who's in control?
The spoiled son? The killer clown? The voice that whispers?
Your therapist? Your arrogance? Your dead twin sisters?

Were they lost in the dark, did they fall from a great height?
Were they chased and torn apart, by wolves and ravens in the night?
Were they taken, were they tortured, through the water did they wade?
You only know that you're alone now, you only know that you're afraid
(You only know that you're afraid)
You only know that you're afraid
(You only know that you're afraid)
You only know
(You only know)
You only know

So, what do you fear? Is it snakes or roaches?
Do you shake, are you scared, when the storm approaches?
Is is boys with blades? Girls with guns?
is its crowds, caves or cliff-sides? Yeah, they all sound fun...

Well then, who do you hate? Is it girls who gossip? 
Is it boys, big and brave, who make you their hostage?
Is it friends who you miss, who defy description, 
who wont fight, who wont kiss, who pass out in kitchens?

Were they lost in the dark, did they fall from a great height?
Were they chased and torn apart, by wolves and ravens in the night?
Were they taken, were they tortured, through the water did they wade?
You only know that you're alone now, you only know that you're afraid
(You only know that you're afraid)
You only know that you're afraid
(You only know that you're afraid)
You only know
(You only know)
You only know...

Tell me, what have you done, where did it go wrong?
Were you kidding yourself all along?
Tell me, what will you do, if you can't be saved?
If the girls don't gossip and the boys aren't brave?

You will be be lost in the dark, now you've fallen from a great height
You'll be chased and torn apart, by wolves and ravens in the night
You'll be taken, you'll be tortured, through the water you will wade
But at least you're not alone now, soon you wont be so afraid
(What do you fear? What do you hate?)
Soon you wont be so afraid
(I hate myself, I fear my fate)
Soon you wont be so afraid
(What do you fear? What do you hate?)
Soon you wont be so afraid
(I hate myself, I fear myself)

You Only Know (Joshua's Song)

Just a rough ukulele song about Pearl from Steven Universe and her feelings about Rose. Sorta takes place around Rose's Scabbard.

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Lyrics
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worth, it's something you can earn
it's something like belonging
but nothing like belonging to
and love is wanting to protect
to fight until you're wrecked
coming back reformed, reborn, and stronger too

and it's not easy 
it hasn't been easy
it's not getting easier
to go on without you

hate, and guilt and grief and rage
I tried but couldn't save you 
from what you were searching for
those things I couldn't understand
you smiled and held my hand
and that's the touch I'm hurting for

and it's not easy
it's hasn't been easy
nothing's been easy
and I'm full of doubt too

and it's not for me
this world you adored
I am trapped on theses shores
without you

why, I would have followed where you lead
if I could bleed I would have bled
if I could give myself instead
if I could you what he gave you
anything to save you
anything to keep your curiosity at bay
anything to have you
and to hold you
if I could I would have told you
anything, anyone but him

and it's no surprise I love him, how couldn't I
and I see you in his eyes, in his wisdom and his kindness
and the way he's always right
and it's not easy to realize it's getting harder all the time
harder to miss you

and it's not easy
it's true
but nothing was ever easy
with you

Without You

A somewhat rough fansong for the Pricefield ship from the videogame Life Is Strange. it also became sort of a personal piece as well... Enjoy.

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Lyrics
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Inevitably you in blue and me
we are young and chlorinated
laughing as we flee security
this feels safe and free and fated

unaware that there are bones among the weeds
lying underneath your posters
and dressing in your missing girlfriend's tees
I'm the picture of a poser

but I'm not anybody's muse of purity
and you're no problem child or cautionary tale
and I'm not innocent and you're not guilty
but we'll both be punished by the howling wind and hail

before this ends
the world is not a friend to girls in love
and I keep trying to rewind
but the world's not kind to girls in love

they pin our wings and keep us under glass
try to understand our beauty
say they have to see us after class
it's a privilege and our duty

but they will never know what we possess
strange attractors, we are fractal
and with Schrodinger's devotion in my chest
I'm a quantum chain reactor

and you're not venison to be consumed
and I am not some armless marble carving to admire
and we are not red roses to be cut before we bloom
and we are not the virgin victims for their sacrificial fire

to the gods
against all odds, we're girls in love
and the storm is on it's way
cause the world's not made for girls in love

so batten down the hatches, arm the canons, grab your cutlass, set the compass, 
we are sailing for a future where there's gentleness and justice
you wont have to fight, or pay a price, or pray you gave enough
and the lighthouse always shines 

for girls in love 
for girls in love

Girls In Love

A fansong for the character Nick Valentine from the game Fallout 4. Sorta peaky but I I've been sitting on since the game came out so...I still like it ok.

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Lyrics
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The words I speak put shape to someone else's thoughts. 
I am uniquely defined by the person I am not. 
My face is lined with the evidence of someone else life 
and my racing mind finds paths of personality and faithfully 
connects familiar dots. 

All I want is to have something that is mine 
from the start every part of me chosen not assigned. 
all I want is know for certain that my wanting is my own
And I own what is mine and what is mine is mine alone.

I'm known to speak in a simulated sort of sounding voice. 
Its been so long I can no longer tell if its by choice. 
I could pretend to be any sort of person I suppose. 
But whats the point id still be an imitation of a human 
I'd still never fit my clothes.

All I know is that there's nothing that's been mine 
from the start, every part of me chosen by design. 
All I what is to be the person no one ever thought id be. 
I don't want to be anyone but me. 

So please...

Is there something new for me under the sun?
Is there a rock unturned?
Is there a new trick up a hidden sleeve that this old dog can learn?
Is there a story doomed to repeat? Or is this a bridge I can burn?  And can I find treasure in trash of another man?
I hope I can.

That's all I want.

All I want is to have something that is mine
from the start, every part of me chosen not assigned,
All I want is to know for certain that the wanting is my own
and I own what is mine and what is mine is mine alone
and what is mine is what I want
and what I want is what I want

That's all I want...

All I Want

An original song! Maybe a little bit odd and not everyone's cup of tea but then again that's most of my music I think...

