s u i c i d a l t e n d e n c i e s - part 2

Voices: Synthwave Edition

IAmJakeHill - Coward

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lil peep - lil kennedy [prod. nedarb]

Dying Ft Lil Peep (prod by LIL PUKE)

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

Seen A Darkness

Jake Hill - Enemy (Prod. GHXST)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXKsn1cHmLU

гули // ghouls [prod. DC 1-30] (video in bio)

Lucas Lex - Wizard

*TEENAGE DISASTER*

sittin down right on my bedside
sleepless nights when i dont feel right
locked inside a dungeon cant you help me
isolated from my friends
swear this shit just never ends
feels like my body's growing colder
woke up in my own vomit last night
wish i was taken in my sleep, god help me
i never found myself and maybe thats for the best
just tell me to look up but youre never understanding the view
a world of liars they conspire on my every move
I got the flu
and im givin up
my stomach hurts and im a mess
lie to my face, then call it quits
my love for you wasn't adequate
existential, i'll never make it
trapped in infinity
we're so small in the face of god, so shut the fuck up and do your job
it dont matter anyway

*AFOURTEEN*

sometimes I wake up feeling impatient 
Loosing my head
Aye lemme think a minute 
You don’t motherfuckin motherfuckin see the vision uh
Yah yah lemme breathe a minute 
You ain’t gotta do the shit that you been doin to me fuck you
Yea I need to get my ass back home everytime I leave the house man I feel led  on 
Wassupp wit that cut from front to back
You don’t love me back no don’t act like that 
Come home drunk as shit jumping off the bridge fuck that break my wrist 
And I don’t wanna go back home tonight 
Cuz I don’t wanna right my wrongs tonight 
So I just like conversations mean what they mean I hold back all this hatred 
Inside my dreams 
And I’m so sick with you and your so sick of me 
I can’t even breathe 
Nananananana nanananana 

*TEENAGE DISASTER*

fall asleep inside your arms
kill anybody that means you harm
alcohol for breakfast lunch and dinner
downers just to numb the pain
drown all the voices inside my brain
toxic at our core, but we blame the world of course
im so sick of you
youre so sick of me

*TEENAGE DISASTER & AFOURTEEN*

i can’t even breathe 
I can’t even breathe 
Soooooo ohhhhh
I’m so sick of you
ive been singin sad songs since i was youngin
paint my nails black, then those bitches called me a faggot
now its cool to be sad, dope to be depressed
now im pissed off, straight up, blow my damn top off
lil spiders in the dark tellin me its alright
i got bullets for you motherfuckers tryna act tight
doin shows for a minute i can really say i did it

*TEENAGE DISASTER*

its a sick world we live in
and im not sure i want to stay at all
im done
i give up
and my mind comes toppling down when I think of
getting out of bed
and im so broken down, cannot be repaired
im so sick
im so tired
im so beaten down
i dont wanna go, but i think i have to.

*AFOURTEEN*

Why do we live like this 
And Why do we live like this 
I fell in love with your lips 
Their my worst enemy 
Their my worst enemy 
I fell in love at 17
I fell in love at 17
And now your opposite with me
Sit with me 
Take my arms watch me bleed
Take my eyes make me see
I am so incomplete 
I am so incomplete 
I am so

SOMNIPHOBIA (FT. TEENAGE DISASTER) (PROD. IMOTAPE)

[Verse 1]
I can be a burden, baby, I can be a psycho
They call me a mistake and roll me off like a typo
And life just keeps on hitting me, I swear that I'mma fight though
So hit me with your best shot, staring down the rifle
I been looking back, riding on my motorcycle
I remember nights when I was feeling suicidal
I was falling out, boy, dead on arrival
Couldn't see the signs, I was living in denial, yeah

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm on the edge
You're in my head

[Chorus]
Tell me you love me
Even if you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend, yeah

[Verse 2]
I guess that what I'm saying is
I'm scared of going back
I remember every struggle, every panic attack
You saw the life inside my eyes fade away over time
I couldn't pick up a guitar
I couldn't think of a rhyme
I needed something to believe in
Somewhere that I could hide
They told me I should start pretending
Always kept it inside
And I was hoping these emotions were a lack of serotonin
Never thought that my own brain could ever turn to an opponent

[Chorus]
Tell me you love me
Even if you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend

[Bridge]
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Nothing to say now, waiting for the breakdown
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?

[Chorus]
Tell me you love me
Even if you don't
I don't know when this will end
Tell me you'll stay now
Even if you won't
Baby, we can play pretend

[Outro]
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Nothing to say now, waiting for the breakdown
Are you okay, tell me, are you okay?
Baby, we can play pretend

Pretend (ISOLATION ASSEMBLY)

"Freaks" from the upcoming album "Buds" by Reno, Nevada's Surf Curse. Coming soon on Big Joy. June 2013

Recorded at The Smell in Los Angeles by AJM (Moses Campbell)



Surf Curse "Freaks"

https://www.instagram.com/harleyh_1337/

I come back to this every once and a while

s u i c i d a l t e n d e n c i e s - part 2

Harley