Vokal, tekst og melodi: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Ambient Light / Jan Roar Gjersvold https://on.soundcloud.com/Frrg45DsazmFYwGv8
Co-prod.: Mike Parda 

Birdbox 

You quietly 
Required me
To condone

That gradually  
I’d have to be 
Someone doing what she’s told 

Suddenly 
I found myself alone
At the scene 
Of someone else’s show 

And it seems 
I was the last 
To know 

Wait 
When did I self-annihilate
Lose myself for others’ sake 
Where did I go 

Wait 
What is real if I am fake
Who’s this dream if I’m awake 
Where did I go 

Did I regress towards the mean 
Did I adjust to your mislead  

These empty streets
Are filled with
Modest hope
That this hide and seek
Will finally  
Lead me home 

The melody 
Relates to every tone 
Ever made to be 
Sung out all on its own 

The stage light makes the audience dark 
You’re lost from my view 
But the exits are marked 
Who knows where I will go

Won’t let your vision of me 
Harm the condition I’m in 
Your definition of me 
Won’t curb ambitions I seek 

I wouldn’t go there 

Will not confess to get clean 
Repress what I find obscene
Impress by looking serene 
Object but not ever plead 

I wouldn’t go there 

I’m not a problem to solve 
Don’t need you to get involved 
What used to cage me before 
Is now my birdbox décor

You will find me there 

I have a bird box in my hand 
Try to catch me if you can

Birdbox [Ambient Light x Heidi Wittrup Djup]

Tekst og melodi: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Komposisjon og produksjon: Åge Hustvedt/SilentEcho https://on.soundcloud.com/NaSjnEsAaCD9R4Vd8 

Tom stol 

Trodde du eg visste 
Alt det du forstod 
Du håpte til det siste 
At det sku’ bli borte
Men det gjør vondt no 

For dagene vi tapte 
Og alt som du forlot 
Tok over ledig plass hos meg 
Så ble alt tomt da du dro

Trodde du eg visste 
At alle kunne se  
Det eg hadde opplevd 
Ord var overflødige 

Men dagene vi tapte 
Og alt som du forlot 
Var bare mitt å miste 
Eg hadde stillhet
Uten ro

Det var vinter da 
Og det e vinter no 
Eg var liten da 
Men enda mindre no 

Hørbart i ditt ekko 
Og synlig i mitt sinn 
Alt vi en gang hadde 
E minner nedover mitt kinn 

No står eg her i rommet 
På fremmedes kontor 
Og alt eg har igjen å gi
Er ord til en tom stol 

Prøver å ta tak i
Den evige fortid
En stol for meg å sitte i 
Så eg kan høre deg si 
Med stemmen min

At det var ikkje min feil 
Noe eg kunne ha gjort 
Eg var altfor liten
Ansvaret for stort 

Og der eg e i livet
Må vel det være nok 
Til at hun som e helt innerst
Får lov å vokse opp 

Det var vinter da 
Og det er vinter no
Men kanskje e det sant 
At våren vil la meg gro

Det var vinter da 
Og det e vinter no

Det var vinter da 
Og det e vinter no
Men selv om snøen smelter 
Vil det fortsatt finnes spor

Foto/artwork: Fana fotostudio / Natasha Busel

Tom stol [Heidi Wittrup Djup x SilentEcho]

Melodi og tekst: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod: Åge Hustvedt / SilentEcho

Lullaby of War

Sleep, child 
Please lie down and close your eyes 
and try to find a safe place in your mind 
Watch out, 
but hide your eyes from what’s outside cause there is no defence for that sight  

Sleep, child 
And don’t be scared if you wake up 
and cannot find me here 
I’m still there 
In your mind 
But taken from the earth 
cause there was no place for us 
on these holy grounds 

Rest
you’ll need all the sleep you can get 
And trust none
cause we haven’t got you covered yet 

