happy new year! time for some moody bitch shit

lyrics:
I went right to another one (to another one, to another one)
So I can't process my feelings,
I went right to another one (yeah, yeah)
I can see why you think I'm lonely,
Fight with another one,
Even when I'm plaintively reeling, yeah,
Yeah, yeah (yeah yeah yeah)
Right to another one.
Try to fly when I've come undone.

I've been spending all my time
Thinking bout the way we ended up
Spending all my time (spending, spending)
Getting high to forget my luck (forget about)
Spending all my time
Wasting it thinking bout you (thinking bout you)
Forget about you (forget about you)

I've been spending all my time
Watching shit that you used to like (ooh)
I got it twisted, twisted
Wasting my time won't make it rewind.
I need time to myself, I know
But I've still been thinking you're replaceable
Replaceable

I went right to another one (ooh)
So I can't process my feelings
I went right to another one (another one, another)
I can see why you think I'm lonely
Fight with another one
Until I hit some sort of ceiling, yeah (ceiling, yeah)
Yeah

I went right to another one (to another one)
Another one, another one (to another one)
I don't know why I thought your choice was sudden
I went right to another one (right to another one)
I'm only human

I know I don't want you to see me like this
I don't know how not to act foolish

right to another prod. by figgie

shoutout to the man https://soundcloud.com/datsunn Sunnflips Week 27
1st place let's gooooo

sorry for the ai art previously, I should've known better. switched it to the back cover of my album. also never planning on using that again, thx for understanding

sunnflip wk 27(1st place) - losing u

chilllllllinggggg (with my titties out)

album art by me

thank you Cookin Soul for the samples

Lyrics:
I used to win at nothing but I wasn't mad at that
I used to play a part but my performance fell flat
If it's something I want imma ask for it hey
It happens all the time I wasted my whole day

Hmm doing nothing getting none
Hmm maybe Iike it like that
Hmm I'm overheated babe
No A/C, feeling free
Chilling with my titties out

And I look up at the ceiling beams
Lake house wishing for the umpteenth time 
But I can't afford that so I guess I'll just be sitting here,
You know what I'm on about


Hmm doing nothing getting none
Hmm maybe Iike it like that
Hmm I'm overheated babe
No A/C, feeling free
Chilling with my titties out

Titties Out (CWMTO)

production, mixing, and album art by https://soundcloud.com/kiyol
vox, addl prod, addl mixing, and album art by heal xo

Lyrics:
Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie
Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie

Pokemon cards that's the stuff that I love
And I remember you're mine, mine
My enemies aflame, that's the stuff I dream of
And when you're really on time, time

Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie
Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie

(Nintendo games)
Nintendo games
(Nintendo games)
Nintendo games
(Nintendo games)
Nintendo games

Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie
Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
Unless it ends in a tie

Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
But I get out on time
Nintendo games seem to switch up my luck
But I remember you're mine, mine, mine, all mine, mine, mine

nintendo games! - heal xo prod. kiyol

prod by https://soundcloud.com/lightfallmusic
Mix and master by ProducerChive (https://soundcloud.com/fnmb)

Lyrics
i i-
i i-
can't seem to find my clothes 
baby i
can't fear
we took an oath
(an oath)

maybe i 
could feel 
you when you're close
maybe i 
could feel you when you're close

ooh wah

you've never had 
a love like mine
i can't wait 
i can't wait

maybe we could feel 
us 
when we're close
maybe i could feel you when you're close

close

a little foggy

blood runs heavy

sample from keeth! enjoy:)
follow https://soundcloud.com/kphazer

LYRICS
i've been on the run
till you digested me whole, 
i'm venus
stuck in your fly trap

yeah

why (why)
your web comes undone
as if that redeems you any more (ay ay ay)
as if that redeems you any more (ay ay ay)
i can't stand you
an eye for eye (for an eye)
an eye for eye
repent to the night

ba duh da bah duh ee

i felt it in my eyes
i felt it in my eyes
i wish it wasn't true
i wish it wasn't true
i felt it in my eyes
i felt it in my eyes
i wish it wasn't true
i wish it wasn't true
i felt it in my eyes
i felt it in my eyes
i wish it wasn't true
i wish it wasn't true

ba duh da bah duh ee
ay eh eh ay
ay eh eh ay
oo

venus

this is a cover of "clover" by KAMAUU:) i recently saw one of kamauu's IG lives and fell back in love with his music, check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yniCK2Ppl5s

