feat @grimorixo
prod @user-856514666
mixed by @grimorixo & @rosesleeves
cover art https://www.instagram.com/madb3rry

lyrics:
[Verse 1: Grimori]
Bad vibes baby when you walk across the street
And it’s a sad life baby when you walk and look at me
I told you stay away, just stay away
Why would you stay away?
Come back and leave I’m not okay
It’s so much I don’t know but don’t take it from me
It’s so much I don’t know but I’m gon' take it lightly
And I’m doing all this wrong I know that God gon' strike me
And I’m wearing all these clothes you know that I’m a hypebeast
And your love is just like poison that's why you're a ivy
I know you changed but check my ID
There’s no one that’s ever like me
Standing right by me, so you could find me
All I wanted you to be my queen, you broke my diamond
You were my damsel in distress, got struck by lightning
You said that you like me, not so perfect timing, yeah

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
Not talking NAV girl but I got perfect timing
I didn’t text you back you wonder if I’m dying
If I did it’d be the drugs I’m always flying
I just gotta know tell me if you’re riding
Flight to New York, sorry I’m jet lagged
I’m on the xans, will you just come back?
You are the one, tell me you know that?
Can’t fuck with lames, yeah they just too wack
Flight to New York, sorry I’m jet lagged
I’m on the xans, will you just come back?
You are the one, tell me you know that?
Can’t fuck with lames, yeah they just too wack

[Outro: heroine diaries]
Flight to New York, sorry I’m jet lagged
I’m on the xans, will you just come back?
You are the one, tell me you know that?
Can’t fuck with lames, yeah they just too wack
Flight to New York, sorry I’m jet lagged
I’m on the xans, will you just come back?
You are the one, tell me you know that?
Can’t fuck with lames, yeah they just too wack

poison ivy (feat. grimori) (prod. yungspoiler)

song of 2 minds lol
feat @1spoder
prod @ethan-schaefer-950685123
https://www.instagram.com/prodbybloom
cover art https://www.instagram.com/natasha.alana

out on all plats too <3 https://open.spotify.com/album/6o1JaQvMW8QGKMjrFUUaJW

lyrics:
[Pre-Chorus: spoder]
Break my sanity in two
Yeah, you stare at me
While I’m staring at you for hours
This silence couldn’t be louder (Ohh)
Peace, of mind
Yeah, that’s all I ask for
Pick up that passport and leave out that door
Realise, that I'm terrified
Could you open your eyes?

[Chorus: spoder]
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me

[Verse: heroine diaries]
Said I didn’t take his girl then where his girl go?
Why they hating? Steady praying on my downfall
I don’t got too many friends need a roll call 
I’m up too late waiting for your phone call
Cause I’m a loser, drug abuser, snort like hoover, yeah, yeah 
Fenty patch, on my tongue, help me feel, yeah, yeah 
Broke my heart, it was bad, can’t go back, yeah, yeah 
I’m up late, catch my flight, to your state, yeah, yeah 
Hop up in this Uber it’s a Tesla, Tesla 
Landed in New York I’m off a Tesla, Tesla 
Your girl on my line I do not text her, text her  
You a bitch boy I do it better, better 

[Pre-Chorus: spoder]
Break my sanity in two
Yeah, you stare at me
While I’m staring at you for hours
This silence couldn’t be louder (Ohh)
Peace, of mind
Yeah, that’s all I ask for
Pick up that passport and leave out that door
Realise, that I'm terrified
Could you open your eyes?

[Chorus: spoder]
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me

this silence couldn’t be louder (feat. spoder) (prod. bloom)

song is out on all plats too <3
feat @funeral & @nxrthstarr
my chorus mixed by @rosesleeves
prod https://www.instagram.com/pacificproduced
cover art https://www.instagram.com/pasabist/

lyrics:
[Verse 1: funeral]
I been trapped in my head, for days and I'm dying
Tried to go out, four ways and I'm trying
Not to force it, but of course it, never works out
Fall asleep in the dark, I wake up
Nothin' I could do could make up
Anything about this, everything about this

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
You a addict, baby girl, yeah, just like me (Yeah, just like me)
Taste them pills on my tongue, that's why you like me (That's why you like me)
Do you want me just for me? I ask politely (Ask politely)
Gettin' closer to the edge it's looking likely
You a addict, baby girl, yeah, just like me
Taste them pills on my tongue, that's why you like me
Do you want me just for me? I ask politely
Gettin' closer to the edge it's looking likely

[Verse: nxrthstar]
Crushin' pills in the bathroom
All I'm thinkin' 'bout is biting on your tattoo
Oh my God, is this real life?
Psychosis and wasted nights
So is it love or the drugs?
Either way, baby, think I had too much
I'm overdosin' on your touch, I took too much (Yeah)
From you, couldn't ever say, “I love you”
I can tell you never trusted me
Now you know why they don't fuck with me, yeah

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
You a addict, baby girl, yeah, just like me (Yeah, just like me)
Taste them pills on my tongue, that's why you like me (That's why you like me)
Do you want me just for me? I ask politely (Ask politely)
Gettin' closer to the edge it's looking likely (Looking likely)
You a addict, baby girl, yeah, just like me (Woah-oah)
Taste them pills on my tongue, that's why you like me (That's why you like me)
Do you want me just for me? I ask politely
Gettin' closer to the edge it's looking likely

[Outro: heroine diaries]
I’m an addict for the scripts, yeah, baby
Fentanyl on tongue, please save me
Why I have to fall in love? Oh, baby
Don't call him what you called me, baby

hiraeth/fragile (feat. funeral & nxrthstar)

feat @riojssr & @reefuh
prod @jkjmetasco
my verse mixed by @prodmusa + mastered by them too

i don't have jssr's lyrics but if he sends them i'll update, i have mine & reef's for now

lyrics:
[Chorus: Jssr]
[?]

[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
If she pregnant then my son gon' raise my son (Raise my son)
I got Percocets, got Xanax, what you want? (What you want?)
Doin' fraud 'cause it love it, it's so fun (It's so fun)
Ex's dead, then I'm laughin' 'cause I won ('Cause I won)
Fenty take my soul-oul, take another dose-ose
Spend a rack at Soho, you already know-ow
Yeah, Uber to your bnb
She said that she fuck with me
In New York like Jay-Z

[Chorus: Jssr]
[?]

[Verse 2: Reef]
Okay (Gra-gra-gra), she know I'm the one (Yeah)
And I know we had our problems but I'm not the one who said I'm done
Baby girl, these Percs got me on edge
Let's stay up late 'til we see the sun
And I know for a fact that I'm better than nothin'
These boys keep on talkin' in love with the fussin'
Sippin' on 'tussin, ain't got a clue what I'm doing no rushin'
Walk in that bitch with a K like a Russian
Fifty round drum on the chop on percussion
If his bitch on my nuts then it's got be for somethin'
Been nothing but a cool lil' tid bit summer
Lil' bro walk in strapped with the sticks like a drummer
Oh, he suck then a bitch, oh my God what a bummer

sun (feat. jssr & reef) (prod. jkjmetasco)

Out on all plats
https://open.spotify.com/album/4iAsWwY5pvGevuWAtaxDPW?si=CdPFdLdYQNqizEIidJxomg

feat @lawsyy
if you prod this dm on here or dm on IG
cover art by https://www.instagram.com/coverartbygmo
my verse mixed by @rosesleeves

lyrics
[Verse 1: Lawsy]
You said that you older, let's see if it work
Turn around, let me see that bitch twerk
I'm fuckin' my tutor, that bitch do my work
I-I'm with some pretty bitches takin' Percs
I know I'm a cheat on the bitch, my bad
Bitch all on me and she want me in her bed
Should I take the Perc 30 or the Xanax?
I'm fuckin' a grown bitch, on a hammock

[Chorus: Lawsy]
Ooh-ooh, shake that ass, let me see that shit move
This song get a bitch in that mood
I'm fuckin' your bitch, I don't even lose
I'm like, ooh-ooh, two grown ho's wanna fuck on the crew
I got your friends jealous 'cause I do it to you
I hit from the back and the bitch like, ooh-ooh

