Kbackwood$ - Deeper (Slown/Mixed) Prod.Nikblor

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west end

all about ca$h boy  [prod. asurah]

4EVA BY MY LONELY

wonder if i need therapy + prod.D0G3

grand pri + workout

Spotify💋

stupidbrain - grand pri + workout

13GHSTS!

recorded january 2024

Sometimes I just want to pour all my problems away
Sometimes I just want to drink all of my problems just away-ay
Ay just away down, down, down, damn
Damn, damn, damn, damn

[Verse]
Damn I hate being sober I don't feel like I'm at my best
Sometimes I just really wanna drink all my problems just away
Pour my problems just away, or
Put them in the sky
Put them in the sky, yeah put them in the sky
And I still got problems to recognize that you're really gone
Sometimes it feels like you still here because on the surface nothing much changed
I’m still livin’ the same dull life
I’m still goin to school
And I’m still fightin’ through depression on a daily, that shit is not cool
And when the nurse came in the room, I knew I had to go
And I wanted to tell you that I love you one last time
But I couldn’t get it out
But when I left the room with a simple bye
Damn I knew that shit was wrong
But I didn’t have the balls to come up to you
And hug you one last time

[Interlude]
(I fucked myself)
I can’t even remember the last time I told you that I loved you (damn this, shit so sad bro)

[Verse 2]
It was prolly as a kid
I was way more honest as a kid
Damn I miss my old self
And it hits me every night
Everytime it gets dark (everytime it gets dark)
I used to not understand why people say that they miss their old, but
Damn know I really know
Damn now – damn now
Damn now I really know
My grandma told me that you were proud of me but
I don’t know how to believe that damn
Damn
I got a future ahead of me I can’t let that shit-
Damn, I can’t let that shit impact me too much
But I don't know if there's a way to get that shit off my mental
I know that this shit will sound ignorant, but I just want to get all this grief over with
I just want to get these suicidal thoughts up out my head

[Outro]
Damn I really miss you
That's not God
I really, really miss you
And I couldn't ever tell you how much I love you, especially in these recent years
And I've got to do this shit through songs, man
That shit hurts
Pray
Pray to God that you soul is in heaven man
I-I
I really
I miss you, Bopa

Those 3 songs are my most personal songs ever made, and made in the worst time of my life.
I never had the heart to actually put them out tho.
I planned to  maybe put them on an Album called "As Real As It Gets", which i still want to make one day, but probably without putting them songs on there.

Track 2 is one  of my favorite tracks I ever made because it's like a time capsule to me. I recorded it on the 8th of February 2024 & I was a little bit over a year sober when i made it, but what makes the song special is the lines about my grandpa & how I felt in that moment, because by now I forgot some of those memories by now, and its because of this song that I now can still have them.
My grandpa died in October 2023 and it didn't actually click for me for a while that he's actually gone, but around that time in winter 2024 i was really going thru it and experiencing all the grief, and feeling myself changing because of it.
Aaand to address the title of the track, i obviously thought if i could just drink my problems away everything would be better. That's why i said it. I was stupid & stuck in depression
R.I.P Fränz, miss u

thank y'all for reading <3
#StayCosy OTW

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