Thank you, I really needed this. I've been spiraling and this has helped me feel grounded again.

This makes so much sense.   And, i have a lot of work that needs to be done. 

I have never felt like rhis before i was so lost and i finally feel like i understand myself 

I told my favorite teacher she failed me in teaching  me. My goal was to hurt her and for her to hate me

2021 and this has helped me soooo much!! I can feel this is the first step i needed to hear to relieve myself. Thank you!! 

Thanks - I've dug out my 'Screwed up' journal (which I'd forgot about) and will start using it about recent screw-ups

Thank you so much. This has opened my eyes and spoken to my soul on so many levels. You have given me hope. Sending love and good vibes to you. 

Hello from year2020! Someone posted about this on instagram.now i'm here :) 

For those who can’t stop trying to convince themselves they’re bad with self-destructive actions. This one is for Nikki. 

Why do we destroy relationships with those who love us? Why do break our own trust, betray our own dreams, and rob ourselves of happiness and safety as soon as we get close to it. It’s a mystifying loop of behavior that has powerful effects on everything about our life: a chain reaction that keeps us hiding or running from the ugly truth of what we’ve done. 

Just like an addict, you live with a subconscious awareness that you will inevitably destroy whatever good you might have – and that anxiety is overwhelming and scary. Like a lurking future of pain awaits you just around the corner. Happiness is immediately blocked by the overwhelming sense of dread that it will soon be lost. And so you self-medicate the fear and cling more tightly to what you want so badly. 

When you do inevitably self-sabotage and act out in ways that betray your values and the values of your partner, the experience is laden with fear and the resulting shame is soul-crushing. Like you just woke up inside a nightmare. You have an almost separate self who is doing these things despite you. 

I want you to know there’s a simple reason behind your cycle of behavior that you must CHOOSE to learn. It’s not who you are, it’s a tactic that you learned to cope with unrelated pain and anxiety. There are three parts: the what, the why, the how.

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Ep 74: Self-Sabotage: Why We Betray Ourselves and Destroy Our Relationships

Help Me Be Me is an emotional toolkit for creating positive change in yourself. I like to think of it as self-help for people who hate self-help. I'm Sarah May, coach/mom/all-around happy person, and these are the tools that work for me in my life. For all of my offerings you can check out YayWithMe.com What I share is my personal opinion. It's not a diagnosis for treatment or a substitute for professional help. If you're suffering, please reach out to your local emergency services or call 9-1-1. Music theme created by www.BookerHillMusic.com

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