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
Sim swapped my ex put some scripts in her name (Put some scripts in her name)
Hiding her likes like she scared of a screen (She scared of a screen)
Talk with yo' chest boy say what you mean (Say what you mean)
Chasin' the clout he just thirsty for fame (He thirsty for fame)
His glock don't even got a switch
Laced my Percs they finna hit
Where my Xans? Oh, 'bout to itch
Talkin' shit boy this not Twitch
LA with a model, we both doin' Percs
Pass me the heroin, whatever, it works (Whatever, it works)
He talkin' shit but can't get a verse
Yes I am him, leave you in the dirt (Leave you in the dirt)
Junkie my blood, it's making her flirt
Ex's are dead, then I'm smoking for sure (Smoking for sure)
Opiate damage, I'm making it worse
I won't be happy 'til I'm in a hearse

[Chorus: Lawsy]
Ooh-ooh, shake that ass, let me see that shit move
This song get a bitch in that mood
I'm fuckin' your bitch, I don't even lose
I'm like, ooh-ooh, two grown ho's wanna fuck on the crew
I got your friends jealous 'cause I do it to you
I hit from the back and the bitch like, ooh-ooh
Shake that ass, let me see that shit move
This song get a bitch in that mood
I'm fuckin' your bitch, I don't even lose
I'm like, ooh-ooh, two grown ho's wanna fuck on the crew
I got your friends jealous 'cause I do it to you
I hit from the back and the bitch like, ooh-ooh

switch (feat. lawsy) (prod. ec3)

feat @nxrthstarr & @6vz
prod @justrolo 
cover art:
https://www.instagram.com/doyuromi
https://www.instagram.com/zzem.zzem
https://www.instagram.com/xxunew

lyrics:
[Chorus: nxrthstar]
Yeah, pussy boy talkin' that shit, man, I swear you look stupid, uh
Yeah, say I don't got no ho's 'bout to pull up with a new bitch, uh
Yeah, play my music at the function turn me up
Yeah, I just been poppin' them Percs, lil' bitch I'm booted up

[Verse 1: nxrthstar]
Yeah, yeah, that lil' bitch think I'm crazy, I'm serving mad like the eighties 
Shut the fuck up and just pay me 
I'm moving weight just like Jay-Z, uh, yeah, back in 95
I feel like Kanye I'm wavy, in a thirty going eighty 
I know he still tryna play me
Yeah, but bitch I'm ready, uh
Pull up put that poodle to your noodle moms spaghetti, uh
These bitches, talking that shit on the gang, man, I'm sorry that I'm so petty, uh
And lately I sleep with a gun, yeah, I sleep with a teddy, uh

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
And I'm in the back seat with your bitch she wanna top me, uh
Oxy my blood, still cannot catch me
She in her dreams, she thought that she had me
Doing the fraud, try and get at me
Fiend for the clout, but he cannot pass me
He suck so much, that we call him Maggie
I took some more, so I'm feeling happy
I touch down LA, I'm hitting up Chef
Need me some courage, need me some ket
She blow me some much, I call her a ref
Leave me some lines, I'm doing the rest
Said it I meant it, I talk with my chest
Ex's are dead then I'm throwing a fest
Just like my Xanax them boys are pressed
They falling off, must be depressed

[Chorus: nxrthstar]
Yeah, pussy boy talkin' that shit, man, I swear you look stupid, uh
Yeah, say I don't got no ho's 'bout to pull up with a new bitch, uh
Yeah, play my music at the function turn me up
Yeah, I just been poppin' them Percs, lil' bitch I'm booted up

[Verse 3: viizzi]
Pop a Perc, I'm booted up
I just stuffed an eighth inside my Backwood, now I'm zoozted up
Bitch, my strap talk business, fully loaded and it's suited up
Walk into the function see your face up in that bitch and yeah, you know I'm finna shoot it up
Come with a K, like a Russian, no Juice
Bitch, I'm the goat check the stats for the proof
Double RR seats, got the stars in the roof
Sniffing that Charlie then I'm a set fire to the booth
I'm a set fire to the whole town
Spin your block turn it into a ghost town
And y'all wild on the 'Gram do the most now
I go wild on the stage sell the shows out

[Verse 4: viizzi & heroine diaries]
Nobody doing it like who?
Nobody doing it like us
Don't care what you say, I'm upping the rage
Play with my heart, I'm going insane
She giving me knowledge, she giving me brain
I'm upping the choppa you feeling the pain
Thinking it's Twitter but this not a game
Mad 'bout his bitch, oh what a shame
What a shame that we put him in a pack though
Hate me all you want 'cause you just add funds to my bankroll
New bitch badder so they hating but it's facts though
I'm an addict and they know it, what you asked fo'?

booted up (feat. nxrthstar & viizzi) (prod. justxrolo & rafiki)

feat @riojssr & @jades714

i don't have jssr's lyrics but

[Chorus: jssr]
?

[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
Landed LAX, I check my pockets all these hundreds blue
I just hit up Chef, got them Perkies, what you wanna do?
Bnb got a couple floors and she comin' through
She know I'm a junkie and she like it, she said me too
Off a Tesla ridin' in a Tesla
Now I'm flexed up, had to get my racks up
Find me out on Peachtree, where he said he would be
When I'm out in LA, shit be gettin' bloody
Are you ridin'? If he talkin' down then we gon' get to slidin'
Off the shrooms in Manhattan, girl, I'm flyin'
Might've popped too many pills I think I'm dyin', think I'm dyin'

[Chorus: jssr]
?

[Verse 2: jades]
I can't read your mind, baby, tell me what you thinkin'?
I can't give the hoe a dime, we not even clickin'
It's like you only wanna fuck me when we're linkin'
I bet you'd feel the same if you were in my position 
Don't know why you're talking to me, go and get your money up, baby
Say you locked in but you're locked out lately
How you 'posed to get your cash up when your lazy
I'm a tell you what you need to hear, you can go and hate me
It don't phase me, bitch, I got my head straight
This bitch crazy, think she want my last name
Every time she come 'round, think I need to vacate 
Don't know what this bitch need, never had a first date

fall (feat. jssr & jades)

feat the goat @daywxtch
prod @shadeaway

lyrics:
[Verse 1: daywxtch]
When will you do some explaining?
I'm always contemplating
Should I escape? I've gotten so far
Even if I wanted to, I have no car
Why would I stay?
Take a stroll through my subdivision, I was a mistake
I have no place or being
I'm so mad, talking to you
Songs cushion blows, softer than wool
I'll talk to you, I'll conversate for now
Since we ran out of fuel

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
Why you never text me back? It's like you hate me
Know I got some money now, but it won't change me
See you stalkin' on my page, no it don't phase me
Crushin' up these Percocets, tell me that you miss me
Kill me slowly, I stay missin' your nosebleeds
The hills get lonely, I wish that you could hold me
Pills I swallow, the reaper gettin' closer
Can't be sober, this life I chose keeps hurtin'
Don't feel the same when you're not around
Drugs help me drown it out
Benzos my heart adores
But I think I love you more
Wake up not there anymore
Heart out my chest hit the floor
My letters washed up on the shore
With your love I'll stop the war

[Outro: heroine diaries]
Kill me slowly, I stay missin' your nosebleeds
The hills get lonely, I wish that you could hold me
Buckhead don't feel the same, miss you in every way
Death soon I really pray, the memories start to fade

ran out of fuel (feat. daywatch) (prod. shade08)

feat @dying2night
prod @user-2723219 @omgzanozahateyou &
https://www.instagram.com/louieotk

lyrics:
[Intro: heroine diaries]
Woah, woah, woah
Yeah, yeah, yeah 
Open your eyes (Open your eyes)
These walls I hear cries (These walls I hear cries)
Can't take no more lies (Can't take no more lies)
These Percs my demise 

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
I used to pray for times like this, tell me girl I'm the one you miss
I've been flyin' state to state but wanna crash into the abyss
Say you hate me I got a list, see them cuts up on your wrist
All alone in your studio apartment, can you tell me how cold it gets?
I'm on the fent again (Help me)
I want you till the end (Save me)
Think I'm drownin' (Help me)
Think I'm fallin' (Save me)

