prodhoco

vox mix master @cillacybn
prod @hcqueenxo
@mirrorville
cillaqueencillaqueencillaqueen

war freestyle w/ cillacybn

the rule of two w/ lil wet wet

friday after the last text i would ever receive from u, thinking about the night i walked u home 9/18/20
recorded @ bluegrass cir

I walked u home down college street
the wind blew ur hair u smiled at my feet
n time goes by feels like nothing at all
at all
I sleep by my phone expecting ur call

n I walked u home down college street
I nevr thought ud b th 1 2 bring me 2 my knees
but when I looked in2 ur eyes all tht I cld c was me
n u saw rite thru me
u nevr knew me
n I sit here broken as time moves on
the feelings holding
how am I supposed to
move forward when ull always have those deep brown eyes

college street

recorded bluegrass cir

I hate tht u worry so much
u hate when I do my drugs
I tell u ill b ok but ik that I wont
u always kno when im lying but not what im on
n you could be th tree n ill b the wind that knocks u down
I dont want u to fall
I dont want u to fall

ur so much more than what I deserve
baby ily but I dont want u to get hurt
I say ill do better but I never fuckin learn
I got all these drugs in me I cant stand on my own

I cant stand on my own
I cant stand on my own
u feel (felt?) likehome
I cant Stand on my ownnnn

i dont want u to fall

recorded @ room 107 cedar falls

baby we could roll around n we could watch the sun set
tell me tht u luv me babe thts way 2 much 2 digest
u tryna look inside my <3 but its locked up inside my chest
u ask me why im so cold n it aint evn winter yet

it aint evn winter yet

I been tryin so hard 2 make things right
ion think I cn take another sleepless nite
baby y u so scared 4 me
I jus wanna do my drugs let me be
when I look in2 ur bright blue eyes
it kinda makes me wanna leave it all behind
im sry tht im so fukd up n ion know y
u want me 2 change but ion evr try

aint even winter yet

recorded @ aspen dr
9/19/2018
voice memo no. 36
 
uve been gone 4 so long
I cnt figure out where I was wrong
where did all the time go
u left me here w nothing 2 show

all I evr wanted was u

u leave my mind sometimes
but I can always feel u crawling back beneath my skin
back beneath my skin

recorded room 107 cedar falls

its like these backroads were never gone
the whole damn town seems so fucking lost
drinking whiskey and mowing lawns
fillin prescriptions and gettin gone
and I cant figure out what went wrong
u told me ud love me 4 like so long
im tryin things I nevr woulda done
I missed ur call sry I was off the drugs
they tell u to come back n dont go far
this town holdin me down im shooting 4 the stars
every time I come back I end up in ur car
every time I come back I end up off the bars
u aint seen me for a minute but u aint ever call
ion need u anymore baby I been thru it all
u dont care anymore u can lie 2 my face
I dont need this place bb we should part ways

this town

recorded room 107 cedar falls
 
(ben : I was at a function, you could say
Peter : shoutuout Elena, gettin me right
ben : and I socialized with Jake morrison)

I can see in in their eyes that they dont care anymore
cause when I say I wanna die they just stare at the floor
I see my own suicide jus the same as before
I hear em screaming my name, bottle pops, hit the floor
you got wishin I cld go back n change myself
they say mistakes make the man but I hate myself
im racking up addictions wanna change myself
but every time that I relapse I wanna hang myself

n its all alright, ill be okay
I can get thru tomorrow like I got thru today
n for all of these sins, I know that ill pay
but im fuckin alright, im fucking okay
x2

n its hard to think how much has changed

(Elena : ring the bells
ben : ring the ceiling titties
kabs : YOU FUCKING SCUM! Jesus, Jesus had brunch with his family here)

I miss u so much, but were not the same
were not the same

alright, okay

recorded room 107 cedar falls

u move forward thru the darkness n u try to carry on
cause all the things that make u heavy are all the things that make u strong
n I wont see u in the morning girl iv got to move on
I think ill drive to Colorado n just try to get along
all the mountains call out my name and iv gotta join their song
and I wish that you'd come with me but ur stuck in cedar falls

every time I start up this old truck and drive away from you I get a little more fucked up
and every time the sun sets in the (cedar) valley I wish I could feel ur love one more time

all the things that make u heavy

recorded room 107 cedar falls

u ever wake up covered in your own blood
they tell u slow down but u cant sober up
they tell u quit it but u cant stop these drugs
snorting pills in the dark I mean jus cause

in love w these uppers I hate being down
u kno im down rn but I wont make a sound
all this pain, and I cant do it alone
1 Ritalin turns to 6 straight to my dome