Not a fansong for once so no download right now but enjoy :)

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Lyrics
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I'm kind and I'm clever, I know how to pull out the tab of a coffee cup
I find more pleasure in helping, than hurting, I'm pretty sure that's enough

and as for grown ups I don't wanna be one
and I don't wanna see one again
and I don't want to know what I'm missing out on
or if my hat's on the wrong end

so what if I'm walking home backwards?
I'm still gonna get where I get
Anthony's walked round in circles for years and he hasn't stopped yet

I'm funny and free, with a few good tattoos and permanent crooked grin
I've medals for participation and others for getting the hockey puck in

and as for losers I've certainly been one
and I'll probably be one again
but I don't want to know what I'm getting too old for
so don't put your trash in my bin 

so what my life story's missing a cover,
on sale for just $1.99?
Anthony's written in marker, he's scrawled in the margins of mine 

I'm soft and im silly, my therapist tells me I thoroughly know my own mind
yeah, I'm so self aware she can't help me, I finish her sentences all the time

so as for sanity take it or leave it
don't know where I last put mine down
and I've gained thirty pounds since I lost it
so it probably wont fit me now

so what if my uncertain future
looks nothing at all like my past
Anonthy's outside the confines of spacetime completely 
he's perfectly calm and relaxed

yeah

Anthony's just where I left him
and he can't do a thing on his own
he's never won any trophies or accolades
he's never gonna get home
so I've got a leg up on the boy
that I dreamed about being when I was 13
I'd rather be the real me than the fake Anthony

yeah all in all I'd rather be me than Anthony

Music/Lyrics (c) me/PhemieC

Anthony

A fansong for my favorite visual novel of all time. We Know The Devil. I don't think any peice of media has moved me as much as that game. please go buy it!

http://store.steampowered.com/app/435300/

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Lyrics
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doubt's an elastic that snaps where you grasp it 
with idle hands clasped on your wrist just as sharp as 
a kiss on the scar where you carved out her name 
or a line that is straight and confined to your fate 
you're resigned to be damned by your hand in her hand
she will hold you as soft as feather on water
you float on her fingers, she pulls you apart 
it's not hard, it wont hurt, it's not right for a daughter of god

not for one of his flock
not for good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

hate is a bile that starts in your guts and erupts 
from your throat like a geyser, you try  to provoke 
and emote and spit angry black stains on their lies 
as they hock more to block out their shame
and their cries, how they try, but it wont be enough 
not as long as you live, you'll all drown in the stuff
it wont help to be patient, the water will rise after all 
you're all in the same place aren't you, daughter of god?

just one of his flock
like the good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

good girl...

light, you can see now the dark is receding 
parts leaving, not bleeding, just holes for the healing to start
there's your heart and it sees with it's wings out 
it reads what you think in the bones of the body
you shrink and you smile and you try to make small 
but the devil sees all and she thinks you're a beauty
you're bursting and beating and burning up 
hotter each second, the reckoning comes for you daughter of god

comes for one of his flock
for the good little girls
but good god you're not 
good girl

love is a place where she touches your face, but also your thighs (and it's alright)
love is a place where the tide always rises, the ink never dries (and it's alright)
love is a place where you see with your heart and fly with your eyes (and it's alright)
love is a place where your innocence goes when it dies.

You'll never know what you could find (let love turn on the light)
You'll never know what you could find (let love touch you tonight)
You'll never know what you could find (let love drown your soul)
You'll never know what you could find (let love make you whole, daughter of god...)

Daughter Of God

I DID NOT WRITE THIS. This is just a quick cover of Mother Mother's song Empty Hands off of their new album No Culture. Some of the lyrics are not exact, sorry, I just went by ear.

Please go give No Culture a listen, I'm obsessed with this Album. <3

http://www.mothermothersite.com/

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Lyrics (may be slightly different from official lyrics)
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I was given these hands, I can make a fist with them
But can’t understand how to get a grip with all the
people around; nothing seems to stick with them
They’re getting me down and I pin them insensitive,
and they ask me to lend them a hand
and I put it out but then they turn my hand down

Oh, why do I take these things around my little empty hands, hands?

I was given this heart, and I help it with stopping
But I can’t help it start, start by just agreeing with the
People at large, Ah they're so unnapealing
Yeah they’re just not that smart, and sometimes it’s endearing
But not when I ask them to lend me a hand
And they just look at me like I’m some hand-me-down gown

Oh, why do I take these things around my little empty hands, hands?
My empty empty hands, hands

I was given these eyes, and I can’t see the truth
But I can feel all the lies, they're falling from the roof
They’re making piles and piles, and after I deduce
I’d say that lies aren’t my style, so it’s safe to assume
that if I ask if you’d just kindly lend me a hand
you might just say that you do but really not give a damn, damn, damn...

Oh, why do I take these things around my little empty
Why do I take these things around my little empty
Oh, why do I take these things around my little empty hands, hands?
My empty empty hands, hands

Empty Hands (Mother Mother Cover)

My first overwatch fansong, this one's about Hanzo Shimada and his feelings surrounding himself and his brother. One of the simplest and most satisfying (at least for me) songs I've ever written. Enjoy :)

Track art from the Dragons short.

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A sharpened sword stuck in my side
fool to think that I could dig it out with arrows
I shot one into God's left eye
and then no more light hit mine
as the sun set one last time
to the song of the sparrow

A feral beast, more thorn than paw
claws the rooster from his nest, for lest he dare to crow
I'll aim again to make God blind
lay my pelt upon your shrine, as the sun sets one last time
to the cry of the wolf and the song of the sparrow

the dream of light; a baited cage
to trap me where it waits, in its glare, if dare I go
but to outrun that horizon
would take stronger legs and lungs
and wings, and I have none
since last I saw the setting sun and sung the song of the sparrow

And here again, that stubborn flame
I am immolate with sorrow, his forgiveness is my pyre
and he stokes a fire that burns like shame
and he calls himself your name
says the sun will set the same
and sings the song of the sparrow

so what will I when dawn arrives?
Guide the hand of blinded god, or guard the hen, a loyal hound?
Perhaps a breath, a chance to fly
see the sun rise in your sky
feel the warmth and hear the sound...

The Sparrow

Homestuck Filk, for the Rose/Kanaya pairing.

(c) Hannah M/PhemieC 2011 

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LYRICS
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You've got a new dress, you're a quick change actress
Your lipstick slides out of it's sheath
You're my neon-veined day-glow dame, how do you speak
With your tongue pressed so tight to your teeth?

You've got a lot of dead friends on this rock where we're floating
And there's darkness ahead, but I think it's worth noting
We're candles, we're matches, we're lights on a wire
So come with me, please, be my Sylph set on fire

In all honesty, I expected to be 
So exceptionally unimpressed
I do not trust kindness, in kindnesses lies are hid
And oft topped with makeup and winningly dressed

But you've got a mind, and if you don't mind me saying
It resides in a beauty not slightly betraying
You luminesce, I confess, I guess you're no liar
So come with me, please, be my Slyph set on fire

Sylph Set on Fire

Another Life is Strange fansong, this time for the pairing of Chloe and Rachel, in honor of Before the Storm getting announced! I am Ready To Hurt lol.

