Song For The Winter

i need to stop keeping things to myself
super rough
beat from 2014

get on down with the dreams 
down with the beams
with the streams
with the screams
down with the stream that comes by to lift you up
with the birds and the bees
chirping and buzzing 
and guzzling dna
who's to say that what's here today will or won't be tomorrow?
all of us
all of us follow the coffin trip
i fell and wallowed 
got caught in drift
i felt so hollow when coffee dripped
fellow Apollo had killed the will
messenger followed Achilles' heel
hell of a horror show
slippery eel
shocked into stalling
no grip on wheel
car of tomorrow
no lift appeal
sought just to borrow the shit that heals
memories of swelling were yesterday
thoughts that eroded the painter's easel 
water for telling a better day
drink it away 
bring on in the people
riding on rays and the words are equal
give me the light
rather let me make it
what i created
now let me keep it
though i know some day it goes away
slow when i know that i just won't say it
speeding up when i spend my day dreaming
what could be better for death than reason?
heating up when my home shakes in the coldest season
growing old when i'm a stone and i freeze up the beat
harness the heart attack
filthy eater
feeling much younger when i go dancing
heart gets to racing with high notes glancing at me
passion in all that i see
action attracting the sea
moving away with the moon
knew it was coming in soon
animating the crackling sound of the water 
when ripping right open a minor typhoon
knew it was grand on a scale with the rest
darker and darker but still i reflect
who has got me by the neck? 
say it's nobody but me
still i research the deep end
there's too much here to protect
i don't think this is a test
this is just how i invest
breath for a breath 
marigold soul in my step

and it all falls away

decay

She Knows

I move too strangely
Might just slither a little
Much too close or out of range
I'll likely spit up a riddle 
Much like venom 
Get ahead of myself
End up up in the middle
Up in my head
Catch the cat with the fiddle
Playing songs at my funeral
Back to back after you and yours leave a hand or a shoe of course
Oh this land of renewed remorse
Moving slowly through cupid's course
You got me fucked up
Chords are flying- upchucked 
Or stuck and then struck down
I don't give a flying fladoodle 
About lying and doodling on my face 
Like the newest clown in your crew
Who they crowning? It's you
You love the sound of it too
But I'll leave it
I've been watching the stars and the planets gleaming
I think that they're reaching out for me
They're trying to teach this boy something 
I've got no leash and I'm running free
Barking at breezes that taunt me
I want you like my demons want me
And what could I lose? 
It’s nothing but a chance just to learn 
I ain't tossing hands 
I'm watching them burn 
I see you watching confused
You can’t get used to this
But trust me now we all get our turn
It's time to focus 
Cuz who exists if I ain't concerned 
Enough to make sense of it all
I swear this shit is a curse
And I hear It call when I wake 
But I just don't want to talk
Leave me the fuck alone

Until I miss you again
Until I miss you again
Lost in the mist in my head
Tossed me adrift in the red
Constantly thinking I'm dead
I know you won't understand it
I'm just a ghost

FKNGHOSTSHIT (fixed)

THISSiseverything_2016.wav

happy new year

i'm going to be posting tracks every other monday, some new some old :^)

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