[Post-Chorus: heroine diaries]
Know you're in the hills right now (Right now)
But what about when you get back? (Get back)
Up late thinkin' what we had (What we had)
Death soon guess I'm kinda glad (Kinda glad)

[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
Baby, I'm in Knightsbridge on my own (Own-own-own)
Baby, will you call me on the phone? (Phone-phone-phone)
Chrome on my fit and to my dome (Dome-dome-dome)
In hell soon guess I'll feel at home (Home-home-home)

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
I used to pray for times like this, tell me girl I'm the one you miss
I've been flyin' state to state but wanna crash into the abyss
Say you hate me I got a list, see them cuts up on your wrist
All alone in your studio apartment, can you tell me how cold it gets?
I'm on the fent again (Help me)
I want you till the end (Save me)
Think I'm drownin' (Help me)
Think I'm fallin' (Save me)

[Post-Chorus: heroine diaries]
Know you're in the hills right now
But what about when you get back? 
Up late thinkin' what we had 
Death soon guess I'm kinda glad

[Verse 2: e5]
高架下 
後悔とか交換した寂しいが壊した
君なんか喋ってる屍 
もう中身が居ない
You're making fun of bitch, but you're 1位
シラフの私に偉そうなゾンビ
愛してなかったよ最初から
Is this all right? Hell boy fuck
向かえばいい深淵 
あげるよstupid
どうせゲボみたいな言葉しか吐かないさ
君は書けない堂々と生きてないから

[Outro: heroine diaries]
Know you're in the hills right now
But what about when you get back? 
Up late thinkin' what we had 
Death soon guess I'm kinda glad

in the hills (feat. e5) (prod. cior, louieotk & omgzanoza)

track 02 on 'empty human' ep with viizzi @6vz

lyrics:
[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
I just spent your rent on abortions 
If they had them kids, they'd be orphans
I be off the fent in the function 
Feed me all the fent, I adore it 
Big Glocks, chopsticks, Friiidgedeath got the mopsticks
His Glock ain't got a switch, so how you on that gang shit?
Please, don't call me twin, no, you is not my gang, bitch 
Touchin' all my tatts, said she love it when my chains hit 

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
I cannot breathe, without you 
Heart stay on freeze, without you 
Relapse again, without you 
Xanax my veins, without you 
Drug shit, fuck shit, I don't wanna function 
Friiidgedeath got the big Glocks, you see 'em get to runnin' 
Lame boy want some ket, then you know we get to juggin'
Your girl in my DMs and you know we get to fuckin' 

[Verse 2: viizzi]
Yeah, I said, "Fuck that, get up off my nut sack"
Friiidgedeath in the function, if you bustin' then we bust back 
Got no time for bitches know the moneys where the loves at 
If they try to push me off the edge, they gettin' shoved back
Life keeps gettin' in the way and if you get up in my way too
You go MIA, I hope you kill yourself, I hate you 
And if I was your parents I'd be pretty mad I made you 
Let you bleed out on the curb, can't nobody save you 

[Bridge: viizzi]
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you 
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Nobody can save you, nobody can save you
Save you, save you, save you, save you
Save you, save you, save you, save you
Save you, save you, save you, save you
Save you, save you, nobody can save you

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
I cannot breathe, without you 
Heart stay on freeze, without you 
Relapse again, without you 
Xanax my veins, without you 
Drug shit, fuck shit, I don't wanna function 
Friiidgedeath got the big Glocks, you see 'em get to runnin' 
Lame boy want some ket', then you know we get to juggin'
Your girl in my DMs and you know we get to fuckin' 

[Outro: viizzi]
Can't nobody save you 
I make money but I'm hearin' that the money made you 
Friiidgedeath gettin' paid too, bitch, I'm gettin' laid too
Once I get my nut, I kick that bitch right out my house, 'cause there's a pay check that I'm runnin' late to

nobody can save you w/ viizzi

track 03 on 'empty human' ep with viizzi @6vz

lyrics:
[Intro: heroine diaries & viizzi]
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah-yeah-yeah

[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
You see (You see), can't breathe (Can't breathe)
Don't leave (Don't leave), drug fiend (Can't breathe)
Talkin' all that shit you gotta to show us (Show us)
I still miss ya, think I need to grow up (Grow up)
Cracked his card, so I got my bands up (Bands up)
Taken too much Oxy, need to throw up, throw up
You can't be me, you can't see me
Ex bitch want me, X pills need me
Dyin' slowly, crack house jumpin'
Needles throwin', thot girls hoeing
Friiidge house mansion and we snortin' coke up, coke up
How you gonna diss me with a bowl cut, bowl cut?
His homie in a pack, he gettin' rolled up (Ha-ha), rolled up
Catch you in the streets you gettin' fold up, fold up

[Verse 2: viizzi]
Your bitch on my snake like a cobra
Glock gon' hit your face, finna leave your body froze up 
I don't fuck with fakes, always watch over my shoulder 
Pockets full of cake, you can't even get a doughnut 
Friiidgedeath in the zone, so please, bitch, don't hit my phone 
Put it on do not disturb, can you just leave me alone? 
And when we put you to the curb, guaranteed we breakin' bones 
And they tell me I'm the shit, that's that shit they should've known 'Cause I'm the goat, yeah
Can you save me?
I'm takin' these drugs but I'm thinkin' that they take me 
I just wanna know, what I did to make you hate me?
If I gotta go, do I do it on my own? Do I do it on my own? 
Do I do it on my own? Yeah, do I do it on my own? 

[Bridge: viizzi]
On my own, on my own, on my own
On my own, on my own, on my own
Do I do it on my own?
On my own, on my own, on my own
On my own, on my own, on my own
Do I do it on my own?
On my own, on my own, on my own
On my own, on my own, on my own
Do I do it on my own?
On my own, on my own, on my own
On my own, on my own, on my own
Do I do it on my own?

[Outro: heroine diaries]
You hate me but can't replace me (Replace me)
When with you, heart keeps racing (Racing)
Benzos, my systems aching (Aching)
Up late, my mind keeps pacing
You hate me but can't replace me (Can't replace me)
When with you, heart keeps racing (Heart keeps racing)
Benzos, my systems aching (Systems aching)
Up late, my mind keeps pacing

on my own w/ viizzi

track 01
prod @malliibeats
https://open.spotify.com/track/62Oh7iwOKCFpBOgVdN8oK2?si=e89d087c00fc4811

lyrics:
[Chorus]
When will you realise
When you say those words apart of me dies
God I hate breathin', why I try?
Put this chrome to my dome, it's suicide
It's suicide (It's suicide)
Can't seem to find a reason
Heart cold your wrist keeps bleedin'
Off xans like every evenin'
Up late your page I'm creepin'
Up late your page I'm creepin'

[Verse]
LA fent hit different don't it?
Cheat on me I can't condone it
Benzo abuse I can't control it
Lost my heart I think you stole it
Trapped in my mind, I'm goin' insane
Crawlin' these walls just like I'm a spider
Need a Gwen Stacy, know she a rider
No I'm not sober, think I'll get higher
I was in the cut smokin' crack like I'm Viper
Tripled my dose but think I need more
At your parents house, they think I'm a bore
Maybe I'll spin back, settle the score

[Chorus]
When will you realise
When you say those words apart of me dies
God I hate breathin', why I try?
Put this chrome to my dome, it's suicide
It's suicide (It's suicide)
Can't seem to find a reason
Heart cold your wrists keep bleedin'
Off xans like every evenin'
Up late your page I'm creepin'
Up late your page I'm creepin'

[Outro]
Uber it's a Tesla to your Bnb
You'll know when I'm here, I'm bumpin' jd
Miss my brother so bad, yeah, lately
Copin' with these meds I do it daily

at your parents house they think I'm a bore

track 03
prod @prod-by-kire
https://open.spotify.com/track/5dDb2yqDINKMSfV626rpUB?si=e5fdce9b7fa845cd

music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xeh8cXfzFnw

lyrics:
[Chorus]
He don't wanna talk about what happened out in Oakland (Out in Oakland)
He'll post everythin' expect that, my touch too potent (My touch too potent)
Next day out in Malibu with his girlfriend, she was chokin' (She was chokin')
Fent inside the bathroom in LA I'm with a model, I can't focus 

