Ghost (demo)

Thrice

Cameo

i don't know what to say
everything i hoped for didn't go my way
everybody i could count on
disappointed to me today
today was an utterly crappy day

i hide it so no one could see
pretending the sail is going smooth for me
little did they know, that i am lonely 
there's just no remedy to fix this broken part of me

it'll go away in the morning
so light one up, sleep it off
there's not point if you just keep mourning
i'm doing my best, whats the point of being stressed?

lonely

it's 3 am and i know that you're sleeping
and here i am wishing you're next to me
it's 3 am and i can't stop thinking bout
every time you looked at me

you drive me crazy and crazy and crazy like

but
i don't know if i'm afraid
or i'm simply not ready for this 
i don't know if i'm afraid
or i'm simply not ready for this 

been searching for new love
and its meaning
it's almost like as if i'm on a killing spree
i don't know if i should stop or keep trying
cuz we'll never know if it's meant to be (i don't know)

it's 3 am and i know that you're sleeping
and here i am wishing you're next to me (but)
it's 3 am and i can't stop thinking bout (i don't know if i'm afraid)
every time you looked at me (or i'm simply not ready for this)

I DON'T KNOW lol

3 AM

sleep tight everyone
the original cover art is back

the things we planned got out of hand
before we knew it, it was over
guess i could see why she wasn't meant for me
that's why i wish i never loved her

too bad, too late
now she's stuck on my mind
and i think about her all the time
despite that she's not mine

salright i'll do just fine
i'll be okay on my own

i'm so used to thinking bout her every night
and i'm so used to making sure that she's alright
and guess i could see that things weren't meant to be
that's why i wish i never loved her


too bad, too late
now she's stuck on my mind
and i think about her all the time
despite that she's not mine

salright i'll do just fine
i'll be okay on my own

but like

but like

<3

i'm done figuring it out
can someone please tell me what it takes to fall in love again?
i don't know why
but i just wanna feel like my heart belongs to someone else

still looking for answers
but i just cant go on 
and bring myself to break another heart again
can't help it 
but sometimes when i'm alone i just wish i ain't by myself

maybe i've forgotten
the pain it comes with
but i do know that love is always worth it
but how do i know if am worth anything at all

can someone please tell me what it takes to fall in love again (love)
i don't know why 
but i just wanna feel like my heart belongs to someone else

maybe i've forgotten
the pain it comes with
but i do know that love is always worth it
but how do i know if am worth anything at all

love again

listen

i don't know if you're playing or you're serious
most of the time i never really know for sure
of course, i'd never ever let things come between us
cause i really don't want you to let me go

are we supposed to wait 'till the stars align
for me to hear from you and know that we're fine
if you refuse to talk to me then please give a sign

that you still want me to
call you mine
i just wanna know
that you're mine
baby let me just
call you mine

you can't keep doing this to me
girl, i'm sorry but i just dont have the time
why do you still want me to fight for you
cause it's exactly what i've been doing all this while

why do you refuse to see?
understand that you'll always be my favourite girl
all i ever wanted was to give you the world

nothing more than just to
call you mine
i just wanna know
that you're mine
baby let me just
call you mine

mine

art by @juanvillanueva94 on ig

is it just me?
or is everybody else pretending not to see?
that none of us are truly free
to be the person who we wanna be

and i feel like i've been stuck here forever
and that i'm forced to please everyone but myself
now i'm writing songs late at night wondering
if it's alright to not really give a shit about anything tonight

i feel like my problems are never gonna go away
that my problems are here to stay, no

sometimes i feel like crying when i think about everything
all the things weren't to be
when everybody else is all fine but not me
but i won't stop trying

sometimes i feel like crying when i'm trying to fall asleep
when my mind is thinking way too deep
of all the the things that i'll never ever get to be
but i ran out of tears, all gone

as if it's like it's way too late to truly love what i love
is it too late to truly love what i love?