Lyrics
(CHORUS)
OH MY LOVE WON’T MAKE NOTHING 
IF WE AIN’T, IN THE MORNING 
I LOVE YA IN THE MORNING 
AYE, DON’T THE LORD 
IT’S SOMETHING IN THE AIR 
WHEN I GET THE BEST OF YOU 
AND YOU GET THE BEST OF LOVE 
‘CAUSE LOVE IS BEST WITH NO END DATE 
AND I DON’T GIVE A DAMN WHAT FRIENDS SAY 
‘CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT MY FRIENDS SAY 
JUST ANOTHER POINT OF VIEW 
THAT DOESN’T SEEM TO POINT TO YOU AND I 
 
(VERSE)
I LOVE  
AND I TRUST 
WHAT WE HAVE  
AND I LOVE 
HOW THE TROUBLES 
DON’T LAST 
(YEAH) 
AND I LOVE HOW  
EVEN AFTER MY ERROR 
THERE’S NO END TO THE ERA 
THOUGH YOU’VE BEEN THROUGH THE TERROR 
(TERROR) 
OF AN INSECURE 
AND SAVED WHAT WE HAVE 
FROM BREAKING IN HALF 
AND I KNOW 
 
(CHORUS)
 MY LOVE WON’T MAKE NOTHING 
IF WE AIN’T, IN THE MORNING 
I LOVE YA IN THE MORNINg 
AYE, DON’T THE LORD 
IT’S SOMETHING IN THE AIR 
WHEN I GET THE BEST OF YOU 
AND YOU GET THE BEST OF LOVE 
‘CAUSE LOVE IS BEST WITH NO END DATE 
AND I DON’T GIVE A DAMN WHAT FRIENDS SAY 
‘CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT MY FRIENDS SAY 
JUST ANOTHER POINT OF VIEW 
THAT DOESN’T SEEM TO POINT TO YOU AND I

clover - kamauu

Makedonska Humoreska - Todor Skalovski

On the state of my existential dread.
made for ig as a duet with the iconic Papa Bear Johnson here: https://www.instagram.com/p/C75Xh8Cshcz/
IG handles: @papabearjohnson, @heal.xo

Lyrics:
Hey,
Why is the world on fire?
Care a bit

I can feel you breathing down my neck
Get lost
Dream of futures where we're free
Some day, ah

With the world as round as it is
No point waiting at an absent starting line
Get free!

Even with the boot on your neck,
Burn like the forest and ponder what we became

And how you can care again...

why is the world on fire?

FIRST ALBUM!!! LET ME KNOW HOW WE'RE FEELING WOOOO!!!

Track list:
Song titles
1. let go (nightingale) - production, vocals, mix/master: heal xo. drums from Orenji Soul (https://soundcloud.com/user-480504814-168303948)

2. i hate mondays (no, u just hate capitalism and the never-ending, skull-crushing, mind-numbing weight of a govt that wants us dead AND acts like it at every available opportunity, as well as an ongoing pandemic that next to no one is protecting each other from so we are coerced into constant reinfections with a virus that increases the risk of heart attack, stroke, and death following an infection of any severity [cite your sources bestie], AS WELL AS the colonialistic, genocidal nonsense the global north enacts upon the global south every waking hour of every day and you're just now finally realizing the cognitive dissonance of it all) - produced by Kyle Young (https://soundcloud.com/kyleyoungmusic) and heal xo. songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

3. overgrown (don't hold me down) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

4. limited (forgive me) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

5. daydreaming (strings) - produced by ap (https://soundcloud.com/apmelodies). vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

6. fear (shelter it) - produced by stevedoesmusic (https://soundcloud.com/stevedoesmusic). vocals, songwriting by heal xo. mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

7. fallinlove - produced by flywilliums (https://soundcloud.com/martimcfliwilliums). mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru). songwriting, vocals by heal xo

8. few things - sample from Datsunn (https://soundcloud.com/datsunn). drums from Orenji Soul (https://soundcloud.com/user-480504814-168303948). mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru). production, vocals, songwriting by heal xo

9. venus - sample from Keeth (https://soundcloud.com/kphazer). Production, vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

10. nuit (poissons lune) - vocals, songwriting, production by heal xo. mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

11. leave - production by ProducerChive (https://soundcloud.com/fnmb) and heal xo. vocals, mix/master by heal xo.