[Bridge]
I can't focus (I can't focus)
I can't focus, I can't focus  

[Verse 1]
I made sixty racks straight from my bedroom, I stay hidden
Just like the hills you love so much, like damn, that’s why you missin'
Guess that I'm still breathin', but tell me, am I livin'?
Love these Percs so much, I guess that I can't stop sinnin' 
We was at the Post Oak (In Houston), doubled my cup up (That dirty)
Know it's that's good stuff (That dirty)
I'm screamin' like, "Don't go" (Baby), I'm screamin' like, "Oh, no" (Baby)
I got addictions, baby, I can't seem to fix them (I can't seem to fix them)

[Verse 2]
Tables are turnin', off of these Percocets, benzos ain't workin'
I was in Kentucky, needed that Narcan, damn it was urgent
Pregabalin in my system, yeah, it's really workin' 
Nobody knows my issues, only on the surface 
Let me just leave real quick (Leave real quick)
Let me just get my fix (Get my fix)
Watch my nose bleed quick (Nose bleed quick)
Span back got my lick (Got my lick)
Payback felt so good (Felt so good)
Now you back in the hood (Back in the hood)
Where you 'pposed to be ('Pposed to be)
Not right next to me

[Chorus]
He don't wanna talk about what happened out in Oakland (Out in Oakland)
He'll post everythin' expect that, my touch too potent (My touch too potent)
Next day out in Malibu with his girlfriend, she was choking (She was choking)
Fent inside the bathroom in LA I'm with a model, I can't focus 

[Outro]
I can't focus 



oakland (music video in description)

track 04
prod https://www.youtube.com/@prod.saintmike
https://open.spotify.com/track/1Eqt2fgQ2NkOP99nejmXzC?si=0f623eee2e994078

lyrics:
[Verse]
Hearts on cold, I stay froze 
But you'll never know, from the ashes I rose 
Burnt all my clothes, know that hurts 
You don't care, this not fair
You had me at the first glance
Don't talk to me like you care

[Chorus]
Heart dance in the rain for you 
Stop before I crash for you 
Blood stains the walls for you 
Another casualty, I'm through 
Knew that you were lying too
Can't go back so guess we're through 
Your words they hurt I wish you knew 
My tears they fall, it can't be true

[Outro]
Heart dance in the rain for you 
Stop before I crash for you 
Blood stains the walls for you 
Another casualty, I'm through 

heart dance in the rain (interlude)

track 01 
w/ @kpin-xi

[Chorus: kpin]
Juliet just called and shot me a text 
I left her read, but I'm damn near obsessed 
Fucked up and I'm stressed, pockets overfed 
My girl off her meds, I just got a check
I been feelin' dead since the night we met 
I know it ain't relevant, I been mixin' medicine 
I been worse than I ever been 
But it's still heart Evelyn, but it's still love Evelyn 

[Verse 1: kpin]
You know when I'm online, you when I’m active 
I can see the sunlight, I'm bein' dramatic 
I hope that you're okay, lately I've just had it 
Cups full of that Rosé, by eight I'll be blasted 
Go home I'll be good, I'm with my twin Liv 'n Maddie 
This shit been a breeze but I still feel like crashin' 
Love when I'm with you, but I still feel like dyin'
Know it don't seem like it but look I'm tryin'

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
Punchin' in my pain on the beat, girl, I'm tryin'
When it comes to night fall, why I'm always cryin'?
Numb the pain with Oxy so I'm always fuckin' flyin'
When you broke my heart, bae, it felt like I was dyin' 
Pain so bad, you can even hear the silence (Silence)
I get so nervous every time that you typin' (Typin')
Said you'd always love me, I guess that you was lyin' (Lyin')
The sunlight hurt my skin, so I'm a keep on hidin'

[Outro: kpin]
Juliet just called and shot me a text 
I left her read, but I'm damn near obsessed 
Fucked up and I'm stressed, pockets overfed 
Fucked up and I'm stressed, pockets overfed 
Pockets overfed, pockets overfed 

sunlight hurt my skin w/ kpin

track 02 
w/ @kpin-xi

[Intro: kpin]
Trick up my sleeve, quit fuckin' with me
XTC Maybelline, bitch ya need to go sleep
That's why I don't take you serious 
I'm fucked up I'm hearin' shit

[Pre-Chorus: kpin]
When I look into your eyes all I see is love
I keep shruggin' it off, like I don't give a fuck
I got nothin' to give, no more I had enough 
She keep tellin' me shit, but it ain't addin' up 

[Chorus: kpin]
Lie, lie, lie, every time that ya lips move
I, I, I wanna die when I'm with you 
I, I, I don't care about what that bitch do 
I, I, I keep a stick if he got issues
Lie, lie, lie, every time that ya lips move
I, I, I wanna die when I'm with you 
I, I, I don't care about what that bitch do 
I, I, I keep a stick if he got issues

[Verse: heroine diaries]
Bitcoin wallet kinda fat, it's gonna get misused
She said that she scared for my life 'cause the drugs I abuse 
Must be so borin', all you do is ever fuckin' lose
High as fuck in Nobu, I ain't go for the fuckin' food
I just always come off rude but I just tell the fuckin' truth 
I ain't even say nun, she in my room gettin' nude 
Okay let's switch it up (Up), okay, let's switch it up
I created an epidemic in NYC, I fuck it up 
Every time I'm in the city, you know that I turn it (Turn it up)
Look at all this money that I'm makin', baby, this for us (Baby, this for us)
Why you takin' life so fuckin' serious? This is just fun (Just fun)
Don't try me, don't make me pull out my gun

[Chorus: kpin]
Lie, lie, lie, every time that ya lips move
I, I, I wanna die when I'm with you 
I, I, I don't care about what that bitch do 
I, I, I keep a stick if he got issues
Lie, lie, lie, every time that ya lips move
I, I, I wanna die when I'm with you 
I, I, I don't care about what that bitch do 
I, I, I keep a stick if he got issues

trick up my sleeve w/ kpin

track 03
w/ @kpin-xi

[Verse 1: kpin]
LSD, never skip a beat 
NYC, I hope you never leave 
Aphasia, I don't know what to make of ya 
Tay told me chill, I heart Oxy still 
We'll be on top of the world when it ends 
I hope it turns and it flips in a Benz
When the clock runs out
I'm a walk right out and just watch it all
LSD, never skip a beat 
NYC, I hope you never leave 
Aphasia, I don't know what to make of ya 
Tay told me chill, I heart Oxy still 
We'll be on top of the world when it ends 
I hope it turns and it flips in a Benz
When the clock runs out
I'm a walk right out and just watch it all

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
I just love the Percocets, 'casue the drugs I'm goin' to hell
You broke my heart and I hated you that's how I felt
Opiate addictions that's how I fuckin' dealt 
I don't value my life, buckle up your seat belt 
I hate your attitude (Attitude), but can't get over you 
I got some flaws, baby, I might have a loose screw
Look at the sky, baby, not a cloud in sight it's blue
I just love lean even though I don't got the flu
And you hate me, that's okay, I love you (Love you)
My minds so fucked up, probably from the drug abuse (Drug abuse)
You don't gotta choose, you don't gotta choose 
I'm the right man for you, I don't ever lose

[Outro: heroine diaries]
I hate your attitude (Attitude), but can't get over you 
I hate your attitude (Attitude), but can't get over you 
I hate your attitude (Attitude), but can't get over you 
I hate your attitude (Attitude), but can't get over you 

apocolypse w/ kpin

track 04
w/ @kpin-xi

[Chorus: kpin]
Ain't nothin' change, she just not my type
She be loosin' her brain, every time I type 
Even when I'm wrong, just know I'm right
But you do everythin' right, don't go down without a fight 
Make the world go round, I'll be here for now
Ain't nothin' change, she just not my type

