Bleh..🤙

2016-11-17
Composed/lyrics by CIKI
All instruments by CIKI

Baby Crush

you.mp3 prod by vantrill

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLC2gUWQpGk

lyrics:
dark streets
lit up by the side lights
compliments of night skies
life can be serene 

I can’t believe a moment 
passes through so life like
feels like i can hold it
grasped inside my mind

it’s not the same; it’s true
you make me feel alive
there’s nothing else to prove
and girl just stay up by my side

don’t just want you for the night
i can see it in your eyes
and i know that you’ve been hurt
but nowadays you seem alright

i just wanna be with you
and when there’s nothing else to do
i know that it is cold outside
i just want you for my life

i just wanna be with you
and when there’s nothing else to do
i know that it is cold outside
i just want you for my life

I Hate Jazz

Like a Star

Fifteen Minutes

2017-06-06
Composed/lyrics by CIKI

1
내가 너를 알게 되고
몇 번의 시시콜콜한 얘길 하고

조각나버린 병실처럼
멍하니 너를 기다리고 있어

2
그렇게도 저주하고
슬플 걸 알면서도

네가 날 구하러 와주길

다정한 목소리로 참 잘했다고
행복하게 잘 지내라며

3
우울하고 허전하고
여전히 네가 나를 잡을 것 같고

어젯밤도 지금 이 순간도
나만이 잠들지 못하는 것 같애

4
그렇게도 목을 매고
죽을 걸 알면서도

너는 날 버리지 않았지

다정한 목소리로 좋아한다고
행복하게 잘 지내자며

5
니가 내게 울먹이며 말을 해
미안해, 널 볼 수가 없다는 말에

이제 네가 보여서 널
안아야 하는데

왜 대신 들어오는 건
시퍼런 가위 뿐인가요

6
이제 네가 나의 눈을 가리네
태연해, 근데 자꾸 움츠러들 때

어떻게 널 원망해
지금도 우린 이어져 있고

그건 네 잘못이 아니잖아

7
이제야 필요없다 말하기엔 너무 늦었어
이미 새빨갛게 물든 나의 손목을 봐

언제부터 네 안에서 난 자꾸
견딜 수 없게 돼

8
이제껏 너는 나 뿐이라고 속삭였던 것도
내게 이름을 지어주곤 미소짓던 것도

다 안녕, 이 모든 게 다
잠깐 왔다 갈 사이였다고? 우리.

사이

(available on spotify)
movin on we'll never feel the same
nothing seems to cover up the pain
baby i’ve been trying but you can’t hear what i say

[spotify]

over u

Bonus track off of https://soundcloud.com/crystalcloudsjp 's EP
Bandcamp link: https://crystalclouds.bandcamp.com/album/things-to-remember
Featuring, elle :) https://soundcloud.com/elleandthegravediggers

LYRICS:
I got a little thing I wanna get off my chest
I’ve been thinking bout’ the possibilities to keep me fresh
And the wholesome little feelings I’ve been keeping so suppressed
Makes me wanna scream it out, I just wanna know what’s best
For me, and my beloved, that i haven’t even met
There’s a lot of things I wanna say, that’s hiding in my head
First of all I want a cliche, coffee, cocoa butter spread
And some tiny conversations that will make you think in bed
Make me take you out for lunch and other get togethers too
I just wanna be the gentleman who takes you back on curfew 
And you’ll be like a queen with scents of cocoa butter shampoo 
And your dad won’t have to worry bout’ your heart shaped colored tattoo
And listen, we can go to any place you want
My treat, we can even go to France, into a restaurant
Where we could eat croissants all day outside the storefront
Then sleep while watching movies, where our living room’s the rosemont
____________

