A reimagined Version of 9tails’ “I’m still learning”
prod. Sorrowbringer

I'm Still Learning. (cover)

mad at you (prod. autrioly)

I haven't made shit in months so here's a vent session I made into a song

Finally Sober (prod. sundwn)

Lyrics

I think imma go to sleep
And I may just be alright
Crushing up another ‘script
I guess there’s a chance I’ll die

Even if I pass away
Imma be the one who flys
When they look up at the stars
I know I’ll be shining bright

I’m not super scared of death
‘Cause I’ve tried it once or twice
Even when I leave this earth, I wont forget to say goodbye

The One Who Flys

original song by Hot Mulligan, I just wanted to cover it bc I really like the song

Guitar by King Theta

Shaylee, Shanel (reimagined)

**SOUNDCLOUD TOOK DOWN THIS SONG ALONG WITH A FEW OTHERS BECAUSE OF A BUG, AND REUPLOADED WITHOUT ANY LIKES**

prod. Boyfifty

Lyrics - 

when i walked back home
on that frostbit night
and the wind hit cold
while my chest felt tight

i was so distraught
fixating on your lies
i wrote this song
to get my thoughts aligned

amazed how I
couldn’t see the
truth behind
all your reasons

wait for a sign 
I can breathe
I’ll be alright 
if you keep me

hello?
could you please me help me dear
i know
I’m not the most sincere

below
my failing self esteem
come home
I need you next to me

(peaky blinders scene in the break)

frostbit (prod. boyfifty)

@brecken killed this

**lyrics**
(intro)
i cant even text you
you stay in my mind, like all of the time
but i cant bring myself to text you
you say that you're open to talk, but I'm not that open at all
and i just been stuck in my mind, baby you know that i try

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
x2

(Verse)
Am i not enough?
Don't act like you just cant remember
Am i losing touch?
I'm cold like we were in December
Am i still in love?
well why cant i forget her
this is way too much, i said its way too much

call me when you need me and Im sure ill be right here
I still want you by my side, is it okay to be this scared?
what happened to our promises and what i thought we shared?
you dug up these emotions i've been stuffing down for years

tired of falling short
why do i miss the mark?
You keep pulling back & forth
you know it tears me apart

how long can I ignore
all of these scars on my heart?
How long can i ignore..

(brecken)
you put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

i dont know how i live sober
so many thoughts always flooding my head
telling me lies and they call me a poser
why dont you think that I heard what they said

luckily its almost over
everyday that i live its getting closer
tear me apart, put me on a poster
life is too hard, i dont wanna go there

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
no more

(brecken / outro)
put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

break like this w/ brecken (prod. p4ra)

huge thanks to evergarden for being on this!
produced by michael harrison
**lyrics**
(me)
I still go back to that Autumn night
I lost my judgement in your eyes
You said I need you right here
Now I know it wasn't genuine, I'm masking up my fears

Not gon' lie I thought you were my only friend :/
Am I supposed to sit and watch it all go to waste?
You got a little rent free spot in my head
Chalk mark memories weathered in my brain...

(evergarden)
Withering beside the willow
Watch you lay to waste
I'm so hollow
How can I say in simple terms?
Hard to put this feeling into words...

(me)
It's okay to say goodbye
Maybe you can find your peace
I'll just let this feeling die
I don't know what I need

need w/ evergarden (michael harrison)

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

It was a pleasure to work with cray on this, love this song.
(prod. sadface)

**lyrics**
(me)
You can hate me
You can hate me
You can hate me all you want, I'll still give you my heart

I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Looking into all my thoughts & my actions
Hella reminiscent i've been living in the past tense
Well at least I had my fun while it lasted
Screaming in the mirror, pick out everything i'm lacking 

Back then you remember we were laughing?
Every time I gotta mess it up its automatic
Tragic, I witnessed everything that happened
Hate the way I cope 'cause its been getting problematic

(yungcray)
Girl I don't like this, woke up in my room I'm the highest
I said I'm so weak but bro I'm trying
everyday's the same but you don't mind it
i don't like this though

lets take a step back can we go back to what we was
lets let the time pass, think about all the things we could
i cant help but cry when I'm stuck up in this dark maze
you were the drug, now here comes all the heartache

(me)
I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

all that i had w/ yungcray

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

**lyrics**
do you think it’d be okay if I could stay for awhile?
you can pick my clothes, 'wanna wear your style
I can smile at your laugh, while you laugh at my smile
'Want you get your rest while I drive a hundred miles

you can pick out shells while we walk on the beach
and if your legs get tired, then just jump on me
I can carry you, cause you carry me
let your love be known, let your heart be free

please don’t worry 'bout the drive, or the time, or the weather
I’ll be there in an hour and I’ll make it better
I think the comfort of my home is me and you together
I know you really like this color, you can have this sweater

and we don’t have use our words, just let’s talk with our eyes
I wanna listen to the birds & see you’re standing where my life is
did you know you’re the only girl I think I see the sunrise in?
but there’s no better morning view than the brink of your iris.