[Verse: heroine diaries]
She fell in love when she hear me sing 
I do prescriptions, that's my thing
Know I'm fuckin' if it's pink 
Call my phone, said she wanna link
They sippin' fake Wockhart
Benzos make my heart stop
They say I'm a heart throb 
Your girl want me, she can't stop
No, she can't stop 
Addicted to the Adderall (Adderall)
That didn't even turn her off (Turn her off)
Sippin' Tris', don't got a cough (Got a cough)
Poppin' pills, that's my job 
Hate me then that's yo' fault (Yo' fault)
You won't get a response , I'm too busy gettin' rich 
Why you cryin' over a bitch?
Parasocial weirdos online, always talkin' shit 
They don't know my homies got guns, they all got a switch

[Chorus: kpin]
Ain't nothin' change, she just not my type
She be loosin' her brain, every time I type 
Even when I'm wrong, just know I'm right
But you do everythin' right, don't go down without a fight 
Make the world go round, I'll be here for now

type w/ kpin

Mixed by @wgm2093
produced by @treetimee

[Hook]
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to

[Verse]
Know I wanna die to
Fuck me in the bathroom
First time I saw you it was up in the classroom
Up in the classroom
That’s when you found me
That’s when you chose me
Hold my hand baby
Know I wanna die to
Fuck me in the bathroom
First time I saw you it was up in the classroom
Up in the classroom
That’s when you found me
That’s when you chose me
Hold my hand baby

[Hook]
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to

i want to wake up in hell (prod. treetime)

Featuring @ggravee
Produced by @treetimee

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/2OUQGYePU0QWmqpc9rI6Zs

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/met-her-at-the-party-feat-ggravee/1451233216?i=1451233217

Lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Met her at the party
Yeah we do the same drugs
I think that I’m in love
Snort another line now
We both on the come down
Sit and watch the sunrise
If I fall in love then I think that it’s right time
Met her at the party
Yeah we do the same drugs
I think that I’m in love
Snort another line now
We both on the come down
Sit and watch the sunrise
If I fall in love then I think that it’s right time

[Verse 1: ggravee]
You said that you hate me
Now I'm feeling crazy
Told me on the phone that your feeling lonely lately
I just want you right here
Whisper words in your ear
You're acting like a ghost yeah I know you really don't care
Now I'm sitting here all alone
Waiting here by the phone
Running out of time now
Wishing you were mine now

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Met her at the party
Yeah we do the same drugs
I think that I’m in love
Snort another line now
We both on the come down
Sit and watch the sunrise
If I fall in love then I think that it’s right time
Met her at the party
Yeah we do the same drugs
I think that I’m in love
Snort another line now
We both on the come down
Sit and watch the sunrise
If I fall in love then I think that it’s right time

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
I think that it’s the right time baby
I’ve been popping too much lately
My memorys been kinda hazy
I’m tryna get money on the daily
Tryna get money on the daily
Baby please come save me
The reaper hit me up on FaceTime
He said we both know it’s my time

met her at the party (feat. ggravee) (prod. treetime)

Featuring @damiyen
Produce by @gualabeatz

Lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
I only do these drugs cause I have to baby
I only do these drugs cause I’m dying baby
I do all these drugs got me feeling like the eighties
I do all these drugs got me coming down daily
I only do these drugs cause I have to baby
I only do these drugs cause I’m dying baby
I do all these drugs got me feeling like the eighties
I do all these drugs got me coming down daily

[Bridge: heroine diaries]
Coming down daily baby
Melodies got you going crazy
I’m tryna pull up Mercedes
Molly got me feeling kinda shaky

[Verse: Emo Fruits]
Baby I don’t wanna ever come down 
I don’t wanna be here 
I just want the cash now 
Everything is changing so fast 
And I don’t want the love if the pain don’t last 
Lately I been coming down too hard 
I need you in my arms 
Can u tell 
I’m not myself 
And everythings falling apart 
All I ever do 
All I ever do
All I ever do is fall for you 
All I ever do 
All I ever do
All I ever do is fall for you 
Baby I don’t wanna ever come down 
I don’t wanna be here 
I just want the cash now 
Everything is changing so fast 
And I don’t want the love if the pain don’t last

[Hook: heroine diaries]
I only do these drugs cause I have to baby
I only do these drugs cause I’m dying baby
I do all these drugs got me feeling like the eighties
I do all these drugs got me coming down daily
I only do these drugs cause I have to baby
I only do these drugs cause I’m dying baby
I do all these drugs got me feeling like the eighties
I do all these drugs got me coming down daily

coming down daily (feat. emo fruits) (prod. guala beatz)

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY, APPLE MUSIC & ITUNES
https://open.spotify.com/track/4e9M9lOpqQ0a00usgC56iO?si=zBzLuQXpRsuJfJWrm60Ihw

https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/my-heart-still-lovely-feat-hm-wav-single/1440679523

https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/my-heart-still-lovely-feat-hm-wav/1440679523?i=1440679526

featuring @hiitshmwav
Produced by @discent

Lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Broke as fuck yeah but my heart still lovely
Broke as fuck yeah but heart still druggy
Broke as fuck yeah but I know you still love me
Know you still love me
Know you still love me 
Broke as fuck yeah but my heart still lovely
Broke as fuck yeah but heart still druggy
Broke as fuck yeah but I know you still love me
Know you still love me
Know you still love me 

[Verse: hm.wav]
Yeah I know you’ll always love me
Cause I’m up at three and you’ll call me
I check my phone for a split second
Then go to sleep and you know I’m straight stressing
I wake up to five missed texts 
And I don't know what to send you back
It's overwelming 
I'll be honest
I'm not cut out for let downs
Good morning
How are you?
How was your day?
Yeah fuck you
I hate you
It’s over
And we make up again
I don't like when you wear makeup
You're beautiful the way you are
You said that I looked so stupid
When I dyed my hair to blonde
It’s so hard to get you back
I fucked up once again

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Broke as fuck yeah but my heart still lovely
Broke as fuck yeah but heart still druggy
Broke as fuck yeah but I know you still love me
Know you still love me
Know you still love me 
Broke as fuck yeah but my heart still lovely
Broke as fuck yeah but heart still druggy
Broke as fuck yeah but I know you still love me
Know you still love me
Know you still love me

my heart still lovely (feat. hm.wav) (prod. discent)

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/7mgp0VGe3Csqk5TZmbVENo

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/im-lost-without-you-feat-pink-cig-single/1440526839

Prod by @fucknosyt
Featuring @pinkcig

Lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Flying, flying, flying, flying, flying off that ket yeah
Riding riding riding, riding, riding round girl I love you
Dying dying dying dying dying girl slowly
Shining, shining, shining, shining, shining, like the sun yeah
Flying, flying, flying, flying, flying off that ket yeah
Riding riding riding, riding, riding round girl I love you
Dying dying dying dying dying girl slowly
Shining, shining, shining, shining, shining, like the sun yeah

[Verse: ✦pink cig✦]
I'm not really certain where to start 
You're the reason I stay focused on my art 
You're the reason that I own a broken heart 
Burning up inside I told you I'm a star
But the stars they be so far 
Stay on Saturn I'm surrounded by the cold dark
With my cold heart 
Girl I love the way you look your fit go so hard 
Picture us smoking a blunt while bumping Cold Hart 
I don't really know how I feel about you 
All I really know is I'm lost without you 
Heart is made of coal, some regret and doubt too 
Fucked up on my own writing songs about you 
You be so far
Stay on Saturn I'm surrounded by the cold dark
With my cold heart 
Girl I love the way you look your fit go so hard 
Picture us smoking a blunt while bumping Cold Hart

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Flying, flying, flying, flying, flying off that ket yeah
Riding riding riding, riding, riding round girl I love you
Dying dying dying dying dying girl slowly
Shining, shining, shining, shining, shining, like the sun yeah
Flying, flying, flying, flying, flying off that ket yeah
Riding riding riding, riding, riding round girl I love you
Dying dying dying dying dying girl slowly
Shining, shining, shining, shining, shining, like the sun yeah

i'm lost without You (feat. pink cig) (prod. nosyt.)