Stop running around 
there’s no way to get out of this cage 
Stop screaming at them 
They won’t help anyway 
it’s too late 
We’re born into fear 
And shaped by a frame 
made of flames 
Scorched as we are 
They still say
They won’t help 
Cause we did this to ourselves 

No wonder you’ve been sleep walking again 

Let’s try to levitate away 

Sleep, child 
I know you want to leave with me 
but they accept no exit from our streets 
Breathe out
but hide your face when you inhale 
cause even air is not safe here

Sleep, child 
No need to wake up just to see 
that there is no more childhood here 
It’s been condemned by fear 
By all the lives lost here
By lack of rights,
lack of trust,
lack of hope 
that there can be a future here 

Rest
you’ll need all the sleep you can get 
And trust none
cause we haven’t got you covered yet 
 
Stop running around
there’s no way to get out of this cage 
Stop screaming at them 
they won’t help anyway 
It’s too late 
Remember charred feet 
won’t recognize how water feels
Burned by the fires that leave 
your childhood buried underneath 
all your broken dreams 

They say we did this to ourselves
To justify that they won’t help

So try to levitate away 

Maybe that can keep you 
From sleep walking again

Lullaby Of War [Heidi Wittrup Djup x SilentEcho]

Tekst og melodi: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Ole Martin Rongved 

Si noe no

Nok en gang ble det stille 
Vi tåler ikkje mer
Men alt finnes fortsatt der inne 
Selv om vi fortier det 

Og alle som e rundt oss 
E helt uvitende 
For vår kamp e usynlig 
Vi lykkes med å skjule det 

Blikkene slår ned 
Og tiden gir opp
Tårer fyller hendene 
Ingen ser at alt e vått 

Selv når vi e sammen
E avstanden stor 
Vi søker mot rammen 
Håper bilder kan si mer enn ord

Så si noe no
Si noe no

Stillhet gir næring 
Til skyld og skam og tvil 
Og når ingen rundt får vite 
Så vil jo de gå rett forbi 

Eg lukker mine øyne
Og drømmer om et annet liv 

Der noen kan forklare 
Uten at eg må be om det 
Som skjønner at i fraværet
Av støtte tar eg ansvaret

Og bærer alles spørsmål 
På skuldre uten svar 
Og slukes av en stillhet 
Som lik sorte hull 
Tar fra meg alt eg har 

Så si noe no
Si noe no 

Ta meg med ut til stjernene 
Fortell meg at du vet 
Og vis at håpet ble værende 
Selv om vi glemte det i skyggene

Si noe

Music&Lyrics: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music/arr./prod.: Ole Martin Rongved / After Perfect 

Fortune Favours the Bold

My fate is nobody’s business 
I’m here to gather the gold
I’m blowing courage like kisses
Fortune favours the bold

I dont need permission
To take this under control 
My power tastes delicious 
And will melt you down like fire melts the snow  

Love is pure coincidence
But if you have it
I’m gonna get it

There is no need for sophistication
Let the beat get the best of you 
I don’t need no conversations 
Just step back as I enter the room 

I’m here for the gold 
Fortune favours the bold

Oblivious, yet suspicious 
There’s nothing you oughta know 
Other than I’m ambituous 
And going on pleasure parole 

I’m not superstituous 
This phenomenon will uphold
I trust my intuition 
Fortune favoures the bold 

I’m here for the gold 
Fortune favours the bold

I’ll savour this moment  
But you will watch it pass by 
If doubt ain’t forced to silence 
Nothing good will come about

I am never speechless
My body talks on its own 
I don’t mean to sound reckless 
But my will is about to unfold 

I’m here for the gold 

Love is pure coincidence
But if you have it
I’m gonna get it

Love needs help to navigate 
Lean in towards me
Then I will take it 

Love won’t gain its confidence
If no one notices 
How much its wanted 

I’m here for the gold 
Fortune favours the bold

Fortune Favours the Bold (feat. After Perfect)

Vokal, tekst og melodi: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Mike Parda / MP Studio