12. losing u (Orpheus ± Eurydice) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

13. (feeling) like hell - produced by milye (https://soundcloud.com/maxmilye). vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

14. parasite - produced by bao (https://soundcloud.com/longlivebao) and heal xo. vocals, songwriting by heal xo. mix/master by cymk (https://www.instagram.com/_cymk/)

15. compost - produced by neighbor (https://soundcloud.com/prodbyneighbor). songwriting, vocals by heal xo. mix by Chaotic Golem. master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

dis/ambiguate - heal xo [FULL ALBUM STREAM]

symptom of life x ocean eyes (willow x billie eilish) [heal xo cover]

15. compost - produced by neighbor (https://soundcloud.com/prodbyneighbor). songwriting, vocals by heal xo. mix by Chaotic Golem. master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

LYRICS:
Let everything you left behind you
Rot
It's not a secret if you let go (go, let mm)

Just leave it in the compost
Rot

If you
Made a mistake it doesn't matter

Just like foggy days
Haze over
Haze over

Usually I'm over it
Over
And then you never know (just like everything is everything)
Maybe you'll let it go (just like everything is everything)

Just like foggy days (just like foggy days)
Haze over 
Haze over (why)
Haze over (why)

Just leave it in the compost
Throw it away

Let it go
It's not a secret
If you let it go
Throw it in the compost
Let it

compost

14. parasite - produced by bao (https://soundcloud.com/longlivebao) and heal xo. vocals, songwriting by heal xo. mix/master by cymk (https://www.instagram.com/_cymk/)

LYRICS:
Done with your shit
Do you believe in strangers? (will you?)

Hoo ey
Every single day, clear to see
They strike you down
Open my eyes, my head across your shoulder
Hold on tight (before I fly away, before I fly away, before I fly away)

Ooh weird, 
Just last night
About half past ten
You were shining so brightly
I find it unlikely
That you had some ill-intent
Oh well

Oh paint a tableau
Phantom Caravaggio
Soot fills my thorax
Not a saint just human
Blood in my throat or 
Is that just the hangover?
I don't know, though 
I hope you choke

Taking blood from the parasitic beast
It's what you are
Consider my, my head across your shoulder
Will it grant my humanity?
My humanity, my humanity… (ah ah)

parasite

13. (feeling) like hell - produced by milye (https://soundcloud.com/maxmilye). vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
I am so sensitive 
When it comes to you around me
Shiver up my spine
I can't tell you
And I can't look away when you look at me
Oh no, and when I fall down
Nothing but sky below

Feeling 
Like hell
Burn it down
Burn it down
Feeling like
I've been better
Running through, ah
​​Running through, ah ah

(feeling) like hell

12. losing u (Orpheus ± Eurydice) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
(Get me outta here, please)
Oo oo huh, oh

I don’t want 
To win if it means, yeah (get me outta here, please)
I don’t want (don’t want)
To win if it means losing you (here, please help)
I don’t want (get me outta here, please)
To win if it means losing you (ah)
I don’t want (want, don’t want)
To win if it means, if it means losing you  (to win) (get me outta here, please)

Moving ahead
Rows of hemlock round your death bed
I tried to save (get me outta)
I tried to save (here, please)
I tried to save you

I don’t know how I could look at you
When looking at you means you’re dead on your feet
I can’t stop thinking I know your fate, no
Grieving yet, 
Just look my way and join me in sweet morning’s light

I don’t want 
To win if it means, yeah (hoo)
I don’t want (I don’t want, I don’t want, I don’t)
To win if it means losing you (help)
I don’t want, I don’t want, I, I don’t want
I don’t want anymore
Pain
Pain (want, don’t want)
I don’t wanna (to win)
Wanna lose you

losing u (Orpheus ± Eurydice)

11. leave - production by ProducerChive (https://soundcloud.com/fnmb) and heal xo. vocals, mix/master by heal xo.

