A fantasy now shows its head
Another test, or just pretend
These sparks flew round us then
But I couldn't keep the needle for this thread

If you look me in the eyes again
I'll wish that you were more than just my friend
I just wanna see your smile again
But I broke that dream and pushed you to the end

These fucking dreams

A fantasy now breaks my head
A test I never could transcend 
Imagination
My thoughts a million
There's always something
Killed another fire with my intensity
No sparks remain here to come back to me

If you look me in the eye again
I'll wish that you were more than just my friend
I just wanna see your smile again
But I broke that dream and pushed you to the end

These fucking dreams
They break me
A fantasy
They break me
These fucking dreams
A fantasy 
A fantasy
They break me

You'll never see my eyes again
Cos you chose to never really be my friend
I still wanna see your smile again
But these fucking dreams get broken in the end
You'll never see my eyes again
Cos you chose to never really be my friend
I still wanna see your smile again
I just wanna see your smile again

Push

A track I was working on in the studio today with a member of London band 'Blowhole'. 

Blowhole - Lonely At The Top

Peer through the looking glass, 
A broken spirit, made to last
If I, could stitch our fractured skin,
Could you and I be whole again?

Maybe I like the way it feels, 
To sabotage my needs to heal
And break the splinters halfway in
As you flood in

Feast on my better half
I’ve never failed to toy with wrath
The lock, I had I let it break
To dream a future built of glass

And I’m picking up the pieces off the floor
But it’s everything I left
From before

Maybe I like the way it feels, 
To sabotage my needs to heal
And break the splinters halfway in
As you flood in

I know you’re never to blame
It’s never you who’s in shame
I’m always stuck in the flame
Why are you never to blame
I know you’re never to blame
It’s never you who’s in shame
I’m always stuck in the flame
Why are you never to blame

Maybe I like the way it feels
To sabotage my needs to heal
And break the splinters halfway in
As you flood in
Maybe I like the feeling
Nearly dead, broken, left bleeding
Breathing in shards of delusion

Sabotage And Loss

As Native Instruments were giving away a sound package called Kinetic Treats, I decided to mess around some more with the ultimate set I bought a little while ago.

Nothing serious, just a bit of experimental fun :P

Toys Toys Toys

Driven To Murder

So I haven't actually written a song in about, what, 5 years?

Please excuse the cheesy lyrics...

Patience is a virtue I struggle to keep
Running headlong into notions too deep
Tell myself I learn from my mistakes
But when something's real it's just too hard to take

All I have to do is wait
If I can truly put my trust in fate

Blinded by the paths laid out straight
Praying that the end shows you some restraint
But things are never easy you see
Life's just tragic irony when your dreams come true

All I have to do is wait
If I can only trust in fate

One day we'll see this through, 
I'll be holding onto you
Forget the world around us
Just like we used to

All I have to do is wait
If I can only trust in fate
All I have to do is wait

Trust In Fate (Demo)

Lately tragedy's found me
Seething spires of envy
Distant memories make me
Know your feelings were empty

Once broken, twice open
Now burning, still yearning
Fell certain, then stolen
Left bleeding, hearts healing

Lately tragedy's found me
Seething spires of envy
Distant memories make me
Know your feelings were empty
Once my clarity found me 
Paved a path, I could be free
Save your guilt for my proxy 
Blank space for re-ran stories

Wounds wired, expired
Desire, still blood red
Out of options, I bargain
This arson, no function

Once my clarity found me
Paved a path, I could be free
Save your guilt for my proxy
Blank space for re-ran stories
Lately tragedy's found me
Seething spires of envy
Distant memories make me
Raise this pillar of safety

Lately

Once upon a life we dreamed together
But nothing works the way it's meant to
Break in two, old souls we thought everlasting
I never will admit because sometimes

It hurts to breathe when you're around my head
And breaks my heart, but better now that we're apart

Through all that we were, now just a voice in a crowd
Another faceless embrace you couldn't wait to escape
Holding on by the seams, are all of my dreams
Even though, you'll forget me always 

Done, our time, a life we dreamed together
I never will return because sometimes

It hurts to breathe when you're around 

Through all that we were, now just a voice in a crowd
Another faceless embrace you couldn't wait to escape
Holding on by the seams, are all of my dreams
Even though, you'll forget me always

Forget Me Always

Render me, unconscious
Cos' that's the only way you'll get beneath the surface
Consider this, you're thoughtless
Why would you dramatise those times I "left you breathless"

It's got nothing at all to do with fear and self doubt
I had nothing but time for you, to let me down

Under my skin, you've long been
What bothers me most is I know you'll leave me itching
Let's disregard forgiving
"Mistakes were made", come on, I know you were performing.

Nothing But Time

Hayden Purcell is a Buckinghamshire based audio professional, focussing primarily on post-production sound design and sound effects editing.

www.haydenpurcell.com 

Contact - hayden@haydenpurcell.com

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