I jus hate myself n ion know y
tell me u love me tell u ion wanna try 
my eyes always low cause I love getting high
I been high all week n now I think I wanna die

ritalin

recorded room 107 cedar falls

it gets so cold this time of year
the winds blowing fast and loud and clear

the leaves are all falling and so am I
ig that this is how it feels to live a lie
n all the sand in the road is a telling sign
that if I fall beneath the moon ill freeze tonight

I gotta make it thru the night
I promise that I wont lie one more time

ill make it thru the fucking night

make it through the fucking night

piano recorded bluegrass cir / vox recorded room 107 cedar falls

everything I am is all the things that uve never done
and I cant leave my room I dont wanna go see the sun
I cant who u want me to be
I dont need what u think that I need
n im so fucking sorry I didn't turn out right
n im so fucking sorry I been gettin fucked up every night
but I cant escape the thoughts so I run and hide
it seems like this liquor is the only way outta my mind

sorry

original by lil peep and kryptik 
piano recorded bluegrass cir / vox recorded room 107 cedar falls

star shopping

recorded room 107 cedar falls
 
I been drinking way 2 much
n idk how to stop
nothings ever had a hold of me like this 
when im blackout drunk baby its pure bliss

its like I look inside the mirror n idk who's looking back at me
n everything I do its like anxiety attacking me
n I cant run away so I hide and I sit and drink
baby I dont trust a soul idk what the fuck u thinking
sex money drugs only thing that ur after
baby idgaf none of that shit matter
im jus sick and fucking tired of sitting here wishing I could die
bury me with the leaves and let me touch the sky

touch the sky

after hours - charlieonnafriday flip

me n all my brothers stuck in champagne showers

champagne showers

theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back

wings dont grow back
where the drugs at
I been fightin for my fuckin life u dont kno that
as of lately I been feeling u u should kno that
another Friday im off the drugs where the hoes at
knows that, baby where my blow at
prozac, ion take no prozac
im rly off these drugs I think u kno that
u cut off my wings now I cant go back

theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
theres no goin back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back
wings dont grow back

wings dont grow back

every day

if ur gonna spew, spew into this (cover)

plsplsplsplspls (p. homecomingqueen)

No Motive (prod. homecomingqueen)

Were Around (Prod. homecomingqueen)

homecomingqueen - n o f a c e (snippet)

vox / mixmaster @bedhead2001
prod @hcqueenxo
ty 4 hopping on my beats beddy

shrapnel w/ bedhead

prod @hcqueenxo
i hope u do but i dont think u will

love me when u wake up

prod vox @hcqueenxo
mix master @prodbybeej

id give up 4ever 2 touch u
cause ik that youd feel somehow
ur the closest 2 heaven that ill ever be
n i dont wanna go home rn
all i can taste is this moment
n all i can breathe is ur life
sooner or later its over
i just dont wanna miss u tonight

n i dont want the whole world 2 see me
cause i dont think that theyd understand
when everythings meant to be broken
i just want u 2 know who i am

u cant fight the tears that aint coming
or the moment of truth in ur lies
when everything feels like the movies
yea u bleed just 2 know ur alive

iris

prod @hcqueenxo
vox mix master @bedhead2001
@mirrorville

u were nevr 1
2 wear the proper attire 4 a cold night
but its alright
u can wear me like a sweater
ill b there 4 u like whenevr
ur heart is stuck in different weather
what can i do 2 make u feel better
just shrug it off like its whatevr

execute me publicly
i only wanted 2 have somebody
2 hav and 2 hold
until i grow old
is that 2 much 2 ask for
humiliate me publicly
i knew this was all 2 good 2 b true
i only came here 2 b here w u
but now i c thats not what u wanted 2

n iv nevr been the type
2 make the grandest gestures
but ill act like ur jester if u want

whatever w/ bedhead

prod @hcqueenxo
vox @mead0ws-mirrorville / @polar333
mix master @bedhead2001 / @polar333 / @mead0ws-mirrorville

