(prod. MTCHLR beats)

you said it’s not that deep i run for you
when I’m gone do you still feel me there
so why’s it not not that deep i wonder
yeah i told you it’s okay to care

it’s okay to care 
it’s okay to care
it’s okay to care

when the light hits the waves
i can see you
i can hear you call my name in the wind
you’re in everything 
Like the actors we love to hate
i’m still watching you 

i’m still watching you
i’m still watching you

baby I been praying
I been waiting for a day like this
waiting for the waves to touch my feet so I can sit there and reminisce 
but they too strong like no, no, no, no, no
tryna take me away and i’m like no, no, no
tell em i won’t go
i don’t wanna go
i don’t wanna go

when the light hits the waves
i can see you
i can hear you call my name in the wind
you’re in everything 
like the actors we love to hate
i’m still watching you 

i’m still watching you

don’t wanna do this thing on my own
don’t wanna do this thing on my own
don’t wanna do this thing on my own

don’t wanna do this thing on my own
don’t wanna do this thing on my own
don’t wanna do this thing on my own

when the light hits the waves
i can see you
i can hear you call my name in the wind
you’re in everything 
like the actors we love to hate
i’m still watching you 

i’m still watching you

actors we love

They say it’s never too late
But I know a youngin tryna get them funds in
Proabably crash it on the mains

And he don’t care about no life after this one
He just tryna get paid 

Said he ain’t got no respect for no older
But they’re hitting up his line with more orders
And he freezing on the mains

Ain’t a little boy no more
Ain’t a little boy no more

They say it’s never too late
But I know a youngin tryna get them funds in
Probably crash it on the mains 

Said he ain’t got no respect for no older
But they hitting up his line with more orders
Now he’s bleeding on the mains

i used to feel it like all the time but idk anymore / mains (prod. meircoles)

for us

back & forth

typical

i dont wanna seem jealous

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i should keep my thoughts to myself [demo]

well

nothingcantearusapart demo prod viteck

kelly green

**Description below the Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I see so much, yet not enough,
Scraps of light and ragged thoughts.
Trying to remember the list I forgot.
Could have got her flowers… but I did not.

I see a wet and rainy street
I should have walked one day
I could have held her hand in mine
But I turned… and walked the other way.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone

[Verse 2]
The warmth of her sitting across the kitchen table,
Her fingers curled ‘round that chipped coffee cup.
I thought I would be able
To give her more but that time's up.

I wanted to plant her garden this spring
But it’s still just packets on a shelf
I imagined a song I’d sing to her…
It's still a thought inside myself.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone.

[Verse 3]
The trip I planned a hundred times,
And always found ways to miss.
The arms I kept beside my back,
Afraid to reach and give her a kiss..

The brakes I swore I’d get replaced,
The list I left there on the chair.
A sunset I was “too tired” to see,
The time I didn’t want to share.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone.

[Bridge]
What happened to this life?
Did I throw it all away?
Did I waste all the time we had,
Hoping I’d have another day?

[Final Chorus]
Why did I wait to do the things
That I can’t stop thinking when she's gone?
I held them back, I failed to do,
Now my time to love has come and gone
Why, oh, why did I wait… so long…?

[Outro - gently , almost whispered]
And then... I passed... away

Even though it's late, really late,
what I think I've learned is this:

It’s not the arms I didn’t open.
The time I didn't live.
The garden that never blossomed.
The kiss I'd give anything to give.

It’s the love I hardly lived.
That’s the ache that echoes long.
And that’s the reason I cry
When love... came along.
I realize I hardly... ever... tried.

Description:
Why Did I Wait is realization—too late in coming. A man’s final reckoning unfolds in whispers, gravel, and silence. His voice frays at the edges, pushing through phrases he can barely finish. He doesn't sing to impress; he sings because he has to—because the weight of what he didn’t say is heavier than the words he finally does.

The guitar is faint, almost hesitant, leaving space for the rawness to echo. When he reaches the bridge, his voice strains upward—then crashes back down. The music fades. Then, quietly: “And then I passed away.”

A pause.
A breath.
Then the truth: what he learned… and what he’ll never forgive himself for.

The final lines ache with clarity. This isn’t performance.
It’s too human for that.

It’s realization—too late in coming.

i should keep my thoughts to myself [demo]

@hatetayoh

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