This song speaks to a personal loss I dealt with this past almost two years. For anyone who parted ways with family or friends, or experienced relationship loss during the events of 2020-now maybe this song will speak to you. Hold on to the golden moments, and to hope that if healing and reconciliation can occur, it will. <3

Lyrics:

(Music, lyrics, performance and production by Healixr all rights are mine :)
 
Verse 1
Been a lifetime every couple o’ months
Did you even look back once
You ran out with the best of me
Left me in pieces but I was free
 
Pre Chorus
though we’re not speakin’
Let my words be a beacon
If you need me light a flare
I’ll be there

Chorus
Just for a spell it felt right
Moments I treasure
Talking till morning light
‘Bout storms that we’ve weathered
 
it clicked for a minute
when both of us were in it to win
Oh but you gotta let me in
So Something’s gotta give
 
Verse 2
You’re a part of me
like I’m a part of you
You can’t ignore it
I try to find the real you
But till they reach for me I can’t come through
 
Pre Chorus 2
I know we’re not speakin’
But let my words be your beacon
When you feel like no ones there
I still care
 
Chorus 2
Just for a spell it felt right
I choose that to tether me
Remember when we took flight
‘Till you burned our feathers
 
Bridge
You poison me when
I choose your heart over mine and
I’ll do it every time
So Something’s gotta give
 
End Breakdown Section
Something’s got to give
(Oh you just gotta let me in)
Something’s got to give
(You gotta be in it to win it)
Something’s gotta give
(Just for a spell it felt right)
Something’s gotta give

Something's Gotta Give (Let me in)

For anyone moving through something or someone.  The only constant is change, and if you embrace it, you may find the person you used to be is the scary one.  Growth can feel just like loss, but in loss we can often see the clearest where we are meant to be.

Lyrics:

Shedding skin
Where to begin 
Still Don’t know who I am
But I won’t give a damn
Anymore 

I feel more awake 
With every breath that I take 
Still feel the pull
Of a me that stole 
The color from everywhere 

Im coming up for air 
 

Where did the time go
Im tryna move slow
Why is it such a fight to survive 
Why am I so afraid of being alive

Now is the time for
Leaving fear back on the shore
Change was the enemy now they’re the friend I need
To come up for air
  
Im coming up Im coming up 
Im coming up for air 
Im coming up Im coming up 
Im coming up for air 

Where did the time go
Im tryna move slow
Why is it such a fight
To b-b-b-b-b-breathe 
 
Now is the time for
Leaving fear 
and meeting change at the door 
I just gotta believe in something more
And breathe the air

This is a cover of a version of "Theodosia Reprise" from "Hamilton" the musical, re-envisioned by Sara Bareilles.  This is my take on this gut wrenching yet optimistic ballad.  Hope you enjoy :)

Theodosia Reprise (Sara Bareilles Vers. Cover)

This song was a process in which I put to words the moments where hope is so elusive one must look for it outside the self.  This piece helped me to face some fears and feelings I had not been meeting head on, and give them a voice.  I have lost too many friends to suicide this past few years, and I myself have had moments in which holding on and pushing forward feels impossible.  To those of us who at times struggle just to decide to be, may this song bring comfort, perspective, and even hope.  To all those I've lost, and those wrestling with shadows every day, I love you all.  This song reminds me that even when I cannot find my light, there are others who will show me: that I burn Bright. 
-Healixr

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light." -Albus Dumbledore

2ndhand Hope

Singer Songwriter of 27 learning how to produce at the moment.  Nothing speaks to me or for me like music.  My life is still budding, but I have yet to experience anything that can be as much of a vessel of understanding, communication, and transformation.  Both of the self and for others.  For me this art is what connects me the most, but the same rings true for any forms that speak to us.  My music heals me, and if it speaks to you I am even more grateful.  Life is the meaning you give it, and I craft my meaning into music.  Hope you vibe with it and me :)

Healixr

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