Music and Lyrics (c) Phemiec

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LYRICS
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she was an angel
she was a leo
she helped me dye my hair in the sink

she was the bringer of change and of spring
wearing her flannel and feather earring

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone would stay...

she was a charmer
she was a changer
she could fit in with every crowd

but I fit with her, like a storm for my cloud
pulled into the eye of her, high off the ground

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone could stay...

she was a model
she was a rebel
one second with her you'd know she's a star

and I kissed her hard on an old junkyard car
and I carved her name on the wall in a heart

she made it okay, to not be okay
made me believe that someone could... 
that someone would stay...

Stay

“An Idiot” by PhemieC. Track art by the super talented moggettt! Who you can find at moggettt.tumblr.com!

~Spoilers for The Adventure Zone postcast. Story and Song arc~

A fansong for the podcast "The Adventure Zone", from Taako’s POV, set during Ep 67. Enjoy. :)

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LYRICS
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I have lived a hundred lives
and I have died a dozen times
but the reaper hasn't caught me yet
though his scythe is often at my neck

and I have learned a trick or two
though I've forgotten quite a few
and might have told a hundred lies
twice as many half as true

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
and waiting as I fail to rise
never guessing what it meant

I lived adrift on luck and looks
'till hungry hearts struck hard and took
and made afraid of what I'd done
my skills were nil, my friends were none

I could not trust my empty mind
these stolen holes of space and time
the faces, newly strange, I'd find
none of them resembling mine

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
and waiting as I fail to rise
never asking what it meant

I barely cared, and rarely tried
to find some reason I should fight
but in my hand and at my side
you, my heart, my arm did guide

for I had been your long lost twin
closer than a second skin
and now I am alone again
wiser than I've never been

Oh I have been an idiot
missing some key ingredient
but now I know how I will rise
oh how on earth could I forget?
knowing you has made me wise
now I am not an idiot!

An Idiot

((Download link can be found at http://www.muziboo.com/Hamsters/music/made-of-death/))

Homestuck Filk. A rough, sort of weird Aradia fansong I had to get out of my head. Made with my voice. A lot of my voice.

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LYRICS
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I found a few spare milliseconds I'm prepared to waste
I've been leaving copies of myself across paradox space

I've been a body with no soul, and a soul in metal, cold.
Please trust in what I tell you. Don't you know that I am made of time?

What a chorus line of corpses we've collected
At least we're good at one thing I suppose
It's nice to feel excited once again
Let's throw the loveliest of human funerals

I used to feel I stood for something, then I just felt fine
I've fallen prey to feeling some emotions that weren't mine

I was never really gone at all, but you believed I was
So, I'm sorry that I left but I've returned to help our cause

In our story I do not narrate, I just fill the margins
With bubbles, circles shapes where we may place our fallen friends

Has it been years or days or has it been a breath?
I may be Maid of Time but I am also Maid of death

Made of Death

A fansong about Junkrat from Overwatch on ukulele! Probably the cutesyest little ditty about mass destruction you're likely to hear for a while.  A Little rough and unpolished but then again, hey, so is Junkrat!

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LYRICS
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5...
Strap live grenades to your arms and legs
or what of 'em is left!
4...
make sure you aim for whatever you came for
and bury the rest!
3...
find a friend, or pay someone to pretend
who is worse than all your enemies combined!
2...
play nice, take my advice
and you're gonna have a real good time!

1...

BOOM! kapow! Bam! Wham! Blazzow! 
Slam, crash, smash, bash, sizzle and pop!
Crack and hiss! Zap, smack and Twist!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise
Give 'em the BOOM! (x2)

5...
Light the wick of the dynamite stick 
at both ends, friend, and take aim!
4...
break open the door, tear apart the floorboards
and set 'em aflame!
3...
Take everything that you see, it's all free
whether or not it's nailed down!
2...
its true, kid it's all you,
hit the road and blow this town!

1...

BOOM! kapow! Bam! Wham! Blazzow! 
Slam, crash, smash, bash, sizzle and pop!
Crack and hiss! Zap, smack and Twist!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise
Give 'em the BOOM! (x2)

Give 'em the BOOM! (x2)
Ahhhh!!!

We come from the scorched and dying earth
dig through trash and fight off rats to find our fortune
it's a shame that life is pain and living hurts
but if you set yourself on fire, then you can do the scorching!

BOOM! kapow! Bam! Wham! Blazzow! 
Slam, crash, smash, bash, sizzle and pop!
Crack and hiss! Zap, smack and Twist!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise

(54321)
Give 'em the- 

BOOM! kapow! Bam! Wham! Blazzow! 
Slam, crash, smash, bash, sizzle and pop!
Crack and hiss! Zap, smack and Twist!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise!
Who cares if you miss? Make a big noise!

Give 'em the BOOM!

BOOM!

((Download available at http://www.muziboo.com/Hamsters/music/little-clown/))

Atmospheric Sober!Gamzee Homestuck filk. :) Enjoy. Also spoilers I guess?

Lyrics/music (c) Hamsters/PhemieC
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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what did you do, little clown?
from his neck the walls are bleeding brown
soon the blue to follow, then the green
last will be the brightest red you've seen
brightest red you've ever seen

I rotted little holes in all my flaws
I and also I will be your gods
tear down the lies, little trolls
now I see the flaws I see the holes
I see the flaws I see the holes

did you forget I was here?
everything you never thought to fear
did you mistake me for tame?
brother, things will never be the same
things will never be the same
 
I am the bard, I sing of rage
I sing of rage
I sing
I sang it to the heir, the rogue and page
the rogue and page
page
page...

Little Clown

Homestuck filk. An Eridan Ampora fansong I recorded with a sore throat and a headache, don't ask me why...but I kind of like the result.

Music/Lyrics(c)Hamsters/PhemieC
Homestuck(c)Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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I am a prince and I live in a ship and I aim my rifle and I shoot from the hip
and I have a friend I pity quite a bit
she said “grab your gun let's have some fun, share with me your perigees 
I have responsibilities, I cannot run!” 

“I do not wish the death of any living thing, 
I might be a killer but one day I shall be queen 
and put an end to  slaughter, but until then I'm keen 
on staking claim to land and sea and everyfin between.”

I played a game with eleven fools who told me not to break the rules
but when have angels ever helped me yet?
and magic isn't real and anyway it doesn't matter 
cause no matter what I conjure it could not help be me deflect

the angry death of every hopeful thought 
that I might be a lover or a fighter that I’m not 
in someones spider web or net I could be caught 
but I'm too bitter, better off alone, guess I forgot

So what? Do you want me to say sorry?
should I apologize, when you ignore me?
I didn't ask to be right or to be lonely
or to be hatched into an ugly story

I am a prince and I had a pair of princesses in two sharp squares
but then I guess I bored them both to death
And now I think my calling is to break apart and fall to pieces
better yet invent a brand new method of ascension

I'm impressed, you've managed to survive 
but rest assured we'd all be better off dead than alive 
cause when they get a-hold of us we'll all be batter fried 
and I'm surprised that nobody's considered switching sides

So here I am, respectfully and royally destroying 
any chance of getting back on your good gills
And I don't want to be hurtful but if yellows the new purple 
well then bleeding's the new breathing, don't you think I will! 