Finally a solo song lmao, its lowkey trash though 

produced by @prodyaxis

lyrics:
[Hook]
Speeding down the highway yeah I told her it’s the right time
If I feel this way by next year then I might die
I just hit the plug up know he come through in the night time
I just popped another even though I said that I’m fine
Speeding down the highway yeah I told her it’s the right time
If I feel this way by next year then I might die
I just hit the plug up know he come through in the night time
I just popped another even though I said that I’m fine

[Verse]
I said and did a lot of things I said I’d never do
But baby please come home I’m waiting for you
I’ve been all alone I’ve been thinking bout you
I’ve been all alone I’ve been thinking bout you
In my feelings again
I’m just stuck in my head
Praying that I’ll be dead
I just wanna go away
I said that I’m okay
Even though I’m dying
Even though I’m trying

[Bridge]
Will I ever be happy?
You said you loved me
Will you let me die please?

[Hook]
Speeding down the highway yeah I told her it’s the right time
If I feel this way by next year then I might die
I just hit the plug up know he come through in the night time
I just popped another even though I said that I’m fine
Speeding down the highway yeah I told her it’s the right time
If I feel this way by next year then I might die
I just hit the plug up know he come through in the night time
I just popped another even though I said that I’m fine

maybe i won't die young and i'll be happy (prod. y axis)

featuring @d1vv
produced by @discent & @hxrxkiller

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her

[Verse: d1v]
You ask me all these questions
Why you stressing?
When you broke my heart I learned my lesson
I be on some new shit the drugs help me up
You said it was your friend I don't really think it was
You said it was your friend I don't really think it was
I just wanna go I don't wanna feel this fucked
Look at my face I don't know what to say
Killing myself if I saw you today
All of these times when you fucked up my brain
All of these times when you said you afraid
Now I'm by my own
And I say leave me alone
I don't think you noticed it
But I don't wanna know
Cause I don't wanna know who you with
Cause I don't wanna know who he is

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her

it's hard to see when all i do is cry (feat. d1v) (prod. discent & hxrxkiller)

Produced by @beatz-vader
Featuring @emofruits

Merry Christmas to everyone <3

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/5uw3AX0BUcPVKAbiUvkWLK

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/the-drugs-arent-working-feat-emo-fruits/1449589283?i=1449589347

Lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Back of the party
Back of the whip
Dying so slowly
Dying so quick
I’ve been on my own I’m not tryna feel shit
Pass me another I don’t wanna feel shit
Back of the party
Back of the whip
Dying so slowly
Dying so quick
I’ve been on my own I’m not tryna feel shit
Pass me another I don’t wanna feel shit

[Verse: Emo Fruits]
I don't wanna cry no more no
Watching my tears hit the floor
Call my phone I hit ignore 
I just wanna be alone at home
Designer shades up in the club 
Off them drugs I'm geeked up 
I'm to numb to feel the love
I'm to numb to give a fuck
I don't wanna cry no more no
Watching my tears hit the floor
Call my phone I hit ignore 
I just wanna be alone at home
Designer shades up in the club 
Off them drugs I'm geeked up 
I'm to numb to feel the love
I'm to numb to give a fuck

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Back of the party
Back of the whip
Dying so slowly
Dying so quick
I’ve been on my own I’m not tryna feel shit
Pass me another I don’t wanna feel shit
Back of the party
Back of the whip
Dying so slowly
Dying so quick
I’ve been on my own I’m not tryna feel shit
Pass me another I don’t wanna feel shit

the drugs aren't working (feat. emo fruits) (prod. vader)

produced by @discent

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/05X20gO9bJuOp6BEU7GC0r

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/uber-x-mercedes/1450391331?i=1450391332

Lyrics:
[Hook]
Uber x Mercedes
I’m thinking bout you baby
I’m dying can you save me
I’m on the drugs don’t hate me
I’m on the edge no faking
I’m on the edge I’m breaking
My body it keeps shaking
For you I’m always waiting
Uber x Mercedes
I’m thinking bout you baby
I’m dying can you save me
I’m on the drugs don’t hate me
I’m on the edge no faking
I’m on the edge I’m breaking
My body it keeps shaking
For you I’m always waiting

[Verse]
This might be the last time
This might as well be goodbye
But fuck it I’ll just get high
Fuck it I’ll get high girl
No I’m not alright girl
I’m tryna see the whole world
Get out of my home town
Why the fuck he hating yeah I think he need to calm down
Why the fuck I feel like this oh yeah I’m on the come down
I need to get out of my head now
I’m sorry I’m such a let down 
I need to get out of my head now
I’m sorry I’m such a let down 

[Hook]
Uber x Mercedes
I’m thinking bout you baby
I’m dying can you save me
I’m on the drugs don’t hate me
I’m on the edge no faking
I’m on the edge I’m breaking
My body it keeps shaking
For you I’m always waiting
Uber x Mercedes
I’m thinking bout you baby
I’m dying can you save me
I’m on the drugs don’t hate me
I’m on the edge no faking
I’m on the edge I’m breaking
My body it keeps shaking
For you I’m always waiting

uber x mercedes (prod. discent)

prod @yungshame
featuring @yungshame @capoxxo @hinoni

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/5iNGpRrjOb8t1CmJrTWcBi

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/do-u-even-care-feat-yung-shame-capoxxo/1451263929?i=1451263930


Lyrics:

[Hook: heroine diaries]
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites 
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites

[Verse 1: capoxxo]
Baby do you care about me at all
I think I might pop a pill and end it all
We're hanging out at the mall
Girl do you remember last fall
You told me that you'd love me forever
But I should've known that you're a liar
You fucking set my heart on fire
When does love work like never 
I don't wanna think about December 
I was fucked up the whole winter 
Holding back tears at family dinner
I been off a xan I can't remember 
And I hate my life
I just wanna die
I know it sounds so corny
But it's not a lie
Who are you I cannot move
Blues clues look at my shoes
I just don’t know what I'll do
I'm scared what about you
Who are you I cannot move
Blues clues look at my shoes
I just don’t know what I'll do
I'm scared what about you

[Bridge: heroine diaries]
How am I here I don’t wanna be here
Give me a gun and I might disappear
Pass me another I just wanna see clear
Give me a line I don’t want a fucking beer

[Verse 2: yung shame]
I just want a feel even if it’s pain 
Pop another pill looking at the rain
Looking at my cup seeing that it’s stained
Just like the scars all up on her legs
Wish you didn’t do that to yourself 
But we both just need some help
Always cry when I’m by myself 
Always stuck in hell 
I really need you right now
Just like a sprite and some ice now
For the tech in the pint now
Ya girl ya how’d ya get so nice now 
Ya girl how’d you get so nice now
Ya used to just always make me frown
And I’d wish you’d pipe down 
But now I wish you’d come around

[Hook: heroine diaries]
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites 
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites

do u even care (feat. yung shame & capoxxo)

Video link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_Pb7OnSLqY


Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/4ld8oAAZSCWC8lBlLw52ou

iTunes:
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/bad-love-breaks-hearts-single/1459412897

demon diaries & @violetelectric
prod by @hxrxkiller
mixed by @violetelectric & @wgm2093

lyrics:
[Intro: violet electric]
Gotta bring it over
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Gotta bring it over I ain't really tryna cut
Good drugs, bad sex
No life, no love 
Fucked me over, yeah 

[Hook: violet electric]
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Gotta bring it over I ain't really tryna cut
Good drugs, bad sex
No life, no love 
Fucked me over once was a gift from above
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Gotta bring it over I ain't really tryna cut
Good drugs, bad sex
No life, no love 
Fucked me over once was a gift from above

[Verse: heroine diaries]
I’m breaking hearts now
I’m a demon now
I’m up now
Don’t call me
Sick of bad love
Sick of your love
Stop boring me
Need good drugs
Fuck your love
Fuck this life
Don’t feel right
Die tonight
Broke your heart
But that’s alright
My future bright
Gotta stay alive
Gotta stay alive I love being so high
I’m so numb now I forgot how to cry
They say that they sad now but they don’t really wanna die
You can see the hurt if you look into my eyes

[Bridge: heroine diaries & violet electric]
Gotta stay alive I love being so high (𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘨𝘩)
I’m so numb now I forgot how to cry (𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘳𝘺)
They say that they sad now but they don’t really wanna die (𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘦)
You can see the hurt if you look into my eyes (𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴)