How can we just look at this 
Do we degrade them 
Think of their lives as if
They’re less important 
Then, left in the water 
We can watch them sink 

Have we taught ourselves to think
That we’re divided 
In fairness where the line is
They’re on the outside
And left in the blindside
We don’t let them in 

Our downfall 
Has begun 
We’ll touch nadir 
There’s no way out of here 
Ignorance is bliss
When facing injustice 

How are we able to sleep 
When children are caged and 
Must be detained or leave 
Say this is our border
And we need our order 
To enjoy The American Dream 

Are we blinded, are we numb 
Are we dead to what we’ve done  
Generations build their lives 
On the graves of their loved ones 
Is it blood or is it tears 
Running down their dusty cheeks 
Or might it be our decency 
And what’s left of humanity 

Our downfall 
Has begun
We’ll touch nadir 
There’s no way out of here 
Ignorance is bliss
When facing injustice

Our downfall 
Has begun 
We’ll touch nadir 
There’s no way out of here 
Ignorance is bliss
When facing injustice

It’s such a privilege to say 
We were unaware
And walk away 
See the blood on every street
Then wash our feet and let it be 

We’ll touch nadir

Nadir

Melodi: Ole Martin Rongved og Heidi Wittrup Djup
Tekst: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr. / prod.: Ole Martin Rongved 

Some people speak of days to come 
Of days of joy that now are gone
All moments pass 
Without them realizing what they had

They give their ear for cues to chase 
Echos their future might make
But see time
Is silent just like pantomime

Don't be obsessed with what is ahead 
And don’t be upset by bygone details 
You will drown
While the river of your life runs by 

Don’t be prepared to take control 
Or save your todays 
To spend all tomorrow 
Figure out 
How certainty relates to doubt 

Cause all we know 
Is now 

Some people wait, endless countdowns
They run around from town to town 
Chasing rainbows
Instead of pinning their flag down 

Life passing by, while plans are laid out
Thus here and now is never found
Cause rainbows won’t hide
More than what meets the eye 

Dreams might come true
But when they are done what will you do
Dreams make you run
But when you touch them
Will you let yourself slow down 

Prepare to let yourself lose control 
And spend your today 
Like there’s no tomorrow 
You will find 
Certainty erases doubt 

Cause all we know 
Is now

All We Know

Pressure Makes Diamonds 

Tekst, vokal, melodi: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Ole Martin Rongved / After Perfect 

A penny for your thoughts
I wonder why you stand there 
Alone by the door
I know life gave more 
Than you should absorb
And that you foretell 
You can’t take anymore

But what was before 
Is not what you’re made of
And those who hurt you 
Don’t represent all 
See what’s ahead can go 
Far and beyond 
If you trust that darkness 
Will give dawn

Come away with me 
I’ll show you what I see
We’re dancing in a crowded street 
Offbeat and bare feet
We barely notice it  
What once made you inclined to hide
Has turned into your armor of shine
See, pressure makes diamonds 

I know once bitten twice shy
Seemed to be the story of your life 
And that you relied on your defence 
Promised no one ever 
Would get close again 

But once you’re used to be loved like this 
You’ll rise as a phoenix from the ashes
And you will learn 
How to blow in the wind 
No longer take shelter 
By isolating 

Don't live life as an island
Release yourself from confinement
We will show you reliance
By shining rays of enlightenment

So come away with me
I’ll show you what I see 
We’re dancing in a crowded street 
Offbeat and bare feet
We barely notice it 
What once made you inclined to hide
Has turned into your armor of shine
See, pressure makes diamonds

Soon we will watch you glow 
Dancing on your own 
You’ll internalize the love 
You’ve been shown
And then you will know 
Just how far you can go
You’ll realize your paths expose 
All your pasts and tomorrows
Cause layers of both light and shadows 

With pressure makes diamonds

Pressure Makes Diamonds

Tekst, melodi, vokal: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Komponist og produsent: Ole Martin Rongved

