last time

this is the last time

feel now

feel now [prod. by kuroime]

smn tht i knw

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/zeaker-1

Lyrics:
I am always here my heart
I knew it before the start
you were bound to break my heart
now you're gone we're ripped apart
Baby come and be a part
of my life it's a lonely part
You were bound to break my heart
now you're gone we're ripped apart

And if I'm taking this the wrong way
and If i'm making me the false hopes
Please just let me walk this way
Please let me have my hopeless hopes
i overdose of all these drugs i'm taking
and I'm fading of all this liquor I'm drinking
cause every time i get anxiety i cut myself
be honest you're just laughing bout my lonely self
Fuck, I don’t know who I am
But maybe wishes can come true
And I am filled with happiness

I am always here my heart
I knew it before the start
you were bound to break my heart
now you're gone we're ripped apart
Baby come and be a part
of my life it's a lonely part
You were bound to break my heart
now you're gone we're ripped apart

Shooting stars are flying by in the night
Im making a wish and light up a spliff
Nobody recognize my pain
Maybe I will find a way out
I bled out of my veins every day
Just to bare this pain in my head
why I have to feel this
My head’s just a spiral of fear
Fuck, I don’t know who I am
But maybe wishes can come true
And I am filled with happiness

frequently in memory

wishes. [prod. by zeaker]

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/kuroimetsuyu

lyrics:
Sittin in a bubble
searching for my heart
memories pass thru
just wanna grab one

do you remember
all the days we loved
now you're gone and
my life is empty

wait a minute
don't push me away
sayin „it's okay“
but it's truly not

maybe we can
runaway from our past
maybe we can
runaway from our past
maybe we can
runaway from our past

Now we're apart.
Though not through choice.
Do we stay mute?
Or raise our voice?

do you remember
all the days we loved
now you're gone and
my life is empty

We'll be happy
and again i say
„It's okay, yeah yeah, it is okay“

the days we loved [prod. by kuroime]

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/zeaker-1

lyrics:
i would say your name
but i must have forgot it
be with you every day
if i didn't have to be honest
but let's be honest
i'm honestly not gonna be honest
i know you've got comprehension
but my life is beyond it
just 'cause i kissed you once
that doesn't mean i love you
but it also doesn't mean 
that i'm gonna forget about you
but let's forget it, i get it, you regret it
i wish you
could understand for a minute
i know we've both got issues

but i'm in love with someone else
i'm in love with someone else
but i don't know, no i don't know who the hell
i'm in love with someone else

you've got a piece of me
you can keep it forever
can't give you everything
'cause i barely hold it together
i barely, i barely hold it together
so either take what i give
or give yourself to someone better, yeah
just 'cause i kissed you once
that doesn't mean i hate you
but it also doesn't mean
that i'm obligated to make you
feel validated
i'm waiting for you to change my nature
until you do, i'm not giving up anymore of my paper

but i'm in love with someone else
i'm in love with someone else
but i don't know, no i don't know who the hell
i'm in love with someone else
yeah

i kissed you once [prod. by zeaker]

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/prod5head

Lyrics:
Wanna die when i’m lonely
Then i play on my sony
Calling shit when i’m stony
Call my ex when i’m saddy
Dropping shit when i’m lonely
Can’t take shit cause i’m falling
Nothing matters i’m a messy
Love is nothing than a lossy

Every single day I wanna kill myself
Every single day I feel like someone else
I can’t recognise my face anymore
Who am I and who is this?
I can’t even remember my old self
I’m not that happy kid of my youth
I’m just a silhouette of all that shit
And every single day I wanna kill myself

when i'm lonely... [prod. by 5head]

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/splashgvng

Lyrics:
I’m sick of infested thoughts
My friends are fake as fuck
They all talk behind my back
And I’m just passed out on my bed
cause I can’t bear this pain
I get from this parasite
who lives inside my brain
and I just stand on the wrong lane

I try to escape from all the monsters in my head
Alone in the night and I’m thinking bout my dead
Taking drugs to escape from all the pain
That I feel when I’m cutting on my vein
I bet that you will never understand
Every time I talk to you you misunderstand
Maybe it gets better when I’m gone
And everybody just keeps carry on

It wasn’t always like this
8-year-old me could feel bliss
Now everybody is expecting
And every time I fail, they just correcting
I wrote this for the boy that never really cared
For that girl who killed herself
For my mom, who can never understand
And my dad, who was never there

I’m sick of infested thoughts
My friends are fake as fuck
They all talk behind my back
And I’m just passed out on my bed
cause I can’t bear this pain
I get from this parasite 
who lives inside my brain
and I just stand on the wrong lane

demons on my back and my pain exposed
all the doors shut and now they’re closed
the executor sits on his throne
and all the pals collect my bones (2x)

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