[Hook: violet electric]
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Gotta bring it over I ain't really tryna cut
Good drugs, bad sex
No life, no love 
Fucked me over once was a gift from above
Yeah I got bad love tell her give it up
Gotta bring it over I ain't really tryna cut
Good drugs, bad sex
No life, no love 
Fucked me over once was a gift from above

[Outro: violet electric]
I want you to be with me
So long
So long 
Be, be for me 
be for me

bad love breaks hearts (feat. violet electric) (prod. hxrxkiller)

it wouldn't be a heroine diaries song if i didnt go off-key at least once 

prod @vvsmelody

lyrics:
[Hook]
You don’t want this life girl I’ll make you depressed
I don’t wanna fight no more let’s just go to bed
You could go back to him I know he’s in your head
Sorry if cry but I’m already dead
You don’t want this life girl I’ll make you depressed
I don’t wanna fight no more let’s just go to bed
You could go back to him I know he’s in your head
Sorry if cry but I’m already dead

[Verse]
It’s not the same no more
I’m dying just popped four
Does she love me I don’t know
Does she love me I don’t know
I don’t know how to feel about you
Why are you here no one fucking loves me
There’s gotta be reason why she wants me
She wants me for my...
She wants me for my...

[Hook]
You don’t want this life girl I’ll make you depressed
I don’t wanna fight no more let’s just go to bed
You could go back to him I know he’s in your head
Sorry if cry but I’m already dead
You don’t want this life girl I’ll make you depressed
I don’t wanna fight no more let’s just go to bed
You could go back to him I know he’s in your head
Sorry if cry but I’m already dead

would you love me if i was famous? (prod. vvs melody)

Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/1bRVkfwExzx1snAAfbOnRz

iTunes:
https://music.apple.com/gb/album/youre-all-ive-got-but-i-dont-even-have-you-feat-daine-single/1464378281

i miss feeling alive :(
feat @daine-lauren
prod @quickfkndeath
cover art https://www.instagram.com/nyctofairy
& s/o @circlepitt

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
I just wanna know if you still think of me
I just wanna know if you even fucking loved me
With that new man tell me are you really happy
All alone in my room thinking bout you, sadly
I just wanna know if you still think of me
I just wanna know if you even fucking loved me
With that new man tell me are you really happy
All alone in my room thinking bout you, sadly

[Verse: Daine]
I don't want some peace inside my heart
I still think about our love
You had me fucked up from the start
I, miss feeling alive
When, me and you were fine
And I swear I didn't wanna die

[Hook: heroine diaries]
I just wanna know if you still think of me
I just wanna know if you even fucking loved me
With that new man tell me are you really happy
All alone in my room thinking bout you, sadly
I just wanna know if you still think of me
I just wanna know if you even fucking loved me
With that new man tell me are you really happy
All alone in my room thinking bout you, sadly

[Outro: heroine diaries]
I don't want some peace inside my heart
I still think about our love
You had me fucked up from the start
I, miss feeling alive
When, me and you were fine
And I swear I didn't wanna die

you're all i've got but i don't even have you (feat. daine) (prod. quick death)

featuring @ihateshattered
prod by @blade_901 & @prod5head

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Did it all for you did it all for you
Dying in my room dying in my room
Want a Bentley coupe want a Bentley coupe
Stuck in a loop stuck in a loop
Did it all for you did it all for you
Dying in my room dying in my room
Want a Bentley coupe want a Bentley coupe
Stuck in a loop stuck in a loop

[Verse: shattered]
Did it all for you
Hoping that you see it through
Cause I'm not that bad
I'm not so sad
I'll crash my whip
When you call me back
My dreams with you seem far away
You treat me like a holiday
I'll only see you 
When it's convenient 
I tell you I care
Cause I really mean it
So baby don't let me down
I swear that we'll leave this town
And we can run away
Until our hearts decay

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Did it all for you did it all for you
Dying in my room dying in my room
Want a Bentley coupe want a Bentley coupe
Stuck in a loop stuck in a loop
Did it all for you did it all for you
Dying in my room dying in my room
Want a Bentley coupe want a Bentley coupe
Stuck in a loop stuck in a loop

your love letters pierce my heart (feat. shattered) (prod. blade901 & 5h3ad)

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/1j8t8A4krKHHz1QBjr4yfk

itunes:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/were-satans-favorite-single/1482777010

w/ @violetelectric
prod by @hxrxkiller
mixed by @violetelectric
girl: https://www.instagram.com/xowiejones/

lyrics:
[Intro: violet electric]
You know I’m seeing through the fake shit
And all you lames that be faking
I don’t even gotta
I just lay vacant

[Hook: violet electric]
You know I’m seeing through the fake shit
And all you lames that be faking
I don’t even gotta say shit I just lay vacant fucking up a payslip
Know I’m running up a cheque
Just to keep you boys in check
And I’m fucking up you’re set like
When I come, I come correct
Don’t be jumping down my neck
When you see that I’ve got next no

[Verse: heroine diaries]
A Xanax a day to keep the demons away
I cook crack but I don’t sell it bitch I use it
I don’t give a fuck bitch the drugs I abuse it
You ain’t gotta believe me but get out my mentions
Ask me if I want more is that even a question
I might be a demon but I’ll meet you heaven
I know you an angel so why you love a demon
I’ll just break her heart no you can’t beat the feeling

[Bridge: heroine diaries & violet electric]
No you can’t beat the feeling
And I’m tryna find a meaning
Before I’m hanging from the ceiling
But don’t that sound appealing 
No you can’t beat the feeling
And I’m tryna find a meaning
Before I’m hanging from the ceiling
But don’t that sound appealing 

[Hook: violet electric]
You know I’m seeing through the fake shit
And all you lames that be faking
I don’t even gotta say shit I just lay vacant fucking up a payslip
Know I’m running up a cheque
Just to keep you boys in check
And I’m fucking up you’re set like
When I come, I come correct
Don’t be jumping down my neck
When you see that I’ve got next no

we're satan's favorite (feat. violet electric) (prod. hxrxkiller)

late halloween gift from me and the king 
every heroine diaries & euan song is a joint song not just a feat even if it states it 
w/ @violetelectric
mixed by @violetelectric
prod @blade_901
cover art https://www.instagram.com/fatherkels

lyrics:
[Hook: violet electric]
Man I've seen so much shit 
I think that I'm dead now 
Rolling up swishas with my boys still no bread now 
But it's okay 
I said it's alright 
I'm a keep doing this and make this shit right
Yeah, yeah, yeah 

[Verse 1: violet electric]
But I've got no fucking hope
You call my phone 
All alone on the low 
Through rain or snow
You always know
I'll be there for you girl even in the cold
I keep it raw (bitch)
Lock your jaw (bitch)
When I do this shit I do it on my own 
I'm never home
But when I am 
I go to bed people fucking with my head like 

[Hook: violet electric]
Man I've seen so much shit 
I think that I'm dead now 
Rolling up swishas with my boys still no bread now 
But it's okay 
I said it's alright 
I'm a keep doing this and make this shit right
Yeah, yeah, yeah 

[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
I just want a cocaine castle
Girls in different time zones
I just need to travel
Junkie with a melody
I still love you endlessly
Sorry for the jealousy
Xanax that’s the remedy
Did it on my own
She think that I love her cause I said it in a song
Well baby you was wrong
Hells where I belong
Sign my soul away just to make my money long
Yeah, yeah, yeah 

[Hook: violet electric]
Man I've seen so much shit 
I think that I'm dead now 
Rolling up swishas with my boys still no bread now 
But it's okay 
I said it's alright 
I'm a keep doing this and make this shit right
Yeah, yeah, yeah

seen so much shit (feat. violet electric) (prod. blade901)

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/3GwkbpnZ4vIMv1WMlgl2KD

apple music:
https://music.apple.com/gb/album/silk-sheets-feat-cold-hart-single/1503946847

me x @coldhart
ty king <3

lyrics:
[Intro: heroine diaries]
Feel my heart beat
Through the silk sheets
Say you love me
Say you need me