Reality is an illusion for the wise
Thus, hope is not defeated 
By the mind
The poetry of fiction 
Reasoning our lives
Gives content to 
The poverty of time

Cause what I need to go on
Is the rendezvous of lovers
To be real in my mind
Though it’s becoming clear
If I am to continue
I’ll have to love you
Without you

From shore to shore 
I search the waters we explored
To get how even 
Broken waves can mend
Cause there has got to be 
A way to let you go
And still be able to hold on 
To more than this pain 

So, I rather just pretend
The Rendezvous of lovers 
Will happen once again
And I know
If I ever love somebody else
I’ll still love you
In Silence
I’ll love you
Without you
In my head

As the world is redefined
The rendezvous of lovers 
Will be real beyond our time
Though I won’t find you here
I’ll still be able to
Love you
Without you

As the world is redefined
The rendezvous of lovers 
Will be real beyond our time
Though I won’t find you here
I’ll still be able to
Love you
Without you

In my head
The Rendezvous of lovers 
In my head

Rendezvous of Lovers

Lyrics, music and vocals: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music and production: Leon Frick / Loki Studios

I lean against the wall
Someone’s at the door 
I think they’ve tried to call 
Something must be wrong 

I’ve worried for so long 
For her unavoidable fall
But shared her hope that she could build 
A life in Montreal 

Enter if you may 
And cut to what you have to say
I know she’s not okay 
And what it takes to end her pain 

Once she had a life
With hope 
She even raised a child
How did she come to such decline 
Somewhere in Montreal

Please go
I don’t wanna know 
There’s CCTV footage of her online 
Please don’t make me read 
The comments below 
I don’t wanna know 
About vomit in her hair
About the voices she must hear 
To make her act so weird 
They don’t know her at all 
They only see that she’s
Homeless on the streets 
Of Montreal 

Thank you, you can leave 
Your message’s been received
She’s out of time, and out of dreams 
After years of fighting off her memories

They said she’s weak
A disgrace for their society 
Stated she’s delusional  
But failed to see she’s beautiful

Could I have done more
Decide on her behalf or even by force
That she should not abandon all 
And become news from Montreal 

No, she should not have abandoned us all 
And end as news from Montreal 

Don’t go 
I don’t wanna know 
Don’t go 
I don’t wanna know 
Don’t go 
I don’t wanna know 

The news from Montreal

News from Montreal

Music, vocals and lyrics: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music/production: Thomas TomTomStudio Haugland 

Ambivalency

All my conversations 
Are just parallel monolouges 
Though my body answers
Mentally, I’m gone 

I know my emotional absence 
Is difficult to detect
But if you look inside of me you’ll find things I’ve tried to forget

I meant to warn you that I carry heavily 
That you’d be better off elsewhere
You shouldn’t waste your love on me 

But I couldn’t get myself to let 
What we had just pass 
I was kinda hoping that 
The two of us could last 

There are no words 
But a lot I have to say
There are no words 
To explain why I tend to walk away 
Why I fight you off when I wanna dance
Why you never really get the chance 
To comfort me 
When its all I need
I want you to stay and I want you to leave 
This is me 
With all my ambivalency 

Relational betrayal over time
Made me adapt 
Though I’m here in the present
My traumas reenact 

Don’t mistake my involvement 
This is how I’ve learned to act
But you have shown again and again 
You can give me all I lack 

My safest moments were created in solitude
Thought I didn’t need anybody
But then there was you

Suddenly I found myself 
With a requirement for care 
Confusing as it sounds 
I want you far away and near 

There are no words 
But a lot I have to say
There are no words 
To explain why I tend to walk away 
Why I fight you off when I wanna dance
Why you never really get the chance 
To comfort me 
When it’s all I need 
I want you to stay and I want you to leave 

Please hold me, please go away
Please follow me, please don’t move - stay 
Please turn to me, get out and leave 
Please do something, please let it be
Please laugh, please cry 
Please let me win, or never try
Please wait, I will be there 
Though I said I wouldn’t dear 