Everyday I’m wasting time

Hoping that our stars align

When you’re lost, call anytime

You’re all that’s what’s on my mind 
____________

We can chill out in the basement of your fancy house
Where DDR and Scrabble are the only things we care about 
And we can solve a puzzle that displays the sun and moon too
Unless we lose a piece, then we can order one that’s brand new
While waiting for delivery, we got the mental caucus
Of checking out what’s going on inside the oval office
But instead we’ll just ignore it with the money that we profit
From monopoly, until we both go bankrupt from and we stop it 
Then if we both get hungry, well then theres no need to worry
I'll just the cook you up a dinner, we can eat it in a hurry 
Make it just the way you like it
Sweet and sour, hold the spices
Even if you say its bad, I'll still be happy that you tried it
And when the sun goes down, we'll travel up the tiny mountain
And no it's not to make out, it's the stars that we'll be countin'
Where we talk about our future, whether we'll be both accounting
For whatever comes our way and in the depths of our surroundings
____________

Everyday I’m wasting time

Hoping that our stars align

When you’re lost, call anytime

You’re all that’s what’s on my mind 
____________

on my mind feat. guia elle (prod. dustbunnybedroom)

2017-12-01 (Remastered  2017-12-14)
Composed/lyrics by CIKI
Guitar by 형우, CIKI
Bass by @vinternoon

1
i wish love you
아무도 모르지
어떻게든 너와 만나서 예쁜

거짓말은 이제 아닐 거야
부디 내게 있어줄래 이대로

2
있잖아, 이게 다 꿈이었음 해
내일 아침에도 일어나

둘이 마시던 차와
나긋한 목소리가 울려, 괜찮다고

Ocean, 우리 마지막으로 본 영화
Pink Paint 들고 있던 Betty
보다 네가 더 죽일 듯 아름다워 그니까

3
이제는 날 지겹다고 말해
아무래도 괜찮다고 말해

언제부터 그랬냐고 물을 때
네 표정엔 쓴웃음만이 가득해

내 슬픔을 견딜 수가 없어요
외로워서 죽을 것만 같아요

어쩌다 다른 사랑을 해도 널
영원히 잊을 수가 없어요

4
날 죽일 것만 같은 네게 병이 돼
주변에선 외면하고 다른 얘길 해

i know, 이제는 없지
어딜 가도 목소리만 들려와, 맞지?

이젠 네가 날 데리러 와줘
아무 말도 없이 날 세게 안아줘

지금은 오직 널 만나고 싶어
태어나길 잘했다고 말할 수 있게

5
i was thinking you are
if i could live without you
너 없이 내가 뭘 해, 아무것도 못해
이제 나도 견딜 수 없어

그때는 네가 기다리는 거야
너와 내가 만날 수 있도록
always stay, always stay
did you die for me?

6
it's killing me i loved you
don't love everything


*ciki comment
태어나서 쓴 곡 중 가장 힘들었고 오래 걸린 것 같습니다

Syndrome

(available on spotify)
tell her i don't know her 
say that i don't know her 
every time she come around, someone else adore her 
come and say 
baby say something, baby say something 

tell her that i want her 
i can't say that i want her 
i don't mean to run around hide and just ignore her 
but i can't 
i won't say nothing, i won't say nothing

shout out to dream easy, you are all such talented people
thank you Rook1e for the opportunity to work with you xo hope we can do more in the future

say something (prod. Rook1e)

I been searching for love
Got a messy heart that seems to want a lot
And you're not the one
But you got me intertwined
When you're not around

Could this be love
I doubt it but ill take my chance with you
And you know you've thought about it
And if it happens to be true

Then I'll go along with you
If you promise to be true
Then I'll write this song for you
For you

 I think I found love
And it's not what you'd expect love to be like
But I could be wrong
Cause this has me down on my hands and knees
For you

Could this be love
I doubt it but ill take my chance with you
And you know you've thought about it
And if it happens to be true

Then I'll go along with you
If you promise to be true
Then I write this song for you
For you

it's finally here...

aoyoru:
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https://www.instagram.com/aoyorumusic/
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https://open.spotify.com/artist/7cAWrsBFr4MijHHrCiSJkS
https://aoyoru.bandcamp.com/releases
https://www.songkick.com/artists/9571474-aoyoru

lunaris:
https://soundcloud.com/lunarismusic
https://twitter.com/lun4r1s?lang=en
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1vxNBRMBZLrMNUG0q0TpeV
https://www.instagram.com/lunaris.music/

