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closed eyes °°

tough

sky & grasior 🗣️🗣️

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

spotify

Today, I realized I've been letting myself down.

Jan 17 (Excuses)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

hair

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

SPOTIFY

heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
swear i could throw up if i keep thinking of you
you disgust me and i guess u wanted to prove
that ur shameful you gave it all up for him
just some pleasure to receive from a little bitch
i need to let it go
but it haunts me to my deepest core

surround me in this darkness whom i spare
there is plenty more for you so join me in here
i need to let u know
that u disgust me
and i can't look at u no more
get myself to do things but i never wanna do them
once i go outside i'm proud i got myself to do it
you disappoint me to the point i never wanna see you
your motions say it all from what you n him have been through

now ur shameful you gave it all up for him
oh just a finger to receive between your lips

pleasure

butterfly [w/skylin and xona]

produced by heylog

lyrics:
her eyes frown upon me looking at the mess
marks are on my shoulder blade and right below my neck
oh she can't stand the look i give her back
please don't be afraid
it was just a little scratch

it was just a little scratch..

u make me nervous
sending chills from head to toe
i could feel ur fingertips 
dig into my bones
i'm not scared at all
you can have me by my throat
her iris weakens thee
the brown just got a hold of me

a hold of me..

you look cold so i'll keep u warm
keep u warm
walking through the snow and i see ur door
see ur door
u look so pretty waiting there for me
there for me
sparks are round ur eyes when u stare at me
stare at me

stare at me
stare at me..

iris

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND

in the eventide it's cold 
as i'm right beside the woods
every bug is now buzzing
in a forest, in a bush
it's that time to hibernate
animals retreat from the north
toward the south to migrate
winter streets get quickly worn
DESCEND INTO YOUR SOUL
BLOOD DRAWING FROM MY SKULL
WOULD YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
YOU REAP WITH WHAT YOU SOW
examining your mind
hope to intertwine
oh everything aligns
beside you feeding me with lies

pokin thru the light and lost all them
being used as your personal vent
if u keep it up i might just dip
cus the words u say leave me in dents
i set my expectations way too high
it kinda sucks but i'll let this one slide
i gotta regroup and resupply
quit tryna fool me i see right through ur eyes

I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND
BUT IT DIDN'T 
I SEE YOU'RE TRYNA PRY YOUR WAY INTO MY BUSINESS
YOU'LL NEVER GET IN
EVERY YEAR THE CIRCLE SHRINKS AND IT THICKENS
IT ALWAYS THICKENS

pause

she wonders why i always hangout in the dark
idk bruh just chilling playing guitar
oh it was all my fault
didn't know committing to a girl would be hard
so i should really focus on my bread
there's never a balance, music till i go to bed
baby i'm far too gone
bags under my eyes i didn't sleep until dawn

you'll never get it

disintegrate

produced by heylog 

lyrics:
I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY
notice how it falls in deeper
deeper
oh, it goes deeper
know that i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer
EVERYTHING'S ABOUT YOU AND THE REST
BUT I GOT TO GO WITHOUT YOU CAUSE IT'S BEST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL CROSS PATHS SOMEWHERE ELSE
I HATE THAT THESE THOUGHTS ARE WHERE I DWELL

notice how i fall in deeper
deeper
oh, i go deeper
baby, i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵, 𝘪'𝘮 𝘶𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘵
𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘪 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭

i don't say enough prayer
or kneel beside the bed
i ask on some nights
to see you again
i didn't find anything
or see any signs
unless they were right in front of me this whole time
i hate that all of my friends
live so far away
it's very lonely
and it's so cliche
i like thinking of you
i do it a lot
why give attention to something that's forever gone?

I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY

healer

prod by me

enjoy 40 seconds of vocals and beat for the remainder

•lyrics• 
<3

I love you and i don't know what to do
(what to do)
Mental health is fvcked and it hurts you too
(hurts you too)
I dont want to be the bad for you
I just wish for us to stay true 

Bite my nails out of stress
I'm worried that you will <ǝʌɐǝ˥>
Change up your mind and say that you hate me
I dont mean any harm but i can't help me 
but i can't help-

Reaching my hand out 
But im dragging me down
Muffled voices in my head
They are getting loud
Should i even be proud
Locked up in my room
Im too scared to go out
im too scared to go out

scared

prod by me 

tag by @chalyre

no tengo amor, solo con rencor, ( I have no love, only resentment)
no sabes lo que duele, (u don't know how much this hurts

sin verte por meses (not seeing you for months)

yo no quiero vivir sin ti, (I don't want to live without you)
I'm begging you please, just stay with me 

yo morire al fin (I'll die in the end)
si no estas aqui (if you're not here)


mis lagrimas claman por perdon, (my tears cry out for forgiveness)
si me alejo pierdo mi razon (if I leave, I'd lose my meaning)

eres mi todo mi unica razon de ser, de ser (You are my everything, my only reason for being, for being)

perdoname el orgullo, (forgive my pride)
por las palabras malas (and for the bad words)

solo quiero amarte (I only want to love you)
sin mas batallas  (without anymore fights)


la vida sin ti carece de sentido (life without you is meaningless)
porfavor regresa te lo pido (please come back I beg you)

sin ti no puedo respirar (I can't breathe without you)
sin ti no quiero continuar (I don't wanna continue without you )

dame una oportunidad (give me a chance)
dejame demostrar (let me show you)

sin ti yo no puedo lograr (without you I can't win)
lo que me queda es llorar (what's left for me is to cry)



whispers of anguish, shadows interlace
symphony of torment, haunting refrain
beauty and sorrow dance in arcane
tears of my sorrow fall like the rain



[[resentment -  agony - discernment]]

outcry

prod by skylin ✧ and @grasior

lyrics:

"I'm only hard on you because I know you can take it"
"because I want you to win"

(grasior ✾) - [prod grasior ✾]

tell me everything i thought was a lie
gave control to everything in my life

what did i do, to deserve you
DiD took me out of who i knew

but
you got me lost in denial
cry in the night what a liar

thought lost in love i held
but it was him not me so i fled

but i dont like what you hold me too
drives me crazy just the thought of you

tell everything is all my fault
when you lost the shit

(skylin & grasior) [prod skylin ✧]

you said you wanted me but I guess those were lies to me 
you turned your back and say I'm throwin all these blasphemies
I cut you off because I found out you're bad for me 
too many snakes in the grass think oughta cut the weeds

(skylin)

got DiD I guess there really are two parts to me
I black out then I don't know what the fuck is happening
got a protector, I don't know if he looks out for me
with time, I learned I was another personality 
in light of these events I guess it's kinda bitter sweet
to learn within of me that there are three whole parts to me 
I put the pieces together after you dumped me on the streets
I lay there lonely with no shoes up on my fucking feet


[prod skylin 0:00 - 1:00]
[prod graysior 1:00 - 1:14]
[prod skylin 1:14 - 2:35]

[[betrayal & mental health]]

snake

snake w/grasior

prod by me :I

empty, I feel so goddamn empty 
I feel like nothings worth it 
it feels like i’ll just hurt and just hurt and-

just shout it, cause I got no good friends and 
nobody cares about it, like no one cares about me, 
my heart bleeds oh

stop it- what is the use in talkin 
if you just misinterpret 
the words I use and switch it
against me and 

no more, no more of all that heart pour 
it pains me deep in my core 
my hearts sore, can’t restore oh

oh wow, i guess it never ends well
for anybody in hell 
cuz that is where i’m locked in, im locked in

save me, i need someone to save me 
cuz i don’t know where’s safety 
and I’m not living safely 

mama, ni soy tan poco hombre 
ni soy tan gran persona, 
ni soy muy importante 

por dios, no quiero ni fallarte 
mucho menos perderte, 
no quiero que me dejes 

like what do I do? i’m so lonely 
and all of you knew, and did nothing 
i’m losing my cool, burst out crying 
I cry on the floor, im tired of trying 

my files are gone, there’s no restore 
my friends are gone, there’s no one more 
my dad is gone, my hearts been torn 
how much u want? life keeps on stealing 

I cannot lose, I won’t allow it 
shits so hard it makes me doubt and
will i ever make my ending?
will my soul end up descending

I want you and no one else
those few words became my hell
i’m in pain, but can you tell?
point the gun and leave a shell

[[internal suffering - bottled emotions]]

restore

prod by me :>

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

you stabbed me it wont happen again
all these bruises and cuts i wont forget 
lonely nights i was calling your name
no one answered i was in pain

i dont want u to leave me even if i say that i do 
every single night all the things that i think about is u
i was beggin on my knees for u please do not leave my life
all my tears are hitting the floor and i only see ur eyes

u aint gettin nothin related to my love
u can keep on wishin or something, get better luck
no 1 can touch this, my grind, i swear to God its up
n when i feel sad bout u my new girl she suck me up x2

you keep lying on my name like u kno how u did
and u could try but i promise u aint gettin us back
you just lost something worth so much more
you could've had everything you stupid whore

[[resentment - adaptation]]

convert

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

sorry for the wait and thank you to everyone for being so patient with me <3

produced by chalyre𓍼

will i fall again
when all i am
surrounded by mountains know im no man
its all compounding in the words you said
im driving at night go as fast as i can
living in a lie
needed me to hide
dont run
leaving me behind
now im left of what you tore from

did you get all that you wanted
taking its toll and its broken
and it always comes around
but youre nowhere to be found

you could stop it
all this bleeding
stand where i stood
and youll see it
through your eyes
no im not human
waiting for my lifes conclusion

leave it all behind
take your own advice
dont make me say it twice
youre no longer mine

hearth

Summer is Like a Dream

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Summer is Like a Dream(Prod. Rook1e)

Drifting Away

Drifting Away(Prod. Dream Koala)

produced and mixed by @barnesblvd
Cover art by Julia Jordan

Ultimately

Ultimately (Prod. barnes blvd.)

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EO_i9nHvCEk
TWITTER: https://twitter.com/khaidreams
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Produced by Philip Etherington(@philip-etherington), Matt Jordan(@bigbon3), Biskwiq(@biskwiq)
Additional production by Middle School(@yungmiddleschool)
Engineered by Middle School

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Sunkissed(music video in description!!)

Good Advice

produced by heylog <3

lyrics:
tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

she loves whatever she wants
but she only loves herself
whats that smell
ITS SELFISH
its hard to love someone
when they dont love you back
i tried but it left a birth mark like the one on my forehead
she always checking her phone
and never looks up
it never really phased her
she always got luck
she always got what she want
love and all the fun
i tried to be nice
but u took at my trust

i think im reaching the heavens
beretta come here and just end it
i know that ppl will miss me
but right now it dont really mean nothin
i wanna rest with the goddesses
havent found peace in a minute
im in the section of fantasy
while ur still trapped in the fiction
she said, "i love u logan"
but i know ur full of shit
how could u approach this
save my soul or squash it
i was really lost in it
u took the advantage on me it was really sus
but i was dumb n went with it

so tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

look u got what u want
u feel good about yourself?
whats down there
ITS HELL
because thats where u belong
with ashes and evil
but i could say the same thing about myself
her face beaming off the summer sun
i wont forget a single lil thing
her flaws she aint got even one
the memories created were more important to me

birth

im good with all the angles
finding options isn't viable