Please don’t leave me
Don’t waste your love on me 
Don’t leave me 
Please place your love on me 

This is me 
With all my ambivalency

Ambivalency

Vocals, lyrics and melody: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Thomas TomTom Haugland / TomTom studio 

When I was a child  I’d imagine you’d arrive  And change my life 
 
I could see your smile And all the world’s beauty  
Through your eyes 

So I held on  For that day to come  When I would know  How it feels to come home 

So I’ll stay awake  I’ll wait  To see you then  And where you go  I will follow 

All these days went by Knowing you’d be by my side When the time is right

Though I realized The love on my mind 
Is rare to find

Still I held on For that day to come When we would know How it feels to come home

So I’ll stay awake I will wait To see you then And where I go You will follow

Maybe I am needy Maybe I’m naive But I’m not one who leaves 
When there are promises to keep I might seem delusional
But that image of me Is brought on by someone 
Who’s never known 
How true love feels

And here you are with me
Here you are with me
I’m still awake We were worth the wait Here you are with me And suddenly The dream is replaced by eternity

I'll Stay Awake

Genesis of Us (Music, lyrics and vocal: Heidi Wittrup Djup. Producer: Thomas TomTom Haugland) 

I was warned against you 
By people who had seen what you could be
But I was drawn towards you 
And mesmerized by how you spoke to me

Had I known what they knew 
Or what you over time would do to me
I wouldn't have sought to change you 
But followed the advice on how to leave 

Arch my getaway
Or let me start this part again 
Arch my getaway
So I don’t end up being broken 
Arch my getaway
And let me press pause until then 
I'll try to find a way where I 
Am the one who got away  

I was warned by those who
Later I was not allowed to meet 
The plan I had to leave you
Vanished cause I had no place to flee

Piece by piece you changed me 
And made me think that I was incomplete 
That no one else would want me 
I’m unworthy of love and I am weak 

Arch my getaway
So I don't shoulder all your guilt 
Arch my getaway 
So I no longer bend, but rebuild
Arch my getaway
And let me reconcile until 
I’m capable and safe enough to be 
The one who leaves

I really did believe you  
When you said you would give me 
All I need 
And all the times you claimed 
You didn’t mean to take your 
Anger out on me
The remorse you showed seemed true
So I accepted your apology 
I said "sorry, I’ll be good to you"
Hoped better days could be reality 

Then realized the only one 
To end this
Is me 

So I’ll arch my getaway
Cause this is where this ends 
I’ll arch my getaway
I'm done with making false amends 
I’ll arch my getaway
I would not go back again
Unless I’d found a way where I’d avoid 
The genesis of us

Genesis Of Us

Epitome

You’re probably the best man I could ask for 
But all the answers I have had before
Have made me certain I am not cut out for 
Going down the road of love no more 

Honey, it’s the curse of misalignment 
It's the epitome of being right 
While others are fulfilled through love’s refinement
I’m dried out 'cause love’s a parasite 

Honey, it’s the curse of misalignment 
It's the epitome of being right
While lovers see each other as true diamonds 
I only see emotional granite

I know you say you’re in this for the long run
But I don’t know which rumor you have heard 
I'm sorry you have fallen for someone 
Who’s not able to love you in return

Honey, it’s the curse of misalignment 
It's the epitome of being right 
Lovers say their view on life gets widened
To me it’s only narrowing my mind

It's not your fault but those who came before you 
Stole the best I had, and then left me
And though you claim you’ll stay
What if it’s not true
I won't risk losing any more of me 

Stay away 
Your love’s a waste
It’s not for me to feel
Stay away
I can’t be saved
Just leave me here to heal

Honey, it’s the curse of misalignment 
It's the epitome of being right 
Some might seek true love to be enlightened 
But I hide from it in the darkest night 

And though you might think I could be 
The right one
You are wrong 
And I will stay out of your sight 


Text and vocals by Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music/Arr./prod. by Pål Ødegård

