i had that dream
on new years day
the one where all my teeth 
fall out (of my face)
im honest in my waking haze
haunted houses in my head
that was eons away

you said lets put us the both 
out of misery today 
you said lets put the both of us 
out of misery today
we danced by the lake 
as the stars fell on your face 
but that was eons away 

a little ghost 
lives in the back of my mind
she gets a little louder
every single time
she haunts me when i go to bed
i can’t remember what she said

if i build a boat with my broken parts,
will i sink or will i stay?
if i threw a penny into your grave, 
would you let me in your head? 
is it true that it is peaceful, 
in the eye of a hurricane?
if i let you consume my brain,
will you be my saving grace? 

you said lets put us the both of us
out of misery today
you said lets put the both of us 
out of misery today
we danced in my head 
as the tears streamed down your face
but that was eons away

eons away - demo (19/1)

a really ratchet cover of from the start by laufey <3

Loneliness feels like the silence when you 

leave the party a little bit too soon

after a drink or two

and youre stumbling home 

and the black hole consumes you

I lost my cool

Now everybody’s dancing 

and im standing here like a fool

one day i’ll find the one

who sees the world and loves it like I do

one day i’ll find the one

who thinks all my cuts and bruises are cool

(he’ll think im cool)

we would dance all night long

under the neon lights

even though i haven’t got the moves

sharing inside jokes just between us two 

we can swap our lungs or shoes

i dont care

as long as im with you

for now I’ll sing the blues, me and my funny tunes

funny tunes (stripped) - bedroom live series

wrote this while inebriated. 

(incomplete)

we showed up in the same colours

he didnt ask if i got home alright

all the things that didnt happen plays in my head

i cant even stand to look him in the face

on the car ride home

he’s staring at his phone

talking to some girl who’s just much hotter than me, 

he says my inferiority complex is showing

oh i cant deny it

I feel like dying

its excruciating

i think im going to have to kill him

i watch him walk into his home

his shadow disappearing

na na na song (stripped) - bedroom live series

eons away ft. notperseus (spotify version)

fuck, i cant deny it (nanana song) - acoustic

eons away - acoustic (just me)

slow dancing, 
to my lonesome tune
im dreaming,
you’re too good to be true

(darlene, baby, you’re too good to be true)

i keep falling for u,
then falling back to earth,
but still you stick right through,
like the gum on my shoe

i know that you won’t stay,
darlene you never do
i’ll still wait here for you,
i know you’ll come back through

(im in love with you)

(this song is about depression lol)

darlene, im in love with u - demo

Lyrics 

is hope a life jacket
or is she concrete shoes?
my left eyes been twitching all night, 
so give me the bad news

Cuz I don’t want to stick my head in an oven, 
but I’ve ran out of crosswords puzzles to do 
Have to wait till Monday morning maybe
For now I haven’t got a clue 

I know I know I know I’m getting older
I know I know I’m just a little young fool 
I know you think you’re so much better
And yeah  that is probably, probably true

Is hope a life jacket?

I sit atop
I sit atop a giant tree
pretending I’m nothing
but the bee’s knees
mmm

but every morning,
I slip on both my sensible shoes
its getting tiring,
cause thats the fastest i can go in these shoes
when will i wake?
please someone grab my shoulders and shake
will i ever will i ever wake will i ever wake 

morning glories dangling from the top of my head
i dont mind if you dont mind 
oh ill pretend that im just fine
im fine im fine im fine

but every morning,
I slip on both my sensible shoes
its getting tiring,
cause thats the fastest i can go in these damn shoes
when will i wake?
please someone grab my shoulders and shake
will i ever will i ever wake will i ever wake

sensible shoes

im going to bed for eighteen hours
and when ill wake ill feel just the same

i keep getting caught in my own net
always getting caught with my own two bloody hands

im highly susceptible to prophecies & lies, 
the woman on the corner says it’s cause im a walking contradiction

im really religious for an athiest
youre really precocious, though no longer eighteen
ill come for your throat
just promise to ruin me first

why do words feel more beautiful, 
as time passes?
the past is tinted in all shades of pink, 
I’ve completely lost my vision

i just want to be held, 
in arms that aren’t mine,
& cry & cry & cry
I just wanna get lost in eyes,
that aren’t mine
& cry & cry
I don’t remember how to kiss
I’m the person that I really miss…

&cry&cry - 1/4 (raw)

I’m overstimulated at a fast food chainn
Staring at the menu, think ill change my mind again
Should I get my usual or the special of the day?
I don’t know what to say, I lose my head again

Eating fast food slowly at a fast food chain
Damn that’s such a clever line I love you babe 
With every bite
I’m pulled deeper and further into my own head
I gotta catch a train

Thinking about the food in my abdominal space
Makes my heart churn in an astronomic way 
I’ve forgotten what day it is again
Now I’ve got to go and catch a train 
Did I say that again?

Drive it like you stole it 
The devils in my head again x3

I’m overstimulated at a fast food chain
You’re so beautiful, I heard them say
Wait till you climb inside my head then tell me
Do you feel the same?
At the fast food chain

eating slowly at a fast food chain

old one 

lyrics:

I feel like a child, again
Losing myself at twenty
Except this time no one,
No one’s coming to find me 

My skin’s been broken in,
No furniture, all gone
Why do I still get blisters,
On the bottom of my feet?

Even in the dark, 
the sea still stays the sea,
When you’re not in view,
You still make me blue 

Forever chasing down your train of thoughts,
But smoke rings through the chimney of your mind,
All it does is leave me behind

I feel like a child, again
Losing myself at twenty
Except this time no one,
No one’s coming to find me

the sea still stays the sea (demo) ⭐️

lyrics:

everybodys in love with Emma
She smiles, and the whole world crashes down

no one gets you like she did
you only miss her 
cause you lost her
to your pride

If you loved her,
You shouldn’t have made her cry
If you loved her,
You really should have thought twice

Now Emma, she only exists in your mind
But if she were alive
She’ll tell you 
You’ve done your time
Holding me hostage 
Is still crime 

the day you left her bruised and scarred
she checked out, went to a downtown bar
waiter fix me a g&t, though she never really liked to drink (you know it)
three drinks in, shes confessing her sins, shes out there causing a scene,
I know you would have called embarassing
But either way, she screams

i loved him though hes so blue
i loved him till my body bruised
i loved him because hes blue
i loved him till i turned blue 

some days my mind is a fertile ground
some days my mind is shrouded in thunder clouds
when i think of you
oh yes i do

Now Emma, she only exists in your mind
But if she were alive
She’ll tell you 
You’ve done your time
Holding me hostage 
Is still crime

Emma (old song by me)

Nothing feels real ?? (idea)

indie / singer-songwriter
based in singapore 📍
drafts archive

soleil

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