I used to wish the death of every living thing 
I might be your killer but you'd never be my queen 
so put away your laughter, pack up your hopes and dreams 
I'm done with black back-handing and red pandering, it seems

That I am just pathetic, I won't be overlooked  
I'm past the point of fishing to get back upon your hook 
I've made a manifesto, I've been bested by a crook, but never more! 
I'm planning on reclaiming what he took...

So what? do you want me to say sorry?
should I apologize, when you ignore me?
I didn't ask to be right or to be lonely
or to be hatched into an ugly story
to be hatched into an ugly story

Oh my, this pantomime is getting gory

I am a prince and I live in a ship
I am a prince and I live in a ship

Ugly Story

Some depressing, spoilery Tavros filk with a little bit of Gamzee/Tavros thrown in.

Music/Lyrics (c) Me/Hamsters/Phemiec
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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Say that you believe in faeries
'cause if you don't I'll never fly again
falling down is not as scary
as never finding confidence to stand

and now I guess, I'll never know
I'm in Neverland forever, I never will grow old
and I'm leaving you lost boys and girls, alone
and finally I've flown

I'm a hero in a land of treasure
and a failure, in a body that's all wrong
I tried to measure up to this adventure
to fantasize and make believe I'm strong

But if I give my all and still
amount to nothing in the end, then I guess it was pretend
when I thought that I could help protect my friends
and with my lance I'll charge 
into the morning, look for me by the 
light of the second star

I used to feel so small and wary
but maybe growing up means many things
So say that you believe in faeries
cause really, they're just miracles with wings

And if you miss me, let me go
you can kiss me but my body will eventually grow cold
but you can dream of me and I will let you know 

that I am fine here
I am not alone
and I can fly here
Finally I've flown

Finally I've Flown

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Nepeta Filk. Equal parts Nepeta♦Equius and Nepeta♥Karkat (It's not actually as depressing as the track art makes it look).
I sampled my cat meowing at the beginning :3

Music/lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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We all have got a role to play
the lioness she stalks her prey
he's bleeding in the tall grass, unaware his thrashing makes him easier to follow
But when she gets him in her claws
she'll invite him in because
her cave is not a home without him, just a hole that is lonely and hollow

And can't you see the writing on the wall is drawing us together?
It's written there in soot and ash and blood and that's furever.
And so if you are terrified, of what you hide, remember
That I'm still on your side, and that's furever...furever...

We all have got a role to play
You'll be filling yours someday
and I'll be filling mine until then we're killing time, hunting monsters in our minds
and when I see you standing strong
Pretending you don't want to play along
I'll never make you blue (or make you pay) I'll tackle you into a pile to unwind

And can't you see the writing on the wall is drawing us together?
It's written there in soot and ash and blood and that's furever.
And so if you have been denied, choke up your pride, remember
That I am on your side, and that's furever...furever...furever.

I don't have to argue, everybody knows you have issues, you lay your colors bare (in a manner of speaking) 
I'll be there when you finally decide to bare your heart, it's the part I want to share

And I don't have to argue, everybody knows you have issues, you wear them on your sleeves (so to speak) 
I'm not a thief, the only jewels that I need are your diamonds, and I find them following

The bows and arrows, in your words
The words behind your broken teeth
The broken glass that's under foot, and paw and hoof
the high and low, whatever nonsense you believe

The vast unknown laid out ahead, 
The tears and anger, good and bad
The big adventure still at hand, and paw and whiskers.
Grey, blue, red, whatever, I will understand!

And can't you see the writing on the wall is drawing us together?
We're written there in soot and ash and blood and that's furever
And so if I've been too discrete, let me repeat, remember
That I'm still on your side, and that's furever... furever...

Furever.

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Furever

***MASSIVE HOMESTUCK SPOILERS AHEAD***

Quick on the draw! Tavrisprite Filk, more metaphorical than my fansongs usually are...

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Music/Lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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I'm gonna have a nightmare tonight
I'm gonna be my nightmare tonight

You're pretty picky, you're a clique of one
I'm right though, surely I'm not the only gun you've got loaded?
How do you keep from gloating?
You're pretty tricky, did you pick that shade
just to distract from the flash of the shining blade you've got hidden?
Deep wounds overwritten

I had so many new friends to see
so many possibilities
now I couldn't possibly feel worse
I had so many fires left to nurse

In my nightmare tonight I'll see giant leviathans
breaking the water in half with their shining skin
riding them laughing you'll be in my nightmare tonight

In my nightmare tonight I'll see beasts all stampeding 
your signia burned onto haunches still healing
and leading the pack on their backs in my nightmare tonight
You'll be in my nightmare tonight, tonight...

You're pretty ugly when you get down to it, 
combined, I've half a mind to just say screw it and break completely, 
or surrender so sweetly
I thought I'd have a chance to be my own, 
free from the tyranny of your tarnished throne. 
Now I see that kingdom belongs to me, oh no...

I had so many irons in the fire
so many brands and swords
To their backsides I had even more
So many plans on what they're for

In my nightmare tonight, there's volcanoes erupting 
A red hot web veining the land, it's disgusting
cracked mountains of madness, your hand in my nightmare tonight

In my nightmare tonight I'll see me all consumed, 
and attempting to sing disharmonious tunes with you. 
Asynchronicity, I am in misery. I am in misery! 
What has been done to me?
In my nightmare tonight (X4)

In my nightmare tonight I'll see giant leviathans
breaking the water in half with their shining skin
riding them laughing you'll be in my nightmare tonight
you'll be in my nightmare tonight

My Nightmare

Some experimental, relaxing filk about the Post-Scratch Alpha Kids. :)

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Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie
Music/Lyrics (c)PhemieC Hamsters

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I am an island, no man is an island but me
I reach out my leaves, and skillfully touch them to sea
I ship out a boat made of hope on the waves and watch as it slips below
I am an island, a island that nobody knows

I am an island, no man is an island but I'm not a man
I was raised by an ocean of creatures and brands
I give what I can of, the fruits and flowers that bloom on my skin
But when loneliness knocks, she lets herself in 

Islands don't sink, the water just rises around us
Just think, someone out there is watching the stars
but they're not the same as ours, some say they're already dead, 
and the light's only on in your head.

