I never was enough
Guess that's the time that I say goodbye
Did I ask too much?
Was terrified of being left behind

I know it doesn't make sense
I think of you much less now that I've chosen to pretend
Don't expect that you will ever understand the pain I'm in
It's the life I chose to live
Tell me why I can't resist?
It's alright, I'll believe anything

How could I let myself down?
Thought I had you all figured out
Let my anonymous drown
How can I help myself now?

I never was enough
Guess that's the time that I say goodbye
Did I ask too much?
Was terrified of being left behind
I never was enough
Guess that's the time that I say goodbye
Did I ask too much?
Was terrified of being left behind
Everything has changed
As I watch you walk away I can't help but be amazed
How could I've fallen for the same mistake?
Go hide with all of your problems, please wait in a line
You can't compete with the monster, forced into a lie

How can I help myself now? (How can I help myself now?)
How can I help myself now? (How can I help myself now?)
How can I help myself now? (How can I help myself now?)
How can I help myself now? (How can I help myself now?)

How could I let myself down?
Thought I had you all figured out
Let my anonymous drown
How can I help myself now?

I never was enough
Guess that's the time that I say goodbye
Did I ask too much?
Was terrified of being left behind
I never was enough
Guess that's the time that I say goodbye
Did I ask too much?
Was terrified of being left behind

Not Enough

Before I Bleed

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

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Cuts Too Deep ft. Rivilin (prod. alexanderbierk)

Hellhills - Kill Me

Tsunami J. & Antent - Where Are You?

hate love and percs.

Imma dig down
And then I'll dig deeper
Laying in the ground
To sleep with the reaper

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

Craving too much
Been hating the taste of my blood 
Thinking of life with these pills
It's so empty, oh well

I dont care if im alone in the end
I'd rather be dead near My friends

As my skeleton rots away 
I've been forsaken 
The verge of resurrecting

Bury me now So I can forget it all
Swallowing pride the dosage will get it wrong
hold tongues I meant what I said
Fucked up with a moments regret

Nose bleed, as I hold the line 
Faceless can't identify
Won't last forever so I'll take my time
Past the limit and I'm terrified

NOSEBLEED (prod. sunsad)

Carrying You

Fabricated

IDLEGLANCE x Chief Kelly x Kasper Fell x  RiverKinn

Chief Kelly: @chiefkelly
Kasper Fell: @kasperfell
RiverKinn: @riverkinn

Watch on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXEbrZ0fMGw

LYRICS:

NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT IT'S ALL MY FAULT
NEVER REALLY CARED IF I'M ALIVE
THOUGH I BELONG HERE
IT'S QUICKSAND
NO TIME
BEFORE YOU CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER MY NAME
TRAGIC IN THE MAKING
NOW SILENT
WHILE I'VE BARELY BEEN GONE
LET ME DOWN

NO I 
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

HOME
THAT’S WHERE I WANT TO BE
WHERE I FALL THROUGH THE SEAMS
AND THE CRACKS IN BETWEEN
ALL I’VE KNOWN
THE NEGLECT THAT YOU’VE SHOWN
IS APPARENTLY WEARING ME
DOWN TO THE BONE
WONDERING WHY
YOU LED ME ON JUST TO THROW
ME TO THE SIDE
BUT I STILL TRIED
I SEE YOU EVERY TIME
I SHUT MY EYES

NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
I CAN’T ESCAPE HOW I FEEL
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

Carrying You

Hellhills

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