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artwork by VIRTUEL

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Where in the hell did it go astray?
Were they meant to leave or to stay?
Whose story’ll be told beyond the grave?
Whose sorries will have been left to say? 

What was fragmented amidst the fray?
What was surely lost along the way?
Why are these bones so beyond decay?
Why have they shown their woes in restraint?

Will they soon see colors in the rain?
Will they see the brightest of the day?
Will they ever see but hues of gray?
Will they see the truth without the pain?

‘Cause they’ve given all they’ve got
And yet it’s all for nothing, nothing at all
What more d’you want of a worn out
Crestfallen heart?

Their bodies crushed under the weight, under the soil found peace of mind
The more they opened up their eyes, the more they wished that they were blind
Only open for the dead, inside the casket unconfined
Only hopin’ for the day insight upon them casts a sign

Each moment in the dirt reminds them that they’re getting numb
Each day spent on this earth thus feeds their nihilistic demons
Misanthropy is thriving, entropy’s growin’ in a system
Today this systematic nightmare may not fall but it keeps burnin’

Below the sea it’s calling, for their name rings like a warning
Soon no sun under is shining, shut the blinds in early morning
Oh no longer fit for fighting darkness that resides within
Now mourn the loss of what you have ‘cause it’s soon-to-be dying

Before their eyes this memory's falling down like snow in spring
An unexpected showing, still it’s not theirs for the taking
Before the touch it’s melting, burning skin just like a bee’s sting
But soon they won’t feel a thing, lyin’ down like it’s their final blink 

It’s all they’ve got
But it’s all for nothing, for nothing at all
What more d’you need of a bleeding
Crestfallen heart?

CRESTFALLEN

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Memorabilia
Eternal fever
Perennial dyspnea

Memorabilia
Atemporal ideals
Here they rest, broken down

Memorabilia
May moon now rise all tides
May morals lead aright

Memorabilia
May more rise from their graves
May the fear disappear

MEMØRABILIA (Prelude)

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artwork by VIRTUEL

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Heart’s broken
Eyes closed
Still seein’ your face in the rain

Words that were spoken
Smothered, choked
Still hear your voice through the pain

Lungs swollen
Vocal cords broke
Still screamed your name in their brain

Ripped it open
Left them hopin’ 
Drained the blood from their veins

They won’t pretend they didn’t see it all coming ‘round the bend
No, they won’t pretend they wouldn’t give their all for it not to end
But their will and strength have given out and they can’t defend, can’t make amends
These legs are weak and this path is hard to walk upon without your hand

Still seein’ your face in the rain
Still seein’ your face in the rain
Still seein’ your face in the rain
Still seein’ your face

Seein’ your face in the rain

Pareidolia

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Feelin’ they don’t belong
Yet deeply longin’ for love
Feel like just bein’ alone
Fear they’re not bein’ enough

Fact is they’ve been here for long now
Where just bein’ is rough
Nowhere to shield from this harm
No words could speak of this hurt

Why can’t they seem to find what they’re looking for?
Why can’t they see what’s in front of this fog?

Why?
Why? (Why?)

They’re underwhelmed, it’s overwhelming
A storm is coming, there’s no point calming down
No point calming down
No, no point calming

Ship’s a wreck, no lighthouse’s shining
Shut the blinds, just leave them starving now
Leave them starving now
Just leave them, leave them be

Lullaby

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The day you left, they started growing number 
As the days were getting colder
Getting colder

The gray of life had started showing sooner 
Had to learn ‘bout love’s cold shoulder
Love’s cold shoulder

Embraced but spastic shivers
Left for dead one day in summer
But it felt like dead of winter inside

The date has faded with time 
But the pain is fresh in this mind
How they sometimes hope they could rewind in time

Before they were forlorn
It felt so wrong for so long
Far too long

Oh the day you left, this weight had grown much heavier 
Been feelin’ lost and lonely
If only

You’d said something was bothering you
And you felt weary 
Then just maybe something coulda been done

‘Cause the way you left this day felt just like
Tearin’ out the chapters of this story
No, don’t be sorry

And so today the wound’s still left just gapin’ open
Without stitches they’re left hopin’ 
They can find the page where you left them

Why didn’t you say you were such in a hurry to leave?
To leave
To leave
To leave

Forlorn

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Couldn’t stitch the wounds when needed
So started bleeding out
Torn apart at the seams
Like an old, brittle doll 

Livin’ on the sidelines
While dyin’ in silence
Torn inside with no end in sight
As they hear the sirens

Wait, undecided

Been complacent, ain’t been patient
They need patience
With their own emotions
That much is evident

Might as well give up

Fuck it, they want out, don’t want none of it
Fact of the matter is, it’s nothing if none of it matters
‘Cause all of it’s worthless when none of it’s worth it
It’s worthless, it’s not worth it

Couldn’t stitch the wounds when needed
So started bleeding out
Torn apart at the seams
Like an old, brittle doll

Livin’ on the sidelines
While dyin’ in silence
Torn inside with no one in sight
To hear these sirens

No, couldn’t bear to fight the feeling
So started bleeding out
Torn apart at the seams
Like an old, brittle doll

Livin’ on the sidelines
While dyin’ in silence
Torn inside with no end in sight
As they hear the sirens

Waitin’ for a sign

But they don’t have the patience
It’s starting to weigh
‘Cause time cuts like a blade
And soon it might be too late

Been feelin’ ever so jaded and oh so faded out
How come this heartache feels both sharp and dull?
Need somethin’ for the pain
Hurry ‘cause they need it right now

Time is runnin’ out

Need to be patient?
They’re outta patience
All outta patience
‘Cause they’ve been bleeding out