Listen to this on Spotify, Apple Music, etc. 
https://fanlink.to/SR6

lunaris x Aoyoru - imperfect

I'd like to thank Julia, Ben, Frad, and Clarissa for making this song possible. Dead Flowers is a continuation of one of my older songs called Never Bloom,  where the protagonist sees their relationship as a flower that grew into something that they regret. Hope you enjoy and much love. 🌹

Spotify Link: https://open.spotify.com/album/6dHNskOBPldkKzIKK1PxCq

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/fradical
Rapper: https://soundcloud.com/love-sadkid
Singer: https://soundcloud.com/leorinda
Cover Art: https://www.instagram.com/clarsart/
Mixed by me & lyrics by love-sadKiD and I 

leorinda:
Dead flowers they tower over me
Rose red castles, your green vine shackles
Make me bleed 
Bled red for what we couldn't be 
Can't handle your thorns
Your scorns, our storms
I mourn with my torn heart on the floor now 

il Westo: 
You knew I couldn't stand it
But you kept pressing my buttons 
Like an xbox controller, boxed me in, I'm stuck in rut
Outta luck, I'm unconscious what  
What ever happened to us
One minute we're blooming 
The next one we fuming we were doomed when we bloomed 
So soon, wishing we took our time
I tried, I know you did too, but it wasn't meant to be 
So I'll restart and continue but it's game over
Dead flowers, some lame closure
I need the same shoulder when I'm not sober 
I loved her, but did she love me? 
Or was it all a game to her when she made my heart bleed? 
It never was to me because love's like roses 
The thorns hurt, but I never noticed
Then the sun hit your poses
True colors clear, thorn vines up my spine
Gripped tight by your lies and now we're here 

leorinda: 
Dead flowers they tower over me
Rose red castles, your green vine shackles
Make me bleed 
Bled red for what we couldn't be 
Can't handle your thorns
Your scorns, our storms
I mourn with my torn heart on the floor now 

love-sadkid:
They say we weren't meant to be, I pushed it
Often times I wonder if I really shouldn't've
The door that hit me on the way out had a foot in it
I never should've took that as a sign to get abused again
But, never say it wasn't real
the love I promised to you love was something that only you could ever feel
Wish that you felt the same and could give me the same deal
But now we're here and I only regret not leaving sooner
The sweet lullabies, lies and lovers hidden
The oft forgotten promise we would try to do it different
The painstaking reminiscing for months after the ending
And then the friction in our hearts wondering where did the pretending start
But here we are, the petals dropped, follow us today
No more pollen in our buds as they were swallowed in dismay
And though the seeds we forced to mature, 
Surely did their job, we didn't
And now we're forced to face our roots in the dark, I miss ya

leorinda:
Dead flowers they tower over me
Rose red castles, your green vine shackles
Make me bleed 
Bled red for what we couldn't be 
Can't handle your thorns
Your scorns, our storms
I mourn with my torn heart on the floor now 

Heart on the floor now 
Dead flowers they tower over me, over me now
for what we couldn't be, couldn't be, couldn't be over me 
Dead flowers they tower over me, over me now
For what we couldn't be, couldn't be, couldn't be over me 
Dead flowers they tower over me

Spotify

Dead Flowers Ft. love-sadKiD & leorinda 💀🌹(Prod. frad)

Friends- (Prod. RaeSam)

LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/09JDriPdZKerJ7pmOhwbbj?si=VCNYD-B4RT-ykxUQE09vTA

APPLE MUSIC: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/auburn-eyes-single/1436099181?uo=4&app=apple+music

Emotional acoustic track from myself and the amazing Thomas Reid <3

More to come from us..