I am an island, no man is an island but me,
I warm all my sands by the pyre of my family tree 
I took to the tundra, I climb every mountain and fight every monster I can
to run from that long burning fire, my friend 

I am an island, no man is an island but I'm not a man
And messages in bottles feel like battering rams
In my head I'm a beacon, a pinprick of potential, birthed out of nothing but blue
And the light that I signal, it's shining for you

Islands of love, we just want somebody to touch us
Just 'cause we are distant doesn't mean we are lost
we are where we are, and whenever a visitor docks
and is stranded, it means we are not

you and I have something in common, I will try to share my island
you and I are sinking in tandem, miles apart in every direction
You and I are treading this current, both of us are doomed for certain
you and I are our own now, maybe we'll wash up on solid ground

You and I are Islands x4

Islands of fate, lately I feel the tides shifting
They're bringing us closer together to stay
The waters are rippling, a new world is taking it's shape
and tonight, our Pangaea awaits

I am an Island

An echoic, atmospheric, mood-whiplashy Kanaya Fansong.

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Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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look at all the many colors, so exquisitely embroidered, 
delicately and precisely sewn into a line
organized in harmony, relationships so intricate
how'd I ever come across a tapestry so fine?

but what is this?
you're burning holes in my stitching
the colours bleeding into one big mess
did you guess, I'd let this fabric fray?

I'm meddling with murderers who still deserve to pay for their insanity 
and though I'm one of them, I'm rarest of my kind, for many fell but only I arose
it's been so long, since I've seen the sun, who's to say if the colours have faded?
locked away so long, now jaded, left only to decay

I'm Mary. I feel like Mary in this dress. I'm Mary.

And virgin journeys lie before us, patient and inscrutable
There's clouds of visions, crowds of villains, mulling in withdrawal
And who would make the sacrifice, who but I is suitable?
who but the sharp dressed woman with a dull chainsaw?

I mean no insult, but I’m fed up
It’s my fault, gave you the go ahead
I've lost my way, my hopeful days
are just as dead as I am

And failure on my part to intercede has now ironically 
or cosmically, like poetry, come in between our destiny
and us but now there's nothing left and nobody to meddle with
to try and make it better, it's unsettling, to mother nothing

Mightn't I have seen this coming on the horizon?
storms of green and orange, this world of monsters taking form
but no, it is my fate to simply fade away like wind
like someone else that I could name that shouldn't have been born

Of Mary. I feel like Mary in this dress. 
I'm Mary and I've nothing to confess
but hear me, cause no-one else is left

I'm Mary...

Mary

A Sollux Captor fansong with Sollux<3Aradia Undertones and some rather silly voice acting. More lighthearted than a lot of my other stuff.

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Homestuck(c) Andrew Hussie

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(Heh. This is ridiculous.)

One of me is my enemy 
the other me is a pretty cool guy 
but I haven't seen him around lately 
we don't see eye to eye

There's too much noise and too much spit 
but I think I've gotten the hang of it 
or at least I thought I did 
until you up and kicked the bucket 
(Wait! I mean... oh, f*ck it)

(Would you just get out of here? I'm trying to concentrate!)

What do you see in him? What could I say 
to convince you not to hop his way? 
I've never been too good at the ebb and sway 
much prefer the electrical current

The bees are buzzing in my mind 
that double crossing and two-timing (get it?) 
prospectors pan shifting through sand 
searching for a golden nugget

Little brains build little bridges trying to connect, but I'm already on the other side, 
you'd know a lot about that, right? I'm twice the man as he is, I'll work for you double-time

Would that be fine?

:D *SNARKY WHISTLE BREAK!* :D

(C'mon seriously?)

Of course it's fine.

(Okay, cut it out. That's it. I'm serious. No whistling.)

Primarily, I'm primary 
though some may say I'm incomplete 
and should be in a jar 
label me “DO NOT EAT”

Hope has struck me in the face 
and with his ace of clubs he shoved me 
back into the race 
cause second place still wins a trophy

I might have overheated, now remind me how I died, was it my motherboard, or just my RAM? 
Now I've found a player two in you, I'm glad I fried, I'm using every second that I can 
of Double Time, Double Time...

Double trouble bursting bubbles 
Where you go I'll follow 
Hollow-eyed and now I'm fine 
I'm only making up for lost time

Tick and tock and red and blue 
The colours and the sounds I never knew 
When they were all I saw 
Now sightless-eyed and empty-jawed

Double Time...

(...Oh geeze, what is it now? Okay, here. Give it over here. You're just making it worse.

But don't bug me anymore unless it's an emergency, okay?...)

~

Double Time

Some experimental, sort of jazzy, rather dark Equius Filk. I recommend headphones for this one.

Music/Lyrics (c)PhemieC
Homestuck(c)Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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Little boy blue, don't you play too rough with your new toy
if you touch her, she'll break and her blood is so annoying
don't you like to watch, much like a shadow lost in the shade?
Make her, you'll unmake her, but you'd rather be unmade

Oh 
It's not my place to interfere, my dear
Oh, no
Will you embrace me and erase my fear?
Woah
Wipe me out like a stain, with a grin I will hang from your string
And by your judgment of my merit I'll inherit nothing

Nothing is what I deserve
Nothing is what I have earned
If nothing is what you have chosen to give me
Then nothing is for what I yearn
Nothing lasts forever, nothing really matters
Nothing never breaks, busts, bends, rusts, upends or shatters.

I've never had a weakness that couldn't be destroyed
And I've never had a sinful thought that couldn't be avoided
Control your temper, control your language, or anguish in languid soul
It's what you were born to do, but you'd rather be controlled

Oh
I just presumed that you’d refuse me
Oh, no
Excuse this common fool his crudity
Woah
Break this wild horse, I will not fight, 'cause of course I would win
And I'd much rather give in and bare it all 'till I inheret nothing

Nothing is what I deserve
Nothing is what I have earned
If nothing is what you have chosen to give me
Then nothing is for what I yearn
Nothing lasts forever, nothing really matters
Nothing never breaks, busts, bends, rusts, upends or shatters.

I must obey the order, for I've order to restore
Each circuit sends a signal to the process in the core
and if none of this means anything than what's my anger for?
I'd rather be most anything, the dirt under your heel my king, 
a peasant or a pauper, or a knight in shining armor
what's required of your noble steed? Through your direction I am freed 
and neigh I say! I wont stand in the way of what you have decreed for-

Nothing is what I deserve
Nothing is what I have earned
If nothing is what you have chosen to give me
Then nothing is for what I yearn
Nothing lasts forever, nothing really matters
Nothing never breaks and nothing never shatters.

Inherit Nothing

Returning to my roots with some simple acoustic Scourge Sister filk from Terezi's POV. 