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

I don’t wanna go anywhere stay right here
put your heart in the fold of my hands, have my life dear
they say that time has a way of flying by, well let’s fly then
spread our wings, lift each other to the sky, spending light years (x2)

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

i want nothing more, darling (michael harrison)

shoutout my brother florent, was a pleasure working with one of my favorite artists <3

**lyrics**
10 minutes, just give me 10 minutes then I’m clear, I can feel it
I felt it in my chest, it’s in the air, I’m too forgiving 
you kill me when you do that little stare, I’m still giving all that I can give because I care (x2)

When I saw you walking through the hallway in your feels,
I was longing to let you know that I know how it feels
Then we talking like almost every night I start to heal
Someone pinch me, this gotta be a dream is this for real?

I never felt like I deserved much time
no hesitation I can make you mine
I never thought that I could be the guy for you, so take my hand and I’m gonna do you right 

(luvflorent)

I’ll treat you right, give me 10 minutes
big boy, big cheese, im big living
medicine in my jeans, I’m bout business
lay it down on me while my head spinning

bed spins, you were right there
i sing to myself, in computer chairs
i hate myself, but you shouldn’t care
turn the base down, let the tears out

ay, bitch saying "frank could you stop playing"
10 minutes feels like a long time to wait
let me take a sip, take a taste of the drank
10 minutes in, still alone,still in pain

(me)
10 minutes, just give me 10 minutes then I’m clear, I can feel it
I felt it in my chest, it’s in the air, I’m too forgiving 
you kill me when you do that little stare, I’m still giving all that I can give because I care (x2)

ten minutes w/ luvflorent

Huge thanks to notahero for killing this. Like, Repost, and Comment if yall rocking with this one <3
Produced by The Sound Clown (a haze collective producer btw) and tiedforsilver!

**lyrics**

(You only hit my phone when you don’t feel alright, 
I’m at your beck & call, but I’m still some other guy)

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks 

You just wanna break my bones and that’s fine, 
Were those tears even real I saw when you cried?
It was already hard to trust now it’s worse by 10 times 
You left me with no choice, I’m leaving tonight

I’ve been in this race and it’s making me exhausted
shawty filled with hate, and we losing all our progress
Ain’t got the time to waste but you’ll bury me in August, yuh, in August, yuh, in August

Saw it in her eyes, she like messing with my conscience
Wishing I could change, I don’t know if I can solve it
Moving to the day that I’ll be inside a coffin
A coffin, yuh, a coffin

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks

(notahero)
i’m starting to feel like i’m a junkie but i’m not ready to be done yet
i fear i’m falling into the void come grab my outstretched hand
so high i’m seeing into the future, but i don’t know where imma land

we got the whole weekend, baby what’s the point in getting mad?
tommy jacket on me, cuz it’s way too cold for july
got something special in my cup i think my brain might get fried

and would u cry baby if tonight’s the night that i died?
but i could never let u go baby ur way too special
a new shirt after i smoke to be respectful
a new number i’ve never seen on top the dashboard

i might just pack my things and go, i don’t want to stop when i’m home
cuz this winter rain outside so wet and cold

and i’m too fucking drunk to see straight, baby i feel nauseous
a different type of dumb in your head to say i ain’t popping
it’s blue it’s not a green thumb cuz i’m counting hundreds
i shake it into a tornado like a fucking mosh pit

Girl I’m loving you cuz everything you do is flawless,
You could stop it but i don’t wanna stop it
(No I don’t wanna)

bury me in august w/ notahero (Prod. The Sound Clown & tiedforsilver)

Huge shout out to my brother @halfhearted for his verse.

If you enjoyed listening, we would appreciate any support on the song, thank you all :)

**lyrics**

So tell me how you lost your feelings in such a quick matter of time
I could lose sleep over who you’ve been texting, but those arent matters of mine

Breaking my spine just so you can survive, and Id do it again if it gave me more time
Just to ask how you’ve been, if you’re feeling all right
I get too attached now there’s nowhere to hide

So was I important to you-
Or is that just a thought in my head?
Am I more than a fool for believing in things that we said? 

Maybe if I could change the structure of all that I am,
It wouldn’t be so hard for me to let go of your hand.

(Halfie)
I could lose my sleep over things that don’t matter, like how my tears splattered on the bedspread
I been sevenfeet with my fear and I’m drowning
Don’t tell me there’s a chance it’ll go right to my head 

She’s the monster deep inside my closet 
Can’t call her, she’s only talking nonsense
I don’t feel alive anymore, but I’ll digress
(Yeah I’ll digress, yeah I’ll digress)

Cause you know, I’m happy to walk around in circles
just avoiding the blame or any people
I’m scared i know, i gotta be a better man but my eyes are closed
im just waiting for your hand

ashed w/ halfhearted (everest)

☦︎ Christ saves ☦︎
i'm on a new arc

hartwright.

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