Epitome

Lyrics/vocals: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Pål Ødegård

Rubicon  

I vaguely do recall the day I met you 
But mostly I recall the day I left 
Suddenly I realized I had to
Turn my back to get you off my chest 

You didn’t see it coming though it didn’t come too soon
Your ego thought you’d never lose this jewel
You saw me as your property, an empire you’d rule 
How ironic you’d end up crying in your room

So go ahead, explore the life of never finding one
This anti-love song 
Is the sound of your empty home
And go ahead and see how far sins carry you along 
Hold my Sauvignon 
While I cross the Rubicon

Cheers to your life alone 

I vaguely do recall I kinda liked you 
That much I’ll admit in retrospect 
But mostly I recall how good it felt to
Send you off immersed in your regret 

There’s no point in you trying to own me anymore 
I'm a kind of opulence that you cannot afford
Begging for forgiveness isn't worth your lying breath 
Every monologue I've heard before 
You lost all your leverage when trust was put to death
There’s no resurrection to restore 

So go ahead, explore the life of never finding one
This anti-love song 
Is the sound of your empty home
And go ahead and see how far sins carry you along 
Hold my Sauvignon 
While I cross the Rubicon

Cheers to your life alone 

I vaguely do recall I used to say that 
People don’t do good when treated bad
But mostly I recall that you behaved as
You would lose the best you ever had

It’s too late to come home
It’s too late to come home
So here’s to me moving on
Cheers to your life alone

Rubicon

Vocal, lyrics and music: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Arr./prod.: Thomas Haugland 

I gave you all my best years 
All my youth and playful wit 
Carefree, but invested 
From the core to my fingertips

I told you all my best jokes 
Inner secrets and outer lies
Tried my all to be bespoke 
But didn't fit to your outline 

But did you know it only takes
Twentyeight days 
For skin to regenerate 
And now it has been seven weeks
So there's no trace of you on me
Did you know it only takes 
One attempt to get away 
And now it has been seven weeks 
So my symptoms of withdrawal 
Are getting weak
Just like you 

I gave you all you asked for 
But now I see you don't contain
More than what you had before
So all I ever gave was in vain

I told you words of wisdom
And how the best is yet to come 
But no, you never listened
And all we had, you left undone

But did you know it only takes
Twentyeight days 
For skin to regenerate 
And now it has been seven weeks
So there's no trace of you on me
Did you know it only takes 
One attempt to get away 
And now it has been seven weeks 
So my symptoms of withdrawal 
Are getting weak
Just like you 

Others would have killed to
Walk a mile in your shoes
And known me only half as well
As I, for some strange cause, let you

Others would have died for 
The love I held, but you ignored
Now freed from you, I will excel
I’m not reserved for you no more

Cause did you know it only takes
Twentyeight days 
For skin to regenerate 
Now it has been seven weeks
So there's no trace of you on me
Did you know it only takes 
One attempt to get away 
And now it has been seven weeks 
So my symptoms of withdrawal 
Are getting weak
Just like you 

Seven weeks, time served me well
There’s a whole lot of glee in my farewell
Seven weeks, and still it’s true
There’s a whole lot of me left in you
Left in you

Seven Weeks

Music and lyrics: Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music and production: Åge Hustvedt / SilentEcho

Dream Of Us

Music, vocals and lyrics by Heidi Wittrup Djup
Music and production by Pål Ødegård

Night Train

I write and sing songs inspired by love and loss, relationships and separation, and by my background as a psychologist and my interest in social and political issues.

I have written all the lyrics myself and written /co-written the music, but other musicians and producers have made the arrangements/played the instruments and produced the songs. 

I have collaborated with different musicians/producers: Ole Martin Rongved, Mike Parda / MP studios, Thomas Haugland / TomTomStudio, Jan Roar Gjersvold / Ambient Light, Pål Ødegård, and Åge Hustvedt / SilentEcho.

More songs will be released ❤️

Thank you for listening.

Heidi Wittrup Djup

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