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Homestuck(c)Andrew Hussie

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You cause nothing but trouble wherever you burn. You're the sunlight in my open eyes, but I wont go blind today.
Cause when liars lead minds with their wiles and clever distractions, I see through them
And I've got experience dealing with repeat offenders, they swing from my branches, like unripened fruit, found wanting when weighed.
With all of the evidence finally laid out in front of me, I can almost taste
a confession, a confession.

So if the court would stay quiet for only a second, I'm pleased to make my case, and tell my story
but wait just a moment I'm passing a motion, I also am the judge, and the jury
You should worry, you should worry.

Where are you leading us? all is malodorous evil
The reddest of herrings is wearing a worrying scent
You ask if I'm serious why am I acting so gleeful?​
What do I want? Should you rather absond or repent?

Absond or repent? Settle the score? 
No lawyer needs a spider in their corner shredding documents for sport. 

Now, deciding your fate is no simple matter because part of me knows that I would miss you
but you're so complicated, I couldn’t pin you down, and now you're becoming an issue.
Little thief on the run, I'm a witch hunt of one, and the very first question I'll ask in your interrogation
was all of it, everything, just one big game? And if so was it luck of the throw, your misrepresentation?
And subsequent incrimination, incrimination.

While I was dreaming I learned a brand new way of seeing
from a fetus, a mother, but also a beast and a ghost
you ask if I'm kidding, you're having a hard time believing
“Am I villain or victim? Why can't I be neither, or both?”

Neither or both? It's either/or.
It's not multiple choice you stupid girl. Why don't you break that magic eight ball, and give a coin a whirl? 

Give a coin a whirl. Give into the law. Confess, you silly girl.

A Confession

Simple, sleepy Davesprite filk. Just to get the idea out of my head...

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Music/Lyircs (c) Me. PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck(c)Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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You were called like a curtain, split like a second, broken like a sword stuck in a rock
forged for a hero, birthed forth for a heart much purer than his/mine/ours.
It's uncertain when the tables turned, but when all of your brothers have given their lives 
for the strife you earned, you will get burned and it wont get better when put on ice.

And I wasn't going anywhere fast, and my sister said she'd seen the end of my path.
The direction that I fly, straight through the eye of our aftermath.

And you have to ignore it, don't think about before, you've got enough fight inside to fill five world wars.
It's just a game, just another cause, you're a switch and I'm a cog and last thing we need is another broken clock.
So forget about your ghost limbs and all those things that scared you most as a child of 12.
You see I'm 13 now, and if I die for the thousandth time, I'm unafraid, for I outnumber hell.

And I wasn't going anywhere good, so I straightened my glasses and I did what I could
What I had to but damn it's hard not to look back at the time.

But I wasn't going anywhere fast, so I said goodbye to walking my own path. 
The direction that I fly, straight through the eye of our aftermath.

What makes us who we are, is it our bones?
wrapped in all our scars, they're ours alone
they outweigh tails and talons, feathers, foam 
unless they're not, unless they don't.

You were called like a curtain, split like a second, broken like a sword stuck in a rock.

Our Aftermath

There are some audio Issues in this one but after Ep 49 I just had to write something quick for Nott from Critical Role about her relationship with her husband, Yeza. <3

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LYRICS
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You're not special
You're not useful
You're not normal
You're not sane
You're not clever or insightful
You're not calm or well behaved
not a leader, not a hero
And not good at being brave
you're just not, no you're not, you are not

You're not beautiful or pretty
You're not flattered when they stare
You're not lovable or likable
Or wanted anywhere
You're not good enough
To get enough
To have enough to spare
You're just not, no you're not, you are not

But he loved you like you were something
He loved you like you were someone
He loved you like you were 
And like you were not
Yeah he loved you, Nott

He's not handsome, he's not charming
Does not stand out in a crowd
Not a looker,  not a fighter
Not too much of which hes proud
He's not fast or fit or strong or rich
Or tall or well endowed
He's just not, no he's not, he is not

But he's not selfish or deceitful
He's not hateful, he's not cruel
He's not someone who would hurt you
Or who makes you feel a fool
Not at all like all the boys
Who used to torture you in school
no he's not, he's just not, he is not.

And he loved you like you were something
He loved you like you were someone
And you loved him for all the things he was
And for what he was not
Yeah you loved him, Nott

It's not right and it's not fair
And It's not what you'd always prayed
That someday you'd wake to find yourself
Somehow finally changed
Someone worth the love you've had
Instead you find you're more the same
And now you're not, you're still not, you are not.

But you're not giving up on hoping
not alone, at least not yet
You're not ready to go home
But you're not staying playing dead,
You're dying to believe you'll live to be the lovely things he said
That you are, that you are, that you are
You hope you are, hope you are, hope you are

And he loved you like you were something
That you are, that you are, that you are
And he loved you like you were someone
That you are, that you are, that you are

That you are
That you are
That you are

Loved You, Nott

Feferi Filk! My longest fansong yet! Very folky and mood-whiplash-y, so if it's too slow for you at first wait a bit. :)

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Music/Lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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There was a darkness, that soothed me, and raised me up to dream
in an abyss, those nightmares, they're not what they seem
they whispered of a world they'd known
where every child was their own 
all the colours of an oil spill when moonlight hits the wave, I'll save you all.

You've seen all the things that I've seen, you've been all the places I've been, my friend
you know all the things that I know, well maybe not all but most so who cares who is better or worse than anyone?
I've made mistakes along the way, but who said things should stay the same, I don't agree
the universe is filled with so “moray” new exciting things to sea, for you an me

you don't need saving, you can save yourself
you're all so special from the inside out, 
Just take a second, look how far we've come
I bet if the nightmares could see me now they'd say well done

well done, well done, well done daughter, daughter well done.

There was a darkness, that knew me, and raised me wild and strong
so hated, and so feared was she, though fearful most of all
she whispered of a hunger deep
and as old as the bones beneath her meat
all strange serenades and never sleeps yet never wakes, I'll break your fall

you've done everything that you could, you feel like there's something else you're supposed to do
who crossed that road, who burned that bridge, who fought that current and swam with the fish, was it you?
I've lost a friend, I've gained a friend, what's a friend mean but a means to an end? I tried my best with
everyone I've ever loved ill outlive unless I can find where life inside me rests, it is my test

You don't need saving, anymore, anymore
but I'm still waving from a not-so-distant shore
just take a second, look at what you'll start
I'm sorry that I couldn't save you, from darkness inside your heart

your heart, your heart, your hardened heart, friend...

Save You

Kurloz/Meulin filk. Track art by the incredibly talented <a href="http://nicholanton.tumblr.com/">Nicholanton</a>.