(repeat)

growing up

art by @juanvillanueva (ig) <3

i wonder what it’s like to be on the other side
tryna keep this habit (actually it’s ‘quit’ but i fked up lol)
but it’s hard to breathe sometimes
i wanna get away from here
but i’m slowly losing myself
it’s too late i’ve spent too much
gotta finish what i started

but lets be real
i kinda like it better being in my room all day (all day)
i like to take it slow do it my own way (own way)
but there’s no point in fooling around cause all of this ain’t going anywhere

some people never realise that their noses are sticking out
look, i don’t wanna be superficial
but i’m sad, it’s really hard
it’s time they realise
they don’t have to do it if they care if i’m alright

do we ever get close enough 
to see or it’s too bright?
all i wanna do is ask for help
but they say i’m way too bad :/
i hope the book is right
cause i ain’t sure how it’s the best thing for my life

your reality is based on purity
that’s great but that’s not the case for me
holding hands doesn’t seem like a sin to me
what’s that? don’t agree? you’re in disbelief?
i know i kinda look like everybody else to you
brown skin, same looks, the majority
so what makes you think i’m any different from you?

(noise)

it’s been a couple months now and i’m done 
and i stopped thinking bout all the things that used to bother me 
now, all i think about is her and wonderful smile
oh i think that i’m starting to fall in love <3

she makes them problems go away
i am flying and i feel like pretty flowers blooming on beautiful day
i don’t care about a goddamn thing they will say
i am feeling like i got everything going my way

what's happening?

sometimes i wish i didn't choose to go down this road
it's like im falling through a deep and endless hole

wish i could stop cause this thing is just gettin' my head
i'm losing sleep so i don't wanna get off my bed
it’s coming close, and i can't stop feeling afraid
of the day that i fail but it’s coming anyway

all i wanna do is just run away run away
i've been here for way too long in this place, in my maze
i just need to be on my own now
cause i'm not ready to go

all i wanna do is just run away run away
i've been here for way too long in this place, in my maze
i just need to be on my own now
but i don't know where to go

haunts me all the time to see it coming from a mile away
i’ll count to ten and hope i get to see another day
i’ll need a gun in case id get myself in trouble again
i will pay for all the things i didn't do today

wish i could stop cause this feeling is just gettin' my head
it ain't too bad if i can push myself through all the way
up in the clouds or in the ground, you’ll find me hiding away
i'm afraid of all the things i have do today

all i wanna do is just run away run away
i've been here for way too long in this place, in my maze
i just need to be on my own now
cause i'm not ready to go

all i wanna do is just run away run away
i've been here for way too long in this place, in my maze
i just need to be on my own now
but i don't know where to go

art by Juan Villanueva

all i wanna do

i have trouble confronting my feelings
and openly talking about them
maybe it’s cause there are certain things that i cant say

i am who i am based on geography
means im expected to conform to society
but i’ve always felt left out and not fit in

i used to cry so much at fifteen
i thought everyone secretly hated me
but no one really gave a shit about me in high school

i would say that i can get emotional
but im hanging out with all my guy friends
so i push it all under a rug and light a cig

time will heal all my wounds
or at least that’s what i like to think oh
i will be on my own
cause i rather be sad all alone tonight

i just google for answers in everything
includes why i cant seem to forget her name
i learned that loving someone can mean letting them go

my girlfriend might hate me for saying things
that would freak her out and overthink it
but theres no way in denying what i truly feel

i wonder why shes always crying
i am clueless cause she just wont tell my why
but being goofy on video call kinda works

time will heal all my wounds
or at least that’s what i like to think oh
i will be on my own
cause i rather be sad all alone tonight

let's be honest

tq for listening <3
art by Juan Villanueva

i said, "tell me what's your name?"
while i pretend i dont know her from the internet
then i said, "that's a nice name,"
and i meant it cause all i knew was her username

then she told me that my hair looks really nice
i said, "baby i know," while i'm screaming inside
she is crazy and all that make up is just a disguise
and i feel some type of way
she's special cause

she doesn't need to wear a dress to impress a guy like me 
she doesn't need to undress to impress a guy like me
2x

i was scared to kiss her on our first night out together
cause she might just be the one, theres no way i'm screwing up
and when she talks you’ll get so lost just stare into her eyes
and you’ll hear these sounds they're irritating
wow she's always on my mind

breathing is a problem when steps out of the  door
with the sunlight on her skin and her perfect choice of clothes
i can't believe she likes me didnt think that i was worth it
guess i'm lucky that she noticed me now i can't seem to let her go

(she's not like anyone i know) i wanna see where this goes
(she's not like anyone i know) i hope her maintenance is low
(she's not like anyone i know) same halal:haram ratio 
(she's not like anyone i know) SHE'S NOT LIKE ANYONE I KNOW

she doesn't need to wear a dress to impress a guy like me 
she doesn't need to undress to impress a guy like me
2x

(hazikry)

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