Download <3

Auburn Eyes (ft. Thomas Reid)

art by @headhaunter

lyrics:
sunlight streaming through the window frame
it's so cliche to say these things
lay with me beneath this summer heat
and forget i said anything

broken bearings
blood on concrete, oh
broken bearings
blood on concrete

we found bowls with coping, smoked bowls to cope
i don't really know what's happening here
my nose met the pavement two hours ago
i woke in a cold sweat, cracking a beer

now we're on the highway, high as we can be
paranoid staring up at the clouds
we left the state with nothing but family
planning to crash on somebody's couch

uwu
uwu
uwu

sunlight streaming through the window frame
it's so cliche to say these things
lay with me beneath this summer heat
and forget i said anything

broken bearings
blood on concrete, oh
broken bearings
blood on concrete

download <3

BROKEN BEARINGS

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/34fTsMf5BlZP6bBlRJjdTM?si=otwkAm8OTMm0Y2qy_F2EqQ
BANDCAMP: https://collidingwithmars.bandcamp.com/track/neon-tetra

dedicated to you

composed, produced by colliding with mars
mixed + mastered by colliding with mars
artwork and lyrics by colliding with mars
additional vocal engineering by @leorinda

lyrics:
Everything is 
Better in my dreams 
Because you don’t have to worry 
About all the hardships that 
You encounter I wish you’d come sleep with me
The fruits of your labor have 
Always been sour but all wounds heal with time


[Chorus]
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday
She moves, a bad thing
Baby, don’t you cry like this
You don’t wanna you don’t wanna let them see you this way
I’ll see you at the bottom 
You don’t gotta waste your time on yesterday

I’m giving myself far less 
and giving my all to be more selfless 
Ostentatious bearings cast aside 
As I cried against an ocean of light 
It’s easy to love you now 
But I’ll still love you when you’re old
And broken 
And the wind’s dried you out

[Chorus]

neon tetra

Sunny Disposition || prod. by Illuid Haller

mixed/mastered by Chris Watkinson
artwork by Frank Mauceri

Feel

Prod by @skywave0501, Mixed/Mastered by me and bluwavmastering

I made a couple songs in the past two months and this is one I felt was decent enough to post, short and sweet :)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2Wfu4TgajrQiULvJMwD3Fe?si=o-KXF3SFSKqUM8CAHKB2Zg

Shoutout to Chi for this cute art:

instagram- www.instagram.com/manypiecesofchis/
twitter- twitter.com/chehthechuy

Follow me as well:

instagram - www.instagram.com/thisisstein
twitter - twitter.com/lifeofstein

Youtube Link - youtu.be/53DA0AeNruU

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I think about my life when I be feeling low
Cause I've been going crazy for this money and this gold
I know it's not true
Know I'm out of luck
Know that if I leave
You wouldn't give a fuck like

Do you even love me
Love me
Do you even trust me
Trust me
Cause I know that it's not true 
Know I'm out of luck

I see my feelings on the floor
I know that I can't get the door
You know that I will never leave
I know that you were there for me

And I don't really know too much
I don't wanna think it through
I just follow the path I have
Maybe sit down and...

Do you even love me
Love me
Do you even trust me
Trust me
Cause I know that it's not true 
Know I'm out of luck

do you love me (prod.skywave)

2019-04-10
Produced by @grabbybeats
Lyrics/Lead Guitar by CIKI

1
어떤 의미로든 간에
네가 말해줬던 거니까 이해해

아무것도 말할 수 없는 기분으로
기억나지 않는 쓸쓸한 표정으로

텅 비어버린 나의 방에서
울고 싶은 기분이 들어 그렇게

그게 말이 돼요?
there you are, nowhere to hide

2
눈을 감으면 이대로 멈춰
네가 좋아한단 말을 듣고 싶어

또 겨울이 가면 네가 둘러준
목도리도 너의 앞에 놓여질 텐데

3
머리카락을 기르며 난 자라나는 이유
알 수 없는 말에 대답해 내 살아있는 이유

거짓말에 담긴 진심
비가 내리면 생각나요 그런 게

그게 뭐라고 내게
"다가오지 않음 사랑인가요?"

알면서도 물어보는 건

4
손을 잡으면 지금 이대로
내가 필요하단 말을 듣고 싶어

또 여름이면 네가 가자던
바닷가로 떠날 수 있었을 텐데

Bleh..🤙

Hades Arellano