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Music/Lyrics (c) Me/Phemiec
Track Art (c) <a href="http://nicholanton.tumblr.com/">Nicholanton</a>
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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I said a word
it got caught in my throat, and it burned
slipped off my tongue and I choked,
you were concerned for a second 
then cries echoed into the night, lesson learned

because you heard a word 
that I said, and this word how it rang 
in your head, it was loud and glorious, yes
and from where you lay on my chest 
well, you heard it best

but you held me closely while I screamed
and I watched the thinnest trails of green 
run down your neck, and drip from your chin 
thin trails of green, thin lines, on gray skin

Thin lines on gray skin
Thin lines on gray skin
where they world ends that's were we begin
my thin line, my thin line

I said a word
was it a blessing or curse?
Nobody knows the whole story, 
nobody hears me but you 
and you would have heard more if you could have I'm sure

because you heard my word, 
you still do with your hands, eyes and rest of you too
little stray on my lap, zealot, hellcat
can't forgive what I did to my dream-maker, 
(has thou forsaken her?)

And if you knew what I knew, would you object?
Are we madmen or soothsayers? Truthfully, sweet heretic?
I bit off the bit that silenced the world for you, sewed up my sin
With thin threads of black, thin lines on gray skin

Thin lines on gray skin
Thin lines on gray skin
when they world ends, that's where our work begins
my thin line, my thin line

Thin Lines

Some short Rose filk for a friend. :)

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Music/Lyics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Hoemstuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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What a vision of darkness, creeps in with desperate sharpness, lecherous grafting of knowledge to my young mortal subconscious.
Words writ by breath of the ancients, wiser than even the pagans, or the wizened old men with wands and white beards that once were ensconced in my pages.

Obfuscated by doom, and laden with arduous tasks are the pathways laid out for the lot of us.
Mages and witches and princes and maids, pages with inches of space for mistakes.

I am the beast, I am the light, I am the blighted being cursed with sight
I am the god who created a world, I am leviathan, the girl

I can do it on my own, but you're a hero after all, and we may think our sacrifice is just but pride comes right before the fall. 
The cascade of rain on my needles, a hand grasping tight to the bottle, of a woman with untapped potential, the ennui of too late and too little.

Our failures have made, a bridge for success, if our game is half played, then who's played the rest of it?
Heroes we were in a universe doomed, soldiers in battles best left un-exhumed.

I am the beast, I am the light, I am the blighted being cursed with sight
I am the god who created a world, I am leviathan, the girl. And-

I can do it on my own
we can do it on our own
Aut viam inveniam aut faciam x2

I am Leviathan, the girl...

Leviathan, The Girl

A simple fansong for the pairing Rufioh/Koruss for Homestuck. I can't help it, I'm a serial overthinker.

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Music/Lryics (c) PhemieC
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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Do you remember being nobodies, discovering nothing was not that bad
when shared as a pair, both lost and long suffering, hiding in a frightening land

And do you remember feeling that anger, yet so much love and “for what?” you wondered
and now there’s no wondering, the wrong nervous muttering, no magic left at all

but I remember leaning against a backwards bent wing 
and awaking to feel that your touch didn't sting
when everything was wrong, I made so many mistakes 
and you helped me make them, but with presence and patience 

all those wrong, awful, wild, amazingly childish decisions

I take a breath, and I know I've got to turn the final page
but is our story really done yet? I guess I'm still afraid

But do you remember, just being honest, little bright moments of peace in the trees
now it takes so much work to be with you, I'd say that I miss you, but for that you'd have to leave

but I remember once forever seemed too short a time
though not long enough for me to make up my mind
I would’ve thought eternity would eventually make me wise
Enough to choose a side, not just linger undecided
Why do I feel changed when we both have stayed the same
it feels like something's different, some ache too big to name 
When everything is endless and you're nineteen yet again
and you're never flawed enough but you keep on pretending

wanting that desperate, “forget me not/do you love me yet?” ending

but there's no ending. There's nobody. Just two nobodies.

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Nobodies

A short, dark, lullaby about Alpha Rose and Dave. Gorgeous track art by <a href="http://faun-songs.tumblr.com/">Faun-songs</a>.

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Music/Lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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LYRICS
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I'll leave you my bottles, babe
Ill wrap them in wool and lay 
them down in your crib
I'll miss what might have been

I'll leave you my swords and shades
I'll put all my good into one place
and ironys aftertaste
will rock to you sleep, my babe

When you watch what we made for you
when you see what we gave for you
when you read between the lines you’ll find
We waited our lives for you

But in seconds my time will end
I count every breath my friend
and when space invades again
we'll light the way, my baby

so when the light catches blade
when the time comes, do not be afraid 
follow the path we've made
follow the path we've made

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The Path

A Beta Kids Christmas song, each stanza is a different kid. Happy Holidays folks!

Music/Lyrics (c) Me/PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie 

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LYRCS
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You call me down for Christmas cake
Although that's not a thing, I sigh
but I take a plate, I take a bite
and the look that you give me is heavy with pride

You bring me sticks that you find in the wild 
and I count every one and then hang them 
over the fire with patterns of wire and bow 
then we roll on the carpet and howl in the snow

There is a place that I'm home
In condos, apartments, in suburbs and islands
there is a face that I know
and wherever it is I find that my Christmas isn’t cold

You wake me up by dumping presents 
on my bed and forcing my head 
into a hat that's red and white, 
then it's up to the roof for a snowball fight

You get the brandy and offer me some 
although we both know I'm too young 
and when I refuse you're amused then pass out 
so I turn on the reruns and watch them with you on the couch

There is a place that I'm home
In condos, apartments, in suburbs and islands
there is a face that I know
and wherever it is I find that my Christmas isn’t cold
that my Christmas isn’t cold

It's the end of the day and it's way too late 
but I log in just to say “Hi!”
What's up? What did you get? What was your Christmas like?

There is a place that I'm home
In condos, apartments, in suburbs and islands
there is a face that I know
and wherever it is I find that my Christmas isn’t cold
my Christmas isn’t cold (x6)
Ho, ho, ho...home.

Home

An update fansong. Trickster Jane's POV. Enjoy! :)

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music/lyrics (c) phemiec/hamsters
Homestuck (c) Andrew Hussie

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Hello, my candy coated darling, it's your vanilla baby
I've come to say I love you and I always have
I find it so amusing, I used to be confused and
afraid that you would never love me back

But now I see that we were always meant to be
you and me forever planting lots of family trees
counting out our children, half a zillion at least
we'll name the boys for you and we will name the girls for me

Hello, the sour peach of my skin, the sweetest poison icing
so tasty it could rot your teeth and brain
The chaotic consumption, the diabetic gumption
to do a thing like make me go insane

and leave this plane of reality completely
float among the clouds of pink and blue cotton candy
let's blast into space and race around like airplanes
spreading multicolored chem-trails, soda pop and acid rain

Feels so neat! Never wanna be myself again, I just wanna be SW--E--ET!
Feels so fun! Never wanna come back down...