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Friday nights club lights I don’t see it
I want you and the pills yeah I need it
Catch a flight yeah I’ll be there for the weekend
When I leave all alone with the demons
Feel my heart beat
Through the silk sheets
Say you love me
Say you need me
I’ve been trying
Baby are you riding
Shine like diamonds
Like NAV got perfect timing

[Verse: Cold Hart]
Ain’t talking cell phones but I might give her a ring
Ain’t talking one night stands girl it’s more than a fling
And all this money coming in yeah it don’t mean a thing
I don’t need no luggage you the only thing I’m a bring
Oh
And fuck those pills I don’t want them
I just want you in the morning
And if you sitting in hell, I’ll be there as well
Baby can’t you tell
These bitches couldn’t be you on your worst day
You don’t go to school but you be fresh like it’s the first day
And I got black clothes, she got pink toes
Can’t be no broke boy, cause she hate those

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Friday nights club lights I don’t see it
I want you and the pills yeah I need it
Catch a flight yeah I’ll be there for the weekend
When I leave all alone with the demons
Feel my heart beat
Through the silk sheets
Say you love me
Say you need me
I’ve been trying
Baby are you riding
Shine like diamonds
Like NAV got perfect timing

silk sheets (feat. cold hart) (prod. pacific)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/1V9p3Bbf61wAnFP4vYPtHu?si=uV-ZyIQeQ3CyDb9ZzVbbCg

apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/not-crying-in-the-club-cause-id-never-go-to-a-club-lmao/1527645966?i=1527645967

prod @keyblayde808 & @thislandismusic
mixed by @keyblayde808

lyrics:
[Hook]
I don’t do drugs so why does she hate me
I don’t do lames that shit drives me crazy
I think I love her girl please have my baby
Old girl call me cause she can’t replace me
That was a lie I do K on the weekends
Quarantine for life no I do not need friends
I come alive when it is the evening
Blind the fuck shit dodging and weaving

[Verse]
That’s yo girl
She with us
Not the one
I’m the one
Boy you lost
Give it up
You a scrub
You a scrub
Pass the drugs
I got homies
Keep it tucked
You not punk
You not goth
Who you fooling
Keep it a buck
Percocet, Percocet, Percocet yeah
Percocet, Percocet, Percocet yeah
I love drugs, I like dying what’s the mood yeah
That’s your girl, not no more she fucked the crew yeah
Xanny bars I’m feeling lovely
I take perkys in the morning
I don’t sleep I’m always geeking
Can you feel my heart stop beating
If I die then I’m so lucky
I’ve been up for last two weekends
Old girl call me now she’s sorry
Old girl call me now she’s sorry

[Hook]
I don’t do drugs so why does she hate me
I don’t do lames that shit drives me crazy
I think I love her girl please have my baby
Old girl call me cause she can’t replace me
That was a lie I do K on the weekends
Quarantine for life no I do not need friends
I come alive when it is the evening
Blind the fuck shit dodging and weaving
I don’t do drugs so why does she hate me
I don’t do lames that shit drives me crazy
I think I love her girl please have my baby
Old girl call me cause she can’t replace me
That was a lie I do K on the weekends
Quarantine for life no I do not need friends
I come alive when it is the evening
Blind the fuck shit dodging and weaving

not crying in the club cause i'd never go to a club lmao (prod. keyblayde808 & thislandis)

vintage vibes so run it up <3
feat @nicoteenninyo
prod @treetimee
mixed by @trechorboy & @wgm2093
cover art https://www.instagram.com/n.gorbatova

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Verse: nicoteen ninyo]
She don't even want me
But she want me when the mood right
She don't even love me but she wants me just to waste time
I'm a put my hand up on her throat and make her lose life
Biting when I stroke hoe gone hurt me but that shit tight 
Screaming out for more she transform on a dark night
Lookin into souls breaking bones with her cold eyes
Tell her that I love her so my passion turns her tongue tied
She don't even understand love so it's all lies
Back stabs me in the moonlight
It alright though cause she by my side
Not desperate cause every other bitch I slide
Cheap liquor she go dummy on ice
I don't know if I'm wrong or right
But tonight I'll hide my doubts inside
Hold her tight as the hour dies
To be close one last time in the moonlight

[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Outro: heroine diaries]
We can make it alright, alright
Still might die tonight, tonight
Come alive at midnight, midnight
I’ve been up two nights, nights
Cry with me and play my songs
If you don’t love me run along
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs

blood on my halo (feat. nicoteen ninyo) (prod. treetime)

me x @kurtains x @wido123456789
my part mixed by @rosesleeves
song is out on all platforms <3

[Hook: kurtains]
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing

[Verse 1: wido]
Wanted me to die, hit me up it's too late
Yeah I know they hate me, but we own the runway
Put you in a trash can, your shit is containers
You can please me three ways euro, dollars, pesos
Stop walking, make me want to die
They pull up with 3s and 5s, I pull up with dirty knives
Call me Mr. Suicide cause I want my own homicide
Pills and water on my left shoulder, syringe on my right

[Hook: kurtains]
Treat it like a fashion I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing


[Verse 2: heroine diaries]
If we talking pills then you know I fucking need it
I’ve been state to state ask your girl she be fiending
They don’t want smoke all I hear is fucking squealing
Yeah she broke my heart pass the xannys get to healing
Why the fuck your fit so basic
Pull up on them leave them faceless
Fuck my home town I’m most hated
Small town kids ain’t been much places
Start to feel normal so I think I need the benzos
Crying like a bitch when he find out in the friend zone
Heard his new tape I said who the fuck this Bladee clone
Kill myself tonight just so I don’t have to be alone

[Hook: kurtains]
I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing
I know they wanna be me
Walking down the runway modeling with Glaivey
Yeah we dressed up for a nice occasion
Spinna on my hip and it hates them, got they heart racing

runway (feat. kurtains & wido)

wrote this in september but took me months to record it lmao
s/o everyone on the song 
feat @funeral @jimmydagum
cover art by http://henryhhu.com/


[Verse 1: heroine diaries]
Lipstick stains on my t-shirt
Never loved me oh well that hurt
Cheated and lied fuck sake what a flirt
Fucked her exes hope she quenched that thirst
Kill myself oh they won’t miss me
No one loves me I’ve been saying
Take my life oh I’ve been praying
Buzz I had is slowly fading
Pills hope they take me
It’s fair cause they made me
I’m dying here slowly
She cheated but hates me

[Hook: funeral]
We can do what you want I never been here before
Yeah we could take all these drugs cuddle and die on the floor
And when it’s over it’s over there ain’t no crying for more
I couldn’t really care less if we were dying for more
Shut up and shoot me
I’m hanging on loosely
Last off please don’t choose me
My sanity losing
We can do what you want I never been here before
Yeah we could take all these drugs cuddle and die on the floor
And when it’s over it’s over there ain’t no crying for more
I couldn’t really care less if we were dying for more
Shut up and shoot me
I’m hanging on loosely
Last off please don’t choose me
My sanity losing

[Verse 2: st jimmy]
My sanity is far from peak
Bloods dripping down right to my knees
It’s seeping over my thoughts as I sleep
Take me to my own nirvana
Shaking this not once upon a
Time I found it in my heart to bleed
And every passing of the day it gets hard to seek
The truth about what happened to us guess it’s you and me
Surrounded by sodomy
Find me my peace I’ve been looking for closure
I grip on my keys when I lose my composure

[Hook: funeral]
We can do what you want I never been here before
Yeah we could take all these drugs cuddle and die on the floor
And when it’s over it’s over there ain’t no crying for more
I couldn’t really care less if we were dying for more
Shut up and shoot me
I’m hanging on loosely
Last off please don’t choose me
My sanity losing

[Verse 3: Bhertuy]
Die, die, die, die, I don’t wanna die
You make cry, cry, cry, cry, I don’t wanna cry
You make me numb until unconscious
Till my fingers bleed and fall off
I don’t want to live in constant pain
Just end me
Talk to me, don’t talk to me
You’re not my cup of tea, this a monopoly
Wrist slicing, wrist slicing
I’m, I’m, I’m dying

heroine diaries

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