LYRICS:
Ah
Ah ah

Ah
Ah ah aha

Mm (ah)
Oo oo oo

Just wanna run away to better days 
I can't stay here no more
i can’t stay here

I don't wanna know why
I just wanna know how
How you've been staying on my mind when I already kicked you out
You won't even let me get high
You need my attention now
You know that I fucking hate you being negative in my mental space and
And if you’ll just be dead-weight, you can count me out
You're not even effective at pressure 
I don't trust you anyhow
I don't know why you moved me from center 
But i'm done with you now

Just wanna run away to better days 
I can't stay here no more
I can’t stay here 
Just wanna run away to better days 
I can't stay here no more (yeah)
I can’t stay here (yeah)
Just wanna run away to better days 
I can't stay here no more (oo)
I can’t stay here (oo)
I just wanna run away to better days 
I can't stay here no more
I can’t
Ah

leave

10. nuit (poissons lune) - vocals, songwriting, production by heal xo. mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

LYRICS:
Eee
Eee
Eee
Eee

La nuit me semble (yeah yeah yeah)
Si familière (yeah yeah yeah)
Mais la nuit aussi
Est si lointaine

Je nage au lac la nuit
Pour être proche des étoiles
Les sentir

Je nage au lac
Mais pas la rivière 
Qui repousse tant de gens à terre
Et qui ne me dévoile pas ses profondeurs

Mais le lac me les dévoile non plus
À la surface les étoiles scintillent
Doucement à côté de l’haleine de poisson

Bulles d’haleine (bulles d’haleine)
Bulles d’étoiles (bulles d’étoiles)
Bulles d’alimentation

Existe-t’il une sérénité pure
Dans la vie où l’entropie règne? (Dans la vie où l’entropie l’entropie règne?

La lune brille fortement pour nous
Nous habitants de la surface
Et les habitants sous la surface
Je suis enveloppé par son amour
Loin
Mais familier
Encore

nuit (poissons lune)

9. venus - sample from Keeth (https://soundcloud.com/kphazer). Production, vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
I've been on the run
Till you digested me whole, 
I'm venus
Stuck in your fly trap

Yeah

Why (why)
Your web comes undone
As if that redeems you any more (ay ay ay)
As if that redeems you any more (ay ay ay)
I can't stand you
An eye for eye (for an eye)
An eye for eye
Repent to the night

Ba duh da bah duh ee

I felt it in my eyes
I felt it in my eyes
I wish it wasn't true
I wish it wasn't true
I felt it in my eyes
I felt it in my eyes
I wish it wasn't true
I wish it wasn't true
I felt it in my eyes
I felt it in my eyes
I wish it wasn't true
I wish it wasn't true

Ba duh da bah duh ee
Ay eh eh ay
Ay eh eh ay
Ooh

8. few things - sample from Datsunn (https://soundcloud.com/datsunn). drums from Orenji Soul (https://soundcloud.com/user-480504814-168303948). mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru). production, vocals, songwriting by heal xo

LYRICS:
Dropped by a few things

Love
Under 
Under 
The 
Sun

Now if we’re gon’ do it
Gotta get into it
Dropped by a few things 
I’m trying not to lose it

few things

7. fallinlove - produced by flywilliums (https://soundcloud.com/martimcfliwilliums). mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru). songwriting, vocals by heal xo. 
Contains an interpolation of “Fall In Love” by Slum Village

LYRICS:
Fall in love
With another
Left in time
But now
I got someone

My love
Keeps holding on
My love 
Heats up the dawn

It isn’t what I want
But now 
I got someone

After this time I thought
I thought that I’d 
Felt enough

In this life 
I can’t win myself around someone else
I can’t win
Lost myself
If I can’t win
I lost myself

Even when 
I found someone else

They say
Don’t fall in love
They say
(And I thought that time would keep me well) And I can’t keep me well
(They say) 
(And I thought that time would show me love) And I can’t show me love
I can’t

And after this time I thought (and I can’t feel enough)
(Don’t sell yourself to fall in love)
I thought that I’d felt enough (ahh)
In this life I can’t win myself around someone else (the things you do to fall in love)
Even when I found someone else

fallinlove

6. fear (shelter it) - produced by stevedoesmusic (https://soundcloud.com/stevedoesmusic). vocals, songwriting by heal xo. mix/master by NoGuru (https://soundcloud.com/no-guru)

LYRICS:
Ah 
Oo
Ay
When i fight my demons in the night time
Like a tree branch floating…

Fear 
On the entryway into my my mind
I-i-i-i can’t welcome it at all
Fear 
In the entryway into my mind
Usher it in
Shelter it
Uh

I give it time
To fester and mold
I-i-i
Don’t think that’s helping
I need me time
To build a healthy relationship with myself
I-ah-ah

Fear
In the entryway into my mind
I can’t welcome it at all
I need time 
To heal and grow
Usher it in
Shelter it

fear (shelter it)