i dont wanna b better than I hav 2
i dont wanna b the bearer of bad news
gotta leave n gotta go where i have to
folded under pressure
sorry that i had 2
tell the truth even when its tough 2
we grew different not the same as i found u
ill nevr mean 2 doubt u
can u tell me what i even do around u
rain songs booming thunder flowers bloom
i can still hear ur voice in a loud room
am i allowed 2 move on do I have 2
and when we leave which of us is gonna pack 2
u dont wanna stay so why should i fix it
u wanna text message when im floating thru dimensions
i understand the tension i wanna read my sentence
but every conversation that we have is so intensive

so lets just lay here
all alone
lets just separate our hearts
try 2 call this place a home
n nobody knows that this isnt perfect
nobody knows that this isnt worth it
n maybe im wrong
all these streets i run around r not my own
n i dont wanna talk so ill sing u a song
n I dont wanna talk so i just throw my phone
just throw my phone 
n now im alone
i was tryna talk 2 u but its 2 hard
want it more than ever baby im 2 far
i dont wanna b better than I hav 2
im cryin every night if I have 2

bloom w/ mead0ws + polar333

prod @hcqueenxo
vox mix master @lilbearshawty
@mirrorville

wasted all of my days spent contemplating
whether it was love or a facade i cant take it
even tho ur wrong n im right ion say shit
leave out 2 dry by the fire leave me waiting
say that itll end in time iv been patient
i dont like eye contact or conversation
unless its w u i can face it
all we hav is trust but it takes 2 2 break it

ik that iv got some bad habits arent good for me
ik that u rly wanna talk u cant get over me
i been all alone in my room thinking depressing things
commas come around but im so done explaining pleasantries
hear ur from the rng im here cause im supposed 2 b
i wont let u closer know i always keep a shield on me
iv become a hermit shawty posted up on st
building up my walls again its better than u were 2 me

facade w/ chemicalfarm

prod vox mix @hcqueenxo
vox mix master @bedhead2001
this ones 4 u if u hear it

this 1s 4 u if u hear it
iv been scared of u now im fearless
u cant take the truth n abuse it
iv been clear 2 u now were nearing

this 1s 4 u if u hear it
been alone so long i can feel it
all these cracks in my walls n my ceiling
i dont want my heart u can keep it
but when i look at u im looking in a mirror
n they say 2 give it time but the grass is never greener
n i hope that someday u come back around
waiting right on this bench in the middle of the town

the bench w/ bedhead

prod @hcqueenxo
i would rather have had, one breath of her hair. one kiss of her mouth. one touch of her hand. than eternity without it.

roll

n im sry tht it took me so long
2 see u the way tht i do now
i was so lost now im so found 
u glo in the club light
i need u 4 all mine
dnt waste no more damn time
stay right on me
were fine ull see
feel it in my chest
my heart it nevr rest
my dear were such a mess
smoke ur last cigarette n

roll

roll

ima dead man walkn
she c me when i walk in
she like the way i walk it
cash all in my pocket
like im 1 in a milli
i pop a pill i feel it
u givin me this feelin
but if i fall im leavin
new creases on my forces
dnt even try 2 force it
lets just see what happens
car start automatic

@portzzz
ok im all in
u kno i gotta give in this life i hav 2 live
started fallin
the moment u walkd in tough love is what this is
how many times do i hav 2 c ur face
probly feelin this way cuz u said ud nevr change
come test my luck ima bird in a cage
probly get fuckd up cuz ur standing in my way

hcq x portz - dead man walkn

@portzzz
sparkin up rite now do u wanna jump in
i know ur mind u cnt pretend
i c u want this lets jus do it now
rite now rite now
jus like a cop im on ur case
i c that lie rite on ur face
no need 2 try i c ur chasing clouds
all while im smoking loud
no need 2 talk so dnt begin
just forfeit now cuz u wont win
im drinking now cuz u wont let it down
rite now rite now

queen
n ida given u the world but bb I was stuck
now i kno u never ever gave a fuck
heard ur mans at the party mac tuckd
u notice me when i step on the scene
how cld u not bb ik i gleam
n i float when i roll off them beans
it was only a tuesdayyyy
u made it feel like a fridayyy
u made me think i was okayyyy
y u sayin goodbye babeee

hcq x portz - handsup

prod @hcqueenxo
vox mix master @lilwetwet2001
n now she hate me

homecomingqueen

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