it just doesnt have to be so hard
aug2021 . art prod & vox by me ( @bigdog30k )

Where You'll Find Me

underspring [seal]

and i'm a cunt, yeah i despise you
got so many drugs in my system, that's how i do
i kept on going up, popped some more because i like to
i bleed out on the floor december long with or without you

okay, now shut up
hold your breath 'til you turn blue
fuck up every little thing
you'll do what i do

i saw death
in the room
all around you
and every time i do a line

i'm begging for another heart attack
and every time you kiss me i pray to god you love me less
and every time i fall asleep i hope i wake up dead
and every time i bleed i hope it empties out my chest

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

kill the lights turn the beat up
do you feel it?
just took 20mg
but i don't feel it

you won't believe me
'til i do it
go find me a body bag
and put me in it

alprazolam
safe haven
i just want to empty my head
oh, you don't get it

got brain fog
need sedation
you won't ever listen to me
who am i kidding?

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

give me pain
it's all i know
you fuck me up
and i endorse it

i swallow up
these cures
and i treat my mind
like it's poison

i needed you
six months ago
six months too long
that's what caused it

and every second
drags for too long
my heart's gone
now i've lost it

december

december (ㆆ_ㆆ)

i don't get it
what are they saying?
'bout to pass out
think i got too faded

you don't know me
baby, i'm a stranger
i'll fall apart in your arms
i'm decaying

i fucking hate you
soon as i'm sober
don't come around, won't play it out
game over

it's been downhill
ever since october
i'll take these pills to drown it out
game over

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

i don't care oh i swear
didn't want to feel a thing but i felt it everywhere
and everytime i'm cut deep
i hope i bleed out on the dirt

never thought it would get this tough
guess i got what i deserved
i take these pills to shut me up
swallowed whole by the earth

cutdeep

cut deep ಥ_ಥ

Over With

wake me up

wake me up *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

i had a dream that i was dead again
i held the gun i blew right through your head
i woke up screaming, sweat all on my sheets
when your face is the last thing i see

i know i'm full of pain but it's alright
'cause this powder gets me high
i bandage up, i love to fight
make me bleed out then i won't cry

(oh, oh, oh)

i'm just a ghost, deceive your eyes
i'll haunt you then apologise
i suffer every single night
oh, oh, oh

i know i'm full of pain but it's alright
'cause this powder gets me high
i bandage up, i love to fight
make me bleed out then i won't cry

i'm just a ghost, deceive your eyes
i'll haunt you then apologise
i suffer every single night
oh, oh, oh

you'll see right through me like i'm ice
you'll be the first thing on my mind
you'll see right through me like i'm ice
you'll be the first thing on my mind

i'm all alone, i'm not alive
and i just want you by my side
i'm all alone, i'm not alive
and i just want you by my side

i know i'm full of pain but it's alright
'cause this powder gets me high
i bandage up, i love to fight
make me bleed out then i won't cry

i'm just a ghost, deceive your eyes
i'll haunt you then apologise
i suffer every single night
oh, oh, oh

ghost

ghost (~д~*)

i'm off the lyrica
i can't even talk
i got some vetements
prada boots to stomp

i think i played 'em all
win the 1v1
and i don't give a fuck
let that bitch respawn

intermission i'm quick-scoping
check the loadout, overkill
i'm mixing up all of these potions
smurfing on them, pills are blue

and everybody trynna be me
u can join the server queue
i hear that they're all wanting beef
you can't bite more than you chew

'cause i'm the fucking top dog
(woof woof)
hit this backwood and i cough
(oh oh)

just got promoted i'm the boss
(oh no)
i need some powder crushing rocks
(oh, oh)

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)

i hot box with top shelf
can you even reach up?
feel like a wizard casting these spells
hit them with a fireball

pass out the function
think i'm needing cpr
i'm landing headshots
desert eagle

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)

i hot box with top shelf
can you even reach up?
feel like a wizard casting these spells
hit them with a fireball

pass out the function
think i'm needing cpr
i'm landing headshots
desert eagle

'cause i'm the fucking top dog
(woof woof)
hit this backwood and i cough
(oh oh)

just got promoted i'm the boss
(oh no)
i need some powder crushing rocks
(oh, oh)

'cause i'm the fucking top dog
(woof woof)
hit this backwood and i cough
(oh oh)

just got promoted i'm the boss
(oh no)
i need some powder crushing rocks
(oh, oh)

i'm off the lyrica
i can't even talk
i got some vetements
prada boots to stomp

i think i played 'em all
win the 1v1
and i don't give a fuck
let that bitch respawn

intermission i'm quick-scoping
check the loadout, overkill
i'm mixing up all of these potions
smurfing on them, pills are blue

and everybody trynna be me
u can join the server queue
i hear that they're all wanting beef
you can't bite more than you chew

'cause i'm the fucking top dog
(woof woof)
hit this backwood and i cough
(oh oh)

just got promoted i'm the boss
(oh no)
i need some powder crushing rocks
(oh, oh)

'cause i'm the fucking top dog
(woof woof)
hit this backwood and i cough
(oh oh)

just got promoted i'm the boss
(oh no)
i need some powder crushing rocks
(oh, oh)

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)

i hot box with top shelf
can you even reach up?
feel like a wizard casting these spells
hit them with a fireball

pass out the function
think i'm needing cpr
i'm landing headshots
desert eagle

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)

i hot box with top shelf
can you even reach up?
feel like a wizard casting these spells
hit them with a fireball

pass out the function
think i'm needing cpr
i'm landing headshots
desert eagle

top dog

^^

a-a-alcohol on the cuts let it sting, i love your touch
i'll let you in my mind you can corrupt me just for fun
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone

a-a-alcohol on the cuts let it sting, i love your touch
i'll let you in my mind you can corrupt me just for fun
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone-one-one-one

do another line
there's that blissful silence
need prescription, i can't focus
i can't even fucking cry

tell another lie
i'll live another life
if you're needing me forever
we can try and slow down time

do another line
there's that blissful silence
need prescription, i can't focus
i can't even fucking cry

tell another lie
i'll live another life
if you're needing me forever
we can try and slow down time

i will waste away my love
i'll take the risk, i'll roll the dice
i'll let you pick out all my habits and
i'll pick another vice

i will waste away my love
i'll take the risk, i'll roll the dice
i'll let you pick out all my habits and
i'll pick another vice

(hardstyle
miniskirt)

you are for me
even when you dig your claws
and sink your teeth
until i'm bleeding

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

do another line
there's that blissful silence
need prescription, i can't focus
i can't even fucking cry

tell another lie
i'll live another life
if you're needing me forever
we can try and slow down time

you are for me
even when you dig your claws
and sink your teeth
until i'm bleeding

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

go go go go go
turn the speakers up
love's the only thing worth saving
tell me, are you holding on?

a-a-alcohol on the cuts let it sting, i love your touch
i'll let you in my mind you can corrupt me just for fun
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone

a-a-alcohol on the cuts let it sting, i love your touch
i'll let you in my mind you can corrupt me just for fun
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone
everything's a game and i'm playing everyone

top dog

healings

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