5. daydreaming (strings) - produced by ap (https://soundcloud.com/apmelodies). vocals, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
Ah (ah)
Ah (ah)

daydreaming (strings)

4. limited (forgive me) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

I’m limited sometimes
When I’m standing on sunshine

I’m limited sometimes
Like I’m just a mere butter knife-i-i-i (limited sometimes)
Limited sometimes (limited sometimes)
With the weaponry of heaventide
Limited sometimes (limited)

I’m limited sometimes
Forgive me for wanting to die-uh-i-uh-i (ah-ee)
(Limited sometimes) limited sometimes 
(I’m limited sometimes)
I’m limited sometimes
(I’m limited sometimes)
I’m limited

#AokiChallenge

limited (forgive me)

3. overgrown (don't hold me down) - vocals, production, songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
Don’t hold me down
I can’t take it
I feel so nauseous
I’m overgrown

Don’t hold me down
I can’t take it
I feel so nauseous
I’m overgrown

Forsake me now
Don’t hold me down
Let my leaves be but a whisper in the wind

Don’t hold me down
I can’t take it
I feel so nauseous
But I’m alright

overgrown (don't hold me down)

2. i hate mondays (no, u just hate capitalism and the never-ending, skull-crushing, mind-numbing weight of a govt that wants us dead AND acts like it at every available opportunity, as well as an ongoing pandemic that next to no one is protecting each other from so we are coerced into constant reinfections with a virus that increases the risk of heart attack, stroke, and death following an infection of any severity [cite your sources bestie], AS WELL AS the colonialistic, genocidal nonsense the global north enacts upon the global south every waking hour of every day and you're just now finally realizing the cognitive dissonance of it all) - produced by Kyle Young (https://soundcloud.com/kyleyoungmusic) and heal xo. songwriting, mix/master by heal xo

LYRICS:
Hey yeah
Hey yeah
Hey yeah
Eeeeeeyeah

Put community care up-front, pettiness aside (dance if you wanna overthrow the government)
Acknowledge in this colony trauma’s a fact of life (dance if you wanna overthrow the government)
Yet we still must be each responsible (dance if you wanna overthrow)
To keep each other safe (the government)
until the motherfucking highest tide (yeahhh)
Free Congo, Sudan, Palestine until forever!
And wear your mask!
So we can make it together
And though our time on Earth must be brief, the
People are bound to get free, yeah!

We get told to (surveil)
Open yourself up 
We get told to (bleed)
Open your time up 
I wonder why some corporate entities
Rather us bleed
Than lose a single piece of green
Open yourself up to new experiences (and I don’t mean viruses)
Learn more to grow and bloom 
There’s no quick fix

Ey yeah

yeah , I’ve been wearing my respirator everywhere
Disabled people have a right
To exist in public
Don’t you think?

Um, free free Palestine
From the River to the Sea
And then, the US government?
Can suck my di-

i hate mondays (no, u just hate capitalism and the never-ending, [...])

1. let go (nightingale) - production, vocals, mix/master: heal xo. drums from Orenji Soul (https://soundcloud.com/user-480504814-168303948). 
Includes an interpolation of Bruno Coulais' song "In Memoriam" from the movie "Les Choristes"

LYRICS:
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go

Let go (mm)
Let go (mm)
Let go (mm)
Let go (mm)
Let go (let me fly baby)
Let go (let me fly, let me fly)
Let go (let me fly baby)
Let go (let me fly, let me fly)
Let go (let me fly baby)
Let go (let me fly, let me fly)

Nightingale
Believe
Believe
Believe

Ay
Believe
Believe
Eee

Ay ee yeah 
Le ee
Ngah
Ah
Uh-la
Uh-la
Ah
Eh ee

Non possum in solitudine
Non possum in solitudine
Non possum in solitudine
Non possum in solitudine
Kyrie (Non possum in solitudine, non possum in solitudine)
Ky- (Non possum in solitudine)
Eleison (Non possum in solitudine)
Kyrie (Non possum in solitudine, non possum in solitudine)
Ky- (Non possum in solitudine)
Eleison (Non possum in solitudine)
Eleison 
Hey hey
Kyrie (Non possum in solitudine, non possum in solitudine) [hey yeah]
Ky- (Non possum in solitudine) 
Eleison (Non possum in solitudine) [hey wah]

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