Goodbye to heartbreak on my birthday, annoying boys who hurt me
with all the stupid things they do and say
I can't even remember, what I was so upset for
Spun sugar melts in water anyway

So no more crying, dry those tears, I'll end your pain
Soon you'll feel the cherry syrup running through your veins
Heaven is a grinning face with not a trace of shame
Take a taste of every flavour, favour anything but plain

Feels so neat! Never wanna be myself again, I just wanna be SW--E--ET!
Feels so fun! Never wanna come back down....

Sweet

A Vriska Fansong. Not much else to say.

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Music/Lyrics(c)PhemieC
Homestuck(c)Andrew Hussie

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Once upon a time a stutter disgusted me, 
muttered distrust at me, pity you couldn't fly.
I've only ever taken what's mine,
So what if I help you, I'm helping myself, too?

Twice I got the wind knocked out of me, why?
Just to curl up and die? No, I've got too much pride.
So I breathe it in then let it out slow,
When I turn to go, find you trailing behind.

I fought for every last inch that I got
Forgive me for leaving my spot
Not standing in w8 while you finished the race 
with those two broken legs you've got.

One thing's for sure...
If I were you I never would have let it stop me,
I never have before.
And if you knew what I went through while trying to get through to you, you'd thank me!

You'd get down on one knee, no matter how much it hurt
and you would say “I'm sorry”, but I would say it first...

Once, the two of us were eye for an eye
Now I've given up trying, how could I be so blind?
You'll never let me settle the score
To you I'm the scourge, not the the partner in crime.

I fought for every last one of you schmucks!
I might as well have saved my luck
Not wasted it all on some shortsighted, know-it-all
so-called friends, you're not.

One thing's for sure...
If I were you I never would have let it stop me,
I never have before.
And if you knew what I went through while trying to get through to you, you'd thank me!

You'd find me in a dream, on some uncharted map
And I would say I'm sorry, and you would want me back...

Once the world was just a web and a spider, and so was I.
A liar in a dress of white. 

An Apology

A GamTav song, written for a Valentines Day contest. Veeeery angsty, Also there's a swear word! :0

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Music/Lyrics (c) PhemieC/Hamsters
Homestuck(c) Andrew Hussie

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Boy, you get my guts tied up in such a twisted noisy ruckus
Heaven sent that you are, wouldn't lift a claw or cut me off 'cause
Rambling as I ever am I shamble to your chair and stables
Watch you all enraptured as you shuffle cards and stutter fables

Break my habit, you're my habit, I'd trade my limbs for one of you
Two legs for two lips, now I'd say that's a fair trade, wouldn't you?
Drop my habit, you're my habit, I'd trade my habit to get you back and I'm
Like a fool without a calling, like a heartsick fool

Boy, you like to play the martyr, but if I pray a little harder
If I close the window and come back here when I'm not so sober
If I said it plainly not in riddle-rhymes, all cagey, 
Would you answer with a smile made of brackets or look at me strangely?

Break my habit, you're my habit, I'd trade my limbs for one of you
Two legs for two lips, now I'd say that's a fair trade, wouldn't you?
Drop my habit, you were my habit, I'd trade my habit to get you back and 
It's you and I again just writing, shiftless, click clack clicking, grinning 
Like a fool without a calling, like a heartsick fool

Boy, you're on the floor and on my fingers, dripping from my kisses
Eyes so vacant, would you hate it, if I said you look delicious?
The laughter dies and rots inside me, brother, it is you all over
Stay beside me here and guide me, unrequited would-be lover

Took my miracle, you're my miracle, I'd trade my brains for one of you
Two gods for two voices, I'd say that's a fair trade, wouldn't you?
Need a miracle, you're my miracle, I'd trade a miracle to get you back and I'm
Left without a friend, soaked to the bone and backwards bent 
I'm seeing shades, screaming repent your sickness leave it here for lent 
Now witness, here, a fool without a calling! I'm a heartsick fool.
Still the fool without a calling, still a fucking fool.

Fool

A very good song my sister and I wrote. Enjoy! 🚙 

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If I had a big van
I’d have a friend Dan
And we would go dancing every night
We'd meet a french band
And make a new plan
To go out and then we start a fight

If I had a big van
Id have a big van

If I had an old bus
Theres be a big fuss
Cuz I would be guzzling all the gas
They’d say that I must 
Be crazy because
I am just driving too fast

If I had an old bus
And I had a big van
Id have a big van

(I’d have a big van)

If I had a red truck
I’d never get stuck
In traffic or caught up in a ditch
I’d call my friend Buck
Who has a pet duck
And also a trailer he can hitch

If I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

(What’s after that?)

If I had a spaceship
I’d take a quick trip
To go and see aliens in space
But I have a hurt hip
So maybe I’d slip
Fall over and kiss em on them face

If I had a spaceship
And I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

Let me tell you something else...

If I had a fat goat
I’d have a blue boat
And we would go sailing on the sea
We’d have a nice float
In the crocodile moat
Just my goaty friend and me

If I had a fat goat
And I had a spaceship
And I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

If I some tall shoes
I’d be the big news
Somebody that everbody knows
But maybe I’d choose
To curl up and snooze
Cuz I would have bruises on my toes

If I had some tall shoes
And I had a fat goat
And I had a spaceship
And I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

If I had a blue whale
That’d make a fun tale
That’s something you dont see everyday
If it didn't go well
And the whale got impaled
Whatever I'd have to swim away 

If I had a blue whale
And I had some tall shoes
And I had a fat goat
And I had a spaceship 
And I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

(Where are we now?) key change (oh!)

If I had a key change
That’d be a bit strange
But I just might do it anyway
It’s out of my range
So I am in pain
Just thought that I'd try something, ok?

If I had a key change 
And I had a blue whale
And I had some tall shoes
And I had a fat goat
And I had a spaceship 
And I had a red truck
And I had an old bus
And I had a big van
I’d have a big van

(Let’s go back to where we were, that did not seem like that worked, we gave it a shot)

If I had a baby shark
(Do do do do do do do)
Baby shark
(Do do do do do do do)
Baby shark
(Do do do do do do do)
Baby shark
(Do do do do do do do)
Baby shark

(I’d have all that other stuff and I’d have ) big van

I had a ... little bug?
No...

If i had a million dollars
(If i had a million dollars)
Id have a big van

Oh dan why did you take my van?
(Why did you take it?)
Buck told me you took my van
(Yes, we used to be friends)
Quack
I wrote this song...etc.
(Long speech about dan)

Que sera sera
If I had a big van big van
I’d have a big van big van
Que sera, big van...

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