Bleeding Out

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Can’t sleep
Layin’ with clenched teeth
They can’t breathe

So give ‘em some rest, put these issues to bed
Warm blankets tightly pulled overhead
One’s burden surely is only theirs to bear

Feels like breaking their bones while they pick up the pieces
Burying their lungs, filling their skull with lead
These thoughts are heavy, this chest without breath
Tears without water pour, screams without air

It’s like they were poisoned
Were poisoned

Feels like poison
Yeah, like poison
Poison

This room keeps on spinning, what’s wrong with their head?
Foredoomed is a being whose mind wants ‘em dead
He who can’t keep on fighting won’t survive the threat

Oh, these days most colors have been fadin’, it seems all they see’s red
Keep tossin’ and turnin' till all bliss is bled
Only sleep is the cure for a soul left to fend alone 
For too long

‘Cause it runs in their veins to try and pretend
Why try to explain? No one could comprehend
‘Cause such is their pain that it cannot be spelled
So fucked is their brain that no one could dare mend it

Feels like poison
Like poison
Like poison

Feels like poison
Like poison
Like poison

Poison

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There was a bother, she wouldn’t say it
They were but blisters, just lousy stand-ins
It was apparent she couldn’t stay here

Guess they were god damn training wheels on this bike
They were holding her back from the life that she once had sought
Wasn’t her fault, so she shouldn’t feel bad
’Twas a path where she went, but they couldn’t follow

And soon this weight had crushed their brain
‘Cause they let it, they let it, oh
Feelin’ swayed by constant waves
But they bear it and carry on

This fire burns with scorching flames
‘Cause they set it, they set it on
Went through so much pain, though not in vain
‘Cause they get it, they get it now

Hurts to admit it, but they get it, they get it now
Oh they get it, yeah they get it now

They were but god damn training wheels on this bike
They were holding her back from the life that she wanted so
Wasn’t her fault, no, they understand
’Twas the road that she chose, still they feel so hollow now

Well glad they were good enough training wheels for a time
Though they were hoping for more, cut the life they’d have wanted short
Wasn’t her fault, no, it was their bad
Knew this path, once she took it, they couldn’t follow, no 

Just forgive and forget it, ‘cause they get it now
So no harm, no foul

No Harm, No Foul

Gateway To Universe on Bandcamp : https://helias.bandcamp.com/track/gateway-to-universe

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Life Isn't That Simple on Bandcamp : helias.bandcamp.com/track/life-isnt-that-simple

Life Isn't That Simple

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Earthbound

~ shore waves came crashing down on me.

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Monolith

Cycles on Bandcamp : helias.bandcamp.com/track/cycles
Cycles on Youtube : youtube.com/watch?v=rQPeeCejB_s

In retrospect
They shouldn’t’ve tried to connect
With them, now they’re tryna collect
Their thoughts and tryna correct

Their faults, hope it ain’t too late
For that, weren’t tryna neglect
Themselves and create a wreck
Of them, to the point they reject

Their being in every aspect
Seeing their every regret
And all the things they infect
They can try, but can never forget

The past, but they can forgive
The present and try to accept
The future without tryna predict
Their course in its full effect

Oh, life ain’t fair, so farewell
They fear they're lost in endless cycles of inner warfare
Hell, life’s unfair, so farewell
They feel like drowning in a well till they gasp for air

Yeah, life ain’t fair, so farewell
They fear they're lost in endless cycles of inner warfare
Hell, life’s unfair, so farewell 
They feel like drowning in a well till they gasp for air

How come is it they have to fit in every mold and column
They don’t give a single fuck ‘bout blending in amongst them
Numb to the bone, down to every single atom
From ashes to ashes is a saying they have welcomed
 
More clashes and crashes, self-annihilation
Compassion’s gone, rationed, from fear they have fallen
Their own inaction dictates each and every of their action 
Deflection’s the focus of the path they have chosen

No they cannot fathom the phantom
The shell of what they have become
Overthinking’s vain claims Ockham
Keep on moving like the seasons

Just like leaves fall in the autumn
Like bees bear the flower’s pollen
And in the spring the trees blossom
Damn this poem is pretty solemn

Cycles

Rebirth on Bandcamp : helias.bandcamp.com/track/rebirth
Rebirth on Youtube : youtube.com/watch?v=BPjRBu-N3fc

A noise echoes in the halls and the rats scatter
A poisonous odor’s led them through this shelter
For years kept unnoticed, for years were glossed over
Unturned, these remains must be revealed this hour

In their hands a relic all covered in tatters
In this sanctum all of the pieces are gathered
Artifact sacred rests atop an altar
Architects of their own demise hereafter

Buried deep down dwells the terror of failure
Reinstate the order by breaking the pattern
Reunite all of the fragments they shattered
Might one piece have been lost, yet one found another

Why go back
Go back
Now?

They said go back
Go back?
No

Oh they said go back
Go back
Now

The voices said go back
Go back?
How? 

Came many stray travelers with no sense of purpose
Muddied the waters, left no trace of progress
Unfaithful disciples act but on self-interest
Though starved peasants ingest the mere food they harvest

Shall be rebuilt what befell them, from ashes
This object of promise, once whole, now in pieces
Altered the process, thus altered the beast
Within themselves a rest could be unfound for ages

Each of their actions etched on a new canvas
A chance to redemption, a chance to success
Shall this come, they would press for their former selves
To be reborn anew, thus attaining earned solace

Why would they go back
Go back
Now?

Oh they can’t go back
Go back
No

In fact they know that
Know that 
Now

No please don’t go back
Hold that
Vow

Rebirth

may these pieces soothe your soul.
<3

[aka HELIΔS / VIRTUEL]

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